What keeps you up at night Jow Forums?

my constant reminder that i have no willpower to make any changes that should be good for me simply because i don't truly care. i want to sleep all day. i'm contempt with being a loser and that terrifies me at the same time. my actions are all based off what i think what i should do to be a proper member of society yet i truly hate it. i sit there and beat myself up for hours over this while getting nothing done, including sleeping.

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That time when I was at a party with sister's older friends I said "look guys I bet I can catch this fly" and then I drunkenly missed and smacked a full beer onto the ground

That's fucking hilarious, in time maybe you'll see it as funny too instead of cringey

The loneliness

Self sabotage

Based and samepilled

In 10th grade we were doing this project about medieval shit. One of the parts of it was all boys in class had to do like 20 or 30 pushups, in front of the whole class. I could only do 2 or 3 at most. The memories hurt bros

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How I didn't know my worth when it mattered. How I thought that being subject to bullshit was normal. How I chose to pursue someone who didn't respect me over someone who respected me. How I thought that getting a text back an hour later was normal. How I thought her talking about other dudes in front of me was normal. It still hurts how I didn't walk away from that shit and kept my dignity

loneliness and the fact that I don't have any passions in life outside of the gym

I work night shift, so i pretty much need to stay up or i fuck my sleep schedule.

Delet

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Uni. I'm so fucking close to graduating and damn close to employed, but I have lost all my motivation. Also my back won't let me lift, seems like a rotator cuff inflammation.

Being at a crossroads in my life. I'm getting shoved along towards a path I don't exactly know I want. I know I need to choose but the idea of choosing the wrong one is terrifying. If I choose the wrong career I'll have chosen the wrong life with the wrong wife and the wrong kids and the wrong house and the wrong car and the wrong dog.

I know I should shoot for the stars but its hard to pull the trigger when I don't have a target.

holy shit this gave me a flashback
>hadn't started working out yet, doing weight training month in 10th grade PE
>alternated between girls getting taught lifts one class while guys worked out and vice versa
>in group with swole bro, at a station with a curl bar setup
>me and him joking around about me lifting the same weight after his set, get in position with it and pretend to lift it
>PE teacher walks by with all the girls in class and says "user, go ahead and show them what it looks like"
>mf after I try as hard possible only to move it 1cm above the rack

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>23
>no chance at finding single chicks my age anymore

Hahahahahaha that sounds hilarious though

The time I moved away from my best friend and he called my new place several times wondering why I wasn't calling him in increasing despair

That was 15 years ago and I still hate myself over it. Any time I think of it at night I'm guaranteed to not sleep for another 3-4 hours of self-hatred

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I have no friends. I know like 50 people, they just don't invite me to hangout anymore because I've "changed". And I have. I know I have, I get angry over the smallest things and I legitimately dislike most people now.

Pretty much all I do and look forward to is lifting. Sometimes girls mire, but I never do anything about it. And it isn't even because I'm not a confident guy or anything, I just hate women. I dislike most guys except my closest friends (and even then I still don't hangout with them anymore) and I flat out hate women.

No idea how to fix or if I want to fix at all because of the crazy gains I am making through my rage filled sessions. I don't even know how I got here. I just got really mad one day and have been bottling it in. You can't even tell I'm fucking angry by looking or speaking to me. But I am.

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Wait until you hit 30 retard. Get the fuck out there. At least get rejected instead of staying home.

Just not into my wife... At all.

why were you such a bad fren?

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Guns never work in my dreams. There are there and I can shoot but the bullets go slow and bounce off of targets. I have stabbed someone with a knife in a dream tho

If you've changed maybe you need to change friends, too.

Did you end up getting married to fast?

>I have no friends
Sa-
>I know like 50 people
Stop bragging.

caffeine

Global warming and it's effects down the line in 50 years and more

I was massively depressed and suicidal and wanted to cut off every single aspect of my old life and become a new person. It worked. I was way happier interacting with a new set of people, never got bullied, never had a problem with depression again. And all it cost me was my best friend! Hahahaha-

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>tfw 30
>tfw nogf
>tfw want big family
>tfw surrounded by friends with families that they never really wanted but just deal with

I mean them having ugly and shit teir baby mommas is an excuse only for so long. Feel like I've lost my chance.

