Feels

Went through a period where I really fucked up my wrist (fixed now), and right now one of my shoulders on the same side is a little messed up too

On the plus side though I recently rehit my old OHP PR of 135lbs for 5, so that's nice to be making gains again. Also finally got a real career type of job and started dating someone for the first time in god knows how long. We're all gonna make it

Why don't you like corporate workplaces? I personally like them but it might be because I'm a robot.

Hell. The wife left. The crush doesn't feel any desire for me.
On the other hand, this drives me to lift even more.

Yikes but based towards the end there

Slightly better than last year, low bar but still.

Pretty shit tbqh. Started getting wrist tendon (back of hand mostly) pain from March this year, took off few months and started to build again but now have it in full force again due to own stupidity (bad hand position on a fucking bicycle and bad wrist position on computer). Got severe hunger pangs(that didn't satisfy with eating) most of the year when I had more tendon issues, maybe that was body demanging food, so that greatly impacted whatever study I was doing as a previous neet. Also became a bit fat.

Hair started falling a lot and feel I'm receding but can't be certain, I never shoot my pics so have no past reference.

But did start feeling my age. I'm 25 now, so finally beyond the age I can play a proper sport. Also the tendon issues and hair fall kinda made me depressed. I'm going to focus on a perfect recovery first half of the next year, and my health so I can study well at least. Maybe that will help me lose fat too. Though I'm a bit demotivated doing this shit when I'm already getting this old

Been shit overall. Better than the last 4 or 5 years of my life, definitely. Still feel shit. I'm starting to work full time, I'm working out more, got a gf. Just, none of it seems to matter.
Least I got a psychiatrist appointment finally made for early February. Gonna see a doctor at the end of this month for my anxiety issues just to get prescribed something temporarily. I have depression as well but it's not nearly as bad as anxiety. I don't wanna die or anything, I just feel very unfulfilled. Nothing makes me really happy. Nothing makes me really sad. Things take more effort than they should for me. I should be happier than I've been in a long while but meh, just not feeling it. Does make me feel *slightly* better knowing I'm making progress and I'm going to see someone about it all.

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I've started lifting and by now I kinda don't hate looking at myself in the mirror that much, feels good. Now I just gotta lose weight for summer and the world will have 1 CIAO more.

Every day used to be awful. I've got it down to about one or two awful days a week. Still a virgin, still haven't started school, still haven't gotten a better job. But I've gained about 20 pounds, I'm more confident, more comfortable being myself in front of others, cut off a lot of people that made me feel like shit. Gonna start learning music in the near future, see where that goes.

A lot of people have noticed that I'm getting bigger and stronger. I'm making steady progress, but there's still a long way to go before I reach my goals. Still need to quit bread and Jow Forums, find something more productive to do on the computer.

Broke up with my girlfriend of two years because I just stopped caring one day and never recovered. I moved to a new city for a job that pays 115k but makes me want to die, and city life is so expensive it doesn't even matter. I only have one friend here and he's a recovering from a divorce after getting married because the girl demanded it after 25. It turns out I might be bisexual this whole time and have just suppressed it for years. I'm almost 30, exhausted, and absolutely lost.

But I finally hit 2 plate bench, so one of the best years of my life. I'm going to split the difference and bag me a short haired girl in 2019. Wish me luck.

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Ive left all social media, left all friends, finishing school. Most of my friends are thot fuck buddies from tinder. Gym and work is mostly my life.

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Hang in there user you got this. Maybe take it easy with deadlifts

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Broke up with my gf of one year because I realized she wasn’t going to mature or work out long term. Happened last week.

BUUUUUT im seeing gains doing a ppl which is rad, next thing to work on is a new girl, though im an autist who can’t tell im being flirted with

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Mostly good. Got in better shape than last year, on the path to graduate college soonish with a degree I like.

Broke up with my girl of 4 years, and that was hard. I've had a hard time finding someone else I care about as much, but that's probably the wrong thing to search for honestly.

My parents are gonna die soonish, which fucking sucks though.

That part doesn't matter as much as you might think. Just be careful about latent autism in other categories; that's my problem.

