Feels general

i started my last year at uni and i still feel like an out-of-place freshman
in my department i still feel like i don't really fit in or know anyone
i'm not going to do anything to change this
i'm browsing here again, so that's also not a good sign. the feelings of inadequacy, loneliness, and lust for suicide are rushing back in as i forget everything i lived this past summer.
and i also kind of get off on this, in addition to fantasies of being approached by literally any person i don't already know. just imagining being talked to by somebody new makes me feel so loved and it's completely pathetic.
anyway, i think this is a frazetta drawing. hopefully that makes up for this low T post

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I want to join the police to get back at the fags who made me into a robot (who are mostly criminals in my town now) and to satisfy the will of my father who was rejected because he had blood pressure problems (being a cop was his life goal)
The thing is something deep inside keeps telling me i'm a worthless rat and don't have the balls to do it

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im kinda tired and for most of the summer i've been playing black ops so im just sorta stuck doing nothing until good ol' highschool starts again so i have to deal with more work for over 100 days before next summer begins

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It's for the first time in my life a girl likes me and cares for me and this thing just makes my heart beat faster and breaths feel somehow heavier. I have this weird feeling in my brain, like a buzz. My vision goes sometimes foggy.
Is this what love feels like?

I'm happy.

I'm a actual outcast and my ex [romantic] and complained about me for about... a year or so on their own tumblr, and attracted a bunch of attention and controversy to me and I didn't enjoy it? But also I don't know if it was Justified or not, maybe I am a intentional malicious abuser and don't know it

As far as I know they did it for their own reasons and had nothing to do to me, it was still weird and awkward, I thought me being a outcast meant I couldn't be a bad person, since I don't have the deep friendships or "status" to make people feel inferior, and I always assume that people pity me so what I do doesn't matter

Anyway its on their Tumblr forever so, that's incriminating enough, I'm dumb enough to actually think me being a outcast means something to Doing Things wrong

mods we got an underage here do your thing

I'm always tired. I've been working 3 jobs for the past 5 years and I'm just tired of it all. I've tried going to school but failed. Went back again, but got depressed and then dropped out. Tbh I just feel like I am too dumb to get a degree and a real job and connect with normal functioning adults my age. I'm 25 and I still have the mindset of a teenager. I work with people with the same mindset as me so its even harder to get out of this shit mindset.

Been trying to cut down on the drinking, fast food and porn. Thought maybe if I do this it will turn things around. Its fucking brutal and so far I haven't seen much results.

I fucking hope you guys can get through your problems.

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Her. She is always on my mind
And I'm off to sleep so in my dreams also

Iktf bro
Its probably the worst feel imaginable

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Its my 18th birthday today and so far I havent improved even tho i tell myself that today is the day every morning. Shit sucks because my life right now is doing the same shit over and over again everyday with nothing changing. Wasting my summer break with self loathing instead of doing something. My will isnt strong enough and I just want to drink and forget

feeling a bit blue.I really enjoy being alone rather then with a friend who always calls me just so he can vent .

I ruin every conversation I participate in. Even when I get along with the other person and they like me. I always goof up.
Kill me.

I have no friends.
Fuck, why can't we all just be friends irl and do stuff irl.
We all prob share similar interests, yet we are alone on our PCs, lonely.
In my entire life I have only met ONE person who I felt like I've truly bonded with, the rest were just 'basic' friends: aquatences and company.

Been seeing this woman for a couple of months and it feels like the free trial ran out. She wants me to get my head straight and for me to tell her what I want out of the relationship and I'm too stupid to adequately express myself.

I don't want to be committed but I don't want an open relationship, I'm slowly revealing my flaws and I feel like she is almost done wasting her time with me. She treats me really nicely and she feels like I'm unable to reciprocate. In order for me to have my cake and eat it too I need to step my fucking game up...help.

youtube.com/watch?v=YgSPaXgAdzE

like this

Feel like pic related, tho I look more like Kevin James

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Same here.I always thought i lack social conversation and interaction with people so that's why everyone is avoiding me.

Post your stats user:
>race
>country
>weight
>height
>dick size
>physique

Not sure how to fix it.
I just want things to work out.

