>be me, 18 y.o. beta loser
>studying like always
>fml
>randomly remember something from early childhood.
>WTF why do I remember this just now
>feels.jpg
>start crying randomly
>WTF why am I crying for this out of nowhere
>Mom:Why are you crying user
>Start sobbing even louder, bc autism
>Practically drenched in tears for no apparent reason at this time
>whyamilikethis.jpg
Why do i suddenly start crying randomly bots?
life is hard user
spontaneous crying is babysteps.
soon you will get used to the pain. then you will not cry anymore, because you will not feel anything.
>18
Me too.
Sometimes I feel the urge to cry while walking back home at night from college when It's dark, silent and no one is around. Probably because these are the times when I can contemplate how fucked life is and will be no matter what I do. Even if I become a normie I feel like I won't be happy...
not sure if this is the sort of story you want, but I['ll post it anyway
>be 21yo virgin with autism
>join university's hiking club to make friends
>there's a girl in it that also has autism
>when we go on hikes she likes to walk beside me
>at the end of one hike she suggests that we could go on one without the rest of the group
>I agreed so we went on a walk together that weekend
>she brought lunch for us, and we held hands on the way back
>after 3 months of going out with her every other weekend like that I asked her out for dinner
AND?
AND WHAT?
YOU CANNOT JUST DROP IT LIKE THAT. WHAT DID SHE SAY
All best of luck to you user. I hope you leave my league of deadbeat bastards and actually do something ;)
Would rather be a blue-pilled normfag who sees his own fucking utopia rather than a redpilled bastard.
Who cares if a loser autist calls you a normie son of a bitch if you are happy being one.
She said yes, we went to a Chinese restaurant that was quiet and ended up being kinda romantic, she kissed me on the cheek at the end of it and we started dating properly.
Depression. You have the depression
that sounded cute, good for you user
>Depression. You have the depression
yep been there its comes and goes with me. Having a pretty shit time right now and been getting closer to crying randomly.
LIFE IS SUFFERING it has its good times but its allot sadness. On the upside we all die eventually
man do you even care. she sounds like the man in this relationship
Do you ever consider why robots reach into the redpill?
Because the bluepill requires a life experience good enough to give you the sense that everything is alright.
"Bluepilled normals" don't have the same lavish lifestyle as the chads on the top. But they do have enough enjoyment that nothing seems off to them. They can have their own life without worries.
When you're a robot, enough shit goes down the drain to realise that something's not right. That this happy perception is not correct. And then you reach the redpill/blackpill.
Point is, everyone here would probably be happy being bluepilled if given a chance. It's just that it's impossible without certain standards being met.
The sad part is that this is probably made up. But good luck on your new life if you're being truthful, user.
>she kissed me on the cheek at the end of it and we started dating properly.
beautiful
>brings you food
>man
You're a faggot
Also he's a robot, it's not like he'd make a move first
Thanks.
I do care. I care a lot about her. She's just better at expressing feelings that I am.
It's not, but thank you for wishing me luck.
>organizes date
>engages him in conversation
what woman goes out of their way to talk to a guy and ask them on a date.
you're a retard
Well, he asked her out to dinner, though. That's more than I've ever done, but I'm poor af so I can use this as an excuse.
yeah after 3 months. However that's not that bad in comparison to the virgins on this board
>18
>remember
You're doing it wrong.
She never really asked me on a date. She liked going hiking with just me since she was more comfortable having less people around.
Uh..
That happened to me all of the time and I'm an autistic probably ugly dork.
Still happens.
you may not have realized it bro, but it was a date
it happens to the odd incel. your one of the lucky ones, mate
I guess they were but I never saw it at the time.
Have you had sexual intercourse yet?
Yes. We started having sex about 6 months after we started dating. We've been together for 4 years and we got married in January.
I'm very happy for you user. Hopefully it happens to all of us one day
Thanks. I hope it can happen to you too because I used to think it would never happen to me.
Translucent pill -?-> bluepill ---> redpill ---> blackpill ---> colorlesspill
did you ever try anything or make a move when you went kiking with her?
I didn't try to kiss her or anything like that. Sometimes she would rest her head on my shoulder when we held hands on the way back so I'd interlock my fingers with hers, and that was about as bold as I got until I asked her out.