How's it going Jow Forums? How you guys holding up today? Anything big going on?

Girlfriend of 4 years broke up with me a couple weeks ago, at first i was broken by it, we had talked about getting married and having kids already for a long time, and i thought she would be it for me.
On the plus side now ive been extra focused on myself, got a promotion at work, and ive been hitting the gym more regularly.
Most days im ok, but days like these i just cant wrap my head around it, i thought we had something special..
We shared the same social circle aswell, which ive taken upon myself of leaving, i dont really want to be involved with her in any way, but now im left with virtually no friends, because all my real friends live in a different country.
Maybe i should go back home?
I'm just typing this out, i dont know what will happen next.
I hope the next person i meet will be it for me, i have no interest in wasting time in another relationship for it to end like this.
I'm old enough now to wanna have a kid and actually find a decent person to be with.

Just got my t levels tested. Currently at 900 natty. Feels good.

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>Maybe i should go back home?
What country?

>Normal test level
>Feels good

not him, but normal is 600-700 from what i remember

starving myself, quitting drinking, thinking about breaking up with my bf, questioning all my life choices. working a 12 hour shift and wishing i could just have one drink rn. help me lads

Just rediscovered pickled herring, and god damn those macros for that price. I'm pretty hyped, gonna eat it for breakfast from now on.

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tits or gtfo

They basically are hard drugs if you think about the constant stimulation sexually and the dopamine that comes from flickering lights and achievements from vidya games can really get you hooked to it

starting new job at a dairy factory tomorrow at 7, just gonna eat and wash clothes and go to sleep. Its just a summerjob but im really hoping i will be able to stay after even if they dont guarantee it since that would improve my life sooooo much

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i'm gay. i do have legit gyno though

Im hungover as fuck and mad because i realized i didn't get the number of the cute chick who was all over me last night

>got new job
>great salary
>can afford car and apartament
>strenght progress on gym
>still no gf

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The more progress I make academically or physically, the less I feel like I deserve it because I'm almost 30 and have squandered so much
It's hard to be kind to myself, and I often can be critical of my friends to the point of cruelty
The only people I don't treat like shit are strangers but if we were to become friends I'd probably subject them to my shit too, this is why I push people away, especially women
I just want to off myself but I don't want my dad to live with that so I'm doing what I can to keep things moving until he passes

Bruh pickled herrings are great, I totally forgot that they existed. Gonna buy some tomorrow, thanks for reminding me m8

Fuck yeah user, good for you. Don't be afraid to let your excitement show, turn up with the biggest smile on your face.

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best of luck man, and don't forget to hop on that sweet dairy gains train

On top of being full of protein, they also contain O-3 fatty acids and a fuckton of vitamin D. AND they're probiotic, so it helps keeping your gut healthy. I am so fucking happy that I remembered they exist.

>just hit lmao4pl8 deadlift
it is a good feel

Went for too long a run again and probably injured something because I've been feeling lonely all weekend and needed to let out some frustration with myself.

Thought things were working out, thought I'd even found the girl for me, but it seems like the latters falling apart because the former isn't as great as I thought.

I want that fucking hoodie.

New PR today with arm curls and incline leg press. Also I can see my body slowly starting to get some definition.

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hopefully going to get a call from a job this week, so i can finally stop being a NEET.

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In need of a haircut, but don't think I can make it to a good cutter today since they close in less than 2 hours and I have no clue what to get. Otherwise working on homework, cleaning the apartment some, going to do some conditioning work at the gym and some meal prep for tomorrow since I have a long day of shows,auditions, and lifting lined up

today i broke my biking record(27km) with 30km

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nice battle station user

>literally no social contact outside work and my bossy narcissistic mom
>had 4 days off (weekend+2 holidays)
>spend them ALL shitposting
>feeling horrible with myself

I have 2 friends but they won't call if I don't. I don't call them anymore. One just calls only when looking for someone to get wasted with, the other rarely does.

I need closer/more friends and a gf. I shouldn't be here at 25. What a failure in life.

Know the feeling mate. Had a week or so off recently and didn't know what to do with it. I live for work basically.

Been talking to a girl but feel like she's hinting that I should fuck off lately desu.

>failing classes
>lifts going up
>feeling lost in life

i don't know and i don't really care anymore

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I'm not addicted to a drug I'm addicted to the idea of doing drugs and do them frequently. I also drink a lot(which I consider a drug) and I constantly crave fast food. I think I may be addicted to smoking as well because for the past month or so I've been craving cigarettes. I'm also procrastinating a lot and can't find the motivation to do the work required to finish my college degree. My weights have been improving, but I can't lift my feels hard enough to get through this period of my life.

