Jow Forums Feels Thread

>had back injury
>left heal for a while.
>exercise to strengthen back and do non back intensive leg
>finally squat and deadlift back to normal numbers.
>no back pain at all.
>actually feel better repping my normal numbers than before injury.

I feel pretty fucking great lads. It’s back so I’m going to still be cautious but I feel like I could beat my rep PR in a week or two.

>Tfw wife but no gf

I haven't lifted since May. I've dropped off the face of the earth

I can barely deadlift 300 lbs how the fuck am I ever supposed to squat this?

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I don't know man. I feel like when I get to work a cylinder isn't firing in my head. I struggle to focus on anything unless I drink 5 cups of coffee. I feel like my brain is fucking with me. I'll read one thing and verify what it says, look back at it and it says something different. I then come home and weep silently about the lack of companionship and love in my life while doing nothing about it. I'm afraid every single female I show interest in is already a whore or will cheat on me so I don't talk to girls. I keep contemplating starting dip again but I feel like that'll just put me out of whack even more.

I just want to be normal again

240 bench \o/

i started BJJ last night (martial art... no homo)
I've been doing muay thai for a while

I had an interaction with a random cutie at a store that I could have continued with but didn't see it but now i do

stop the sad shit, it's all in your mind

I'm in love with a girl who has a boyfriend. She likes me too but she won't break up with her boyfriend, who isn't a bad guy. How to get over this feel...

I go to work and the first half of the day is fine, but always after lunch I want to do nothing but leave. But when I get home all I do is cook food and read a book if anything because I lift in the mornings. I feel like I have no purpose at home or at work. I have a great job, too, I just don't know what I'm doing anymore.

think its been a week on nofap now, not counting the days. deleted snapchat and instagram a few days ago, unhealthy for me. my anger is coming back, not feeling so docile anymore. getting my 30 minutes of audiobooks at the gym in every day, enchiridion and discourses by epictetus is the best book i've listened to (great speaker).

stalling on all my lifts idk, i havent even pushed for a pr in a while and i stopped counting macros so im stalling on gains too. need to get serious again, been thinking about doing low dose hgh to try and cure my osgood schlatter and see if i can get a inch or a few

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Made a new life PR

Had a gf who was a gains goblin to the core until I ended it badly. Just focused on getting through the days one at a time, lost all my friends and job but the gym was always there for me.

After a few months I meet up with a girl and did a check on her habits, quitting smoking,alcohol. Cleans and cooks. she wants to train with me

>she jumps on me
>says something about being heavy
>I squat her twice
>bets I can't guess her weight
>guess it correctly (53kg)
>stars in her eyes

Never skip leg day, shit comes in handy.

>. I feel like I have no purpose at home or at work. I have a great job, too, I just don't know what I'm doing anymore.
Exactly how I feel. Nothing is fun anymore

>Been talking to girl
>Nice butt, eh everything else
>At least she is ridiculously sweet and thoughtful
>She is really into me, tells me she likes me at least once a day
>Asked me to hangout twice last week but didn't
>Today she asked why I'm so distant
>Tell her I just like to take my time
>When in reality I'm hung up on a qt I tried to go out with
>Have been lifting heavy trying to make the pain go away
>It isn't

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Move on to the next girl, mang. It ain't worth it

Do GOMAD brah, also I recommend starting off with jefferson deadlifts since it sounds like you're a noob. You'll move more weight and there is carryover.

>Still talking to a girl I'm in love with long distance
>She loves me too
>Really wanna fuck sloots and enjoy being young
>Every time I get a tinder match I see her face and feel guilty
>Kind of want to break it off but know I might never feel this way about someone again
>Feels bad man
On the bright side I'm making good money at work and am making some good gains

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Sometimes I think about putting a ton of plates on the bar and letting it crush me to death.

I wish I could lift and just blackout until it's time for the next session.

This fall semester has been pretty shitty. Spent a good 30 minutes today alternately crying, punching walls, and doing pushups and situps.

need to stop thinking about this girl

I have an average size dong but most girls tell me to not go so deep.

Is this a shit test, should i keep pounding and hitting her cervix?

Not good. I broke up with my gf, im failing a class and my bench numbers have stalled.

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>be me
>slightly chubby
>lose 20 kg
>become weak skinny fat
>look like shit but feel more confident
>install tinder
>match with 5 chicks in 3 days
>they are all 7/10 and higher
>they all respond to my "hey whats up"
>tfw i will never date any of here because i can't keep fucking conversation going

>girl asks if im already done with my rack pulls (4pl8s)
>just one set left
>do it
>mfw she asks me if I want help reracking the weight
>initiate small talk with her
>conversation ends
>autisticly stand there without saying anything
>just leave without a word
>don't talk to her again
Did I do good?

