The Feels Bar is open before the new year. What's on your mind Jow Forums?

Been drinking more lately. Winter is just so boring and literally everything you can do inside is made better with booze.

All i want in life is a job where i can clean the scum off the streets
For the majority of this year i have been learning about every single aspect of the job as a cop
This year, additionally to my actual routine i will focus even more on physical form
I just want to ride around the town at night, solving crimes and listening to calming saxophone
Maybe a good woman awaiting me at home after my work hours, but that would be more of an unnecessary treat, than a requirement
I hate people who try to appeal to criminals and their culture, whether through media, music, whatever
I'm seeing the decay of our world with my own eyes, but it gives me no fear, for that it'll just give me more cases to solve

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I fucked up organising anything now I'm probably gonna be home alone for New Year's Eve.

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Do it man. Just give a break to the reasonable people out there.
Drunk college kids and nogs get the boot.
Also show my respect to the inner city cops.

rise up you sick cunts

who cares about feels, fuck bitches instead

Although i applaud your fervour the truth is if you actually try to do your job you will be fired. The criminals are a protected class.

Get a decent job, financial aid for an associates degree that transfers to a BS, practice jhanic meditation and lift.

All it takes.

You fuck bitches for feels user, or are you a sociopath? Kek.

I'll be wagecucking tomorrow night. Can't even work from home because I can't forward calls to my cell. Fucking bullshit I tell you.
I'm gonna bring my switch in and try and play smash with the people in the office. Better than working all night

I lack assertiveness, despite being a better-than-average-build 30-year-old man. I can push back on weights, but not people.

But I have identified the problem, and that gives me the beginnings of a plan to address it.

Thanks for listening, bartender.

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Be confident in who you are and what you've done.

You're going to be surprised when your department keeps getting fucked to appease the liberals. My family is on the force and it keeps getting worse.

And i just remembered a story, with a really sad ending
>talk to a girl online
>we seem to get along well, she's pretty intelligent, and i'd lie if i'd say she wasn't pretty in the looks departament too
>the thing is, she's a heavy drug user
>i try to talk her out of it, but nothing works
>later she tells me her uncle molested her when she was a child
>he died in a car crash
>turns out the girl is a really good artist, though her paintings are very gory, basically torture porn
>we voicecall, watch movies together, talk through cams, all that
>once i was really sick, she spent half of the night texting me when i couldn't sleep
>one day she voicecalls me just to say "i'm sorry"
>last online
>2 years ago
I'm the type of guy to expect the worst, so i connected that to suicide
That's when i decided it.
That's when i realised i need to protect what little good is left in this world, and eradicate the evil.

Godspeed, Yui

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I don't live in America, i'm from eastern Europe
The cops can still be cops here, though it's slowly taking a bad direction aswell here

lol what

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Basically, i fell for a girl, she took drugs, she was diddled, she drew gore porn, then she presumably an heroed because of trauma
That's the dummy version of the story

>grandma has alzheimers
>2 weeks ago she fell and had to get a bunch of stitches on her head
>last week she got hospitalized again for some sort of sodium deficiency.

It really sucks seeing someone in your family deteriorate like that. My mom is going up this next week to see her. I feel like I should go but I'm at the point right now where I'm job searching.

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I feel like I peaked and will never have a good job again.

Got my bachelors last year at 26, and landed an amazing job in marketing at my dream company, had amazing pay, benefits and workmates. After 6 months they didnt renovate my contract because they froze the funds. And I was jobless again. It has been 6 months and got nothing, and had interviews in the same company but I didnt get the offer.

Got a part time job which pays half of that money and I get no benefits at all. I feel like a failure. I will never get a job as amazing as that one and no one wants to hire me for other jobs anyways. I'm thinking it's better for me to die since I can't get back to my dream job again.

