Friday night /feels/ bar

A lot's been on my mind. No matter how much I try, I can't force to like myself. I look in the mirror and sometimes I like myself, but most of the time I can't stand looking at myself. Something about looking average feels awful, like you were this close to being good-looking, but then genetics and personal choices were like "nah man you're a 4.5", Of course being average height doesn't help.

>oh but you're average that's better than being a 2

Yeah maybe but at least when you're a 2 people purposefully treat you better because they can tell you're a fuckup. When you're average, you don't get those pleasantries and you're just forced face the world like anyone, but without any booster like Chad.

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Good post. Any white person not getting Jow Forums for whats to come is an idiot.
Kind of want to lose this 10 lbs of chub, but on the other hand I hate being calorie deficient during the school term because it stresses me out and makes it harder to study. Just working on my strength and cardio as usual tho.

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I'm also average, perhaps slightly above average in some of my hobbies, but of course I'll never make it in anything exceptionally. Again, I'm only going to be average at best. I'm in a shitty mood, sometimes I think of offing myself, but I'm always too much of a pussy and secretly optimistic that maybe someday with enough effort something will change, but it never comes. No amount of trying my best at my studies, working, working out helps. Inevitably I'll graduate, get a job I can bear, and make 80-90k a year, but I'll never be the Chad my dad dreamed I would grow up. I'll never be the person I aspire to be. I'll never have a loving wife and kids like I imagined when I was younger. I'll never be famous to make up for any of that, nor will I be filthy rich. No, I'll just be average. My friends talk about how they drink, do drugs, play video games, etc. to handle the problems they face, but I don't want escapism, I want to conquer my problems, but nothing will ever do that. So what do I do? Just keep marching against them hoping that someday something will change? Give up and take the hedonismpill? Hang myself in my home? I don't know, but I've felt this way for almost a year straight every single day. I'm constantly reminding myself of all my shortcomings, and any successes are always undermined. I wish I could talk to someone, but I feel like no one really cares. My friends will distance themselves from me as I start to rant, psychologists will nod their heads and take my money, doctors would drug me until I'm desensitized, strangers simply don't care, at least you guys shitpost. Another thing too now that I'm writing this down is that you guys are a lot more honest then the people I know. If I show my face or state my opinion, since you guys don't know me you'll just tell me what you think straight. People irl will lie to you to be "polite".

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weed is a bad idea, you are lacking of dopamine, just take amphetamins and you will be fine user

A beer for me, kind user.

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They won't say the truth because it hurts feelings, but I know that they hate me. I hate myself too. I just want to feel normal again.

That's the end of my rant.

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the skin that covered all the fat im losing is starting to get floppy

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>at work
>have coworker friend
>he dates a coworker
>they break up after a month
>she cute af
>we constantly talk
>hit on her, ask phone through fb
>text, she responds a lot but never initiates
>also find out she still talks to my coworker friend
>tell her id like to take her out this week she says sure hit me up when
>stop responding since she seems uninterested+shes still talking to him
>dont ask her out
>see her today at work, she seems super excited, more physical than usual leans on me and shit
>didnt mention anything about our plans or weak texting

I honestly want to bang her but Im so confused, she also has daddy issues btw

kys

Got pulled aside at work today. They said though my work ethic is beyond reproach, I need to fine tune myself. Be better at paperwork, details in experiments/extractions, etc. Feels bad man

Killed Chest day yesterday though with a new PR so that's nice.

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Why is weed a bad idea

God I fucking hate that talk. I got it once in a manifacturing job and it pissed me off terribly.
>process moar lumber nao slave
Quit within a week. Although, in retrospect, I was kind of slow. It helps to just own it and be better. Thats how I should have handled it.

There's a girl in my ecology course in uni that I want to get to know better. We seem to get along well enough in class.

I want to ask her to coffee, but at the same time, I know I'm still dealing with the fallout of my last girlfriend (I thought I was gonna marry her) cheating on me. After I found out she said a lot of horrible things that fucked me up for a long time. That was about 5 months ago.

