Saturday night- why are you here?

>be me
>Make friends with qt gym receptionist after 1yr of going to gym
>Flirt and what not
>Feels good
>Go to ask her to Mardi Gras ball
>Go to gym to get next day and talking to her in parking lot
>Chad on a motorcycle pulls up
>Chad around 6'3" might be roiding and rides a Harley sick tat on his bicep
>She didn't seem to care I was there and she started toFrench's this guy and stroke his hair
>Dude acknowledge me and shakes my hand says he still not comfortable how she shows affection in public
>Enter gym because awkward
>ask if we still on just for shits or cuz I'm a defeated cuck at end of workout
>says she might be too busy
>Ended up giving her my tickets cuz I wouldn't be needing them.

I don't feel so hot anymore. Think I'll stay in tonight. Really don't blame her though dude seems really cool. Almost like the Goose

Sunday here.
Working and browsing Jow Forums from behind a desk.

youtube.com/watch?v=6g2JN2PrHJg

>no friends
>no gf
>too poor to go out
>zero confidence because be
obese manlet

Also my father literally thinks I'm retarded. I probably am.

This made me chuckle. Thanks for the greentext user

I just fapped.

I remember you posting about your gf liking it and rewatching it with her iirc. Hope they get out if it what I did either way.

JOHNNYCAKES!

This made me chuckle. Thanks for the greentext user

Just killing some time. House party stared half hour ago but you know i gotta be fashionable late.

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because its only 7:30 pm and my girl is getting ready

Honestly out drinking with friends, just pulled my phone out out of habit.

t. Drunk phoneposter

Taking a break from dating for a little bit to work on myself. All my friends and family have hated the girls I've been going out with for the past 6 months, and I realize I need to make a change since they haven't been good for me. But I gotta start with myself.

Probably going to get in a night lift sesh.

First hit of caanabis. Now on Jow Forums

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Because I'm in Arizona, far away from home.
Actually it's worse as I could be at the gym lifting but this fucking hotel only has two treadmills.

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ASSMUNCHA!

im a boomer who got bored of reality *sip*

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>tfw hooker canceled your meeting

its too late to call another one because they have to check references and shit
havent gotten laid in 4 months

You do this every day?

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Once you do cannabis for the first time you're never the same again.

OP here, nah, I think there's one guy who posts the Friday one every week. Normally a Saturday one will follow and I look forward to both of them, but it wasn't up and you know the rest.

>being this naive
It's fucking weed, not coke. Give the guy a break.

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Just got back from taking some night photography shots. Now I'm cooking myself dinner and watching stand up. Went out for yesterday and v-day with my bf, and we are doing stuff tomorrow too so I'm spending some time tonight just enjoying being alone for a bit.

Are you gonna post this every night? I’m here every night of the week bc at some point in the day I lost the battle to escape this fucking reality of living as a useless, unskilled, godless, uncreative, miserable worm filled with hate and bitterness towards myself and others who hopes for death more and more.

But then somebody posts some funny or interesting shit on here and I get some fucking hope or a hit of dopamine, what’s the fucking difference anymore?

>inb4 schizo TED talk

>solitude is bliss
i enjoy my time alone

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you talking schizpphrenia or schizoid?

I'm drunk as fuck. Had a kickback with my buds around a bonfire. Just got home

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Schizoid. I’m not full blown crazy 24/7 but I do exhibit all of the symptoms

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Holy fuck I literally just did the same. Her first time watching it, we're ending season 2 soon.

Even blow's not that big of a deal. The hangover is actually really bad and deters most people from it other than one-off times. But of course if you hang out with the wrong crowd you'll be pressured into doing it repeatedly, but thats no different from weed.

Just got back from the biggest swim meet of the season and I did fucking terrible. Inexpressiblely terrible.

This season was the fucking hardest I've ever trained but despite that it's been the worst season I've ever swam. My personal best times would've put me on the podium with a big fat fucking medal but for this entire season, I haven't even been FUCKING close to my best times.