Too much caffeine.

You're definitely a little old, but you aren't too old. Just don't fall for the modernist meme of getting a wife your own age.

getting conscripted into the army in 2 weeks

I'm in the military, everyone knows everyone on base and my AFSC is tiny. When I first got here I partied practically every night. Getting absolutely shitfaced on work nights was common. The last time I hungout with people (like 2-3 weeks ago) they straight up told me I am not the same and asked me if anything was wrong. Being completely honest when I say nothing is wrong, or at least I don't think anything is I'm just really angry and jaded and it came out of nowhere.

For sure, women my age are fucking trash. I'm sure statistically theres a women out there who chased her career before settling down, and now wants to do the family thing, but that's a needle in a haystack of sluts who got pumped and dumped and now hate men and think the world owes them anything.

>I'm in the military,
Stop bragging about how functional you are.

There is a fertility window user. A woman your age would be lucky to have one or two kids, and they will both have autism.

Yeah, 27 years old, had been with her for about 2 years

Speed isn't an issue, accuracy is.

Call him if you can.

I feel like no matter what I say you're going to brush it off because of your victim complex. Probably a neet loser? The thing is, I'm not complaining or asking for advice. I'm just answering the OP.

Stop posting. You will never make it, you will be DYEL for life and that life will be spent alone and in misery.

I really should.

Yeah theres also that :(

I've got two degrees, make a lot of money as a welder, and I've generally got my shit together, but man am I fucking awful at getting a relationship going. I wonder if my family ever thinks I'm just gay.

How bad I am at sex and tfw no gf

brain tumor

usually waiting for the wife to fall asleep so i can make some space between us. the body heat is too much for me i like being a bit cooler

It'll pass after puberty.

im on the same boat amigo

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i wish you never had typed this

The fact that an alcoholic with no job and no car is dating my crush. I asked her out before she was dating him and she said she wasn't interested in a relationship, a month later and she's dating this fucking guy,the fact that she would rather date him than me and that she didn't even give me a chance just made me feel like the biggest fucking loser on the planet.

Dyel

those arent the same reason at all

you obviously do care or you wouldnt have typed this
you obviously are not content with your state or it wouldnt keep you up at night
you unironically need to WAKE UP, user, and take control of your life
i know its hard because im struggling with it myself
but YOU CAN DO IT
TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE

hint: you are, probably because you judge people like that

judging people is fine if they're genuinely fucking up but you probably don't even know the guy and you're spewing caustic unproductive insults at him on an anonymous message board

if you think that shit doesn't leak into the way you treat everyone / think, you're dead wrong and need to open your eyes

positivity and not giving a fuck are the road to pussy man, there's a reason you mog by telling scathing jokes and not by actually walking around beating people up

Unironically a woman.
It's been literal years since I've felt that high when texting a girl.
I got like 4 hours of sleep and then she blew me off. now I cant sleep because o depression

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Nothing because I'm not jumped up on carbs at night.

Videos on Freight hopping trips around Canada getting recommended to me keeps me up at night..

My 7 months old baby keeps me awake pretty well at night

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Am I the only one that feels this way? C'mon brehs

please delete this post

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I'm a European STEMcel, and while I have great career opportunities I want to join the officer academy to join the Royal Marine Corps.

Is this a retarded move?

I haven’t felt a crush or feelings of any kind toward a woman for more than one year. I have met many women in that time, I’ve even fucked a few, but I have had zero feelings. This is starting to concern me.

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Insomnia

>Be me
>Grade 8, 5 years ago
>Final "graduation" thing
>Party at some Stacy's house afterwards
>Two spin the bottles
>Ugly kid one, popular kid one
>Somehow in the good one
>My turn
>Qt blonde
>One of the most popular girls in our class
>Something feels wrong
>I pussy out
>Think about this a few days ago as a KV
>Realize she was Jewish
>Mfw

God was looking out for me. My Jewdar is advanced.

