Thursday night Jow Forums feels. Hows everyone holding up?

I miss my ex.

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Why ? I train it monday too. 2 times a weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek

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i had a rational talk on why market is sentient by myself alongside a coworker. I haven't talked to him in weeks

>talking at coworkers
alienating but fun

Cravings are becoming a fucking bitch to handle. I constantly chug water whenever one spikes but then I'm filled with dred of wanting the shitty food. Obviously eating will just make me guilty

Just got off a shift in the ER that was rough. Had an old lady dying of pancreatic cancer break down all over me and another lady that was a drug seeker that I kicked out and then realized she was homeless when I passed her on the sidewalk on my way to my truck. I’m eating stuffed peppers my gf left out for me and watching my cat play around but I feel like crying. Had a good lift this morning though and diets been on point lately.

Wish you the best user. This too shall pass.

>tfw joint pain
Fuck this shit I just wanna work out dammit

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Thanks, I had doubts for probably the last two years we were dating but I still didn't want to end it. I think this is for the best, but it's still hard.
I guess this is the first time in nearly four years I can post
>tfw no gf
Kinda missing old Jow Forums, and just focusing on lifting and making gains, maybe I can get back to that, my lifts had gotten painfully inconsistent.

I'm gonna be 27 in less than a month and I'm still a khv. I've been rejected before and lifting for all these years doesn't help, but I still like to lift. I honestly don't even think about it much anymore, and I figure that if I'm single at least I can spend my time doing what I want. Things like lifting, reading, playing vidya and I'm thinking about getting into painting 40k miniatures and learning how to fly drones. Plus I'm making good progress in this MBA so I've got that going for me. I just need to stop working overnights and learn to control my eating habits.

Thanks for reading my blog lads.

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Jesus, I've had one of the worst experiences of my life tonight, I swear to god
i'm actually really worried bout some stuff I happened
I'm not touching weed ever again, fuck

No good feels this day, oh no [spoiler]And tomorrow is actually my birthday

Happy early birthday and don't do drugs user.

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Life sucks for a lot of people dude. At least you're trying to be positive. Keep it up. I'm emotionally retarded and socially maladjusted so I too have no gf and I'm 29. Gotta just keep digging to find the meaning of life.

I go through cycles of getting a GF, realising it's shit because I don't get to do the stuff I want to (stuff like you listed) breaking up with them, being single and doing stuff I want, getting lonely and thinking I want a girlfriend, getting a GF, rinse and repeat this process.

What do?

I'm a little bit better than I was last night. I crushed my workout today so that was good.

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a quick question to all the
>tfw no gf
what have you tried to do to change it? do you expect grills to just come up to you?

Agreed lad. I was getting tired of being a sad loser wiring a shit job even though I have a bachelor's. I'm still not really happy but neither am I spending my waking hours hating my life and my self. We'll make it one day.

I think that's one of the reasons I kind of lost the desire to have a gf. Most people I see in relationships go through exactly what you described. A rare few I've witnessed, including my parents, have managed to find a healthy balance between being a couple and having their own time and space, but it seems like many don't. Maybe one day I'll finally get one, but at this point in my life I think they'd be more of a hindrance to my self improvement, and I wouldn't bee able to satisfy their needs.
In your case I'd probably just accept being single for a while and enjoying things you didn't have time for. Maybe you'll meet someone who shares your interests, or maybe not. But at least you'll still get enjoyment from them. Good luck buddy

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>try to do something, insanely fucking terrible at, not even beginner level
>remember all the time I failed and gave up easily
>this is probably gonna be added to those times
>give up and come complain on 4chins about being retarded autists who is literally good for nothing with direction in life and absolutely no work ethic or will
>get really sad reflecting on shit life and personality

still alive though so I guess holding up well, turning 20soon feelsnotreallyhappy, didn't think I'd be here 5 years ago, jesus fucking christ

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>with direction
kek how ironic
no direction*

thanks user
I've had many good experiences with drugs, but when I'm using them with friends
turns out, who would've thought, that smoking alone when you are not feeling good is not a good idea

most people do not know what to do at all
socializing may be a weird concept to some

Any good piano/keyboard lessons you've found online? I've been thinking about learning for the longest time, just never had the drive.

