My depression, self-pity, self-loathing and despair is now turning into pain anger hatred and fury

Maybe because everyone else is the reason I became so autistic. I knew people who left me for reasons they didn't tell me, basically leaving me to deal with shit I wasn't aware of

mmmm hahaha yes, don't worry, it will happen my brother
fucking KILL them, pick up a fucking shotgun and DO something about it

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>fucking KILL them
Well I'm not THAT autistic, but I'm not some delusional faggot either who blames himself for everything

then suffer, watch as everyone spits on you, kicks you around, pushes you, abandons you, hurts you, watch as you do absolutely nothing about it

hurt them, make them feel as they make you feel

peace is a lie, there is only passion, through passion, you will gain strength, through strength, you gain power, through power, you gain victory, through victory, your chains will be broken

pick up the shotgun and DO it or asswipe shitstatin FUCKheads like this fucking faggot will spit on you and tell you how you should be grateful they're even paying any attention to you because they're so much more valuable then you, because in their eyes, you're WORTHLESS, you're noTHing

so make them feel how valuable they are...show them how much their life matters and how much more it is than yours

it's the only true way

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You're fucking smart and self aware. I've had this mindset for awhile now but couldn't quite exactly put it into words. I've cut off everyone and suffer in silence because I rather this than be around a fucking fake piece of fucking shit.

>starting to
i started fantasizing about killing people almost a year ago and i think about it every day. not only can i not stop, but i also don't want to stop.

>hurt them, make them feel as they make you feel
What kind of faggy shit is that? It's called transcendence user, channeling your hate to raise your position in the social hierarchy so you can look down and laugh at the faggots of old. And that other guy is delusional like I said

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>You're fucking smart and self aware.
haha, you think so, but you see, not people, you see, people like this motherfucking piece of shitstain tool , do you know how people like them view me? like nothing, like some worthless psychotic pathetic animal thing in need of some drugging and sedation, they see themselves as above me, as superior, to everyone in fact, they are not just meat slapped onto some bones, no no no you see, they are the shit and you are NOTHING, fuck you is what you and i are, they are immortal they will live forever and if someone tells them they're just going to die like everyone else oh nonono, you see they are putting effort into going into the history, books, they're becoming greater than you because remember you are nothing and they are something so fuck you because you're not feeding into sociopathy and you deserve to be caged like an animal because you're pathetic...to them

they will use everything they can to demean you, even ironic detachment and fucking memes, this is the most prominent method here, but just take a moment to really think and watch how they slit your throat with a smile on their face and tell you they're helping you and that you should actually be sucking their cock for doing so
>I've had this mindset for awhile now but couldn't quite exactly put it into words. I've cut off everyone and suffer in silence because I rather this than be around a fucking fake piece of fucking shit.
that's right, i was too, but just plunge yourself into them and make them suffer, do everything you can to make them miserable and think about all the fucked up shit they have done to you, it's not the individuals, it's everyone, but just to be safe

fucking slaughter the individuals, if you are too afraid to do this, hide your identity and destroy their lives, frame them for a crime, get them arrested

whatever it takes
mmm haha it's only a matter of time

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>What kind of faggy shit is that?
it's the shit that will solve all your problems and set you FREE

the faggy shit that will fucking destroy everyone who has hurt you, made you suffer, made you cry while you were hopeless, powerless and helpless on the floor as they spat in your face, that's what "faggy" and "cute" shit this is you condescending fuck
>It's called transcendence user, channeling your hate to raise your position in the social hierarchy so you can look down and laugh at the faggots of old. And that other guy is delusional like I said
bullshit, that's exactly what fucking darwinian machiavelian bullshit i fucking hate, you can do that too, but it will NEVer be as satisfying as completely crushing and destroying and fucking literally ELiminating from existence the very people who thought they would live forever while spitting on you, you will only be able to affect their minds