Even worse still is that this meet, I swam the slowest I swam all season. Ever my event leading up to this after a certain point I just kept getting slower and slower; my muscles would fatigue sooner and sooner within each race.

I hate this so much I should be a champion on the podium but I've fucking failed. I can't even understand why I'm getting so slow and fatigued. There's no explanation for it.

I just want to die Jow Forums. Swimming is my everything and I failed miserably.

Wondering if it means anything
Have this chick training near me all the time..not sure why but she will sit next to me and just sit there the whole time

Kind of annoying desu

I genuinely think the best thing for me to do now is to kill myself. I wish it didn't have to be this way. I wish I could enjoy life

oh that actually may be a good thing
We all need loses sometimes to teach us and push us harder

If its.the last time than that sucks but it wont matter over time anyway
It's a swim meet. Try harder and train smarter next time

Story.time?

same brah
fugg

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i swear to christ if your reasoning is because WAHHH MY GF BROKE UP WITH ME ill kill you for you

going to be completely honest & try to give context about my situation so this will take a while to type up..bear with me

Why did he cry in this scene? He just got insulted by Tony and Tony B. Why cry?

Nah man. Never had a gf. Have a crippling addiction to under performing with escorts though (pathetic, I know)

Is being nice a good thing?

I work in sales and I’m constantly recruited by people because I’m patient and have a positive demeanor. Whenever I’m in public I make sure I’m the center of attention and use my sense of humor to bring me to the spotlight

People say I look like a “good guy with an edge.”

Despite having the facade of popularity and normalcy I lead a reclusive life.

I fascinate my psychiatrists and take medication for bipolar disorder.

“So let me get this straight: you’re a nice, good looking, well spoken, smart, well dressed young man yet you lead a hermetic lifestyle outside of work”

My mother is a sociopath and my father had temper tantrums so most psychologists recognized that I had a “rough childhood”

Why wouldn't I faggot? Jow Forums saturdays are key to making it.

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Amazing.

Because he's a try hard and just wants to be a made man and have everybody respect him

Damn that sucks user. Should have found another qt gym thot to go with.

>obese manlet
Just like the rest of Jow Forums.

>Should have found another qt gym thot to go with.
Or just stay away from thots

>only people i know are my coworkers
>typical weird autist who has no problem talking and being funny at work but shut down with social situations like at a bar/restaurant with people
>on friday jewess coworker asks me stuff like if i live with my mom (i do but i lied) and if i drink (i do on occasion but never do with them)
>have crush on qt indian coworker ive worked with for a number of years and feel we would be good together, but i am 100% sure she would never even entertain the thought and im too much of an autistic permavirgin to bother

Because I'm a loser lol
I actually could go out but I don't want to until I somehow hopefully sort my shit out

Wasn't he made before this episode already?

Because I fucked up yet another relationship thanks to texting.

In person, people enjoy talking to me, but behind the screen, I come across as an absolute incel because I can't joke because all cues don't exist and people always take it the worst way possible through message. People hate calling, they don't ever have time to meet up, and messaging kills every chance I had with a female. It doesn't help that the time gaps in texting triggers my fear of abandonment. 30 minutes to reply is 27 minutes of me having a panic attack wondering wtf I said wrong and how they are leaving me bc of how terrible of a person I am and no one loves me and and and. They text back and I write back an essay on accident and that time gap gets much larger. I literally have 0 issue talking in person, but fucking faggots can't get the fucking cock out of their ass long enough to call/meet up.

Why can't I get over my fucking texting issues? Why is it only texting, why is only behind a fucking screen that I have autism? Fuck fuck FUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKK

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To remind myself that I can do better in life.

bro i know exactly how you feel. as someone who, as ive been told at least by a doc, has ocd, the paranoia and reading into of every text drives me absolutely insane. it's so easy to misconstrue things and it makes me wild. it's ruined my relationships with two of my best friends now.