I don't know, at least I got a job but I feel like a failure, I'm old, not enough experience and no one wants to hire me because 6 months and no job yeah, looks weird

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Hey user I have a question for you. There is this girl that has strongly alluded to her father raping her as a child and has claimed to have run away from home and changed her identity. She likes me but she dresses boyish and doesnt shave her body hair. She is good looking enough and has a decent personality. She always talks about suicide but only when drunk. No one seems to be doing anything to help her. What I'm asking is this. Should I try and give her a chance with me? Part of me wants to think it is manipulation but another wants to help because I have no reason to think she is lying. It's tough. Part of me thinks I could save her but idk it seems foolish.

There's a girl that I'm starting to really like who I'm too pussy to make a move on. Two Netflix dates in a row and I didn't do shit. Didn't have this problem with the last 5 girls ive fucked so not sure what my deal is. Thinking of doing some one on one drinking games next time I see her (if she will see me again, not too sure but if I do I know it will for sure be my last chance before I get cucked)

What moves anybody recommends I can do in that setting? Any recommended one on one drinking games? I already know what to do for a movie but I feel like movies three times in a row will be gay (it's been her idea every time to do this shit).

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wow sick brag on fucking so many girls

Nobody is bragging retard. The post is literally saying how there is an issue with getting laid. Not everyone is a virgin NEET who posts here

I think I'm starting to hate people. I don't think I have any genuine friends or anyone who cares about me beyond how I may benefit them. Everyone I know outside of family is inconsistent, uninterested, dull, and hopelessly envious of superficial things that don't matter at all in the long-term. Ideally, I'd spend the rest of my waking years cultivating my own self far, far from anyone in civilization who would dare to interrupt my efforts, but even that wouldn't bode well for a naturally extroverted person like myself.

Shit sucks and I don't know how to approach this newfound despondency.

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> I already know what to do for a movie
Not to seem like a brainlet here, but
what exactly do you do?

Struggling with motivation, been on a downward slope for about 2 months now.

We care about you, fren.

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The only way you can find out is by trying, man
I'd say go for it, if she means something to you

my oneitis is flaring up again right as things were getting better for me. New job, more motivation, more opportunities, etc. but now I feel things are going to sink right back to my usual levels of depression when it inevitably does not work out with the oneitis.

First entry of my journal for the new year.

I'm writing this because my NYR is to be a completely different person in one year. I'm heartbroken, unhealthy, and my depression is at the lowest it has been in years. The only thing stopping me from suicide right now is the number of people that would be eternally sad if I did it, which is why I have no choice but to improve.

My gf broke up with me a month ago, I seriously injured my back at work in June and haven't lifted since, and I have no friends or hobbies other than browsing this site every night. I'm sick of being a loser, I'm sick of being cheated on, I'm sick of getting friendzoned, I'm sick feeling helpless and hoping that some random miracle will come down and save me any day now.

I have no idea what my plans or goals are right now, but in 365 days, I want to be happy for the first time in years.

Besides you sit next to them, you prefebly early on in the movie put your arm around them. Then as the movie progresses you cuddle with her and kinda touch her more and more. You gotta read her body language so you don't go too fast or do something autistic. But as you escalate with dumb shit like even playing with her hair or stroking her leg you eventually go in for the kiss.

You gotta do it right but if the girl isn't a total lazy sack of shit, she'll do some of the work for you or do stuff to you too so you know to continue or she'll hopefully initiate some of it too.

I'm horrible at reading body language so I'm usually guessing all the time lol but that's basically how a movie date is done

You should go man, people get really lonely when theyre old and it would mean the world to her if you can make it. Im sure you can still job hunt while youre away, and if you get any phonecalls and explain the situation, will probably work in your favour too.

>That's when i realised i need to protect what little good is left in this world, and eradicate the evil.
>decides to become a cop

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>implying being white is enough. I hate how many IQlets work-ethiclets try to act like the white race is at all great because of them or people like them. You’re probably a fucking loser

>I have no idea what my plans or goals are right now, but in 365 days, I want to be happy for the first time in years.
kys and don't clog the gym in january

Ok. Thank you friend.