Hungry. Just started work and first payday is Friday. Friends and family won't loan me $60 until Friday even for $20 interest. It's not about the money, but the fact that I have nobody in my life to help me, along with trying to deal with work, and being hungry is making me want to just end it all. Life is frustrating as Fuck

i feel constantly ashamed of myself because of a developmental delay. Verbally I'm in the gifted zone (134) but when it comes to executive functioning I'm only 96, so 4 points below average, with my visuospatial processing speed at 83.. fucking 83, thats just 13 points above mental retardation in that area. I feel slow and fast at the same time. I underestimate/overestimate myself depending on the task at hand. I have trouble with basic adult functioning like cleaning my room, driving a car, body language and stuff. Some subjects in school are piss easy and others are frustratingly hard.
I hate it i hate it. Why did I pull the fucking genetic joker card. Cause that's what i am, a genetic joke. Smart enough to see whats wrong with me and to experience it live as I go. Only to overanalyze later on about all the things I should've done differently.
I can't turn it off, I can feel my sluggish brain right now as i'm sitting here looking around the room. The information isn't getting processed properly, I can fucking tell, and there's nothing I can do

Lately I've been an uber-suicidal faggot, because I have spent this last month of summer holed up entirely by myself in this tiny dorm room with nobody to talk to besides autists Jow Forums and some old friends online. The reason I'm physically constrained to my dorm room is because I've been hit by a car on a highway in the beginning of August, which got me a broken leg. At the start of the month I felt blessed as I didn't have to work for a month and could do whatever (within the confines of my room). So I started to go back on my huge backlog of vidya and anime, which was great initially, because I wouldn't have been able to experience this much quality entertainment otherwise. However, as days went by, and weeks flowed one into another without any distinguishable moments, I gradually came to realise that all this media consuming is making me feel even more empty on the inside. Lack of social interaction began to show its effects soon after, where I began to envy my roommates, who had been working 9-5 jobs this whole time, talking to people and actually making a difference to the world around them. I have tried to remedy this temporary depressive state with alcohol but it just feels like a waste of money, and weed is just going to make extremely paranoid. I would have necked myself out of boredom if not for tobacco cigs. I have tried going back to Tinder if just to talk to SOMEONE, knowing full well that I'd only get dissappointed being a khv this whole time. Anyways, 2823972 matches later, I started chatting with a girl who is pretty much my ideal, which is saying a lot, because I've been desensitised to any romantic notions ever since I turned 16. Anyways, I had spent two days chatting with her for long stretches of time, until I decided to ask her out sometime next week (which is when my broken leg is supposed to heal to point where i can walk without crutches). She enthusiastically agreed to meet me, but said it was supposed to happen before

this Saturday - which is the day she's leaving for a vacation with her parents. The day after I had a really shitty and monotone day without any redeeming qualities whatsoever, but it somehow turned even worse when I realised that the Tinder girl hasn't messaged back in over twelve hours. Even if it was just a simple "meh" answer to my long ass question, it would have still brought me joy, because it signifies here presence and acknowledgement of my existence. I tried not to think to much of it, as it may have just been a busy day for her, nothing out of ordinary. But then the silence of the next day and the one after have confirmed my anxieties about her. Is she simply not interested? Did something happen to her? Was it a hoax? Why am I even making such a big deal out of a broad with whom I probably have no chances anyways? I just know that time numbs down emotional issues and I hope that this occurs to me
sooner rather than later. I felt like I was given some sort of naive hope, only to have snatched away from me at a moment's notice. I haven't felt so alone for the last few years, even though I have been living in a state of depression for the last 5 years.

Feel like a useless cuck. How is your day, user(s)?

Trying to decide whether to sign up for a 1 year paralegal certificate tomorrow. It was my mom's idea. I am 23 and work part time as a manager for 9/hour. This might be 40k and full-time. Dunno if it's worth anything though and I'm not gonna spend half my savings account on this and hundreds of hours of studying if it's not going to get me a job.

>tfw you struggle to think anymore
>tfw you realize you're incapable of even minimal human interaction off of this website even with other "robots" or similar people
>tfw you lack any and all ambitions or desires anymore
>tfw you spend all your time indulging in past times you don't enjoy anymore due to overexposure
>tfw when not doing that you come here as again it's your only option for interaction

i'm feeling empty
but scrouch by the louder of solitude

I want to BLEACH the fuck out of my qt half-black coworker

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10/10 user
Hows her personality? She looks like a Stacy

iktf. chronic stuff is the worst. You can never deny it exists or escape from it cause it's the way your brain works. That's how despair sets in

Kind of ditzy. Really nice though.

