Will the pain stop after me losing virginity?

lost my vcard recently. nobody knows how much sex i have , I say lots of wild sexual stuff as a joke (sucking toes, eating ass, i wanna choke so and so out) blah blah

the girl im sleeping with has no idea i was 0, but she has to be aware im at least "rusty". I didnt feel much different after the act beyond the symbolism that keeps the virginity meme alive

I climbed out of my depression for a long while before meeting her but we connect on the premise that we both have issues but generally are getting past it

but why would you want to get it anyway? yeah, its good. its supposed to be good. but so is pizza and you wont fuck a fucking hooker if you eat pizza

Is knowing what sex feels like now worse than being a virgin? I feel like it can't be as bad, since you will always have that one fond memory where it seemed like someone cared about you, while as a virgin you have no happy memories whatsoever.

To lose awful virgin loser stigma

No it gets worse.
Imagine feeling like you're top of the world, feeling a million times better only to fall all the way back down.
Except, now you know what you're missing and it slowly eats away at your sanity, wishing for that moment to come back, but it never will, day in and day out..

Nope, if anything it gets worse. There's nothing worse than meaningless empty sex user.

I just want someone to take the pain away.

>I feel like it can't be as bad, since you will always have that one fond memory where it seemed like someone cared about you
That's making a big assumption that the event was about 'care' and not raw animal lust, or a drunken and perfunctory fumble.

No, you are permenantly damaged OP.

Depends how you lose it. If it's someone you will have a relationship with then yeah it will probably do you good.

I don't know, I lost mine a week ago with a girl I'm in a relationship with. It's oddly werid because I thought it would change my confidence, etc and it didn't. We've done it twice now and I feel unfulfilled, maybe it's because it's not how I imagined my first time would be or let alone how it would end

I'd gladly take a drunken one night stand or an other unemotional fuck over knowing that no one has ever seen ANY sort of value in me.

yeah but what will it ACTUALLY change?
I lost my virginity with girl I met online
she got me a little bit drunk and that night I found out I can't cum after getting alcohol
we fucked for 3 hours and she came 6x and I just couldnt cum so we went to sleep
I thought its from being nervous, but yesterday I bought some vodka and got a bit drunk alone, masturbated for like an hour and after I couldnt cum I just went to sleep
aaaaand thats it thats literally the only thing losing virginity gave me = knowledge that I cant cum when im drunk
Its still putting peepee in vagina

The pain never stops we only learn how to cope

>Will the pain stop
No.

If that's what you genuinely want then maybe it will make a difference for you. Sounds like there's a lot of work you need to do on where your sources of validation are though - some girl having a biological response to you because of the proportions of your face isn't really a sign that you have any value as a human being. Especially if she doesn't fuck you again.
I don't know what's good for you though - just food for thought.

*When it ends.

No, the brain sadly just finds a new reason to mourn.

I paid a hooker and lost it. Honestly, I don't feel any different from before. Gonna try again in a few weeks.
Maybe it only works if you have sex with someone you love or at least like.

So go fuck a prostitute or escort and find out, dumbass
And stop caring about your virginity so much, fuck normalfags and what they think

No it wont, that tinder slut did more damage than good. You were used.

No, it won't. You'll still feel that hollow emptiness, just for a different reason.
Nothing will change. You'll still be the same loser you are right now.