Fucking horrible but I try not to think about it.

Very average year. Bad shit happened, good shit happened. Hoping next year is much more good than bad.

It was ok. Wasn't as glorious as 2016 was, but it wasn't a terrible year.

Last year I was super close to making it.
This year I gained 60lbs and stopped lifting

On the plus side, I got a great new job, I got LASIK, and I bought a home gym. So next year will be doing the progress of 2017 all over again.

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Can someone explain the story of Ds3 to me?

Is it just: we're all undead. This is the end of the world. The Ashen one has to ignite the embers to rekindle the cycle of rebirth so we can actually regain our humanity?

Or are we the players just basically ending the world as we're far beyond the apocalypse and the only thing in this oblivion are husks of corpses of long gone humans.

>A endless cycle
>Dark souls
>Failure until you make it

Why did no one tell me they based it on a mans journey to getting Jow Forums

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completely suicidal and grasping for something to not feel this way before i do it and hurt those that care for any reason be it selfish or benevolent

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>peaked mentally & physically end of 2016
>regressed bad in 2017 and hit an all time low
>beginning of 2018 and up to August were not much better, but a little.
>things have been getting better recently and am slowly getting my old self back. lots of progress be made, but at least my head in the right place now

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I told myself in January that this was going to be the year that I get my shit together. Worked really hard and all of my plans failed. Horrible.
Well there's always 2019 I guess...

Haven't done drugs in like year and it fucking sucks I hate being sober

Do some acid.

>25
>"feeling the age"
>"this old"

kys.

Finally started being more talkative and less autismo. Still slightly racist. Grandfather died early October. I think that I finally found a good formula to get myself pretty buff while being 5'10 200lbs

Already did

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I'm 25 too but what the fuck dude... the issues you describe are only nuisances, get some perspective

sounds like your problems lie mostly in your head; time flies by that's for sure but obsessing over hair and wrist pain like your life is over before it even began is honestly pathetic

I have wrist pain too, lifting makes it better in multiple ways: it strengthens your arms and shoulders and makes it easier to maintain good posture when sitting on pc all day

and why the fuck can't you do sports at 25? stop buying into memes

started the year out on crutches with broken tibia/fibula. depressed. cunt doctors wouldn't give me anything for the pain. gradually heal, still in pain, foot healed twisted. finally feel strong enough start lifting again in august. totally reset my program. feels good, start adding accessories to the base power lifts broke 2pl8 on squats a little while ago, will break 1pl8 on BP and OHP and 2pl8 on DL before christmas. feels great. got all my parts to build a harley chopper. got money in the bank. We're all gonna make it bros.

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It was great. I got out of a nightmare business deal which was killing me, hit 2/3/4/5, got down to about 13-14% BF (down 6-7% from this time last year), had a lot of good sex, finished a few projects, started exclusively dating a new girl in August, learned some new software which will make me a lot of money in 2019 and a few other things. This year rocked.

I recently had my girlfriend wake up an bawl her eyes out. She said that she dreamed that she had imagined me and that we had never happened. In her dream, she had to come to terms with everything we did together just being something she made up. She woke up and thought it was real and burst into tears. Then I came in to see what was going on and the tears switched to a different kind and came down even harder. I held her until she fell back asleep. She whispered that she didn’t want to sleep because she didn’t want to lose me again before she dozed off. It pains me to know that most of you will never know this feel, being so loved.

Pic related.

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happy for you bro honest, you guys better have a beautiful family and raise your children to be amazing people

Still hung up on my ex, didnt have sex a single time this year.

Ready to move on tho.

>still slightly racist
never relax bro.

It wasn't an internship, I've been doing this for 12 years. Basically just realized I hate my career and don't have hope to advance at 32.

>it pains me to know most of you will never know this feel
Aight

Your ohp is the same as your bench?