Just read what I wrote and it's such a boring/shit read. It essentially boils down to:

>I'm 25 y/o and seeing my peers/"friends" move ahead in life (buying property, getting promoted, getting married....the usual) whilst I remain broke
[I have $3k to my name and am on $63000 which is comparatively low. I work a shit job desu]
[I've tried to help my parents out a lot with their home renovations since they're financially screwed]
>Have a pathetic addiction to escorts yet also a severe problem with PE
I'm horny all the time and don't have an adequate sexual outlet. Because I'm so shit at sex I don't even bother asking girls out
>I remain weak (sub 1/2/3/4 for 1rm) and skinnyfat - I've tried cutting, bulking and recomping to no avail
>Bad with girls even when they approach me
>I'm generally shit at most things and knowing this takes a massive mental toll/fucks up my confidence
>Don't really have friends, just acquaintances

Sure I can try to turn it around...but I don't know what to focus on or if any of it is worth it.
Do I continue helping my parents out or start investing or try and get a job overseas or save for travel to cross things off my bucket list?
In an ideal world I'd have started my own business because I'm young and don't have any dependents. I never seriously planned long term because since 16 I thought I'd just kill myself. Yet life (& people around me) would dangle the carrot by saying things like "life gets better once you finish HS and start uni" then once I started uni and that was shit "life gets better in the real world once you get a job" etc.

My fiance is probably about to call off our wedding and move out. He'll be out late again tonight drinking with the guys and tomorrow we are going to "talk."
I'm here to try to find a positive distraction rim my heartbreak. Been going to the gym, but not as much as I should. Watching what I eat, but not as much as I should.
If I'm going to be miserable I might as well look good/be healthy about it.

i would say man, help your parents and the first thing to work on is trying to find friends. i dont have anything going on in life except my friends and it makes a huge difference. and helping your parents will make you feel good about yourself.

Work in security for my uni
Delude myself into thinking I would have friends to go out and have fun with if I didn't have to work haha
I'm a junior now and I have 0 friends and don't even know how to haha
My grades are shit because sometimes the depression makes non functional

Finally worked up courage to dm a girl after 20ish years, got curved

CHRIS-TO-PHA

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Chad?

lmao fag

got sick

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How do you deal with the fact that we die, that there's nothing we can do about it and that death is just an infinite abyss of nothingness and non-existent consciousness?

You know OP, I remember you waiting in the car. And as far as I'm concerned you should still be there!

It's all a big nothing.

just got home from my ex-gf

we started dating again end of decembre after being broken up for 3 months

i just uncovered that she had slept with someone else in the last weeks
she cried and cried
telling me how sorry she was, how much of an emotional wreck she is

i looked at her phone, it was that guy friend of hers
they were flirting and stuff

called her out on why she was so evasive the last week
asked her if she had slept with another guy
silence was the only thing i got, then her starting crying

she didn't want to justify that she slept with someone else
she didn't want to justify that i asked her on monday four times with whom she was meeting up, said guy friend

she didn't want to acknowledge the fact that i was thinking about stds
"but that's what condoms are for user"
christ

oh god am i relieved that i found this out now

we were supposed to go brunching half an hour ago
thank
fucking
GOD
i found it

do i delete her or let her rot on my contact list, ghosting her
i need to get tested

-ghost her
-remove everything you have from her
-delete all FB/instagram/etc connections you have with her

on it deleting everything
first girl i'm actually pretty mad about that i have to delete her
she tried to reel me back in
>i don't want a relationship somehow user, but i also can't imagine my life without you *sob sob*

she's going to be very unhappy with that guy and in general
but that ain't my problem
2pl8 here i come

>first girl i'm actually pretty mad about that i have to delete her

Imagine having to deal with this whore for the rest of your life. Save yourself the time, effort and money and cut it off now

true that user, true, that

Take it when it comes close. I don't worry about how I'm going to help raise my grandkids bc I don't have my own kids yet. I don't worry about how to get 4pl8 squat bc I'm not yet at 3pl8. Don't worry about death until you're double the age you are now.

Live in the future is anxiety, live in the past is depression, but abstaining fully from either is to live as an NPC.

You're not a big guy

Yes he was. But he is struggling with sobriety and no one takes he's battle seriously. Tony and Tony used to be mean to him when they were kids aswell and he, like now, desperatly wanted their approval.