how about this, transcend, laugh at them, make their lives as miserable as absolutely possible for as long as your amusement lasts, and then eliminate them from fucking existence

don't just stop there, you can't just stop there, go all the fucking way

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t. larper faggot

hahahahahahaha you're so funny, you think you're funny do you? impressing the cool kids oooh look how much of a memelord you are oooh how amazing haha larper faggot larper faggot stupid worthless idiot

i will make it my duty to hunt one of you down and make you scream your stupid fucking ironic bullshit at me while i slowly carve a smile on your face and rip your fucking eyes out then blow your face straight off with a shotgun

i won't be larping for long...haha...you think this is a joke, you think it's all joke, because you think i'm a joke don't you? yeah that's right, you're better than me, you're superior than me, you're more than me, oooh you're "self aware" and "cool" oooh you're "not a faggot" hahaha so funny a comedian aren't you

and it's your stupid jokes and inane bullshit that will get you killed...

we'll see who's laughing MOTHERFUCKER get your fucking pen and paper out and get ready to start counting ohh how you'll wish you were sorry

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I feel you except I don't really want to bear the responsibility of killing anyone
Instead, I want a big fucking meteorite to hit the Earth. It will make normies go crazy and run around like headless chickens while we will watch them with smug grins on our faces and wait for the sweet release of death

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But you are a faggot because you're lingering on bullshit when you should've noticed by now that the overly empathetic expectations you had of society is what brought your downfall. Rather than embracing your faggotry, embrace those that spat on you for making you realize you need to take what you want and not wait for your share. Eliminating them is fearing they're right

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oh how i wish this would happen

you can give yourself the sweet release of death right after you absolutely destroy everyone who has caused you to suffer

hahaha...i love taking the dumb, stupid, idiotic naive optimists values and listening to the absolute extremes, hahahaha...they're so stupid...never give up on your dreams, ooohh thank you don't worry i'll never give up, i will blow as many heads off as i possibly can before i have to blow mine, i'll throw grenades and take down helicopters if i have to to fulfill my dream of seeing everyone who wronged me fucking DIE

you should to...they will only spit on you hurt you and mock you as you stand now like and , they will never allow you peace and constantly interrupt your solice

hahahah...so take heed of the silly tongue-flopping cheery optimists words...go do something about it....pick up a shotgun ;)

ooh look another one of them trying to slit my throat they just never stop coming do they

there's only one way to get rid of them

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>But you are a faggot because you're lingering on bullshit when you should've noticed by now that the overly empathetic expectations you had of society is what brought your downfall.
oooh don't fucking worry i will make everyone see how amazing i am right before I FUCKING MURDER THEM, i will become as rich as possible and show them how much better i am than them before i blow their heads clean off
>Rather than embracing your faggotry, embrace those that spat on you for making you realize you need to take what you want and not wait for your share.
ooooohhh hahahah of course i'll embrace, them don't worry! i'll embrace them for hours with a knife between my stomach right into theirs
>Eliminating them is fearing they're right
oooh esoterical are you? eliminating them MEANS THEY'RE GONE

if someone fucking punches you are you just going to stand there and say "ooohhh noooo....if i punch them back then i fear they're right oooohhh!!!" like a little fucking panzy?

idiot

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>MEANS THEY'RE GONE
In a larper psyche like yours they'll never be gone. If that's all you're getting at, mineaswell skip to the noose because I'm sure you don't even know where they are right now
>if i punch them back then i fear they're right
Blowing their brains out silences them, weak larper faggot

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Sorry I forgot about this thread.

I didn't mean to imply that all of your problems are your fault. Without knowing much about you, I'd have to guess that something outside of your control caused you to begin to withdraw from society, then that withdrawal made you less sociable, so you were shunned more and more until you were making threads on r9k about wanting to kill people.