Also
>found her fb
>has a bf

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>Have a presentation for my evolution course in uni come Monday
>Skipping on it because public speaking still turns me sick
>Just gonna tell them I'm gonna be out of town
>Flight response hits hard and I can finish the presentation but after class ends I come down from it and I'm vomiting in the uni bathrooms for varying times
>Easier to take the grade docking (on the presentation part of it, still gonna help produce it) than it is to make myself physically ill over it
>Medications have done no help
I can talk to girls no problem but can't give a 5 minute presentation. Fuck me.

>Not sure my current relationship is going to work out in the long run. Finding out our goals most likely won't line up. 1.5 years possibly gone.

>Feel trapped in my small college town away from most of my friends. Best friend thinks I'm depressed.

At least I hit my 300lb squat for three sets today. Pitiful by Jow Forums standards but I'm happy about it.

>She has a bf

Well at least nothing was lost user.

18yo here, will my life get worse the longer I take to improve my social skills? I legitimately can't see having friends or family 30 years from now.

>will my life get worse the longer I take to improve my social skills?
yes

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Hey lads. i was just hanging with a pal the other day, texted him when i got home and he hasnt responded since. I'm a little concerned, i have this sinking feeling in my stomach. i just want everything to be okay but my anxieties always take over and assume the worst, that he's ghosting me, that something bad happened, etc. he's definitely not the kind of person to do that to me and idk what bad things could happen. how the fuck do i Calm down?

Feeling pretty good in general but dissapointed I wasn't able to get my ORM for bench up (although it's not in a bad position). I did however get ORM deadlift up and I'm gonna try ORM squat tomorrow.

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this happened to me last year and I got them to stop by screaming "REEEEEEE" as loud as I could. No consequences arose.

I haven’t talked to a girl(beside formality such as thank you to the cashier and such) for 7 months now. There are so many pretty girls in uni and I just want to hide away from them all

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Been doing nofap for the past 3 months. I tried doing nofap 2018, but I failed like 8 times. I'm always horny and I'm always trying my best not to look at porn. I cracked this morning. I didn't jerk off, but fucking hell, I was so close to. Still struggling in college. Not really sure what I'm doing here. I feel like I'm too dumb to be in school with all these well adjusted people. I do want to graduated and leave my shit depressing job, but I've been in school and at my job for so long that I feel like I will fuck things up. I feel like working at my shit job is the only thing I'm good at. I'm kinda also scared to leave because I feel like I'll fuck up and end up coming back working here.

I'm still very lonely. I've never had a gf and I've never had sex or even a kiss. I feel like I will be lonely forever because I'm very ugly and dumb. I also come from a very fucked up family, so I don't think any girl would want to be a part of my family.

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Exactly the same brother. Scary how similar.

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What do you weigh my man

Keep pushing user. The tougher things are now the better they get in the future. We believe in you.

Yeah but what the fuck am I supposed to do after the convo ends? Just walk away like I did?

>therapist suggested i go on prozac recently
>oblige cause im sick of having shit motivation and feeling bored and sad all the time even though i actively do shit thats supposed to fix that
>feel like a fucking zombie. dont feel mad, dont feel sad, just fucking a retarded zombie with no creative thoughts at all. brain feels numb.
>yesterday going to the gym felt like pulling hairs and i barely got through my usual routine and half assed almost all of it, i mean it when i say that it took every ounce of willpower i had to do each set
>have to do community college for 2 years before i can leave my shitty hometown and get away from my insane family
>idk how to make friends in college
>no gym buddies to go with to keep me from getting bored
>i know it'll get better eventually but man if it isn't hard right now

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>look in mirror before lifting and think im an ugly mutt
>Look in mirror after lifting still an ugly mutt
It's not working lads I think I need to change my perspective and not let my ugly mug and Identity issues fuck with me but I don't know how.
Also my cut is going well I can already see my abs better and ive lost 5lb

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27 here, still live with mom and pop. Getting second bachelor in Comp sci, 2-3 more years of this...

>also i cant fucking jack off. and dont tell me thats a good thing nofap is a meme and jacking off every 3 days helps with testosterone

why not just kill myself if i haven't already done it i obviously don't care about myself or anyone else i'm just a fat dysfunctional selfish piece of shit faggot nobody gives a fuck i'm gonna jump off a fucking bridge fuck everything i fap to femdom on the regular including sph and ones where i'm forced to suck dick and only a few times and not in a long time but i've also fapped to legitimate cuck porn before it's too fucking late for me man i've failed as a person and as a man no woman will ever love me and even if they think they do it will all be over once they see me naked and even if all of that doesn't happen i will have to live knowing what a hoorendous excuse for a human being is fuck everything fuck it i wish i would have choked to death on my mother's placenta wrapping around my neck i want to die

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this board has made selfconcious of my jawline. and it's been really fucking with me even though I know it shouldn't

keep at it. life's a bitch

Call instead
No. You could've just said "alright I'll see ya"
Walking away without a word is pretty weird,bit not a big deal. It's kinda memorable at least

you should try to find something or someone to be proud of relating to your heritage, don't let memes get you down. its not anything you can control besides. nothing to be ashamed of at a ll

I did 6 chin ups.