Is there ever a time where you're completely "ready" to move on? I honestly don't know if at this time I'd be bringing any residual baggage from my last relationship into the next one (if it even got that far).

i'm adhd, psychopath, borderline and schizophrene. I don't have job, friends and family. There is nothing i appreciate in life, even drugs, alcohol, I could appreciate sex but not if there is no love, and i know love doesn't exist. I feel like i always been in a jail with the worst person that exists, me, for 24 years. The only reason I lift is to have done atleast one thing if one day I achieve to live like a normal human, and this is the easiest thing I ever done, unironically

just stress ate an entire box of zebra cakes. i'll never be able to cut for summer.

STAY AWAY

>5 months
You can try it out. Just dont rush into a relationship head first with this new bitch

Just a little bit of liver and intestine cancer, thats all.

Realized that the reason why the long head of both my triceps is disproportionately small is cause I've been 3/4 repping my presses for like the last 1.5 years to avoid elbow tendonitis. Just hope I don't fuck my elbows trying to fix it

Relapsed on NoPorn.
I'm gping to fucking stop it.
Fuck the kikes, they will not control me.
My Tulpa and I will watch Ghost in The Shell:SC today.
She is the only reason I don't want to kill myself anymore.

>Coworker
>Daddy Issues

user She is going to be the Bane to Your CIA if you keep going

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Dont bother

>QT asked me to hang out
>Also asked me if she could be nefertari with me when I cosplay fgo ozymandias
I don't know anymore bros

pound her asshole user

Dude just tuck your elbows and they're completely s

Bane?

last night after my workout i went to get fastfood with my dog and literally at the stoplight before my house, my ex pulled up beside me with the guy she's now seeing. ~2 years on and i still think about her all the time but i still haven't felt as lonely as i did in that car for a long, long time.

been in a shit mood since. depressed, thoughts of suicide, all that shit. feeling so fucking lonely. barely eaten all day which fucks up my bulk. also didn't go to the gym today. might go after i eat dinner but doubtful. only time i went out of my house was to walk my dog.

feel fucking hopeless.

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Its just gonna be difficult correcting form for a bunch of different lifts and remembering to make sure I'm really feeling the long head activation. Hell I think I tweaked it benching the other day doing some pause reps. Should probably drop the weight. Fug

IDK it's a mixed bag right now. People at work are standoffish and indifferent towards me, the problem is there are WAY too many women in my office. They're cold until they need my help at which point they act all fake nice until they get what they want. They act all weird around me and it makes me uncomfortable. Women can be so stupid it hurts, I want to transfer but I have to put in a year first.

I have a chronic neck issue and started doing acupuncture since nothing else works. I got more relief from one treatment than I did having surgery and I go back again Monday, gonna make it a weekly thing.

My gains have plateaued because my neck issue keeps flaring up, not really sure what to do. I've been ottermode for the last few years and I'm pretty happy, although ideally I'd like to put another 15-20 pounds of muscle on my frame.

I have 0 social life but not going out means I have plenty of money to spend on myself, I want to buy a house but I'm going to have to wait another year.

I know this feel all too well. The redpill is a bitter bitter pill to swallow. Just know that you are not alone, tens of millions of fighting age white males know there is no future.
He doesn't know about the masked man.

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atleast you have a dog that loves you

I fucking know
Id love it and I suspect she would too

Been overworked for months since work has ramped up and my former two co-workers left. No energy, little motivation.

I’m gonna be 21 in a week. I’ve got no plans, and nobody to really celebrate with except my parents because I’ve very thoroughly isolated myself from all my other friends. It’s been long enough that I feel weird reaching out, but at the same time I don’t want to be like pic related again this year. What do?

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Sounds bad

50299797
This is the worst image againts pol I have ever seen.

Reach out. If theyre really your friends theyll be happy to hear from you again

yeah he's a good boy. although he's getting a bit old. he also hasn't eaten all day which is a bit worrying, hope he just has an upset stomach.