>oh horse shit, are you fucking serious? do you even know how you sound? "MAKE SURE EVERYONE LIKES YOU AND YOU FIT THE AMAZING HAPPY CHEERFUL FUNNY ULTRA-GIGA CHAD PERSON BECAUSE IF YOU'RE NOT THEN IT'S YOUR FAULT!"
This isn't what I meant. I wanted to point out how you look to other people. Would you want to hang out with you? Probably not. It's not that people think "oh man, I really hate that guy over there I'm going to avoid him", it's more "I don't get anything out of being around him". They have no malice towards you. It's more that they only see what you are like on the surface. If they were to understand what it means to be shunned, and how being shunned affects a person, they likely would think of you differently. It's ignorance, not malice.

Lashing out violently certainly won't help this situation. It'll only make the rest of society avoid loners more. It would also be immoral. People might be self centered at heart, but they still feel compassion. They still feel love, even if they need relationships to be mutually beneficial. There's nothing wrong with wanting to be happy with your friends. It's not moral to hate people for not wanting to be around unpleasant people.

hahaha yeeees show me YOUR TRUE COLORS you HYPocritical fucking IDIOT

hahahahah, you all think this is a joke don't you? you always do, ALL of you do, because how could i forget? you're better than me, i'm nothing to you, i'm a piece of shit aren't i, because darwinism right? the strong survive right? the weak vs strong and i'm the waek and you're the strong and it's you vs me right? hahahahahahaha oh i'll bring that fucking fihgt righit to you in rEAL life not just on the fucking plastic box and we'll see how you'll fare as you walk out of the starbucks with your latte and i blow your fucking smile clean off that pretty little face of yours

weak? oh yeah, oh i'm weak alright, let's see how FUCKING WEAK I AM WHILE YOU CHOKE ON YOUR FUCKING BLOOD GASPING FOR BREATH you fucking frail piece of shit

oohh i definitely have to carve a smile on your face if i see one of you little memelords hahahahahahaahahahahahah

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>thinks hes strong that he can kill someone who hasn't acknowledged his existence in a decade

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>Sorry I forgot about this thread.
oh i bet you did, becuase you don't give a shit, even though you pretend to, that's what you all do, you all pretend to care, but in reality you just want to hurt others to make yourself feel better...so fine,,, that's exactly what i'll do to you

fuck you by the way go leave this thread right now why don't you
> so you were shunned more and more until you were making threads on r9k about wanting to kill people.
oh yes you did, you assume everything i'm sure of it, now you're just changing what you said because you just realized you did something wrong but oooh yess that's right, psychologize it some more will you mr. phd in psychiatry, lay it all out and explain how you think i'm some stupid idiot and you're not mmmm hahahah i'm waiting for you to show me your true colors
> I wanted to point out how you look to other people. Would you want to hang out with you? Probably not. It's not that people think "oh man, I really hate that guy over there I'm going to avoid him", it's more "I don't get anything out of being around him".
shut the fuck up and stop talking to me like i'm an idiot and don't know these things and fuck you, yuo think i don't know? ah yes of course, you think I'M SSTUPID DON'T YOU hahahha....and i have to fucking CHANGE who I AM to make you LIKE me? then FUCK YOU
>They have no malice towards you
yes they fucking do you naive twat, and so do you stop playing dumb and LYING, you have no idea what they are, you think they don't know? THEIR KNOWLEDGE IS WHAT GIVES THEM SATISFACTION IN HURTING ME, it's how they KNOW they're doing wrong because they find plEasure in doing this things my fucking god you're thick aren't you
>Lashing out violently certainly won't help this situation.
oh how bout you shuv your thumb up that ass of yours and WATCH me "help the situation" and fix everything by eliminating the people who think they're above me

DARWINISM RIGHT? THE STRONG SRUVIVE RIGHT? WE'RE LAL BETTER hahahahaha

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mmmm hahah yes keep going keep going FUEL MY ANGER KEEP GOING GIVE ME MORE STRENGTH TO DO THIS

