Please, can we just have a thread for posting anything on your mind or feels or things you want to discuss...

i read that if it's just a min wage job you can just lie. they don't care enough to check and do you really care if you lose this job etc. but i guess you could also write down you did freelance stuff that they can't trace and use your relatives' phone numbers and have them also lie for you and all that

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lately i've been feeling like my thoughts are extremely disorganized again. i can feel its effects most when i try to speak to my parents or just writing posts on Jow Forums. i keep thinking people won't make sense of what i'm trying to say. i keep deleting lines and rewriting them

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yeah I don't have any past work experience so it's a bit irrelevant anyways
I was thinking of getting my deep-voiced british friend to pretend to be my "supervisor" for "volunteer work"

bumping because these threads happen once in a blue moon, got me through some life shit and i couldn't thank you lads enough.

i hope you guys don't mind that i keep posting in my own thread talking to myself. it keeps me comfy imagining people are reading what i say. but maybe this is pulling in more into this dissociation. when i was little i had to deal with depersonalization a lot, in fact my first ever memory when i was about 3 or 4 is just standing in the kitchen looking around, thinking i'm dreaming. now lately i've been having derealization problems. has anyone else made a switch like this?

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>deep-voiced british friend
keep him user, he'll be useful. and it sounds like a plan. smart for keeping it to "volunteer work"

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what a lovely comment, thank you for taking the time to say that. i know i'm not the only one making these types of threads (but it's probably me if i ramble and post multiple times in the same thread) but i'd like to imagine maybe it was my thread you were in at that time and that we've talked before

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it feels nice to get to go through my comfy folder like this again. some times i spend hours doing nothing but opening up these pictures until they take up the whole screen and then putting my face really close to the monitor to pretend i'm in a different world. it's probably not good for my eyes

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i shall contribute the one comfy image i found in my folder
i keep deleting most things i save, i used to keep everything and now i keep almost nothing

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it gets really lonely when even on Jow Forums you start feeling isolated. i've been making threads about the usual robot topics like mental health and such that have been 404ing with only two or three replies. where did everyone go?

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yes i've found it best to do little sweeps once in a while. if i wait too long i'll just get attached to the idea that things have came so far with me, even if i don't need it anymore

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i hope everyone including user who used to do photography is enjoying my state of the art handpicked images for your viewing experience.

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reminds me of blade runner 2049, very nice
did you see that film? it's top comfy

comfy autumn soon

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not yet but it seems like every user has seen it but me. the screencaps do look very nice and atmospheric but i just don't have the focus to watch anything like a movie as of now. it feels like there are cracks in my brain and everything is slowly dissipating into the air. at times i feel almost as though if it were really quiet, i could even hear the sounds of my conscious escaping

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where i am right now there is a small breeze coming in and it feels like winter. i had to check my calendar when i saw your comment because i somehow thought it was november already. do you guys have any autumn traditions like apple picking or pumpkin carving?

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I'm currently employed and studying what I enjoy, but I'm still feeling nothing. I have friends but I feel like they don't really care about me, you know?
I just want to feel happy again.

>I have friends but I feel like they don't really care about me, you know?
i know, user. i know. for me i learned that if i feel that way then it really is because they don't really care. always feeling like they were with me because of the convenience of our situations, and that i was always a backup option for them. but being happily employed and studying something you enjoy means that there's still hope. i think the best suggestion for someone like you is to just get new friends. do you really feel like these people will still matter in a few years?

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okay anons, it must be from our comfy talks and the cold breeze rolling in but i'm going to go to bed early tonight for once. i hope there's something to look forward to on this board tomorrow, but in the meantime keep being comfy and giving each other (you)s itt. good night and thanks for keeping me company

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watch it when you feel like you can user, it's amazing
i'm sorry i can't give you any advice for disorganized thoughts and depersonalization/derealization. i've dealt with mental problems for a long time but i don't feel like i am in the position to give others advice. i hope you get better.

youtube.com/watch?v=3L24Xs9MUlg
feelin pretty alone today. as usual

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I know this feel. Sometimes getting more sleep helps

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Im really tired user. Everything makes me irritable, I manage to be envious of everyone I know for some reason and I can hardly will myself to become something better.