I met this amazing girl exactly a week ago. She's perfect, she is absolutely into me and the sex is perfect too. I couldn't be more happy.

I've wanted to learn play the piano for years too user
Is it a good idea to learn with a keyboard? is it as long as the one from a piano?
I'm genuinely happy from hearing that user, well done

Cute cashier with braces and tad bit acne smiled so nicely to me

I was walking away and turned around and she was still staring at me

I couldn't care less about the good things happening to me, all I can think about is the shit and how it will never stop.

I feel like an angsty teenager despite being well into boomer territory

>get Jow Forumster
>continue working job
>got car and license
>went back to studying
>applied social skills, made a point of talking and chatting to people
>had one girl spill her spaghetti while I was working
>have another girl who seemingly likes to talk to me

All this from neet and being close to suicide. Still can't go further though, can't seem to ever take a step further as I don't know the real me anymore. I'd like to ask the second girl out but would she like the real me? Who is the real me even

That reminds me...
When I was in high school there was this burger place I'd go to frequently with my friends and family. One day I was getting something to eat and the waitress was the most stunning person I've ever met. She looked 3 or 4 years older than me (I was like 15 or 16 at the time.) She had this cute face that reminded me somewhat of Ellen Page's, but less "artificial," you know? She had a very strong jawline and a thick brown hair tied up in a super cute ponytail. A nice frame and supple breasts through the black polo-esque shirt she was wearing.
I ordered my usual (a chicken sandwich with fries and an Oreo shake) and she left to go place it. As soon as she turned around you could see a very nice bottom. It wasn't big in an overpowering way, but a nice clean, almost "athletic" way. Her bum looked similar to the ones the girls on the volleyball team had.
I was awestruck. My juvenile fantasies running wild, with what may be. I didn't have the balls to ask her anything because I was a fat teenager and she looked like she was too good for me.
She came back with my food and I ate it slower than usual. I tried to peek glances to look at her face. I don't know if I was being obvious or not, but no one said anything or gave me any weird looks so I think I was good then.
I had to leave and the way the joint operated was you brought your receipt to the front and you paid there. I brought it up, and the angel rung me up. She said thanks for coming and I told her thanks for her service.
I went back a couple days later to hopefully see her again, but I never did. I still think about her a lot. Just the general beauty of someone working in a place so below them was humbling. I miss that place.

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT WHY DIDN'T I TALK TO THAT QT STANDING BESIDE ME ON THE SUBWAY YESTERDAY.

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>Don't see gf for almost 2 weeks
>Makes plans with me to stay over
>Made these plans on the night where I have work early in the next morning
>Means we'll get no quality time because we'll have to leave in the morning
>Said she has to go to a party related to work, but will only stay for an hour and then come home
>Day before we see each other
>Said she got roped into help set up this party, which means she has to leave an hour into coming over
>Left the party an hour before I had to go to bed
>Decided to make plans with other people on the night where I could have easily seen her and had her stay over without work getting in the way

Am I right for being annoyed?

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The only reason i don't have a gf is because i don't really try

How do I stop getting bullied at the gym

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Get swole

Bullying is making it difficult to get swole

Go at a different time, like early morning.

The girl I'm seeing was abused in the past, and when I ate her out last night she had a panic attack right after she got off. I was supportive and stuff, but is it wrong of me to be hesitant?
We really get each other and she's like that supportive gf Jow Forums anons dream about who says stuff like "yeah I didn't have a lot of friends growing up either," but she also wants to wait until marriage to have actual sex and I don't know if I'm getting in over my head.

