How do I stop wanting to kill myself every single day if I live in a small town...

no its not because the probation is too fucking long. I want to try and transfer it but I can already tell no matter how hard I try to transfer or no matter how much effort I put into it or no matter how much I keep trying its just not going to happen. nothing good ever happens. even if I rode out the probation. something else will probably happen that forces me to stay and suffer. parent getting sick or just something I already know something is going to go wrong

So save up and move. Literally your solution. What else is there to say? You need to put in effort to get what you want. You aren't going to suddenly wake up in another country tomorrow morning.

I'm not the guy you think I am. Why don't you cut your lil dick and suck it. I lived through harder shits than you cunt

>finally get thousands of dollars
>get arrested and get put on probation

there's literally a curse or something stopping me and ruining my life I cant beat it

Shut the fuck up. I am helping you. Shut up. Transfer, ride it out I couldn't care less. But I am telling you things nobody else will because nobody but me cares. Ditch the faggot attitude. Leave home brother. Whatever it takes, leave that cursed place. Fly out and land in a new home. Away. Full of legal weed, hope and promise. Don't respond to me again

yeah I keep trying I have to wait to transfer. the first PO I got said oh transferring is easy as fuck but then I talked to my lawyer and he made it sound impossible and everything I read online says it should be easy

sorry for responding

also what part of upstate are you from?

Its fine, I'm used to autistic thinking. Seems like you can transfer. You need to tell your lawyer, "Hey, I don't understand. I'm transfering out of state and you need to lay it all of for me how this is going to work"

Finger Lakes, nigga. Lived outside Utica forever. I'm flying out next week.

where are you moving to

and yeah my lawyer says I need a job there but like how the fuck am I supposed to get a job without even knowing when and if I can transfer I cant give them a start date or anything

Lets just say somewhere far away. Where the grass is green and the girls are pretty. You need a mental health advocate, like a case worker, ok? You don't want to kill yourself. You want to live, but you need to ask for help.

not him but how do i find a case worker? ask my doctor?

I dont think anything is going to help except that transfer shit :/

I don't know who is worse, you for posting this shit that no one cares about every day or me for posting this shit no one cares about every day.

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You can ask your doctor, but also advocate for yourself by searching online for local mental health agencies, googling your town+case worker+your diagnosis is a start. They are out there, find them

You are worse and I barely gave this thought. anime avatars don't make you cute for shit

is there a difference between case workers and therapists?

Yeah, case workers are an extension of a local/state mental health agency. They can drive out to your home and help with logistics such as social security/disability benefits, etc. You don't speak so personally with these, but they can direct you toward a therapist

would there be one willing to help me transfer my probation and find a job out there and shit? surely there has to be some sort of service to help people out of these fuckholes

Simple answer is yes, but you need to source them out and do,the foot work. Tell me are you diagnosed with anything?

>op makes this thread everyday for about a year now
what is his end goal?

fuckin' big man go suck your own dick my man

I have chronic fatigue, anxiety, migraines, depression, and add

Don't be jealous. He's finally getting what he asked for, a little help

I really want friends. someone should add me on discord

Well that good you have it all catalouged :) Here's what to do. You need to make an appointment with your doctor to get a consultation. Speak candidly about your grievences (anxiety, depression and add are the three major aspects you need to focus on) and then the surcumstances that aggrivate these conditions (legal issues, living conditions/isolation, etc.) As crass as it may feel, you need to "sell" your disability so that the powers that be hear you and respect your condition, so that gaining things like case workers and benefits are possible, okay?

Well then you should be nicer. I know you can do that, nice guy

I live in a rural area and theres no one around and im too depressed to talk or do anything

Well thats why the internet is so fucking cool. You are talking to me and csn tslk to any other souls on Jow Forums. I'm fucking depressed to, but look at what we did. We talked. And it was ok

yeah I guess but I really wanna bang chicks and not be trapped in my room alone and miserable 24/7

this probation shit was the last draw I HAVE to die now

If this back and forth between us is to continue, you're going to stop sperging suicidal shit, ok

well whats so shitty about your life? is it anywhere as near as bad as mine?