Have to study for Anatomy & Physiology exam friday but can't stop thinking about oneitis

lol she looks more 1/4 black

Feeling a longing for the good old days
No responsibilities, no gay shit, didn't have to deal with as much bs.
Just me and my bros, enjoying life
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Was on my way home at the bus stop and saw 3 kids throw their trash into the street and then they started doing fortnite dances. Imagine how I feel right now.

Perhaps something like this

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I was stalking a girl Ive never met on Facebook a while ago and today she sent me a friend request. How did this happen and what could it mean?

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Did you accidentally like something or some shit?

I'm angry
Horny
Bit Lonely
Hate myself
Want to die or just go for a long ass walk forward and never look back
Also want to manhandle some thots in an orgy like situation and learn how to not see sex as something important and just as a way to get off.

I got bullied on Jow Forums for posting greentext
>who are you quoting?

You know the new fb update lets people see who's viewed their profiles.

If you look at someone's page, facebook puts you in their "people you might know" bar. So she saw you and sent a friend request.

somewhat content, bored/lonely overall. i want to drink or take some phenibut/kratom but i think im suffering from cardiomyopathy so i can't do anything but suffer in my boredom and slight discomfort

that lady wants to consume your pee pee, you should be happy about that

today i started out wanting to kill myself but i hung out with my grandpa and now i feel good. we went to some chicken shop with a bunch of niggers in it and he said "is this where they keep the welfare checks?" we then went to a pawn shop and looked at some guns and random shit. today was the first day in 2 months where i felt happy. if you guys are seriously feeling awful and down i suggest you just go places. not even with anyone, going alone is alright. i think getting sun into my skin did something because this is way better than weed.

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Can i say that i'm happy for you?
don't let life fuck you over, keep fighting

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Im feeling an increased sense of numbness the older I get, To the point of that all of the things I liked doing now feel like a chore and I can barely move out of bed.

I'm bored of living, life just sucks. Everyday whenever I'm enjoying myself I thing of past mistakes and how bad can the future be. I try to forget it by doing some activities like skating in the center of yhe city, but in summer it doesn't help much as all I can see a young happy couples or young groups of friends with boys and girls laughing and having fun. I just feel lonely and by each they the void in my soul just gets bigger and bigger(srry for the cringe)

Uni starts again in 10 days or so. I fucked up 3 courses last year which I have to redo this year. Feel bad about this, constantly thinking of taking a extra half year for those courses.

Feels wise, in a weird state. It just feels like I can't emotionally connect with anyone. Like I have friends at uni I talk to, but it all feels so fake and platonic. I feel lonely in a way and find rest in reading, shit posting and playing vidya.
I keep telling myself I don't need anyone to be happy, but somewhere deep down I know that's bs...
Also I'm forcing myself to finally get my drivings license which I have een putting of for too long. But then again I'm still not motivated to even do anything.

I feelike that's what everything comes down to desu, I lack a lot of discipline which leads to procrastinating sleeping too much being lazy etc. I have no fucking clue how to break out of this cycle because it is driving me mad. It'd like I'm holding back my potential

Anyway just a little rant and what's on my mind. I'm going to sleep so I can go to work tomorrow, serving annoying customers in a restaurant.

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I am slowly but surely getting the hang of driving.

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kinda sad, sorta just realising that the people i considered to be my friends probably just thought of me as an orbiter :l

I haven't gone a day without thinking of suicide since last year, and alo I've just become so empty I get super intense feelings that life isn't even real sonetines so it wouldn't even matter if I killed myself

I'm only 19 but dont see myself making it past 22 tbqh, I feel like I'm already too far gone to ever be a normal person

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Supposed to do college in 5 days but my financial aid isn't processed yet and I don't have money to pay so I'm afraid I'll have to skip college and pray I can find a job on self-taught programming alone. Was going to use college as a crutch for internship as it looks much better than just being a self-taught wagie.