Fuck off, its because of cops that college inside of cities is pointless, we all have to go to actual college towns to be able to party

Thank you for the motivation fren. I'll be squatting three times a week

I just want a damn job I’ve been living like a hobo on my parents couch for two years now.
Tomorrow I’ll get completely wasted and fuck some random thot

honestly thought this was gonna be a rehash of the story about the user who dated his childhood friend but then said friend killed herself and he went to her funeral instead of the gym. The story ends with user crying every time he thinks about the lost gains on that day.

>implying that moving to a management position hasnt just made me realise how many coddled, useless fucks there are regardless of gender or age

Took a job making good money out of school and 6 months later I wanna kill myself. Depressed as fuck and having a hard time making friends in a new city, probably spending Nye alone. Considering switching jobs but I'm still locked into my lease for another half year. My resolution for this year is to make some friends outside of work, even if some nerdy shit like dnd or something

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Do it user. Lots of people have destructive and powerful defense mechanisms in their teens and 20's but can grow, especially with a good partner. Worth a shot I say.

>Break up with ex
>Feel like shit at first but then start to be real with myself
>In reality, I saw it going nowhere because she was 27 and I was 23, she clearly still wanted her ex, she had mystery sexy pics on her phone that I never got as well as Tinder (which she "forgot" to delete), lied about her plans, implied past promiscuity, SJW/liberal etc
>Jow Forums told me multiple times to bail the fuck out and eventually I stopped ignoring you guys
>Even before the break up, I wasn't truly happy, but settled because I was lonely
>Moved on from her very quickly once I stopped lying to myself and feel incredibly happy now
>Met this cute Asian girl at the sushi restaurant I go to regularly
>She was clearly interested so I eventually asked her out
>Have fun together, she isn't western minded and younger than me
>ex finds out about this
>Had a complete mental breakdown on social media, said I never cared about her, called me "abusive" on social media (all because I wasn't comfortable with her lying about her plans and not making any time for me) and that this new girl is just a rebound
>The last time we talked before all of this, she claimed we were only casual and that I took it too seriously, even though she said otherwise before, which makes me trust her even less
>In reality, I was the only one who put effort into our relationship (she wouldn't even make 5 minutes to talk to me, didn't have sex with me for more than 2 months etc) and I've legitimately moved on seriously don't give a fuck anymore, even though we only broke up at the start of the month

Jow Forums was 100% right

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I wish I could sleep. I have to go to work in two fucking hours.

>I got assaulted last week and I’m kind of afraid of going out
>invited to a party but my ex might be there
>planned to go to a bro’s house and just drink and talk about stuff but they won’t confirm

On the bright side I might get Spidey for my ps4 tomorrow so yeah

Have a New Year's party tomorrow but the problem is that I don't care about any of the people there. I've known most of them since middle school but this will be the first time we've hung out since the New Year's party last year. I just genuinely don't care about them as people or their lives any more. I know for a fact we'll have the basic conversations like "What's new in your career?" or "Seeing any girls?" and such and then we'll be done. I will either need to get drunk enough to where I am able to socialize with them or stay sober enough that I can drive home after 12:01am.

I feel I am at a point in my life where I need to take a chance and be willing to let go of the things that I still cling onto from the past. Things like friends I don't care about any more, vidya, porn to replace women when I felt hopeless with women, finding a job that I love. Perhaps I'm making the transition to an adult (or perhaps a very bitter and isolated human being). IDK. Perhaps a New Year's resolution is to make at least 2 new good friends. Where I'd start in terms of socialization I have no idea. There's a lot of work to be done, bartender. Might have 1 more shot of absinthe for the night. Wish me luck. Either 2019 will begin a new transformation of myself or prove I'm absolutely fucked at 24 going on 25. I'm giving it 1 last shot before I pull the trigger. No matter what happens, I'm gonna carry that fucking weight.

>think about her when I wake up
>think about her all day
>think about her at the gym
>think about her as I try to sleep
HOW CAN I MAKE IT STOP IM NOT GONNA SEE HER EVER AGAIN

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You need to make erroneous shitposts bro. They reply every time.

