The depression is so fucking bad. I don't even feel sadness or anger. I feel almost nothing. Just blank. I haven't been able to enjoy anything for a few years but it's gotten bad. I don't enjoy anything. I feel bored and I hardly look forward to getting off of work.
>wake up early to drive a 30min commute >work my boring 8 hours >get home where I live alone with my dog and family across the street >fap, browse internet, try to play vidya and try to watch shows. Bored as always >go to bed by 10pm >repeat x100
Cause being a neet is boring, if you want to be less bored try to get a job or training or some certificate
Charles Green
When did I say I was a neet in my blog? I get paid for 40 hours a week but I'm away from home almost 50 hours due to unpaid 30min lunches and 1 hr commutes round trip. I need a hobby or a goal or a fucking girlfriend to cuddle and bond with. I feel so empty. I honestly don't feel very human.
Hudson Flores
So I take it your the trailer dude since you posted that pic, didn't know your family lives across the street from you, don't you have any brothers or sisters?
Colton Torres
Bro you got a nice trailer, the inside looks comfie >if your the same trailer bro
Get a second job as a waiter or coffee barista, lots of qts working in those spots
I had the same issue in a past life. So I left it - I moved 12 hours away. From DC to FL - 3 minutes from the beach. I was so in favor of the move, did it before getting housing here... I had enough money to live in a hotel while I got everything together... but I didn't. I realized in my 32 years of living, I had never camped. So I bought a tent... Some of it is embarrassing... but in the end I made it an entire month... >Find place called rattlesnake island >Hesitant but stubborn >Try to learn how to set up tent without directions >Follow directions and it takes me an hour >Bought soup >Didn't know how to fire >Ate cold soup for the first 3 days >Got good enough to set up and break down the tent in 15 minutes >Got tired of cold soup >Saw a children's metal shopping cart >Built what I thought would make a fire inside of it >Fire sucked but I kept adding stuff >Eventually made a homeless like grill >Burnt my hands on the can >Found a broken beach chair >Used the arms as tongs >HOT FUCKING SOUP >IS THIS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE A MAN >Celebrate by walking to a gas station to get sausages and beer >Make sausages and get shitfaced
Man it was worth it, being somewhat shut off from the world. Toward the end I couldn't wait for a warm shower and a bed... once I got housing, I couldn't wait to go back... Eventually I'm going to get to an uninhabited island. That day I will say my goodbyes to you all
It sucks because I've been depressed for so long that I've become a complete brainlet. My mind is devoid of feelings or higher thought and I slip away more and more each day. I'm starting to think I should just call it quits and kill myself since I doubt I'll ever get back to the person I once was. Without an inner world, I'm not even human.
Alexander Sanders
Have you ever tried growing some bigass balls like me? Lol
Brandon Sanchez
Spent too much time thinking about my trip to get to the point I wanted to tell you.
If you don't like it, change it - I know its scary as fuck. Or just change your outlook for a little while. Do something to make you appreciate what you have more... Me? Didn't work for me. I'm still planning on learning how to hunt and farm so I can give a middle finger to society.
I live the same exact life as you OP except I dont have a dog or a family.
I feel like if I had a girlfriend to look after and do things with I wouldnt be in such a rut.
Landon Baker
Idk if I like being known as the trailer dude lol. But yes I have 2 brothers and 2 sisters. Most are way younger but one is about to turn 21. He mostly hangs with his girlfriend and when I do see him he just comes over to hang and watch YouTube videos.... God my life is so boring.
I feel no urge to hangout with anyone I know from work. No feelings of bonding or closeness. I'm not terribly shy and talk to people at work but I never want to do anything with them.
Should I try another ssri... Thanks man. Wish I could share the space with a girlfriend lol. Fuck that'd be nice. At least it seems. Nice in my fantasies. And that's not a bad idea if it's in the evening or weekend job. But I just want a hobby to look forward to.
>a place to live Fuck you I have to wageslave just to barely survive
Benjamin Ramirez
similar to you. im not really depressed just meh feeling. Like what do people do to not be bored and what happens after that video game is finished or that tv show ends? And for hobbies it isnt like I can just be like "today i feel like collecting something" and have a hobby if there is no interest in it.
Luke Allen
>he just comes over to hang and watch YouTube videos damn that does suck, I have a bunch of brothers and whenever we're together we play lots of strategy board games and throw footballs and shit
Austin Taylor
I dont know how people watch tv shows or play games
Every time I go to watch play or read something I stop after 20 minutes because I'm so bored. Then I usually take my 4th nap of the day
Noah Young
>i feel nothing >i'm bored pick one faggot
Landon Allen
You're that bad too? Tell me so I don't feel so alone. Are you unable to cry and does laughing happen rarely? Also I don't blame you if you do end up killing yourself. I've had thoughts too but honestly I'm too depressed to even bother thinking about it. Also do you ever feel relief from depression? Thanks for the dick pic bro. I love and like my family but I just don't feel happy around them either and it fucks with me even more. But I feel the same as you. A cutie girlfriend to love and take care of would be grand.