>tfw gf but not good enough for her
>gf is very qt braniac that goes to god tier engineering school
>im just a bum that doesn't do or offer anything
>average-below average face, have a gut, not particularly smart (definitely not enough to compete with her caliber)
>Tfw she's constantly surrounded by other men >>> me
>tfw despite all this, have thoughts of infidelity (i like to believe i would never act on these thoughts)

>tfw can't decide whether this feel or no gf is worse

Day by day I strive to become a man that deserves her. I need to start meditating the unfaithful thoughts away, and training even more.

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Cut and lift man

Would you guys rather have a gf or a fuck buddy with no emotional bs attached to it? Having a gf seems nice, but idk if I could deal with all the drama and work.

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Gf for that emotional support and cuddling

anybody have that collage with all the tinder sloots and in the bottom right its a girl on reddit talking about how shes fantasizing about the dude who beat up her boyfriend?

I just want to have at least one female friend so I could know what women my age are like

Didn't realize that I gained alot of weight after 1-2 years of not being overly active. I was 70kg back then and now I'm at 84.59kg. I have been chosen as one of the groomsmen for the wedding of my cousin, I honestly have no clue why because she moved to Germany a couple of years ago and we haven't talked to each other. I have let myself go, and look like shit so I'm panicking. Right now I want to at least look good for her wedding and not embarrass her. So far my suicide has been held back because of this. It might be God's way of telling me to hold on.

>diagnosed bipolar
>bittersweet feel stepping back and realizing the tremendous number of good things i fucked up in my life by doing terribly stupid shit while manic or cutting people off while depressive, but also realizing that it wasnt the “real” me who did all that stupid shit
at least i’ll always have you guys

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If she's worth it, you'll make it work and still end up enjoying it. Otherwise, what's the point of being together?

Let's be honest, you're probably smarter than her. You're on this website after all. Don't fall for the "discipline = intelligence" meme.

Don't fucking fall behind. You must be better than her always, then she'll never cheat on you (and if she does that means she's not as intelligent as you say she is).

It still won't make sense. I can say I have 4 real female friends and I'm more confused than ever

luv was the best
also gosling is a faggot

he's dead

>you're probably smarter than her. You're on this website after all.
bahahahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahaha

6'3" 280 fatty
just started going to the gym last week. hour cardio/hour lift, 4 days a week
Haven't worked out seriously in almost 4 years. Everything hurts, but feels so right.
Didn't even realize how much I missed lifting

In the last month I got awarded my PhD and my gf broke up with me after 4 happy years. Recently went on a successful tinder date and then never heard back from the girl again. My housemates have revealed themselves to be selfish cheapskates and are now demanding I pay more rent than before for no reason. I feel kind of withdrawn and lonely. But after not working out consistently for about 3 years, my OHP record is 90% of what it was at my peak, so I’m happy about that.

Overall, life is a 6/10 for me right now. I won’t complain too much.

How do you talk to women? I know you have to keep trying but I’m having trouble even talking to 6/10 red lobster waitresses. It seems the more I talk to them the more I am aware of how ugly and boring I am

I can bench my original body weight (58kg) now which made me immensely happy. But aside from that I’m stuck in a job I don’t really like and have no idea what I want to do with my life aside from improving myself.

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>dreamed about her again
I have noticed that getting a good sleep schedule means I actually have dreams again. Kind of a melancholy feel, dont know if I like it or hate it, I guess I like it atm cause its an escape but it hurts to wake up from it sometimes.
On an unrelated note, anyone else just now discovering the rowing machine? I was sweating like fucking crazy I probably looked ridiculous but man that was a fun cardio session

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sorry to shit up this thread with a loser feel but i think it's pretty funny how pathetic it is

>still live with parents in mid 20s due to some extenuating circumstances mainly around being a fucking loser
>mother left on sunday for two months, she was always the one who did the cooking, im gonna be alone with my father for two months
>i know how to do some cooking but nothing really intensive mainly just cooking for one type stuff, never seen my father cook anything
>say that im gonna make a chicken breast on the stove and my father literally asks me how long to cook it, doesnt even know how to

boy this is gonna be great folks, we should get a sitcom

I don't know. Most of the time it's boring shit and I entertain myself during the conversation by making jokes. But sometimes it's engaging, or I get to talk about something Im into

Someone PLEASE help me figure this shit out
>meet qt
>ask her on date
>she acts like she likes me
>we go, it fuckin sucks because I'm nervous
>sperg out
>she says she doesn't like me that way
>delete her
>ignore her
>months later she talks to me like nothing happened
>she acts interested again
>keeps making plans with me but then flakes on her own plans

Why the fuck does she do this to me? She acts like she really wants to be around me and then never texts me and flakes on me, plus I have to see her at the gym all the fukin time. Why is this happening?