IT'S ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE I FINISH SOTCKING MY WEAPONS I ALREADY HAVE A SHOTGUN AND A FEW PISTOLS OOOHHH ALL I NEED IS JUST A FEW MORE JUST WAIT MMMMM HAHAHAHAHA

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Let's assume you're right on all counts. Everyone around you knows what it's like to be ostracized. They know exactly how you feel and they get off on making you suffer. Your desire for revenge is not only morally right, it is righteous. How many of them are you going to kill? 10? 20? Is that going to change society at all? Will it end peoples' hate? Will it make them stop pushing social outcasts away? Or will it make them feel justified? Will they say "man, that guy I've been enjoying ignoring so much isn't only a loser, he's dangerous. I should try and get him locked up so he can't hurt anyone. Maybe I'll tell the cops he was harassing and stalking me. At the very least, they'll give me a restraining order."

Your plan won't help anyone. It will only lead to the further demonization of robots. There are already bills in the works to take gun rights from people with mental health diagnoses. What will happen after another shooting by some lonely, confused man? I assure you nothing positive. I would posit that you should accept that people don't want to be around you, and that they have a reason for it. From there, you could simply embrace the loneliness as I have, or you could start down the long road towards self improvement. Both of these outcomes are better for you and society than a counterproductive (and immoral) shooting.

ya ya, well have a good night laughing maniacally user. just dont keep the neighbors up

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you stupid fool, we will all die in the end, you think society won't die? you think we'll be here forever? even if you spent your entire life improving society, even if you saved the entire planet from everything, we will aLL FUCKING DIE, the entire planet will DIE and it will all have been for NOTHING

you keep saying this stupid happy go lucky optimistic bullshit talking like i give 2 shits about the betterment of society, you fool, i want to DESTROY society, i want to DESTROY people, i want to DESTROY EVERYTHING, i want it to all fUcking DIE including you

oh and don't worry, i'm already on the path to self improvement, hahahahah, i'm improving myself as we speak, everyday i save more money to add to my collection, i have my shotguns and a few pistols all i need now is that riot suit, that bulletproof helmet, a few grenades and if i can fucking manage it some way to get something to take down a helicopter and or armored vehicle probably going to have to get it off the deep web, so don't assume i'm not improving myself, i'm superceeding myself! hahahahahaha, i'm lifting weights and doing cardio to give myself as much stamina as possibel to FULLFILL MY DREAMS DON'T YOU WANT ME TO FULFILL MY DREAMS user YOU STUPID OPTIMISTIC IDIOT? I'M JUST FULFILLING MY DREAMS MAN HAHAHAHAA
fuck you go kill yourself i will too but not after i kill you, the people who have wronged me and as many other people as i can first

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The problem is that your dreams aren't what's best for you. Even with grenades (which you can buy completely legally, you just need a $200 tax stamp on each) and a bulletproof vest, you still won't be able to stand up to a cop a mile away in a window you can't even see. Cat 3 helmets are only rated at 6 rounds of 308, and that's assuming they don't shoot at your face. You won't accomplish anything, and you'll die in the end. Coming to terms with the world around you is the better plan.

ohhhh i don't give a shit THESE ARE MY DREAMS AND U ARE A PESSIMIST IF YOU DENY ME MY DREAMS HAHAHAHAHA dumb idiot

making an optimist not only pessimistic but in fact nihilistic ohh how fucking hypocrtiical you people are

i will accomplish everything, i will completely eliminate everyone who has wronged me and kept me down from existence essentially becoming victorious over the war they have waged on me, and that's all that really matters to em

if you do not believe in me and my dreams, then you are a hating negative person and should go improve yourself because you obviously can't handle the successes of others hahahahahahahah fool

oh and P.S, it's a full face full head 3A helmet, new on the market, but i'm also going to combine it with another strap helmet ontop that's level 4, but past destroying everyone who has hurt me, that's all just extra finesse

anyways, how about you go and "improve society" so you can make it easier for me to slaughter you btw? while i go out with a bang and you with a whimper

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I don't believe that Op is blaming others for his problems, but rather taking out his frustration and anger on them as they possess things/experiences that he desires.