I slept with my ex that I still have really strong feelings for today. We both wanted to have it but knew it wasn't "right". I feel awful and she does too. I have a lot of feelings for her but she just has so many mental problems right now she feels she can't be responsible in a relationship and has stayed home all this time not doing anything.

I want to be in her life and want to keep pursing this. Not sure if it's right or wrong. I love her so much guys, I just don't know why she can't be in a relationship and work through it with me. I want to do NYE stuff with her. God this hurts so much.

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>All i want in life is a job where i can clean the scum off the streets

Congrats you are the cop everyone hates.

haven’t drank in months, really wanting to get hammered right now for no reason. i know i’ll regret it so i just have to wait it out until stores stop selling for the night

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I'm not happy.

Created a startup and sold it for several million in my early 20s but became bored with life and depressed after a few years. Every day was a realization of how futile life and everything is when I'm just going to inevitably disappear and never exist again after this and there's nothing I can do about it. Sex and drugs helps placate those thoughts but it's so temporary.

I've always had a chip on my shoulder about not finishing college so I'm at least going back for my associates next week at a local community college and hopefully a bachelors after that.

What a bitch.
>[...]she wouldn’t even take 5 minutes to talk to me[...]

I’m always afraid of that shit so I tend to be bad at chatting thru devices unless I trust the other person a lot. Fuck like I had girls telling me that I’m ignoring them or leaving them on read just because I won’t force a meaningless convo.
Bitch if you wanna talk and built our relationship let’s fucking meet up. Like if you can’t that shits fine because we’re both working adults but don’t fucking waste my time you know.

People tend to seem so fun on social network. But when you meet them they’re so fucking boring and superficial. Last 3 girls I met on tinder seemed super fun and when we met they either talked about drugs or parties ¿bitch don’t you have aspirations or an interesting hobbie?

Fuck. Last time I ditched this girl and she ended following me to this party I didn’t invited her. Boring ass hoe

I’m sorry I don’t even know what I expect from tinder girls. It’s just that most of my friend’s gfs and even my exes are interesting. Fuck is up with tinder girls

I'm so fucking lost in life. I want a future but at the same time I don't. Reality has been such a question to my lately and I can't seem to wrap my head around it. I think every single day about our existence as humans on Earth and what our purpose is. Or if we even have one. So many mysteries and so many truths not yet discovered. Why have we brought such little meaning into this life by just materializing everything we see. "Oh I want this car and this phone and this and that". We're so distracted by meanless things that will eventually be worthless to us in the near future. Or are they even meaningless? If nothing means anything and doesn't have purpose what's to say a life of constant consuming of products is all bad. What's to say anything is bad. What makes good and bad. Honestly I'm just stuck and don't know what to do. I would love to end it all mostly because I'm curious of a difference existence after this one. But what's the point in that if I'm going to die anyway. Might as well ride it out until it's over. Sorry for the meaningless rant but there's literally no one I can tell this kind of stuff too so I might as well put it on the internet for some randoms to read and probably make fun of. I hope everyone has found purpose. So far I haven't but maybe I will some day.

Ex broke up with me 7 months ago, pretty sure she was cheating on me and the fucking bitch wasn't even bothered in telling me she wasn't in love with me anymore until finals.

That same day I got crossfaded as fuck and ever since I haven't touched weed again. Breakup made me reevaluate lots of things in my life and made haul my ass off into a gym to escape skellymode, as well as seek professional help for my mental health issues.

It felt horrible, it was as if I had a the rug pulled off from my feet and I didn't even recognized where I was standing. I am better now, but fuck man, it still hurts.

Went out/fucked other girls, the bitch literally shaved her head and looks like Caillou fucked an indigenous woman, and I still think about her and miss her. I don't know what's wrong with me Jow Forums, I just want her off my head.

A man needs a mission. Not taking on a real mission results in consumerism and the need for short term reward.