Other than that, I feel kinda lonely want wish I had cutie to cuddle with

A girl I went on a couple dates with and liked suggested we hangout on opening weekend and then when I gave her plans to go out she said thanks for the invite instead of accepting it. I proded for an answer and she said she could hang for a little and then I said forget it. I said my piece and I think that's that. It was killing me that she wouod come off so disinterested but would express she liked me in person. She says she was just busy and had lots of commitments but if she cant mske time for me when she makes the suggestions then I would rather end things and move on. I can't wait for people that are emotionally unavailable.

Ive realized I can never go back.
>feeling like shit because of external factors, stick a lighter too my inner thigh. Want to do it again when I get the chance
>Used to be into giantess for big boobs. Then for the dominance, now I just want a cute girl to threaten to kill me, also have gotten off to the thought of threatening to kill a cute girl.
>external factors, such as college, family, and sexuality have driven me into depression.
How can I be normal when I literally fantasize about killing and dominating people? Its the turning point, and this website caused it

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I am just so fucking lonely. Ever since my girlfriend left me a few months back I haven't had anyone to talk to. I have a good supporting family which I'm thankful for but it's just not the same as having friends or other close people.

I'm nearing 30 and it feels pretty bad not really being a part of anything - having no friends, only loose connection to family, not part of any groups or social circles or anything.

I don't know why it bothers me, since I don't like being around people, but for some reason it doesn't feel good. To have posted in the same threads in the same places for so long and not even made the basic accomplishment of forming friendships make me feel like I've failed somehow.

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Saw oneitis today for the first time in awhile.
She'd been whining about being lonely without seeing me, but I was busy with legitimate school shit, but it was still all about her and what she wants instead.

I'd just given her a huge wad of cash to help her out and not two minutes after she has it she starts staring off during the conversation and ignoring me and I realize she's checking out Chad standing a few feet away.
Fucking whore.

We're supposedly "dating" but I just don't even care anymore, I'm pretty sure I'm just an ATM machine to her, and I'm really starting to hate her. Like really legitimately hate her.

This shit isn't worth it. I feel dead inside.

good for you user, sun helped me out a lot

Nrrrgh. No. No, I'm not done yet.

Just make up your fucking mind, bitch. Do you want to be together, or do you want to call it quits and chase some douchefaggot? Because this "open" shit is not doing it for me, and if you try and fuck me over one more fucking time, I'm gonna lose it and it's not going to be pretty when I'm done.

I know what you're up to though. I'm here for you when you're down, I have cash for you when you've spent your loan, but the second I want to spend time, no. You're busy.
And who with? Who the fuck knows.

No. No, no, no. I'm done. I'm not going through this bullshit one more year.
At this point I'd rather be alone fucking a the corpse of a dead goat and writing discord love letters to a delusional trap than put up with your SHIT for one more day.

It. Is. Going. To. Hit. The. Fan.
And I mean sooner rather than later you little bitch.
Go ahead and pull your shit One. More. Time.

I'm feeling anxiety, regret and nostalgia. I have alienated everyone, I'm quickly running out of money and obsessing over a childhood that was mostly unpleasant.

hs fag fuck off

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Im lonely as fuck, can't find a woman to reciprocate feelings for me. I've got no desire to give up, but it just gets hard to deal with knowing you're romantically undesirable.

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I've plateaued in life at a pretty low level and I'm tired of everything. I can't get any higher because, among many other things, I clearly have some kind of mental illness, I have fucking anxious tremors and I shake, and I constantly have a really negative facial expression that I can't even consciously shake and it weirds people out and makes it basically impossible for me to advance in my career. Let alone ever attract a mate, I am like kryptonite to women.

I'll keep going on regardless, I still make decent money I just hate seeing others progress beyond me because I have so many crippling flaws. I'm 29 and still live with my mom because why the fuck not. It's better than being alone and I save money.

Not sure what life has in store for me beyond watching more anime and jerking off to more porn.

Go For it user
OrIGIGINALLY

I feel like everyone hates me. I'm trying to get confidence to ask a girl I like out, but I feel like I'd just be a laughed at. FUCK WHY DON'T I JUST DIE IN MY SLEEP PLEASE SOMEONE JUST FUCKING KILL ME

My only friends are anime characters, whenever I finish a series I feel deep emptiness and have to jump right into another series

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I just want to know why the fuck I can't get a girlfriend.