>edgy 12 year old who just discovered gore sites does terrible "muh psychopath" impression
the absolute state of Jow Forums

wrong, i don't give a shit what they experience or things they posses you fucking wannabe psychoanalyst, i want to fucking DESTROY PEOPLE, to destory eVERything and eliminate the people who have wronged me and cleanse this filthy, disgusting, deplorable species
hahahah yeah it's a joke isn't it oh keep going keep throwing your ironic detachment and your memes you fucking stupid little memelord, keep laughing and pointing fingers keep putting yourself on a pedestal to me hahahah you filthy fucking vile creature

you all think this is a joke...and it is! your fucking head getting blown clean off is a joke, very funny hahaha

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lmao the absolute state of you lad

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Ok, hold on a second.
So you're saying that you want to eliminate the people who have wronged you.
So, does this mean you'll only kill those said people or absolutely any human that comes in your way?

ooh yeah how disgusting, look at him, how cringe, ooh he's not part of my hive minded ironic detachment meme groupthink normie fad culture oooohh how un-self aware ohhh yikes! yikes the absolute state of him! look how beneath he is to me, look how worthless he is to me and to us, i'm worth more than he is and so are we aren't we? we're the cool kids, we're worth more than anyone specially this person he's nothing, i'm not a sack of flesh and some bones no no i'm more than that i'm transcendent to that i'm much more than him

absolutely FUCK you you stupid piece of shit, i'd like to see the absolute state of your face after it's blown to fucking little shards and pieces all over the pavement

keep posting your fucking stupid normie facebook GIF's and make sure you go outside so i can implode you into little pieces fucking twat hahaha
BOTH

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Why don't you like being ENTP?

That's what I am. Is it a bad one? What's the stigma?

chill brother, tell me what is going on

Damn this whole thread is pathetic and the very reason society will never accept most of you "people". Society own you nothing you gotta earn that shit and being eggyy just makes you even more unlikable.

>Why don't you like being ENTP?
what are you talking about? when have i said this? i don't care what personality type some internet quiz says i am
>That's what I am. Is it a bad one?
i don't ufcking know it depends on who you ask, if you ask me most people look up to it because it's the personality type of people who change the world and whatnot read more about it on the website and you'll understand
>What's the stigma?
people look at it as sociopathic and i mean even in my opinion it is
do not tell what's "going on", he's a cutthroat masking himself as an empathetic all-knowing zen psychoanalyst phd in psychology advice giver when in reality if you expose his true colors he is condescending and only means to judge you and place the blame of absolutely everything you feel upon yourself therefore making you feel even more crushed

absolutely disgusting, they like to hang around as well, very reddit-minded

keep everything to yourself, bottle it up inside and channel the pain into anger and fury and unleash it upon those whom you wish to seek revenge

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FUCK you i don't give a SHIT whether or not you like me you stupid narcissistic self-obsessed hive minded NPC dimwit, i don't give a FLYING FUCK about your stupid fucing "society" you so dearly hold, in fact i don't fuck a shit about you fucking filthy humans, i will literally murder you, everyone who has fucked with me and absolutley anyone i come across in the process of and after and take as many as i can before i go down

you fucking condescending darwinisitc sociopathic motherfucker, fuck you and your "pathetic" beneath me bullshit i fucking hate you so much, i'm so glad i can actually d osomething about it

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HOLY SHIT THIS WHOLE THREAD IS FUCKING AMAZING
You lad, oh man you're something else my man.Never let the world or society change you.