[spoiler] I know that feeling ;_; [/spoiler]

I'm in my first year of Uni and there is a girl that I knew from HS that I see occassionally. When I walked past her yesterday and greeted her she simply looked down and kept on walking. I've already got a gf and I was just happy to have someone who I knew at the Uni, but what was that situation all about? Feels weird man

Currently there dude. Expect a lot of heartbreak on your part

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had to bump my rep scheme of cable choppers from 8-12 to 8-20, same for facepulls.
reached a weight where the current weight is easy but the next one makes me slide on the ground.
it's fucking brutal doing 3x20 for cable choppers with 1-2 reps left in the tank

> all the on-air personalities at NPR have Ivy-league degrees
> you barely graduated from state university
Guess that dream is dead.

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Do what makes you happy bro

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There is this incredibly beautiful girl I have been pining over in one of my classes. I spent countless hours thinking of ways to talk to her. The other day I saw her at the gym with a dude, which I assume is her boyfriend and I could actually feel my heart sink. I lost all strength in my body and finished my workout early. Literally felt like heartbreak even though I haven't even talked to her.

Pretty much over her now, but it feels bad man. The good thing is that her standards are pretty low apparently so I could possibly have a chance if she somehow ends up single, but I am not sure if I want to date her knowing what I know now.

Literally me but almost every day

>22 yr old kv
>live with parents
>no motivation to study
>saw my gymcrush at uni today and she didn‘t even look at me

JUST

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Was told to get a Hitler youth haircut because my other one made me look young. I regret this, I should have know better.

>26khhv
>asked out gymcrush
>she told me she has bf
>girls are interested in me but im too autistic to act
>30yo hot married girls are miring me constantly

Im going to see a metal show tomorrow maybe ill talk to some cute girl

Learn to read sheet music user. It makes everything else music related easier

>30yo hot married girls are miring me constantly
Bang them faggot.

Is it Wintersun?

>Get girls number at work
>text her my availability to meet up
>no response
>days later she sees me, approaches me and starts talking
>Confused I mention the text and understand if she doesn't want to meet up
>says she got busy and says she'll text
>never does
>still talks to me like it never happened.

Why didn't the bitch just say no and not fuck with me...

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>Been hitting the gym for about 2 weeks
>Feeling really good about it
>Go home and find food missing
>Confront roommates and tell them to stop
>They apologize, won’t happen again, etc
>Still coming home finding food missing
>Get pissed, tell them to cut the shit
>Things escalate, told them I paid good money for my food, and I don’t joke around when it comes to money
>Tell then next time I see food missing they’re getting punched in the mouth
>They threaten to call the cops if things get violent
Why must things be this way? I just wanted to make gains.

>pic related. Going to take months for this crap to grow out.

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>been lifting for 4 months
>only just now hit 1pl8 bench
>not even 2pl8 squat
>still look like shit
>still lonely
>still stuck in my college apartment on a Friday night
I left my PC at home so I don't even get the escapism of video games. Just drinking and watching anime for me tonight, what a hoot.

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Doesn't even look bad

Should have locked your food away. Either poison your food or start making plans to move out.

And by poison I mean food poisoning, e.g. tip the juice of a lobster gone bad in your food or something like that. You can use laxatives to pretend you're sick too.

based
have a (you)

nope

some band i never heard but entrance is free

based

Past two months were kind of shit but life is getting pretty steady in general.
Got sick of looking at bills recently and set a few to autopay for a while, feels good to get that off my mind.
Most of my feels which seem to be weighing me down are probably from some of the women in my life.
My gym crush left my gym recently but that's probably a good thing as she already had a bf, and me being into her might have been unhealthy.
I really miss the good times I had with my ex but then I remind myself of her bullshit and why I had to break it off. Found out that some of her good friends stopped hanging out with her within the past year or so because they had issues as well.
I feel like there were so many opportunities in uni and all these chicks disappeared after. Maybe I'm just lonely setting my expectations for how many chicks I should be meeting too high.

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bruh

thats what you get for living with niggers

I honestly thought losing weight and becoming fit would help me more. Yes, I know it's just a small part of the bigger picture of fixing myself, but i;m sad that even though I put in so much work to change myself I can't even get more than 1 match on tinder based on my looks alone. And god knows what would happen if I actually got a reasonable amount of matches, since I'm still extremely shut-in.