28 now and never had a girlfriend.

I have a good job, muscles, lots of friends, lots of hobbies, and I've never been afraid to ask out girls, but none have ever liked me.

I ask female friends what's wrong with me and they say "idk you're just unlucky I guess"

Is that even possible, so be so unlucky that you can't meet a single girl who likes you in 13 years of trying?

Even when I've gone on dates with ugly girls they ghost me or start an argument over something stupid so that they don't have to see me again.

I've been starving myself with fasting trying to get my weight down as if having a lower bf% will increase my looks enough that girls will suddenly change their minds.

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Maybe you're autistic.
Try Tinder

In my experience, you shouldn't bother asking a girl out if you don't feel confident that you'll succeed. Get to know her until feel comfortable casually dropping an invitation for her to go with you someplace you were "planning" to go anyway.

You are me, except the "want to die" part. I want to fuckin live. I'm fuckin 37 and I haven't lived yet. Only time I ever felt alive was when I briefly had an 8/10 gf five years ago. I'm just waiting for something similar to happen again.

Hello, fellow 28 year old wizard-in-training

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I barely know her and I don't know if I'll ever see her again if I don't make a move

>stalk my oneitis on facebook every single day, her photo is the fist thing i see in the mornings.
>have never talked to her.
>we cross each other today at University.
>didnt even dare to see her at the face thinking i dont even deserve that.
>regret that all day
>now i want to kill myself thinking how pathetic i am
dont know if i ever going to see her again. i literally feel like shit

I love you guys.

kukyuy

I'm depressed, bored, but also horny as a motherfucker.

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Worried, I somehow tricked a girl to go out with me. I thought it went terrible, she ignored all my texts the next day. A day after that though she's sending me nudes and talking about fucking. I'm a socially crippled virgin. How do I not fuck this up?

If you'll never see her again then you might as well ask her out. I only mean my advice for people that you'll have to see regularly again if you fuck up your ask.

>live in a shithole city
>can't afford to leave and start over somewhere else

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im in the exact same position, user....

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my best friend of 8 years and my oneitis of 10 years are crushing on each other

i don't think i'm gonna make it if they get together

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That hits so close to home. I'm experiencing the same thing. I feel you user.

>at arcade last month with pals playing Pump it Up (Dance Dance Revolution with diagonal pads)
>girl is waiting to play
>I end up playing with her
>about same skill level as me
ffw to next week
>at arcade again
>we see girl
>play with her again
>fun times
>friends convince me to get her snap
>I do it
>try sending her snaps few times
>left on opened all times
>stop trying
>see her at arcade few more times
>don't say anything about it to avoid awkward situations
>see on her story that shes at college
>likely will never see her again

T'was a lost cause from the start in retrospect, but at least i tried.

I was confused on why I felt so uncomfortable and unhappy with many things, and why I've been so avoidant, and I think it's because I still haven't moved on from an old friend abandoning me. As if waiting for closure or clarity that will never come. I think that maybe I can feel happy and have genuine fun again, if I can really separate this person from my mind and the things I want to find pleasure in. Maybe then, I could actually make some friends.

Borrowed my mom's car to "hang out with some friends", really just read car magazines at the library (with my mom's accord parked outside). Then on my drive home I turn too quickly and hop the curb. Can't see anything wrong on the outside, and it drives fine so I don't think the control arms or whatever got fucked. I know I should tell her that I scraped it, since my dad used to be a mechanic and would know if I fucked it up, but I can't bring myself to do it.

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how long had you known the person? there's really no possible way to reconnect with them?

>Can't see anything wrong on the outside, and it drives fine

You're good.

>T. Mechanic

Thanks. I'll try to get some courage and ask... It's better than not trying I guess

That's what I figured, I drove with my hands off the wheel and it stayed straight then I slammed the brakes with my hands off the wheel and it stayed straight too, those are the only car tests I know how to do. If they don't notice anything wrong within the week then I'm definitely free from worrying about it, but I just feel bad about lying via omission.

My life is on fucking Nightmare Mode.
>mom's in prison
>abuse victim
>broken home, 2 divorces
>living on my own for a while as a minor
>grandma dying, living with/caring for her
>dad has stage 4 cancer
>autism
>sister with condition requiring brain surgery

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How do you measure these things??