Figure out what you really want to achieve and how to do that. Personally, i want to be a good husband and father. To do that i need to finish my degree and get a better paying job and get married. I'll finish my degree around the middle of next year and I'm getting married in march.

>¿bitch don’t you have aspirations or an interesting hobbie?
This was another deal breaker for me too. She got a degree that's completely worthless and did nothing to realistically improve her future. Meanwhile I'm seriously considering putting in two years of study so that I can even go to medical school to become a doctor.

I just want to be left alone. I dont want family, i dont want friends, i dont want people. I want a dog and i want a house in the middle of nowhere. I just want people to leave me alone.

>girl likes me
>don't know how to feel
>complete 10/10 but...
>hypersexual/sex obsessed (I'm nearly asexual and don't have that need for constant affection)
>friends with all of my friends,
>go to separate colleges nearly 2hrs apart
>stay silent, not saying yes but not saying no
>end up becoming friends
>now becoming closer and closer
>text everyday
>have developed feelings for her
>seriously enjoy the friendship though and don't really want to ruin it
>like just hanging out and stuff
I think I'm just gonna stay pals with her but it sucks considering how well we get along. Kind of sucks and I'm worried I'm gonna start comparing other girls to her.

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This seems to happen very often, at least it makes it easy to just weed out people who really aren't worth the time. If all they have to offer is mundane shit like drugs and parties they're probably just mindless consumers with no legitimate aspirations and aren't worth the time.

This is too true

I'm glad we have new year celebrations, I don't have any specific resolutions because they're already in place, I'm just happy to say good bye to this shitty year

yep
i don't even have a bad family, and i've got great friends
but i still want to be alone

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if you dont need money, use your time to help others (altruism)

Is it that, or do you just need a certain amount of time and space to yourself?

>dubs in the feels bar? must be legit

finally able to go out with a girl again from a long drought, and really don't wanna fuck it up for myself

could be. i get plenty of time in my own room in a mostly empty house. the ideal life for me is practically the most isolated one could get -- an oil rigger in the north sea.

I have a terrible porn addiction.
I fap for hours at a time on a regular basis and I fear I may have actually cause myself serious harm, yet I still continue to go at it daily. Not only physical hard but relationship-wise as well.
I feel intense rage every time I finish and know how much time I just wasted and how much I'm causing myself physical harm. I'm worried about myself healing, and I wish I had a good way to force myself to no-fap for just one month. Thats all I want minimum is a month. Fuck me. The most I made was 2 weeks after this fear started in me, and I've caved 3 days in a row now.

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Good for you man. I hope you live a great life doing so. Good luck on your journey brother. May it be full of fulfillment and happiness.

And yes I do need to find some sort of purpose/mission. I'm actively doing so but haven't found anything yet. Maybe some day.

I’ve been thinking about this too. Best thing to do would be to move to China and become a part of their culture, in case they take over. Be sure to report back once you make to to China.

what an insecure weak move that would be

based

Seriously thinking about japan both from a culture and financial perspective. I'm a teacherfag (history). International schools pay about the same as private schools here but the cost of living is about a quarter of what it is here. It's also far less degenerate, socially.

I speak a bit of moon (n3) (but that's not super relevant at an international school) and lived there previously for a couple years.

She doesn't even remember me.. I fucking cried for the first time in years last time I visited. Don't know if I can bear going this week but I think I really need to

no, no, no
don't listen to the delusional faggots
there are billions of women on the planet and plenty that have not been emotionally traumatized and mentally crippled as a result
don't place a burden on yourself that you don't have to, it's your life, not anyone else's and you're not a savior

Thats rough man. I remember when my grandfather was going out.
I didn't go see my grandfather much in his last years despite him being so heavily involved in my childhood. My mother always asked me to go visit him. He didn't live very far away. But I was a shut in. I'd come home from work and hide away till the next day basically.
He didn't forget me, but he had a stroke and could no longer speak, and in his final days I went to visit him with my mom. He laid there on the bed after my mom had brought him some food. I spoke with him some but not much. I was mostly in complete shock at the state he was in.
After about a half hour of us just lounging around with him, watching some TV, light talking / communication I stood up and had to run out. I completely lost my shit outside of his room. I broke down completely. Was one of the worst feelings of my life. Fuck I'm tearing up just typing this. That man was there for me all through my life, and I neglected him at the end of his. Don't do the same as I did. You will regret it.