Pretty good
>Worked first half of the year at a supermarket
>left to work at an insurance brokerage
>started getting fit and gaining weight (former skelly)
>put on 15 kg
>bought my affordable dream car, pic
>got a promotion, with a 30% pay rise
>not depressed for the first time in 6ish years

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are you me? After 2016 it's been a downward spiral, starting to get my shit together last few months

I also had a problem with a dream that kept appearing. Then i started reading Men and His Symbols by Carl Jung. It changed my mindset a great deal.

Good
Hit my strength goals, started a new sport (bouldering), did alright in my uni classes and got a part time job i enjoy.
Recently broke up with gf. That was rough.
My friends tell me they admire my drive and that it inspires them. I just laid out my goals for 2019 and I'm hell bent on destroying them. Im gonna be a good example to everyone around me.
Dont give up bros, bring intensity and never give up on being the best you can be. We're all gonna make it.

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Goodluck lad

Pretty good overall:
>accepted into nursing school
>got into BJJ & Mui Thai
>bought my first firearm

However I’ve come to the realization after many years that my form for a lot a lifts have been wrong and has caused said minimal gains for me. I went back to SL last month after watching several videos about proper form and having a couple gym buddies watch to notice any mistakes. I’m looking forward to what awaits me in 2019 both inside and outside the gym

Great, better than 2017.

shitty

tfw my ex from a year ago is online in steam
compelled to write her, just to catch up
but things ended rather quickly and kinda shitty
plus i'm trying to get over someone else now

this year sucks in that regard

so many guys breaking up...

>stronger than i have ever been
>better looking than i have ever been, both body as face
>life generally going in the right direction again
>crushing loneliness is getting unbearable

Women have been throwing men further downhill and 2018 seemed to be the nail in the coffin for many.

On another note 2018 was a fucking ride and I'm in a position which I hate but could be worse.

>tried to kill myself in a frenzied mess after I drove to my ex's house once she moved out without saying a single word
>came home and everything was gone
>fast foward ended up going back to school and working on getting a degree again
>tried full time but settled with one class that I actually saw through til the end
>went between 3 or 4 jobs because I'd get yelled at for mundane shit and couldn't handle it (fuck retail and not having a degree)
>threw my back out to where I was out the gym and work for three months
>got back into it and now almost fully recovered
>gonna go back to massage theraoy school next month im excited
>got a new girlfriend who is the most wholesome chick in the world
>family has turned on me and constantly belittles me for not having a job despite trying to pay their rent and buy food for myself and everyone and also get shit on for not finishing school fast enough
>im almost 22 with no degree and no job as of currently
>kind of hate myself but I'm doing what I can and that's all that matters

Hang in there guys

Worst year of my life so far, honestly
>Two car accidents
>4 traffic tickets (three at one time)
>Starting to feel disconnected from all of my friends because they don't have aspirations
>Broke up with Colombian GF
>Financial trouble
>Family is in shambles
>Nobody takes my goals or dreams seriously
>Ran out of plates in homegym
>Job at Lowe's is garbage but can't find any better part time work nearby
And to top it all off, I'm about to tell the girl I've been crushing on all semester how I feel about her because chances are that I'll never see her again, so what do I have to lose, right?

>Ex fucked with another guy a month later
I can only imagine how that went

Oh, and I fucked up my left thumb by hitting it with a wood chisel last winter. Severed the nerve so now the outside edge of my thumb has no feeling.

>got a degree
>took a lot of drugs
>had sex
p good. I hope I can land that software dev job in early 2019, but it's fairly hard to find part-time shit. Might have to settle with some somewhat relevant job to get on my resume. Maybe even a gf, but I'll need balls first.

Fell in love this spring. We did have something. I wanted a relationship, she didn't, yet we still were together every weekend when I was home. She often told me "We have to stop this isn't going to work", yet then next weekend came and yeah...

It kinda did work out for 4 months, us not hanging out alone with each other, she even got a boyfriend. Cheated on him within 1 month with me.

Things escalated and I was blocked from all comms for 4 months now.

Last Friday we met, talked, and now are in touch again. I don't know how to handle the situation yet, I can't reach out to my friends, since all I get "dude just ditch her", "You really shouldn't allow her to get involved with you" and stuff...I know they're right. But I want her so badly.