>current shirts look like ponchos on me
>still too fat to pull off smaller shirts
Never get fat, it's the worst
Also everyone at Costco seems to hate being there, no one smiles and the cashier gave me attitude for no reason

>not giving me the you
you sure showed me

Kinda sad because I don't have an active friend group, most of the friends I have I only have because I actively put in the effort and they don't do anything, which probably means they really aren't my friends. I just want a group of people I can feel I really belong too but for some reason, people just don't like me. I've really thought hard about why but I can never find anything conclusive. Anyone know somebody I could talk to in order to find out what's off with my personality?

Do americans really get upset when they don't get fake smiles from complete strangers?

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Ngl user I did not read every single word there. All I can say is stop being a sad cunt and start being a sick cunt. Keep lifting and caring for yourself. Leave society behind.

the (((degeneracy))) is from an attached parasite.

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Got out of the minimum wage life with a job I would have killed for a year ago, but im still unhappy. Its no longer this crushing existential humiliation unhappiness, but i just cant feel positive about myself. I lift more weight than I ever have, drink a tiny percentage of what I drank before starting the new job, and i can spend more money on my loved ones than I ever could, but Im just not a happy. It seems even worse now as at least before I KNEW why i had a reason to feel shitty about everything. My girlfriend says I might actually try to get diagnosed with depression, but I feel like thats such a shitty millennial excuse and dont want anti-depressents anywhere near me. Whats going to get me there Jow Forums?

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Either stay away like the plague or pump n dump then move states.

I'm doing so great! I just turned 30 and in great health both mentally and physically. I'm about to take a 5 month vacation to hike the Pacific Crest Trail. Life has literally never been better!

Well I don't actually expect smiles but they all look visibly distraught. It's just weird.

this

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Trying to join the navy 6’5 was 315lbs lost 60 lbs in a year they still tell me I’m lardass

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>ian curtis picture
based

>invited her to the park
>said she had things to do
my end is near

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>consumed so much he became morbidly obese
>now loses it all to defend israel
good goy

My girlfriend is a controlling, manipulative asshole.

Watch this:
"USS Liberty: Dead In The Water" (BBC Documentary 2002)
youtube.com/watch?v=kjOH1XMAwZA

On June 8th, 1965, during the Six-Day War, Israel attacked and nearly sank the USS Liberty belonging to its closest ally, the USA. Thirty-four American servicemen were killed and over 170 wounded in the two-hour assault by Israeli warplanes and torpedo boats. Israel claimed that the whole affair had been a tragic accident based on mistaken identification of the ship.

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>she also has daddy issues btw
she will destroy your life
t. man with a destroyed life by a woman with daddy issues

Hatefuck her a few times. By force if necessary. Or just leave, but that sounds less satisfying tbqh senpai

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The American government accepted the explanation. For more than 30 years many people have disbelieved the official explanation but have been unable to rebut it convincingly.
Now, "Dead in the Water" uses startling new evidence to reveal the truth behind the seemingly inexplicable attack. The film combines dramatic reconstruction of the events, with new access to former officers in the US and Israeli armed forces and intelligence services who have decided to give their own version of events.

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Interviews include President Lyndon Johnson's Secretary of Defense, Robert McNamara, former head of the Israeli navy, Admiral Shlomo Errell, and members of the USS Liberty crew. More on this story at:

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I get youre trying to drop redpills but shut the fuck up. 1 pol post is fine but don't shit up the thread with it

I've made it bros. Started lifting at 21 and at 25 I've been with so many girls. Fraternity life and social skills adds on to being fit. Every weekend I wonder what bitches I'm going to get these days. Kissing and numbers mean absolute fucking zero to me now. Make it bros. Get a lean muscular build, some fucking social skills (honestly without this you're not gonna get above a 7/10) and some self-awareness. Life is fucking rad. I'm typing this while pregaming to meet some sloots and have a date tomorrow downtown that honestly, if it goes south, I will not even trip about. Make it bros. It is possible.

