>Socially autistic nigger >go to the gym to fix that and stop caring what people think >Ask a trainer to help me learn the machines since I'm just beginning >Wait until there aren't many people at the gym to go >She starts touring me through the machines >Apparently two trainers in training are there to watch the process >I get visibly nervous but try to keep it together >Awkwardly fumble throughout as the trainer asks questions like 'do you feel it' >I hesitate every time she asks because I repeated myself 5 times before and stop to come up with something new but can't and I look even more dumb for no reason
>Struggle to lift just the bench press bar because earlier I worked out my arms so they're shaking >Awkwardly try to do squats that need a weight >Try to do deadlift and my arms continue to shake as I fail to follow instructions >Tell her that's all I wanted to know >The girls laugh when I finish and leave
I know it's self-centered to think they were even thinking about me. Maybe they weren't laughing at me at all, but the timing was pretty spot on. It's not like I care since I'm beginning to hit that stage where I don't mind what people think. Only thing that hurts is that it seems like it will never get better. It feels like I'll always have to be laughed at and treated like booboo. Just because I don't care about the individuals doesn't mean it stings to see yourself as inept. I'm here because I want to build confidence but I'm questioning whether I wont improve anything and just grow from a mental, social, and physical autist, to a strong one.
Any other socially inept losers here who improved their situation?
If this isn't a LARP, then just keep at it bro. I have always been very shy at the gym and felt like I didn't belong. You gotta suck it up and keep going anyway.
Matthew Long
Stop LARPing
20. Too old to be as socially inept as I am
Thanks man. I'm surprised I even continued these past few days.
Yeah I particularly hate doing free weights. It feels so awkward when you have to actually control yourself. Though today I powered through it even if I did it wrong. I think I feel myself becoming more confident already. Seems like that sesion was the stepping stone.
Cameron Gutierrez
Yup, you gotta power through it
Sebastian Lopez
For me it turned out to be major depression After i started taking ADs i made a complete 180
Im german and my grandpa and great grandpa were actually Wehrmacht soldiers If youre about to KYS it makes sense to at least grasp for the last straw before comitting to the final solution After having taken ADs i cant praise those literal miracle pills enough and i wish i started taking them 8 years before getting to that point Ur an faggot
I mean that's the reason I have a membership though. So I don't have to worry about that.
Parker Bell
Whatever man, just stop trashtalking proven medical treatments. I bet youre an anti-vaxxer too.
Go to the gym and dont give a fuck if you "hog" equipment with low weight. Within 6 months you will lift more than the average guy at your gym. If its a commercial gym that is.
>Whatever man, just stop trashtalking proven medical treatments. I bet youre an anti-vaxxer too. That was my first comment this thread, you've got me mixed up with someone else, Arschgefickten
Tyler Wright
>buzz cut to hide natural hair ok jamal
Camden Sanders
I remember the first time I went to the gym, I was a skinnyfat bean pole and felt burning embarrassment when I was there, felt fucking horrible. I did some leg curls and left because I didn't know what I was doing and thought people were judging me.
Eventually I got over that shit and now in hindsight I realise noone actually gave two shits about me because I was a drop in the ocean of dyels, and everyone is too focused on their own thing anyway. If I see a new person in the gym the most I'll think is good on them, and with the wealth of information the internet has these days most people actually do good exercises and routines, even if they are weak.
Nathan King
Yeah I'm skinnyfat now so that's exactly the situation I'm in. Even if I embarrass myself I find comfort in knowing it wont be remembered 1 minute after it happens.
I never thought my progress in art or animation would ever contribute to my real life but they taught me that there is no point in dwelling on the present or anything that isn't your end goal. The shotty drawings are in the past and no one even remembers them. All of that being ashamed for absolutely nothing.
Exactly, learning this is the reason I'm no longer worried. When I make that progress it will be like none of my flab ever existed. At least to those that I meet later on. People go to the gym to improve, not to cater to those that meet a threshold of strength. Thanks
Adam Evans
based and anti depressant pill, literally
for the shit heads afraid of AD its literally a dose of serotonin and dopamine since you're body is in a chronic need of serotonin and dopamine
this chronic illness can be alleviated by healthy living and exercising so your body can produces serotonin and dopamine on its own