But hey I'm lifting 5 out of 7 days a week. I did get a better body. Not satisfied yet, gotta lose more fat.

Just find another girl, you clown. Or better yet, don't be a sucker who is this fixated on girls.
Whatever she did with you, she'll do to you if she gets the chance.

Fuckin great, started a new career and am killing it now, setting up more certifications for next year already. Finally got serious about lifting and diet, kicked bunches of bad habits like caffiene and sugars, formed new habits like waking at 430am. 2019 is gonna be gains central station, rdy to kill it all year long.

This was the year I started trying to get Jow Forums, it was ok. I can finally do push ups now, yet my shoulders hurt.

sadly I'm fixated on this one girl.
It's so dumb.
and before you ask, no, I don't any worries to focus on otherwise. well, except losing fat.

Great. I started lifting and im currently cutting

>started getting Jow Forumster
>broke up with girlfriend of 5 years
>went on happy pills
>put on weight and lost all progress
>lost 3 jobs
>lost majority of my friends
>now deliver pizza
>seeing a new girl for about 4 months
>started going to the gym again recently

Think I'm nearly out of the dark lads

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>>broke up with girlfriend of 5 years
why

I'm here to repent
>I added S.O.Y. to my morning cereal and have been doing this for about 2 months thinking it was all a meme. No sex drive any longer
>I took 12 days off working out and my weighted pull-ups went down by 20%
>I procrastinate all the time and don't use any of the opportunities open to me
I really want to do better. Really, very much

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I wasted most of the year but I've turned things around

based

I've given up. I'm in my 30s now and never going to change. There is no place for me in the world. I'll be jobless and lonely forever. Don't really give a shit anymore. In 2019, I'm taking all my savings and going to travel to all the places I've always wanted to go and fuck as many hookers and loose backpacker girls as possible. Not even going to use protection.

I've tried spirituality, meditation, self-help, all the Peterson meaning bullshit. I see through it all. Life is meaningless and I've become a nihilist without help. Might as well engage in some well deserved hedonism before I inevitably kill myself.

Still gonna keep working out though

i haven't been in contact with any ex girlfriend after we've broken up and i regret it
I'd very much like to stay in contact with my most recent ex, not be friends but just, stay in contact.

She already has some other guy and while that does hurt, i'd very much love to not fade let her fade out of existence.
Would it be too much to just outright ask "hey, so i know things between us might be a bit awkward but i'd like to stay in touch"?

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objectively made gains but I feel like shit
>no longer horribly dyel
>extra job, extra money
>finished part of diploma, 1 year left

but
>still dyel
>no passion for either job, still stuck working these jobs for at least one year or more, current job is mindless drudgery with occasional danger
>can't move out most likely until I finish diploma and get into a real career
>learned how to act, chat, joke and laugh like a normie when working or at school, make decent acquaintances at work but still forever hiding the fact I have had no friends for 10 years or ever had a gf
>girl actually seemed to show interest in me, asked her out, she said yes, still managed to fuck it up, didn't have any plans on what to do when she found out I was no normie anyway
>everything feels purposeless, feel like a pit of inadequacy, insecurity, and anxiety but don't and can't show it to anyone
>dad died years ago from cancer, heavy smoker, mom may have cancer of a different sort, waiting on results, really hope she doesn't

I'm not even close to my mom or sibling, I love them dearly but I'm not very open with them. None of them know that I have no friends either, I can't let them know as I fear them worrying. I really want the holidays to fly by so I can go back to studying as it gives me something I can be passionate about but at the same time I dread it as I will have a classroom full of girls to pretend to be normal in and I'll have to see the girl who I asked out. Anyway, I can still appreciate the little things like realizing the jar of peanut butter from months ago is still good and that I'll have a decent sandwich to eat while driving to work but for fucks sake I wish I had something to look forward to in life, that I didn't have to be on edge pretending or thinking of the right response, and that I had people in my life I could trust to not be a burden to or be hurt by.

Life needs to get better by 2020 otherwise I see little point in going on.