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Hit 220lb diddly 3x5 yesterday at 145lb 5'11" DYEL supreme. Feels pretty good, lmao2pl8 will be momentarily satisfying.

holy shit are you MR SKELTAL post body

Girls have ADHD and can’t/won’t commit to anything more than a few hours in advance unless you’re a 9/10 Chad

>mfw 5'9" 135

Should I think nothing of it? Ignoring her won't work because I live literally right next to her and I miss the shit out of her

>mfw i have never had trouble talking to girls in a casual environment like work, class, etc, and always make people laugh, but have never been on a date and 26 khv

i mean im definitely boring in the sense of being a worthless shut in autist, but not boring in the sense that i am funny with engaging conversation

Not quite Mr. Skeltal but definitely hungry. Not home atm but if this thread is still up later I'll post a pic.

WHY ARE WE STILL HERE

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I owe my bank 32$ and I just had my account closed because of it. I'm broke and jobless so I cant pay it back AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

>making great progress with lifts
>paid off student loans
>just built a rad muscle car that i drive every day
>good paying job with good work/life balance
>still bitter and hate-filled because of traumatic, abusive, neglectful childhood, loose skin surgery making me look like frankenstein's monster (raised obese from elementary age), and most of all the mutilated jewdick my parents and the soulless monsters of the american medical industry gave me
fuck this gay earth

Call the bank and tell them a sob story. They can be surprisingly sympathetic.

Work has been burning me out hard. I do like my job and I like the work I do, but these past two weeks have given me such an astronomical workload. If I'm doing something, I always have three more things to get to. And it's all time-sensitive. At the very least, my shift ends at 6 and I get to go home no matter what due to it being shift work, but it's waiting for me the next day.

I've been coming home exhausted, which is not good because I need to find the mental energy to keep studying for an IT cert and keep my workouts going. Feels like my free time is being taken from me piece by piece...

Hope for a better life keeps me going.

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Damn I tried to play it cool and look like I don't care

I fucked up so bad. Spent most of my time growing up being a fucking lonely loser. I kept waiting for a girl to come along and everything to make sense. When she finally did, I was slow to realize too much of a coward to react in time. We had something small going on but she moved on because I'm just not emotionally mature enough. It's a while before I'll see her again. It's like there's a clock in my head counting down til then, and it's all I focus on. All I do is workout like crazy to try and look my best when it comes around. I feel like I'm letting my life pass by as I wait for somebody who probably will never want me again. I know it makes no sense, but I just can't seem to move on. There's plenty of other girls I find attractive at uni, but for some reason I just don't feel motivation anymore. At least my chest is looking nice tho.

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>take rest week because stalling on everything, haven't had a proper one since I started almost a year ago
>realize how much time I spend at the gym
>realize how awkward I am, how I have so few friends and how I always manage to ruin friendships
>have made great gains but still feel dyel
>women always nice to me, compliment me, smile, still feel ugly and worthless
>always just wanted somebody to hold me, end up getting drunk and having worthless sex
>all the women I meet seem the same, I just want a pure girl that will love me as much as I love her
>absolutely miserable when I think about it
>feels like I'm stuck doing something I hate, know it will probably be this way for a long time
>just want to lift now

tell me something good Jow Forums

Take it slow user

she may like you, but also may like another guy, i think she tried to be another guy and ended disliked him, so she acts interesed in you again

If 35 years of life have taught me anything, it's that the only undergraduate majors that guarantee the recipient is capable of critical thought are physics and philosophy
All the others are doable by morons through a combination of grinding, relying on others' work, and cheating

You're probably right, do I just stop approaching her and make her do all the work now?

all of those majors are good, think hard if you really want to switch. but choose whatever will make you happiest

I went the CS route, grew/graduated up in the midwest and now at a startup in NYC and doing well

I just want to say again because I think this all the fukin time: college was the hardest thing I had ever done, I had countless nights where I didn't think I was smart enough to learn whatever we were covering in class. gotta persevere and graduate. the harder your college life, the easier the rest of your life I think

I think I need help
I grew up in the ghetto and around Mexicans and blacks
I'm white and almost got into some issues recently

I need to change my identity somehow and get rid of my ghetto past. It's over
I don't live there anymore but my mind is still back there in that area

I need to shed the ghetto out of my life and embrace sjw culture
Something has happened Jow Forums