My keyboard broke so I cant play Wow anymore its crazy how much shit im getting done

Why is there a hair dryer on your desk?

Redpill me on the dryer

i really hope you're playing on a private server and not official....

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Went to boxing, got back and smoked a bowl then did some neck work and crunches. Feels comfy brehs.

I use it to heat my food. Works better than a microwave

wouldn't it be in the kitchen then

Just got back to uni from holiday and feeling pretty bummed out. Still, ease of access to the gym has gone up, and the wifi's better here.

nigga I'm making 130k in the midwest (cheap midwest not the shithole called chicago) and I still can't find a good gf.
I'm not even short or ugly, just average. Tinder and unchecked hypergamy are killers if you're not a top 20% male these days and refuse to date fat girls or single mothers.

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just... you know... breathing, processing nutrients... existing and not much else...

Nice repeating digits

Starting a new job next week. Right now I just feel anxiety and sadness. Asking myself why life is constantly changing. I feel like I can't "keep" anything.
Met a girl abroad some time ago, she wants to visit me once I move into my new place. Can't really look forward to that as well. Everything seems a bit grey right now

Man I know that feel all too well

Don't worry man it won't be that way for too long.

I feel you there brother. I'm a little earlier though I'm 23.

Next 2 months is going to be absolute shit at work

Lifts are all time high

Have my first ever date this week, wish me luck

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i know that fuckin feel

>have shitty job that i hate
>never take any days off because if i took it off i would literally just sit alone at my house all day
>the thought of even taking a real vacation alone (as in traveling somewhere) terrifies me

Based used car salesman

>it’s another Truman tries to buy something fun but it falls apart instantly
>it’s another Truman’s friend group falls apart for no apparent reason leaving him with no one to do anything with
>it’s another Truman gets so fucking sick of his A levels that he hates to the point where he doesn’t give two shits what grade he gets, just that the exams are done
>it’s another Truman finds a girl who he clicks with but she gives vague answers to his suggestions of plans
>it’s another Truman’s fucking bench has fucking stalled again
It’s all so fucking tiresome, made so much worse by the fact that it’ll just repeat itself the next year, like it has the past two

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Another week has gone by where I was genuinely happy to be here but now I spend another Sunday in bed thinking that living is just a promise that I made

Actually pretty fucking good, even if I'm hungover today for the third day in a row.

Started a cut this week for the first time in 2 years and found it pretty easy. I skip breakfast, all form of snacks and have a sallad for lunch or something like that. Compliment with quark and protein powder and then eat whatever for dinner.

Doesn't it blow the food all over the place?

>sunday night comes
>disappointed that the weekend is over and that i have to spend my week at my shitty job again
>remember that my job is the only escape i have my pathetic life and even though its shitty, at least i talk to people and feel like im doing something
>weekend is very bad because im literally just alone the entire time and actually even more miserable on weekends than weekdays

iktf

Good luck user, don't let anything stop you.
There's always a point in keeping on going, suicide just eliminates the chance of things getting better.
Good job champ
Holy shit

I have to be out of the gym for a whole week and it's driving me crazy, it'll be alright in the end

I’m in a weird place, I’ve always and still do consider myself a piece of shit but I’ve been improving my life where I objectively recognize that I am doing well but still feel like a piece of shit. Now other people that I used to think were better than me or I would’ve thought were better than me fall below the piece of shit threshold I set

gains are ok, but otherwise
it's all shit

It never ends for us does it?

I've been speaking to a grill off a dating app. We went on a date last week and have been texting all the time. But I'm not intersted in a relaitonship. I just wanted to clamp some chimps. I'm leading her on and I dont know how to get out of this. I don't want to ghost her, but I also can't face up to saying to her that I don't want to see her anymore.

What do bros? if all else fails I'll just tell her that I think I'm gay.

Also, I hit a deadlift PR today (185kgx1) which i'm very happy about.

same user, a levels are the most draining fucking thing ever, pretty much ruined my personality & sanity. honestly dont even care if i fail them at this point i just need a break

>I'm not addicted to a drug I'm addicted to the idea of doing drugs

Out of curiousity, did you have a father or father figure in your life growing up? and additionally, did he hit you enough?

Tha'ts the gayest keyboard I've ever seen

I started to better my life and made some friends, but not the kind around my age and who I could go party with.
Feels bad

>but I also can't face up to saying to her that I don't want to see her anymore.

why because you're pussy? be a man

stop being such an unbelievable pussy and just make your intentions clear

I'm not. I'm miserable. I'm almost every something-let Jow Forums mocks and I have no career prospects. I'm 41 and I don't like being alive anymore. Lifting is my only source of peace.