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Trust me brother, you'll be better off without her. You've already seemingly come a ways after those 4mo apart. I just got out of a relationship I'd had with a guy basically same as you, it didn't end well. Not for me, at least, but he's moved on extremely fast, so maybe I was just deluding myself the whole time

Going to see my crush in a week. Going to confess to her how I feel. Even if she says no, I'll finally have closure, but I know it'll hurt a lot.

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gay or stacy?

i just sent my ex some christmas themed flowers

Gay, maybe my prejudices are right and he just was interested in a trait I was showing, either way he had literally 3-4 other guys he was doing the same with, so I fucking hate life and don't know if anything we ever had was real

basically same as me? care to elaborate?

I'm bored at work and got some time on my hands, if you wanna talk about it.

Best to date my dudes
>finally started liftan
>stopped playin video game
>escaped from depression
>made good friends and cut out fake assholes

I'm fucking excited for 2019 tbqh

underage get out

I fell hard for him, he would help me with some deep seeded emotional problems I had, and then I decided I should repay the favor, stick with him through whatever, same as he did for me. One thing led to another, and he apparently was in a loveless relationship with another guy, I told him how he should best go about it and then after some weeks they ended up breaking it off, as it should've been. He would weirdly recover quickly from such a loss, but I promised to stick with him though it, and if he needed anything he could ask me. I began to love him, and eventually confessed it to him after developing those feelings more, and he said that he didn't want to label himself like that, and bla bla bla. I forget the arrangement we made, but it was basically what you guys had, where every week we'd do some loving and cute shit somewhere in the week, and then soon after problems ould arise, and we'd stop talking for a while. Turns out he'd be doing the same thing behind my back during those times, which I found out about, but did nothing about. Eventually I brought up how it made me feel like I wasn't really special to him, and he'd always deflect, calling me selfish.

I'm not sure I want to go any further, I'm sick right now and I don't want to recall these painful memories so soon, I've just been deluding myself into thinking he was using me so that I don't go back into depression, but this misplaced anger isn't much better.

i'm about to do something really stupid lads
all in the name of unreciprocated love

Please don't

but i have to, i have to so i can come to an end with all of it

it was a generally good year. did some big things in my life. still havent been on a date or in a relationship or sexually active at all in 5 fucking years though so i should probably fix that ASAP

It's not worth it, bro. Trust me, there's more out there for you.

i am fully aware of it not being worth a damn thing, really am yet i have to satisfy my inner romantic idiot to check that box on my inner list of things i would regret not doing

literally just had a dream like this an hour ago

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Lost my virginity to a thot in an open marriage. Turns out they didn't want an open marriage once she actually got laid and got divorced. Retarded but I'm almost a wizard. The guilt and stress made me have a nervous breakdown.
I don't say that lightly my Doctor sent me to the cardiac unit and had batteries of heart tests I was so fucking nerfed. The guys not even worth my guilt he was a way older stoner freeloader living off her in return for babies she was desperate for. Ended up loaning her 2 grand to cover his debts like the retard I am. Possibly the best thing to come out of it was the shock to never end up like that cunt. He deserved to be cucked but I should have known better. I was a good person but as a 27yo virgin the boredom and nihilism got the better of me. The latter is the worst plague.

Lost most of my savings unemployed. lost most of my gains. Have a shitty job as a dishwasher I'm probably getting fired from tonight and I'm recovering from a bad stomach bug.

Got my 2pl8 squat to 10 reps which is a personal best and push pressed 75kg which I'm proud of even tho I never made the 1pl8 OHP I've been striving for, oh and my wrestling is much improved from last year. Really feeling like I'm a decent martial artist now. It's all for nothing ofcourse.

I can't at this point imagine turning my life around I'll be homeless or suicided by 30.

Worst part is I'm still with her and she's totally in love with me. I love her too but its all too much and I'm terrified of when it comes to break her heart.

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What's the thing?
It sounded like suicide or murder at first, but now it sounds like you're going to hold a boombox over your head at some girl's house.

oof sorry to hear it bud, i slipped my disc years ago and it happens like once a year now. shit sucks. i find that trying your best to be a normal human through it and not being bedridden helps it heal faster but ymmv