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I love my girlfriend of two years dearly, and she talks of marriage. There's a big part of me that still wants to party it up with sluts, and with all the extra gains I've accrued I'm getting more attention then ever. I grieve because if I stay I'll never do this again, and feel utterly guilty at the thought of ending it.

oldfags of Jow Forums please answer this
is life's always gonna be this gay ass shit? the closer I get to normiedom, the clearer it seems how much of a failure I am and the angrier I get at myself and at everyone that is better than me. Will I have to live in eternal cope to be happy?

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Where'd you meet her?

I’ve been going to the gym about 3 months and this will be my first new year at one. Will it be as bad as fit says?

has anyone else completely given up yet?

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How do I cope with the fact the girl I like has had other dick(s) inside her but not mine? Also how do I stop caring about women?

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>tfw wanna look the best for the girl i'm seeing now (and any girl after if this doesn't work out) but 5'7 manlet and not sure what will give me peak aesthetics
is ottermode the advisable way to go?
i don't think i wanna look like tyler1

I'm close. Me here I've never been depressed in my life until now, and I think its actually hit me.
Fuck porn.

My gf is going to be moving in with me next month. pretty sure I'm gonna fuck it up and be alone again

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>Pt 1
There was this girl in my English class at college in the Fall semester. She was good looking I guess, but she had a lot of qualities I enjoy in a girl like he upbeat attitude to learn, enthusiasm about literature/art, and overall just an infectious optimism. I would have asked her out, but she casually mentioned in class that she has a boyfriend during a discussion so that was off the table. Out of everyone in the class, her and I would talk to each other the most, even occasionally speaking outside the class. We'd talk quite a bit about whatever and she found me an amusing person to be around who also respected my intelligence and passion for literature in class as well. I even remember showing her a /mu/ thread I was laughing at in class where every post was just the text "Weezer" with a funny random face and she laughed at it as well. I talk about this cause I haven't had a romantic relationship in my entire life despite almost being 20. Yet, the girl I interacted with shows I can actually not act like an autistic sperg with other women and be able to strike up a connection. Yet I'm still resigned to continue to decay while living with my parents and going on Jow Forums for half the day.

>How do I cope with the fact the girl I like has had other dick(s) inside her but not mine?

Find a church girl that will lie to you about being a virgin and you never know the difference

>Also how do I stop caring about women?

Wish I knew. It's a little easier when you remember they're complete sociopaths with no remorse the inability to love

>Pt 2
I've tried Tinder by posting a decent, filtered, single pic and a bio that features some albums I like and that's it. I've gotten like 6 or 7 likes, that I can't see or match with, the past week. I keep thinking that Tinder will break my "inceldom" but I doubt it'll ever happen cause I keep texting autistic shit to whoever I match up with. I'll be transferring to a bigger college in January and hope I can get some kind of romantic relationship going on for the first time in my life. Yet, I keep feeling as though it's too late for me. I'm a twenty year old guy who hasn't even kissed a girl and isn't even THAT attractive who wasted his pre-twenty years being a fatass aspie. I feel so anxious that I can't achieve anything worthwhile in my life and I'm just wasting time and money at college. I've lacked so much initiative in my life cause my parents are so god damn restrictive about me leaving the house for an extended period of time. I've lost so much weight thanks to you guys, I haven't even been working out the past couple of weeks or so. I just feel so tired of life that suicide feels like my only recourse. I don't know anymore, I'm just sick of my stale life.

Sluts ain't worth it, but never stop with gains because attention from sluts keeps your gf (future wife) keen.

If there’s anyone from Indiana on fit can we please be friends jesus christ I’m fucking dying in this hellhole