Pot tinder pick my dude

Yoyr diet sucks. You need to eat more and workout harder. Shitty diet = Shitty gains. You also need to be focusing on your pump during workouts. If you don't know what a pump feels like/is, then that's why you've made no progress; your workouts aren't effective. Squeeze the muscle as hard as you can at the top of the contraction and force as much blood into the muscle as you can, then slowly release.

4 months is enough time that you should have very visible results

On tinder the lower part of my body and the background is cropped.

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The market is sentient? Bullshit. Well, it sure as hell isn't intelligent. "Rates are going to change, just like we knew they would for months now... OMGPANICPANICPANICDOWN4%!!!!!1eleventy!"

The market is stupider than a nigger.

you arent bad looking probably but that pic is utter shit

>dirty mirror in some gym

you need some pics outside preferably with friends
>i dont have friends
me neither

Problem is my phone camera is utter trash and I can't take good pictures at all.

>And yes, I have no friends.

Fuck the drug seeker. That's why she's homeless. Let her be the trash that she is. Don't shed a single fucking tear over her. Don't you dare. She's not worth it.

>did drugs
>drugs are bad, m'kay?

BTW, fire is hot, too. And water is wet.

just turned down a girl for sex because shes' an annoying chubby latina democrat
fuck southern california

Right there with you, brother. Six figure income in an area everyone seems to love but I hate. Beautiful, smart, supportive partner. Hobbies, smart, healthy, etc....and I'm just waiting for it to all crash around me.

I dated a woman for a while. When we finally had sex, it started out good. Then she freaked and said sorry and that something I did reminded her of her abusive ex...TRIGGERED! She apologized, etc.

What did I do? I never fucking spoke to her again. Broken trash. No thanks.

Did you even apply to Ivy Leagues? They take shitloads of people, often for free. I'll bet you didn't even try.

Even though I'm getting fitter and eating the best I have my whole life, my face has started to really break out along my jawline.

Not engaging in the usual suspected either. No whey, dairy, steroids, and I have a face cleaning regimen.

The confidence I'm gaining is quickly counteracted by my pimply and prebuescent face.

>please send help

fast you stupiod moptherfucker

Finally got back up to lmao2pl8 squats. My brain kept telling me not to.
I'm slowly getting back my sanity over a girl that I just want to be friends with but my peepee wants her peepee

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If she doesn't like "the real you" then it never would've worked out anyway.
The real you is a changing, evolving human being. You aren't the same person you were years ago, and years from now you may not even recognize who you are now. Adaptation is life. Stagnation leads to death

Haven't slept in 30 hours

What's bothering you brother, why can't you sleep?

Woke up an hour ago because after party after work, didn't drink, smoked one biff, slept through the entire day.

Still, good DOMS from yesterday, and gym after I finish work at 4am. Early Saturday Morning gym has the oldest demographic, which is pretty ace cause it leaves pretty much everything that isn't a machine completely empty.

Put off building a natural language parser to the last minute and I spent the last 30 hours trying to salvage my grades

Unironically keep it bruh

Looks alright. What was it like before?

I'll try that thanks. I have noticed a bit of muscle, and I'm definitely getting stronger , but progress is just so slow and painful

10/10

I just wish I could go back in time and turn it around at the exact point where it started to go all wrong. I'd gladly offer 30 years of my life and two pinkies in trade.

She'll eventually make up a reason (self-improvement) as a way to break it off because her decision making has been broken by her abusive past. I've been there and it starts out good but over time, she'll suck the energy/happiness out of you and leave you saying now isn't the time for a relationship.

They're broken people, they could get help but emotionally investing yourself while helping her would only result in you getting heartbroken many many times to the point where you don't even want her back anymore. If I were you, I'd leave desu. Not worth going through it. I don't regret meeting her but I regret not seeing the red flags from earlier on.