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This webm.

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Can I join you user?

We both plan on working here for a while
Even if you fuck her once?

This thread made me think about the future of the West again, thanks a lot faggots.

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>once

Yeah I probably wont stop will I

Guess I'll pass and spin more plates

don't get her pregnant

oh my fucking god, why this faggot is not holding the hoe ?

Yeah! C'mon bud!

jesus fucking christ

>the way she turns around to grab his hand and put it on her shoulder again
Perfection

my mom ruined my birthday. fuck.

she said we'd go out to eat, so i come over. she lives in an apartment. i leave my car in the back so it doesn't take up a spot, and then we go out. we come back, it's late. obviously it's gonna be late. she starts screaming at me because she lost HER parking spot. what the fuck did i do damn it.

now i feel sad

We will go strong again. Let go of the things that weaken you, they are not needed. Live in a harsh way to stengthen yourself. Our enemies will grow fat on their privelege, while we grow vicious on our renunciation of comfort. Remember that is not comfort or safety we seek, but power. All shall be revealed to us.

Don't smoke again. Be strong user. I did the other day after not doing it for awhile. It was not worth it. In fact, it was shocking just how much less enjoyable it was once I took a back seat from it.

>that look he gives the camera right at the end.

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I hate pretty much all of my friends so pill extra shifts at work because I like my coworkers and job more, but also have exams coming up so need to cut back to make time to revise which will leave my social interactions being mostly with those I hate which makes me irritable and stressed

Next time park in her spot so she can take it again when you guys get back. And nothing, just sounds like shes using you as her punching bag

im lonely and want to kms

Your supervisor is afraid that you could replace them. Scale back somewhat so they aren't threatened, and start looking for work elsewhere.

you're not forced to be their friend if you hate them. Why not cut them off

No, you ungrateful fag. They treat me like utter shit. The fact that you don't realize how putrid humans can be in terms of the unfortunate shows me you have more that you're taking for granted than you think. Life isn't fair. I'm not compensated for being ugly. The world doesn't give a shit if I'm ugly. I still get the same shit flung on me alongside being called ugly, ignored and or treated like garbage.
I'd fucking trade you places. I want to curb stomp any faggot who doesn't understand what he has with near average looks. You can be frustrated, but don't you dare compare your miniscule-in-comparison problems to what I have to go through. Along with being poor, living in the ghetto, being socially awkward, I also have to deal with being belittled by family for seemingly no reason, deal with thugs meanmugging me and sizing me up, random passerbys telling me that I'm ugly to my face, and so on.

No your being average is nowhere near being a 2 out of ten. There are no benefits. Pain is relative and I get that. I empathize with you. But don't delude yourself to justify self-loathing. You have too many reasons to be happy that you're average. If only you could see it. Humans are just never ever satisfied. But that's our nature.

I gave a gift to this qt I've known since middle school, but I'm too much of a coward to approach her, i can talk to girls normally but with her even a simple "hey" melts me like butter. We're both going to this pool party next week and i'm afraid I'll drop my spaghetti and waste such a good opportunity.
To keep it Jow Forums related i slightly injured my right hamstring because i slipped a little while doing rows, right before leg day

I've been having a different kind of feel.
Before I started lifting, I had physical depression. Now that I workout regularly, I'm not sad at all.
Instead, now I have existential depression. I think about how I wasted almost 3 years of my life feeling sorry for myself and missing my ex.

How do I makeup for all the time lost and get rid of this feel? Is it possible to lift this feel away?

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They're friends with the few people I genuinely like so I can't help but be around them, but I'm going to uni this year so will cut off as many as I can but in the meantime I'm reaching breaking point after realising how degenerate they are but it's too late to make new friends because chances are I won't see them really either so my only other option is to be a social pariah which is rather not do, if only to avoid becoming more of an autist

Read some Kurt Vonnegut. I like to pretend he's my cynical friend who is dealing with all the bs of life with me

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