It's just waking up, going to work, coming home, drinking a bottle and then doing it again the next day. I can't even enjoy my free time anymore because I always get the anxiety that I'm wasting time and I can't rest easy. I have nothing to offer anyone that they can't find easily elsewhere, my existence is negligible and expendable.

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Me too, user. Me too.

Life feels so meaningless now.

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Sure. I got a complex feel for you all. Every night before bed I feel horrifying dread because of the knowledge that I have to go to work the next morning. It's been like this with every damn job I've ever held and don't know what the fuck to do about it.
I just want to know if anyone else can relate. If that's the case then maybe that's the way everyone feels.

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Been largely unhappy with the state of my life. Not unusual, but my ever-present feeling of anger has been replaced with a condition of sadness. I yearn to become the more production cousin of sadness I once was. My mind used to be wrapped around working all day, thinking that my successes were nice, and then cursing the world for my failures because all my failures were due to unjust circumstances. I wanted to become legendary, but now I simply occasionally do things in short bursts, but struggle to find the point some time later and lie in bed all day

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Do you know if places like this exist in real Life, user?

I miss my friends, mostly Just one, he and me used to have so much fun and talk about many things, anything was better if he was there, i don't really feel lonely but having fun when being alone is Just not that good, i can't wait to see them again, but i really hope i can find more friends like him here, and everywhere else, i wish all of you aons get someone to have fun with, pic of where i used to live

You can also say you worked for toys r us. They're closing shops so your local location is probably gone now

Oddly enough, throw water to each other and fly kites

Thanks for the (you)

Little bits of acknowledgment mean a lot

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Hey guys,
Can anyone confirm if there's a limit on the amount of shit posting allowed on R9K? I feel like shitposting on MU board will land you in trash pretty quickly. In other words, is anything considered "Off topic" discussion here or not really?

ooh is that kauai?

I started writing a screenplay. I'm really excited to have something creative to do while I'm not at work.

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everything is on topic but there's a janny that doesn't like lolis
if you're into that...

I'm curious, what's it about?

Aon i don't know What is that, but try again, it's a place with lots of green fields and mountains

I'm in medical school and it's not a nightmare, but I've become apathetic to how much I suck. Chads are a very real thing in medical school, and they have genius-tier memories, while still having time to somehow have a life. Meanwhile I'm inside all day, studying but barely memorizing all this information, rarely speaking to anyone. I'm going to be socially crippled when I finally start dating when I'm nearly 30 lmao

It's not that bad though. Could be worse

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Going to see a shrink tomorrow, finally. My primary care doctor told me try CBT when I told him how much I drink every day. Somehow I'm healthy now, but he told me I would be fucked by age 35.

I know I have anxiety, I know I'm depressed, and I honestly don't even know where to start when I go talk with him. But I'm actually optimistic. Working a full-time normie job may be shitty, but at least it gives me health insurance so I can finally start getting help.

I want to make it bros.

Aon i have to keep reading this, have you considered try to publish it or something?

The first world trade center bombing and how the FBI foiled a bigger plot to bomb a bunch of tunnels and bridges across New York.
I just started. I only have 4 pages so far. I'm just going to write and rewrite until I'm completely satisfied with it. Then I might decide to do something with it.

That's great aon

Whatever you do with it, you can't let it desappear, let people see your work

It's also kind of cold, never gets over 20 C and never below 5

im uncertain about my future. My studies suck and I fear I will never ammount to anything. I have no goals. I cant think of any.

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How do you have fun aon?

I feel the same man, I'm in my senior year of college and my resume is fucked. I hope you find something.

Really bummed about not knowing how to make music or what kind of music. Downloaded FL Studio a few days ago and I've just been playing around with the plethora of presets in Sytrus and everything sounds horrid. If I wanted to create something inside an existing genre I could just stitch together many examples and everything would be so much easier on my conscience but no, the universe wants to beat me with a bat.

Have you watched a tutorial about it, do you compose?

If not try learning the basics of it

>no gf
>no social life
>want to meet people in irl through here or reddit

Most people on reddit are /b/pol/k/ posters. They're just putting on airs for the reddit accounts assuming someone is going to comb their post history there.