And get into history as the freak who killed people for no reason other than being an oversensitive giant pussy. Suck it up thats how the world is, you killing some people will not change it rather make others see people of your kind in a darker light. At least you'll die in the end so the world will be a better place I guess.

don't worry about that
HAHAhahahah, and you will die as well you delusional wannabe immortal stupid piece of shit go fuck yourself

i'm being the complete opposite of an oversensitive giant pussy, i'm being the hero and i'm slaying my fucking dragon, what the fuck are you doing? being an obedient slave your masters? dumb fool go improve my ability to blow you to fucking pieces you fucking jackass

negative hater pessimistic nihilist how dare you demean my dreams and betterment to society, you should be fucking grateful i'm putting you out of your misery, don't be so negative! ENCOURAGE ME TO FULFILL MY DREAMS YOU PESSIMISTIC NIHILIST! I'M IMPROVING SOCIETY! HAHAHA

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You're right, brethren. You should lash out all of that repressed rage into something really, really good. Have you ever had thoughts of it? Shooting those NPCs in those GTA games that is?

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lmao just be happy bro

>So much this
original text

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In that case you better be extra careful until you get over it.

Everyone one of you will do nothing. You're only delusional kids.

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the guy pretending to be off the deep end has a bit of a point

Every morning I wake up with a smile on my face because I dreamed of a killing spree.

cool, why don't you just start off by killing yourself?

Yeah I will die too like everyone else but I will be happy with myself knowing I didnt fall prey of my emotions and weaknesses in a state of mental instability. I never let myself get to such a weak point where I gave so much power over me to the world and turn myself into a freak. You should really seek out some professional help so they can lock you away since it would be best for everyone. People wouldn't die and you would get the help that you obviously need.

Sounds like he would die happy too. In addition, being locked away sounds counterproductive to that happiness.

Seems i'm not alone
But actually when i'm at home, in comfort zone, I dont think about it and I dont feel all the rage

But when I'm on the street, surrounded by normies I just want to destroy them
Its ironical, normies tell you you're becoming crazy because you're a shut in who doesnt talk to people, but NO, it's actually the reverse, when im not interacting with someone or im at home I just want to be at peace and alone, but when I'm "socializing" that's when all those feelings come

I think I just want to disappear, not leting people know where I am or what I do, and live a comfy lonely live

I was feeling that way for a while. It's turned into apathy, now. I've given up, my only purpose is to get drunk and enjoy as many anime/video games as possible until I'm dead. Other people are just obstacles or helpers in this goal

Make your fantasies come true

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>my depression, self-pity, self-loathing and despair is now turning into pain anger hatred and fury
>i'm starting to fantasize about killing people
I thought I'm the only one...

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Do something about it pussy.
"me kill ppl becoz of ma feelingz", in that case just put a bullet in your head and leave the rest of us who are actually making an effort to live our lives.

> in that case just put a bullet in your head and leave the rest of us who are actually making an effort to live our lives.
I smell something...

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this just solifies my views that its normal for me to want to kill people cause im an ISTP
>I JUST WANT TO FEEL SOMETHING

hey OP i recognize that ancient reptilian controlled AI program, one of the most obvious ways it's basically implant control is when you start thinking of ways to rationalize or explain away murdering people in your fantasy, either through "woe is me" self pity programming (which wasn't transformed, only further expanded upon) or some "higher purpose" that society needs to be taught (implant piggybacking on ego projection).

I'm not trolling, learn to recognize psychic manipulation because YOU have the ultimate power - free will & co-creation.

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you need to overcome the pain and learn from it
you should start thinking about yourself better
you're better than that
you deserve everything same way as others
it's all in your mind

in case you're still here OP, remember to write a manifesto so we won't forget about you

t. FBI trying to prevent a mass shooter

It's gotten worse. I don't want to kill random people, I want to kill evil people. Pedos, corrupt politicians, drug dealers, rapists and murderers. The world deserves to experience the wrath of cruel justice.

The point of society is to bring justice, and it has failed.

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