Fitness? self deprecation

> be me, 26
> in work at 9, out at 6
> work is so mentally draining, can't motivate myself to work out
> hate work but it pays well and has nice benefits
> coworkers don't really speak english, they just group together
> used to program for fun but work drained that out of me
> 153 lbs, 5'7 manlet
> don't even bother trying anything other than 5 rep sets
> squat 265, dead 285, bench 185
> everything was 30 lbs higher 3 months ago before I got sick and lost weight
> don't even look like i lift
> don't find joy in anything
> spend all day inside on weekends because my friends aren't that close
> sometimes forget to eat saturdays, just playing video games
> hate myself for wasting time on video games instead of anything valuable
> don't really have a passion for anything, can't think of anything that makes me happy
> considering paragliding to feel alive, but costs ~$5k to get started / trained / etc., and i know it probably won't do anything for me
> my workout regimen probably sucks but I can't motivate myself to even look up something better

i didn't ask for these feels
what do Jow Forums

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>what do Jow Forums

Begin with stop being a pussy

you're the living embodiment of the npc meme, congratulations

so kms?

i guess, but I could retire by the time im 35

my friend start juicing, I'm not even joking, I also work as a software engineer for a bank, none stop bullshit and on top of that my retarded colleagues always ask me to fix their computers like i'm a fucking it technician.
juice makes you feel alive and strong

Your squat is so fucking high relative to your deadlift

Nothing reading Watts or Hesse wouldn’t fix. Your ego is a farce - once you realize that, life starts to just be.

And yeah your routine sucks. Do a PPL or something fun for a while.

what are the names of these books?

yeah you could if everything stays as it is but cost of living is gonna skyrocket and wages are gonna plummet everywhere soon I feel.

wages for software jobs never do, thats the main perk of the job it obviously depends on the field your in but the wages usually stay consistent, the real risk is ending up without a job because the companies gone bust over night

soon there will be a lot of people clamouring for software jobs, don't forget the threat of outsourcing. Also if AI takes off and goes like some think then bad news, for everyone not just software nibbas.

currently studying AI at university and all that will happen is lower end jobs will lose out to AI, AI's need designed, developed, maintained, expanded on, a whole section of computer science is dedicated to the study of AI. Jobs in computer science and software bishes will grow but it will change normal programmers might loose out

You should think about moving to another company if working there is no fun. 9h working is more than 1/3 of your day.
Also, you should maybe start thinking about what you really want in life/what makes you happy. Lifting can benefit to your well-being but you can't build happiness just by lifting heavy things

>Nothing reading Watts or Hesse wouldn’t fix
Keked out loud bigly

programming is life, it's not the programming that's the problem its the retards you have to work with and their bad code that ruins jobs
and manager cunts wanting everything done straight away when it takes time
my advice to OP would be to progress the corporate ladder and become a manager then he can make other programmers lives hell instead of it happening the other way around

C++? what is the nature of your work?
I know of some industries that use C++ but majority use shitty languages like java or god forbid python

Do DMT once and you will find the courage of do what you like to do and quit the job.

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what were your experiences with it?

start one of scoobys home workout routine and STICK TO IT

theyre a little memey but dont require much equipment but arriving home drained from work its way easier to do that workout than preparing and leaving for the gym.

youll start feeling better and get more motivated to return to the gym. always keep it as a backup if you skip a workout, its way too easy to justify not going to the gym after work - just do 45mins at home

shit i just posted this and passed out... definitely talking to a different set of people now, but hey, it's talking to people...

yeah and I can't fix it, my squat is good and deadlift is weak. straps would probably help...

meh on the philosophy
isn't PPL super high volume and body wrecking?

wages plummeting don't affect me if i'm retired, but i'm paid pretty well and have a pretty "stacked" resume

for where i'm currently at there aren't many companies that pay more :(
can't figure out what makes me happy

lol, true, but i don't think i'd like being a manager

serving infrastructure at a bigco

i'm still going 4x/week to gym, just not doing any good programs... currently:
Mon: 3x5 squat, 3x5 bench, 3x5 shoulder press
Tue: 3x5 DL, 3x8 barbell Rows, 3xfail pullups
Thur: see Mon
Fri (or Sat): See Tue

Are you saving a lot of money then? Personally if I had a stacked resume and quite a bit of money in the bank I would try to transition into remote contract work and move somewhere with a much lower cost of living and just pursue whatever shit I wanted to do.

I haven't done it yet, but I'm gonna do it soon, I just don't know how to buy it. As it isn't an "party drug" there isn't a lot of demando so I have no clue where I'm gonna get it but I have heard so many good things about it. Do some research in youtube.

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yeah, i am saving a lot of money. much of it goes towards my wife's education though, medical school isn't cheap
never really considered working remote, not sure it'd be for me, i always dreamed of starting my own company but hte opportunity cost of work vs. starting my own company is HUGE, and incredibly high risk...

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

You say theres no companies paying more, but from the sounds of it money isnt really an issue for you. Maybe focus on working a job thats a slight pay cut that feels more gratifying and doesnt suck the life out of you so you can enjoy other things like lifting again.

I currently hate my software engineering job (I realize I have no enthusiasm for the project I've been put on), but am focusing on working hard for the next 5 months so it doesnt look like im just company hopping and then being interview ready right away. The hours arent terrible and pay isnt bad, so im just happy it gives me the freedom to live in a lively area near all my friends as well as pursue any interests

i don't think i'd ever find a job rewarding, could be that i just don't think i'd find anything rewarding... so i just optimize for cash for now

you're living in a lively area and chilling with friends doing things you like, which i wish i could do. i'm not really close with anyone, don't really do things, and don't find joy in anything really (damn that was whiny)

I still think its worth considering finding a working situation that doesnt feel so taxing on yourself. Its hard to feel ambition or excitement over anything if work just mentally beats the shit out of you 45 hours a week

yeah, maybe so. it's hard though, cause i'm close to getting promoted... i consider working hard enough for promotion in ~6 months, then gtfo to another team internally... but the pessimist in me says it'll all be shitty anyways

>can't motivate myself to work out
Lift anyway. It doesn’t matter how you feel. Motivation is over-rated.

oh i do lift, just probably piss poor programming (posted it earlier) and plateau easily

There's shit tons of programs passed around here. You probably don't pick one due to apathy / decision paralysis.

But picking a better program with better gains won't fix you, though you might feel better about yourself.