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i have zero sex appeal

where i work grills secretly say "user thinks he's hot lol"

i went to a hotel with a grill and she said she wasn't ready and we only cuddle

i guess i won't make it..

My bench number is going up, all the practise i put in on non chest days is really helping. Still trying to get my pullup/chinup numbers up, but you know, one day at a time, right?

ate a chocolate bar. i keep eating bad foods like that without realizing, feels bad man.

Honestly it’s fucking disgusting how little information or suggestions are given about btecs. I know so many people including me who’d be faring so much better in a coursework based subject.

>it's another Truman is too afraid to step out of his comfort zone and watches his life pass him by year after year

>it’s another Truman steps outside his comfort zone and it all goes well until it falls apart a few months later
This is a really shit episode yet they just keep re-running it. I don’t understand who thinks that’s a good idea.

It's a constant up and down. Everyday I think I'm gonna make it, and everyday I feel like I don't want to wake up anymore. I am tired.

Hello me

I wish I lived alone. I think if I lived alone I would go full monkmode and be super concentrated. maybe I'm just coping though

I moved in with a friend of ~10 years when i went to uni.
Worst decision of my life. Some people just function better living alone.

My gallbladder is so fucked I can't get out of bed or eat for more than an hour or two at a time. I just can't move, my body is too weak. I'm slowly starving to death and there's nothing I can do but fuck up my last two weeks of school and receive surgery.

Surely if you have exams you can get concessions because your gall bladder is fucked. Education systems are disgusting but they still allow leeway.

It's not the exams, really, it's the final group projects. My teammates are sympathetic, but they're still down a person and there's only so much I can do or ask for grade-wise.

>Cinnamon Toast Crunch
>ISHYGDDT

It’s been two weeks. We broke up because she had some stuff to sort out. Should I text her to see how she’s doing?

Been feeling better lately, finally decided that I really need to move out from my parents.
Also there's this girl who I'm seeing lately. I'm not sure if I want anything with her, like I don't know if I just really need a close feminine contact and cuddles or if I like her.

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I lived with 6 other guys in university from 2nd all the way until the end of 4th year. This took a massive toll on my mental health. For the last 3.5 years, ever since I graduated I've lived on my own and it's been incredible. Couldn't recommend it enough for introverted folks.

I'm moving in with my girlfriend in about a month and am hoping it works out... WIsh me luck.

I had a hot date last night for the first time since my ex and I broke up last year, she is super pretty, intelligent, funny, basically everything I'm looking for.

But she has tattoos that didn't show up in her pics when I set up the date.

I honestly find them completely unattractive, but other than that she is perfect to pursue a relationship with. I will probably go on a couple more dates with her to figure out if I can get over it. Otherwise I'm ending it and going back to having no love interests again.

Lifts are going up though, but I'm dyel mode so it is not even a small deal.

No user, leave it. Better to move on thando anything else.

Nice digits, OP.

>did acid a couple of months ago
>last week I told my gf that I did it and want to do it again
>she freaks out completely saying "how could you not toll me for so long" (we've been in a relationship for 3.5 years now)
>she does not know anything about drugs, she rarely even drinks alcohol and tries to eat healthy
>tell her that it helps me to be more successful in life. It won't be more often than twice a year.
>I'm acing all my exams at a private university, I'm starting a big 4 consulting internship in two weeks, I lift regularly and friends often complement me on my physique
>told her that if she does not accept me the way I am, this relationship will never work out
>she starts crying, does not call or text me for two days
>yesterday she called and apologised, telling me that it is okay and that she overreacted, she thought LSD was that thing that you inject and become addicted instantly

I broke two PRs at the gym today
Rowing 5000m in 22 minutes
Deadlifts 5x 160kg

>feelsgood.jpg

I'm beginning to think the hypergamy is mostly due to hormonal birth control. Still feels bad man.

Bro i hope you're back on track muscle cultivation got me on track rn i'm feeling motivated to go on stay strong bro

Never settle for a tattooed whore.

Don't do LSD you retard, it will cause you mental problems long term such as psychosis and insanity. Mind rot is also an issue

Sounds awesome!
I'd recommend to get to know her better, maybe those tats don't that she's a criminal, just jumped onto some trend. Maybe her ex was one of those brainlets who work at tattoo studios. You can never know.
I wish you all the best!

doing alright, uni semester coming to an end so suicidal tendencies are high, specially with the amount of projects and people on my back to get shit done. lifting is helping with this though

just glad ive got some friends who aren't in my major/classes that i can just hang out and forget about that stuff with, gonna play some edh and watch got tonight should be fun.

>based and antioxidantspilled