How to make it mentally when you know you will never truly make it physically ?

How to make it mentally when you know you will never truly make it physically ?

When I was only 7, I had my first stretch marks, I grew up with a very abusive mom, she was an alcoholic, she forced me to eat, I had no limit, I was going to school once per week or month before stopping completely at high school. My dad has been in jail before I was born. I couldn't talk to him because my mom was crazy but when I could, he stopped talking to me because of politics. It's been 2 years.

Now, i'm 22 at university, I have a boyfriend that i've been with for almost 5 years, I am 2-3 years late from where I should be normally in university but It dosen't bother me. I've learned a lot when I was a dropout.

What is bothering me is my body. I went from 80kg (when I was 12) to 54kg now. for 1m62 (5"4). When I was younger, I used food as an escape, it was an addiction.

Now, I don't think I am ugly because I get looked at in the streets and my university and guys initiate conversation. I think I look physically ok when I am clothed. But I feel ugly.

However I have loose skin left, and this is why I had a mini tuck one week ago, my belly was bothering me the most because when I was bending it would hang. Now
I have nothing except a ugly bellybutton because I didin't do a full tummy tuck. My belly button is not straight, but in my opinion better than having a fake belly button with a scar.

I still have skin on other part of my body, but it's not like wrinkled, hanging skin. It sticks to my body so it dosen't look like I have excess skin, but it still bothering to me.

No matter the exercice I will never look perfect, I have stretch marks, excess skin and I will never look like someone that was never fat, even with surgery. When I look at my body, I remember my past, how unlucky I was. I will never know what a body without excess skin or stretch marks feel. I still feel fat.

I don't know what to do anymore, I want to be happy and enjoy my imperfect body.

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I think it will be harder for you mentally than physically

Stop living on excuses, some people had to deal with shit worse than that only to finally leave the third world to Europe and get sent back

We’re all gonna make it

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I dont know why you complain being a gay guy is the easiest way to get laid no matter how ugly you are

>Stop living on excuses, some people had to deal with shit worse than that only to finally leave the third world to Europe and get sent back

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You seem like you have the right mindset and do great. Striving for perfection will be detremental. But striving for the best version of yourself is admirable.

Look at yourself through the eyes of an outsider. Do you respect yourself? If not, work harder on that point. Once you respect yourself you'll own your imperfections and stand strong.

>Do you respect yourself? If not, work harder on that point.
Not op, but that's a nice point of view. Thanks

>tfw you'll never know what it is to be a perfect bodied 15 yo girl

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is this pasta? are people actually this insecure?

>How to make it mentally when you know you will never truly make it physically ?
you're talking to people of who 90% won't make it. some because they've had worse overweight then you, some because they're 5'6 tall men and will never look impressive to males or sexually attractive to females no matter what they do.
it sounds like some reddit tier wisdom but do what is in your power to look presentable and leave the rest to god.

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good lord

sheiiit

You can always become better than you are right now

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>grew up with a very abusive mom
>was an alcoholic
>forced me to eat
I'm very sorry OP, but I stopped reading there. I want to start this year with all positive thinking.
You can improve. You can be a better version of yourself. Seek help (not here).
Good luck.

>Stop living on excuses, some people had to deal with shit worse than that only to finally leave the third world to Europe and get sent back

I hope you die mullato mutt

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Damn,...reminds me what could have been Lana Rhoades if not getting into degeneracy.

>posting about European immigration policies on a Senegalese bird watching forum

end yourself

Wtf? Their lives are obviously worse than her

Fuck off

I think it is pasta because OP isn't responding, but yes people are this insecure.

Having loose skin/stretch marks sucks m8

What excuses?

To find peace in life I have to think about people having it worse, being uglier than me to feel better about myself? I don't think that will solve any of my problems.

I'm grill

It's actually a great mindset to have. I do not respect myself, I think I'm worthless and I always end up looking at perfect physics that I will never have, not because of my willpower (wich I have) but because of my past. I'll try to follow your advice, thanks a lot

Yes I'm this insecure, when you're told all your teenage years that you should not exist, that all is your fault, it is starting to get you in some way, specially when you don't have a dad. My teenage years and childhood were stolen. I was always calling an ambulance because my mom was covered in blood when I would get home from school, I had to see all the guys that came to our house to fuck her and her beating me, insulting me. It started when I was 10. I never cared about my physics because I had something else in my mind, but now that I passed all of this, I realize that i'm marked for life on my body, since the age of 7. I never had a choice.

I wish I could do that daily, but I always end up looking at perfect girl on instagram telling me if at least if I was not fat, I could have the body that they have, but since I my weight was 54 kg (my actual weight) by the age of 7, I was fucked.

I do what I can to do better, going harder to the gym, studying more, and this mini tummy tuck. Thanks user

Thanks

>I don't think I am ugly because I get looked at in the streets and my university and guys initiate conversation. I think I look physically ok when I am clothed. But I feel ugly.

So you're basically upset because you aren't perfect. Guess what, most people aren't perfect. And it sounds like you are a lot better off than some people who will never get laid, have physical deformities, are in poverty, etc.

There will always be someone in the world who is better than you. Accept that fact and move on with your life.

You have a long time bf who loves you regardless of what you look like. Who gives a shit about what others think?
Your body will literally start to fucking sag when you hit 35, so it's no worth getting fit to look good.
Focus on your relationship and stop idolising stuck-up rich Instragram cunts whom are the 0.1% of what girls look like.

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first of all Jow Forums isn't your blog
second, stop being a little bitch and worrying about the past. You can spend your life figuratively masturbating over how bad you have it and wallowing in your self pity or you can move the fuck on and stop being a pussy. I can believe that people actually let retarded ass shit like fucking stretch marks bother them, are you 12yrs old? wake the fuck up