I have been alone for years. I am 33 years old motherfucker. I am autistic, depressed, etc. I live alone and haven't touched or spoken to anybody in in person for months. I have no friends, no love, and the family I grew up with has abandoned me. I do have NEET bux and other benefits so I'm not complaining, I'm trying to help people like me get this too. I am so very fucking sad and I am going to drop my reality as I know it to fly the fuck out of here and be homless in a strange and possibly dangerous city until I find another home. I have an insane amount of love that I keep to myself because no one needs it

fuck I would give anything to be homeless and not in trouble. at least you dont live with your parents I feel like a fucking man child and its not even my fault

yeah i definetely have to kill myself this is so fucking bad

I know, that's why I'm trying to help you. I know you can too

>a year
It was since 2015.

I cant even go be homeless without going to prison or something god just fucked me. he found the only way to fuck me and struck me down as hard as he could

Hit that motherfucker back, get your shit straight nigger. Do it. I gave you mad tips tonight don't be a faggot about it

Get an oil job and a place in the city. It's what my brother did.
I make ok money but I live alone so rent and that is a bit steep. It's making me hungry to afford a mortgage.

I cant do anything with probation plus a curse on top of that. ha. no. nothing good is ever going to happen to me

theres nothing I can do against god hes just following me around 24/7 waiting for me to find my next source of happiness and rip it away from me

You actually want to be hurt and your dreams crushed. You are cuck, KEK! Fuck, you couldn't be lead to water in the tub

I thought about that too like I sub consciously sabotaged myself so I dont have to leave the comfort of my parents house and pay some 1000 dollar a month rent working a full time job but I knew I would be happier so im not sure I did that

lol fuck off you sick cunt, you should man up and kill yourself already.

Get a case worker nigger, exploit the health care system, get benefits/housing get out. Nigga you know its calling your damn name nigga

ive been thinking about that but I already have too much money to do that and that would basically just be me killing myself slowly sitting inside sleeping all day

it does sound better than this and I really want to do it but then I would just be sitting in my shitty small town bull shit sleeping all day waiting to die. well that does sound nice actually...

also how does that work? can you get it just for anything I have a fucking SLEUTH of disabilities that are life destroying and I haven't even got the serious ones diagnosed yet

doesn't that limit you to like 2k tho? I could make a lot more money than 2 grand like A LOT

I have been sick to my damn bones, sitting on my ass. I'll be homeless soon for a while until benefits kick in. I'm nervous as shot but I couldn't wish for a better tomorrow. Fuck my town, fuck the shops, and fuck Jow Forums. I still got love for it all, but excuse me for a sec while I fucking get spiritual and retarded and excited

what illness do you have? I have chronic fatigue and literally always feel sick as fuck it like really fucking sick and dying and stuck on my bed for months at a time im literally always tired

Technically and on the books I have autisma and major depression. Sounds like you could benefit from a talk with a doc

Something good happened to me.
I got to say hello to you.

no nothing good just happens. the only thing that happens to me is more and worse depressing shit I wish I was dead maybe ill just do what the other user said and just get disability and lay around and sleep all day. seems like its what god wants me to do

This nigga ain't fuckin around

If thats were true , then you should shut the fuck up. But you wont because you are I sucker baby for good feels. Stop pretending nigger faggot roastie reddit

You should shingle houses.
You'll feel better if you start moving around and if you get good at shingling it's the sort of job with low overhead if you make folk put money down and buy the material with that.
I do flat but I'm stuck working for the boss because you have to deal with insurance companies etc to get your own jobs with that. Thats why I recommend shingling, you can always move on to flat for steady pay but learning shingle is better for personal development (idk)
Anyways good luck, you're scrappy you'll be fine.