Tonight was the last time I'll get a chance to see her in a long time. This time Friday she'll be on a plane to Florida.
I guess I shouldn't be surprised. She's an adult now. She goes to bed at a reasonable time, she's a hard enough worker to actually make money and be able to live alone. She's following a career path she knows she wants to build a life around. And I'm here eating chicken nuggets at my mom's house and starting my last semester before I get a useless degree and start floating aimlessly in an attempt to be a grown-up.
Damn, that's rough. Sorry to hear that OP. Where did you two meet? How long did she get to stay with you? How long did you wait to see her? I'm depressed, but nothing else is new. Ever. Heh.
William Diaz
We met freshman year. She was helping to direct a small student produced theater show that I auditioned for and got in, that's how we met.
We never dated, I had a huge crush on her for the first two years of knowing her. When we first met she had a boyfriend, then they broke up, but I had no idea that she liked me. I was fucked up emotionally after a breakup I'd just been through, and started dating a different girl who I really wasn't interested in, just do I wouldn't have to feel alone. That relationship lasted less than a month, and the girl I'm talking about in the OP didn't confess to me because I'd started dating the other girl. Apparently she cried over me when she found out.
I learned that she'd had feelings for me about a year later. But it seemed like she'd gotten over it and by that time everything was in place for her to leave the state. And tonight was our last hangout before she leaves. At least I was able to not bring feelings up. I had enough self control to not spoil a good last night of hanging out with a friend.
Tyler Hernandez
Realized the only thing that made my best friend interesting was that he was living at home with his shit family. Once he moved out he lost all motivation to do things that he once used to escape them (vidya, hanging out, etc). Now he uses those things just to fill his time that he has to spend awake. He goes to work, takes a 5-7 hour "nap", plays rocket league or some other stupid co-op game with his 29 year old fat lazy khv brother that he hates over voicechat, and then goes to sleep again.
Well, that was very nice of you. I bet she would appreciate that more than you awkwardly spilling your guts out on your last night together. Are you upset about the whole situation? Do you wish you would have said something, now that she is out of state? Would you maybe say something to her the next time she visits?
Aiden Diaz
Yeah, even though it seems like an obvious courtesy, I've always been awful at dealing with these types of emotions so even being this amount of okay with it is a pretty big step for me. I wouldn't say I'm upset, more just resigned and disappointed while thinking about my past choices and inability to say something. If I was going to say something, it would have to have been a long time ago. Who knows what the future holds. I doubt she'll still have the same feelings, or have them again since they seem to have already passed. But I guess I don't know for sure. I think I just want to move on quickly, more than anything.
Luis Ortiz
Your friend's turning into a high level wagecuck. Pull him back to the light before it's too late.
Justin Clark
it's not that he's a wagecuck. he only gets 18-20 hours a week. he likes the job because it fits his autistic want to pretty much be a robot. to turn off everything and be completely vacant until a buzzer goes off saying he can leave. his job isn't a wagecuck one. he uses it the same way he uses sleeping, just a way to fill the time he has to spend awake. if he could literally just sleep 100% of the time he could. not because he enjoys it, but because his autistic tendencies have really come to the front after moving out of his parents. he spends his time working a literal robot job and sleeping because it removes the burden of having to choose what to do. in his own words that choice would be "far too subjective."
Ryan Morris
It happens. I'm glad you were able to enjoy your time with her, whatever amount of time you did spend. I am depressed and for no reason? I should be happy, because I'm moving out..but I'm not. I feel weird and upset and frustrated. I should be packing, but instead I am getting high and drunk. Oh well. How is everyone else?
Christian Brooks
>Am pretty much a memer jokester >Have always been a class clown and odd ball but am ok with it honestly >Seem to only make friends with people who are depressed or mental >They always come to me for serious comfort because I'm easy going I suppose >I can't help my friends, I know nothing of actual despear, I am just a stupid memer who at best is good for a slight distraction wish I was more emotionally mature and why do these sad people always think this class clown will have their answers, I just feel bad not being able to help
Man, I feel you. I was just in another thread and it made me think about Her and how I fucked that one up, made me wonder if I'll ever have a chance like that again, and if I'll be able to recognize it and not fuck it up. I haven't thought about any of that in a long time, and it's surprising how fresh it feels now.