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i mean i remember it sometimes and it makes me feel bad
but you have to try to move past these negative ways of thinking user

that was a really mediocre story and it doesnt belong in this thread but thanks for playing

No but seriously, how can i get myself out of this, ive tried willpower but at most ive lasted for about a month (sleep, eating right; grades, schoolwork, noporn, lifting) ive always failed and when i fail at one thing (ussualy studiyng for a test) it all comes crashing down, it makes me feel like shit

the thought that another valentines day is almost upon us, again i have noone to spend it with and i will probably fall asleep to the sound of my house mates fucking.

this is how it be sometimes

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Gay/10

you have to remember that one failure doesnt mean the end of everything. one setback doesnt meant youre allowed to stop trying.

Are you a shy person? Would you say you have social anxiety? If so I would recommend looking into how to deal with and restructure negative automatic thoughts. I used to have cringe moments pop up all the time but pretty much eliminated that shit.

Recently I've been having trouble lasting during a bj.. Wtf

My depression and and crippling loneliness keep me up. Sick of the feeling of rejection. Surely there must be something wrong with me? Is it the way I look? Is it my crippling autism? What is it society, please give me a hint

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could be your over-introspection
try not to worry about it so much
or at least try not to look like youre worrying about when you interact with normies

Its not rejection from people I'm getting, that ship sailed years ago and while it still hurts I accept it. Its rejection from 20+ jobs in the year plus a recent Class 4 DQ from the army (Didn't even make it to the first stage).

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rejection from jobs is largely the same as rejection from people
even if youre applying for jobs for which you arent qualified, charisma is 90% of a job interview
why doesnt the army want you? are you morbidly obese or just a psycho? im not gonna play 20 questions with you here bro

Similar situation as I moved during 5th grade but still went to the same school with my friends. Then when middle school started I decided to go to the school they all went to instead of one near me. I didn't have that many classes with them but I talk to most of them during recess and lunch.

Eventually I kept arriving late and even skip days so I decided to leave when the 3rd semester ended. I told my classmates I met there but not them so I pretty much lost all contact with them.

I ended up enjoying the new middle school more and I was happy I left. But now I'm wondering if I should have stay and go on to high school with them. I felt like I should have look for them during the MySpace and Facebook era.

I'm scared of injuries, like tearing my bicep tendon deadlifting or something

>why doesnt the army want you?
I suffer from depression that's being medicated as well as the autism and severe anger issues

With jobs if I'm able to get an interview but my autism butchers the entire thing due to lack of body language, eye contact and flat and uncontrolled voice. But I'm stuck as to whether or not to tell interviewers I have autism, or withhold that information and just wait for the inevitable "sorry you weren't hired" So I kind of just feel inferior compared to everyone else in society.

>I suffer from depression
No one's going to want you then. Cheer up or die trying.

I have a tendancy to stay up way too late. I think part of it is I struggle to drag myself out of bed in the morning and find mornings generally depressing. I used to be able to get up at 5 am no problem, I'm not sure what happened. Not sure how to fix it either.

you should definitely mention your autism if its limiting your ability to interview. otherwise theyll just think youre someone completely uninterested in the job, judging from what youve said. are you a fellow american user

fuck off

>you should definitely mention your autism
I wouldn't hire someone with autism especially insofar as used as an excuse for uncontrollable rage and yes I do interview and hire people for a living.

The fact i rarely feel a connection with any other Human or Society at large, and that even though i've started a career with huge oppotunities i'm already bored
Maybe i just haven't suffered enough to appreciate things

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part of the reason i started exercising was so that i could get a good night sleep.

yeah im sure you do

If I mention it then it runs the risk of me being overlooked simply because of my autism despite maybe having the perfect qualifications.

>judging from what youve said. are you a fellow american user
Australian

Im a physics major here in the US. I personally want to join USAF to try to become a pilot. I know its a long shot but it would be a dream come true. Why do you want to join?

well i dont know what kind of laws there are over there to help you but i think people will be more understanding than you realize

google brought this up seek.com.au/Autism-Spectrum-Australia-jobs