I hope all of you anons are keeping as comfy as you can, staying warm and cool respectively. Keep it comfy, anons.

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lole
>horrifically average here
I'm going to fail classes at my first semester of college already because I can't wake up in the mornings no matter how much sleep or how many alarms I set. How do I end it bros

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tell your faggotass to wake the fuck up to get a killer breakfast at the dining hall

I have absolutely no idea what will become of me in the future, but I hope I have the gall to either do something productive, or kill myself if things go south.

Also feet.

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I feel like I'm slowly becoming a cold, unfeeling ghost. The things I used to enjoy doing no longer yield pleasure or a sense of accomplishment. I'm smoking a lot more often too, and not because I like it, but because I feel it'll speed up my inevitable death. Being alive suddenly doesn't mean anything to me anymore, and people are starting to look more like empty, soulless husks. I've cut myself out of the lives of the people I once knew because I figured, I'm my own best friend. I figured I can keep myself company. Talking and being around people seems more like a useless hindrance. It's so annoying. I just wish I could disappear and sleep forever in an empty void, all alone.

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let's see if this works.
I may have some nice pics.

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I wouldn't mind dying.

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Ive been watching High Score Girl and it makes me want to fucking kill myself. In it the MC meets someone who fucking apreciates what he does, understands why it great and they can actually bond over it and theyll probably fall in love. Where as everyone I talk to about my hobby isnt as into as I am and never want to go farther and I never get them.

FUCK GIVE ME A GF NOW RRRREEEEEEE

Things are almost perfect. I wish I could stop blaming myself so much for not doing better. All it'll take is a little nudge or the right event and I'll be set. I just feel so shitty over not making it better already. So much wasted time and effort.

my gf broke up with me and i didn't feel anything. i've felt so lethargic and depressed these past few years and im scared of what it's done to me. im a skinny guy but i recently just started to work out and i feel a little better but i always come home with my parents either yelling at me or at each other and the stress just kills me. im not completely emotionless, i laugh when im with the few friends i have, and im really empathetic and understanding to those who need compassion or someone to support them. but for anything else in general i just feel nothing.

i don't have any motivation or drive to really do anything except workout now. i know i have really low self esteem and a bad self image, and i care more about others than myself. i don't know how to fix it, and i don't know how to be happy. im stuck thinking in a negative mindset and only know how being sad feels like.

i've been playing guitar for half a year but im practicing less and less, constantly thinking that i can't improve and im not gonna get any better.

im trying to sleep better but i just feel so cold and empty. im craving to just cuddle and spoon with a girl i love and care about but i guess that won't be happening anytime soon.

i don't know what to do with myself or what i even want to do with my life and im sort of scared

i hope everyone has a good night and if anyone has any advice for me i would genuinely appreciate it

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I hate the porn ads its obnoxious
I been feeling real depressed lately and everything I try to accomplish just falls apart
Im tired of having no money and no friends and bad grades and no gf

I'm in love with my best friend. We're both 21. She recently told me she's "in love" with a 32 year old man who obviously does not have her best interests at heart.

A few weeks ago, I told her I was in love with her. I just needed to get it out.

I thought she took it well. I haven't really heard from her for three weeks.

I'm pretty torn up.

All these anons with dump posts, but the thing is I had such an autistic upbringing that just the fact you could even get close enough with another human being like that shows how fucked I really am. Had ironic and literally retarded friends since elementary who put me down and left me to dry, while they still contact every now and then. Literally everyone I knew got sick of me in some way but never voiced it because I was "nice" (aka pussy bitch) so they pitied me and left me in the dark each time. My parents are successful entrepreneurs, but failure in their social lives and met through a newspaper. I could go on for days

I feel tired a lot, I don't feel healthy. I should get up and move around, or eat some healthy food instead of eating PB&Js for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, but I can't bring myself to do it. Lately I've been missing my friends, though it's my fault that I'm not close to anyone anymore, I just cut them all off. I take solace in being alone but sometimes I just wish I had someone to talk to, but anytime such an opportunity comes up I feel my energy draining and the desire to be alone again. I hate it. I don't want to go to university, I'm too stupid to put effort towards a degree that will actually pay good money, I don't know what to do.

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