Zachary Young
>we had sex a lot >we laughed a lot >I was her bestfriend and world >I always seemed disinterested to her >I loved her >I said stupid shit >Now he buys her flowers and holds her hand >I never done those things >Im the ass hole who called her a slut in the street when she walked past with him
Landon Barnes
Maybe they aren't looking for you to solve their problems or have some profound advice. Maybe they're just talking to you about shit because they think you're a cool person, trust that you won't judge them or spill their secrets, and because you make them feel less shitty. I mean, unless they've directly said "hey so that's how I feel, now help me"
Asher Richardson
Would you say you're nervous about the future and living on your own? Like it might be hard to adjust? Or is it an irrational sort of shitty feeling. Sometimes those can pop up no matter the situation. Either way you'll get through it user, just get the shit done that you have to get done, you'll thank yourself for it later.
Camden Campbell
> talked to her on instagram for the first time in 3 months > she's actually happy without me > she's moved on > I haven't
She was so upset when I broke up with her, and I didn't really care... Now I don't go a day without thinking about her :(
A few days ago, after work I walked around the place where we had our first date. it made me so sad... I just want to go back in time to when we first started dating :((
Winter's going to be here soon. That's when we first started dating... Idk If I'm gonna make it guys...
Alexander Lewis
I'm already that perfect mix of drunk and high that you can't sleep but feel tired, that you feel sick but hungry at the same time, that you suddenly need a lot of water for your headache and cotton mouth. I have a lot on my mind and now that I'm mellowed out, I guess I could green text it all? >miserable with job >started working at age 18 and totally became wagecuck >have been trying to get promoted or transferred out of department for the last 2 years of working, however >boss says I'm too good of an employee to go anywhere, refuses to promote me or let me go >could consider just quitting, but I make a decent amount of money for literally no amount of effort on my part >co-worker slipped that everyone I work with thinks I'm weird >this has started a passive-aggressive relationship between myself and my best friend >apartment gets flooded and have to throw away nearly all of my belongings >try to reason with apartment to get some things fixed (like the leak and my carpet for starters) >been looking for a new place and finally found a good one, but have to wait until next month to move out, but not soon enough to get away with not paying last month's rent for current shitty apartment Some other shit about longing for an user I met over a year ago, but that's basically it. Instead of just being happy and doing what I need to do, that I know I need to do, I just feel...stuck. Like I can't move and it makes me sad.
Cameron Brown
bumping this thread because I will post my story later and I don't want it to die yet
Ryder Rogers
You broke up with her for a reason. You gotta believe that you made the right choice.
James Lopez
>broke up with first and only girlfriend three months ago >been writing a book the whole time since trying to work out the feels >finished it thirty minutes ago >Went on the computer >watched porn, came on the chair accidentally and left a stain. >feel disgusted >feel utterly empty.
Gabriel Fisher
Wake up, go to work, come and play on my phone while life passes me by. Nothing new...but every time I think about it I get sas
A girl I love, and who (i thought) loved me ghosted me. She told me she loved me. She said I made her happy. That I gave her hope. That I fixed her problems. We were supposed to live together. We were supposed to be happy together. Now I'm alone. I have only myself now. I look at her pictures and cry. I look at our messages and cry. I call her, knowing she won't answer. I scream into my pillow at night with tears on my face. I just want her back. She was the only thing that made me happy. She was the only thing keeping me sober. She is the only girl I want. She's the only girl I love. Have loved. I don't understand why she ghosted me. I don't get it. I'm tempted to just kill myself. I don't wanna be alone. I want her. Nobody else. May, if you see this, please. Come back. Message me. Something. Let me know you're alive. Please. I love you so much. I miss you. I'm a mess. Please.
