Depression has been getting better the last few days

I've asked multiple robots here about there experiences with mental institutions and they all agreed it's terrible and some say it leaves you feeling even worse than before.

>suicide episode

kek. Just kill yourself already. You want it.

A professional what?

it is just how I spell that, I dont do it consciously.

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those are robots
they hate everything.
robots will tell you being a millionaire sucks.
don't listen to assholes.

preemptively: yeah i know i sound like an asshole.

sayori has wider thigh gap. best waifu ever

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>6AM
>up all night feeling overwhelming sadness
>cried a lot
aaaahhh

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>before and after smoking marijuanas

>it's not a prison
>secure ward, requires special keys to enter/exit
>guards that have stun guns
>literally nothing to do all day but eat, exercise/read
>but it's totally not a prison guys

It might be way nicer than actual pound-me-in-the-ass prison, but it's still a prison.

I think there has just come a time that we all collectively kill ourselves together man

>nice food
>group activities
>comfy clothing
>people who are making sure you don't kill yourself

>suicidal episodes
I wish I had those occasionally and not every single day of my life, every single second, every hour, every moment, no matter what im doing.

jesus christ same

yesterday I woke up feeling...not great but better than I had in a long time, and I thought that maybe I could eventually get over whatever the hell is wrong with me

today I just feel like blowing my brains out and I don't even know why, like what happened between yesterday and today? fuck

>I wish I had those occasionally and not every single day of my life, every single second, every hour, every moment, no matter what im doing.
yeah man tahts why I asked, as I think of KMS as soon as I wake up.

Those are all commodities. They're still taking away your freedom

>Have suicidal episodes everyday
>Can't even sleep anymore
>No motivation to do anything anymore
>Don't enjoy stuff I loved to do

Hope it gets better for you user. Try getting help before it's too late. If you do have friends then talk to them about it. I'm going to an hero this or next year, depends on what happens next really.

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>can't have depression if no one cares enough to notice that you're depressed

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i like this picture

can i get a GF like this? who wants to kill herself> where do i go to get me suicidal GF?

Ive been to a mental hospital twice for bipolar depression. Only for four days each time. Its not that bad despite the boredom. You attend several therapy groups, see a psychiatrist, and a social worker helps you find outpatient help (therapist and or psychiatrist). Depending on the hospital the quality of the ward may vary. The one I went to had an Acute Adult ward and regular Adult ward. I went both of them within the span of a year because the hospital wanted to separate the more severe psyche cases. The Adult ward had some scary people with schizophrenia and then some normal people you could have conversations with. The second time I went all of the people in the Acute Adult ward seemed so normal. Definitely more tame than the Adult ward. Most of the time I just watched TV but you could also read, play board or card games, eat snacks and occasionally go on smoke breaks if you wanted. The food was average.

If you really need it I suggest you go or you can just find a therapist and a psychiatrist, optional imo, on your own. If you live in the U.S. and dont have insurance that will cover or help you cover the expenses I suggest you sign up for Medicaid. They cover most of the mental health services.

why are you being reasonable on Jow Forums?

Dont get me wrong, I wish I was dead every day.

What about your family and peers? Didn't things get weird with them when they found out about your disorder?

Bipolar disorder was suspected in my family but never professionally diagnosed so my family was understanding. I had lost all of my peers beforehand.

Fuck off, roastie whore.

If you don't have suicidal episodes every day, you don't belong here.

Y r u going to an hero?

What freedom do you have if youre suicidal?

Why the fuck do you want to kill yourself?
What brings you to want to do such stupid shit?

disgusting legs and feet, the artist needs to kill himself

'All things are hard: man cannot explain them by word. The eye is not filled with seeing, neither is the ear filled with hearing'

I am thinking to end it perhaps this winter.
It will be very cold and I heard hypothermia is painless to a certain degree.
Hanging sounds a bit complicated, because I
have no place to hang myself from.

>I heard hypothermia is painless to a certain degree.
I heard you start taking your clothes off and digging a hole in the ground with your hands.

Please don't do this, the Jow Forums community has been dying, don't do this so us

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stop masturbating for 1 week and your mental issues will be gone

I know.
But it is still more painless in the end.
It feels warm.
Still, it might be too slow and ineffective to the point of changing your mind.

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I'm bipolar so I know how you feel. I have had episodes where I feel fantastic going to bed and I wake up wanting to kill myself.

Most likely. The digging a hole is to find shelter.
Living near civilisation, shelter is everwhere.

There's always up's and down's user, you gotta persist through both if you want to improve. Neither the good times or the bad last long, but can be equally as toxic

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I'm gonna do it soon. I can feel it.

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>visiting family
>several of the different family members I visit don't have washing machines
>go to laundromats
>last went approx 1 week ago
>woke up with bites yesterday
>think i found a bedbug today
>was told that if I brought bedbugs home I would get kicked out about 2 years ago
>have no idea if the bugs came from where I'm at now, or if it was from the first place i visited and I've now infected 3 separate buildings
>even better, where I'm at now, the person is only a tenant at a rooming house, so also destroyed the lives of a family and 2 other people if it's true
>will probably get kicked out
>had only about 2 to 3 hours of sleep the last night
>will probably end up on street
>am only 21 and have no money, education, or prospects, only 1 course away from my grade 12
I was looking up suicide methods for the last 3 or so hours. Everything is either too risky, painful, or impossible to acquire. I have to endure the horrific ordeal of confirming if this thing is a bedbug, then have to call the angriest person in my family to let them know they could be infected, and the other person I was staying with.
Oh, and I just remembered the vehicle that we took to the laundromat broke down, and another family took it in to look at it, there's a tiny chance they could be infected too.

I wish I had a button I could press to instantly die. I don't know what to do, I'm too poor and inexperienced to handle this, and I'm not around anyone that is completely capable themselves to handle stuff like this.
I haven't been this fucked in years, and the last time things got this bad I was young enough to just be cared for, now shit has gotten real and I can't fix it.

i ingested a handful of pills last night. not a minute passed before i then shoved my finger down my throat and purged it all. im not strong enough, i guess. thinking of buying a rope. cant back out of that.

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who cares

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pls dont do it there are people who care about you and who will be hurt if something happen to you. There are also many good things you haven't experienced yet and which you must try. Please dont do it!

Prettymuch this. I realized while laying on the railroads, that I can do it later. I have the power of my very living in my hands and that gives me some sort of motivation. It's literally the rock bottom, but it's something.