Benjamin Bailey
>Should I try another ssri... SSRIs are probably the thing that robbed you of your emotions in the first place It's scary how easily you can get them, just tell a doc you're depressed and you get the zombification medication.
Grayson Rivera
Yeah I'm not struggling but I don't make much since I didn't go to college. I only make 19/hr. I have health insurance through work at least.
Michael Davis
Being bored is basically feeling nothing though isn't it.
Yes it sucks. Shows how was have nothing to do together and it makes me sad. If I gotta watch one more fucking meme compilation I'm going to go postal
Nathaniel Lewis
I mean I can understand it since I used to fucking love and be addicted to video games. It was so enjoyable. I honestly miss the times where I was neet and spend 16 hours playing RuneScape. And just looking forward to getting home from school so I can play games. Good times.
Wyatt Morris
Im just happy I have Libby. But I dread. Absolutely dread the day she either diapears or dies... I am not sure I can handle jt
no, being bored isn't nothing. it's a subtle resistance to what is. it's boring. it's quite an interesting feeling if you actually get with it. explore it. try meditation accept reality however it is, no matter how you feel. no resistance to any feeling. don't even resist your resistance if it inevitably comes up. try it for once. doing absolutely nothing can be very interesting, even if it's a bit counter intuitive.
Camden King
Hahah I actually laughed out loud. Felt good. Thanks user
Chase Nelson
Your taste, though conventional, is pretty good. What's troubling about it the lack of peculiarity, evidence of hobbies & interests laying about, some things left in that slightly disheveled or inexplicable state that's unmistakable proof of enjoyment accomplished at the summoning of whim. My desk isn't particularly cluttered at the moment, but there is nevertheless a little world of items on it that in combination are to be found nowhere else on earth, and represent the history of my mind's long and rich development, thousands of hours of private pleasure and subjects of conversation had with hundreds of people. I've never been particularly productive, never "had it made" with a big income or respectable family-man status, am now physically ailing with at most a decade of real living to go, and was even homeless for a while. Yet my own siblings resent how good a time I've had of it, while neighbors seek me out for company not easily found elsewhere--not despite but because I thrive on ample solitude, and thereby come packed with surprising things to say. Poetry, especially Goethe's, is full of gardening metaphors for cultivation of this sort, of which the earlier you start and the longer you sustain, the better. Having the benefit of intuition sound enough to trust is the root of it, and the most predictive index of possibility.
Samuel Ward
If you have any interest you should learn some board games user, then you can teach your brother and maybe some other people and play with them. Pic related (Blood Rage) is a pretty solid strategy game and it has really cool art and figurines so it wont bore people who aren't naturally into board games. It's sort of between a simple game like Settlers of Catan and a more complicated one like Scythe in terms of difficulty and the amount of thinking needed during play.
post more of your trailer, i remember it being cool last time you posted inside
Thomas Hernandez
are people like us just not meant to be alive?
Isaac Cox
it's a coded message, i'll decrypt it for you: hi welcome to Jow Forums
Christopher Collins
If you live in Tennessee I'll be your girlfriend.
Kevin Long
I would seriously look into that second job like i said something social, and for a hobby start of easy first start running and make it a daily occurrence if you can then slowly move to goin to the gym and try laying of the meds try yoga and meditation. >the shit actually works theres reasons why this has been used for thousands of years as a form of physical and mental decompression.
>being somewhat shut off from the world >>Celebrate by walking to a gas station to get sausages and beer
Nathan Rogers
Try commuting 2 hours each way
this is the "working in NYC and living in the burbs which are all I can afford" lifestyle
other than that I'm exactly the same and I have no idea why i keep going
Gavin Thompson
>2 hours each way dude, it doesn't matter how much you make that isn't worth it. And if you are making a good amount of money then start saving up for the day to just fuck off and go live somewhere else where you don't have to pull shit like that. You only need like 5 to 10 thousand dollars to get started off somewhere else depending on how good you are with money
Jayden Phillips
Oh look is the "i have a comfy a job and my own place but i still bitch and moan because i am a privileged crybaby" poster
Daniel Evans
Everyone outside NY is so shocked when they hear that but literally everyone that lives on Long Island that has a proper job in the city commutes that much.
I'm not leaving because my job pays decent and I don't have to do shit and very good benefits. Eventually I'll move into the city and it'll become a 30 minute commute each way so whatever. Right now I'm just helping my mom with the bills so I can't move out yet.
Even though I hate this place I'd never find a cake job like this with my complete lack of skills
Hudson Robinson
pretty soon you wont be able to get out of bed for work anymore. thats when you know the end is near
