Any particular reason you turned out the way you did?

Autism.

I want the filter to fucking perish, by the way.

Wanna do a suicide with me?

>Bullied as a kid by other kids in the kindergarten constantly
>My mother used to punish me physically constantly when I was younger
>Both of my parents have a propensity for depression and so do I
>Most of the times I've been the shortest, I'm 5'3''
>I have hallucinations

No father and poor as dirt. I have some serious inferiority problems.

Paranoid schizo dad. Just to clarify, that means an emotionless breathing 700 yuro's monthly gibb It's bothersome to take care of him, but never hurt us, just financially because he loves useless spending like smoking, driving around... My mom enabled him all these time.

Mom's just a nice person, hard-worker but without any degree or high, not even medium-pay skill.

They weren't prepared at all, a broken condom was why I came to this world. If raising a test was a test, I would be a 2/10. 30 years old virgin, never had a serious relationship. I wasted my 10's and 20's on fucking videogames. I don't even enjoy them or play anymore, just lurk /v/ feeling sad about how the gaming scene has turned into because of cultural shifts.

The only way I see to redeem my existence is getting lucky with the degree I'm getting 2 years from now on, give 30% of my pay to my mom so she has a nice last third of her life. I'm no getting kids, even if I lower my standards into a 1/10 genetic freak, unless I win a decent amount of money that lets me raise a kid from a medium-high family startup instead of a broken not-even-1000-yurps-per-month mess that was my case.

crazy parents
ugly
stupid
underdeveloped social skills
gender dysphoria

Don't worry user, the kind wahmen over at the boards have told me that all a man needs to do is 'have his shit together', be ambitious and make an attempt in order to find a GF, only a total misogynistic horribly dickward wouldn't be able to do it!

They really sounded like they knew what they were talking ab- pffffffffffffffffft

Im not suicidal just miserable. If i go out im doing it killdozer style and causing a lot of damage

Autism
Bullied by teachers/adults/parents
Overbearing and not caring parents
Parents who scoffed at your ideas
No friends, somewhat isolated from other people
Best friends were books and cats

>cats

r u grill

I am a male

Orighhh

Stopped going to school at 12 and lost all my real life friends due to depression and computer addiction. I'd say that was the tipping point, I had a pretty normal life before that.

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how do you just stop going to school lol, how do your parents allow that

My dad destroyed my life

my mother, and a few mental problems.

yep that's the reason for me also

I've always been autistic but I was seemingly set for Normiehood until I hit middle school. I guess then the charm of being "weird" wore off and ever since i've been alone, depressed, and with an inferiority complex

from a very young age my dad bough me a pc and stopped socializing at like 8 yo . my only answers are : "yes" , "ok" . I am very picky about the people i socialize with and its very hard for me to find anyone to talk with . its very difficult for anyone to make any contact with me because i spend most of the time on my pc and play some shit or watch youtube

my dad literally cried because i was like him when he was young - same antisocial guy who spends his time alone and is home all day .he said he regretted having both me and my sister because we are having him in so much trouble even after i don't do any trouble at all ... like i do all the housework with my mom and stuff sometimes i even cook . but my sis is through a divorce with some real autistic 5 IQ chad who listens to his mother all the time and is his voice . whatever this bitch says its his words

he regrets having me the most because i have very good heart and is afraid that some pussy is going to use me .he often abuses me and my sister and mom often try to avoid him when in one room including me and he gets very mad and starts swearing at us for not be grateful to him because he is the one that keeps family running.

my mother often tells me she is going to divorce with him but i want to help him but don't know how because when i suggest him to go to psychiatrist he goes full mad shit and almost beaten my mom if i wasn't there to stop him

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Dropping out of highschool at 16/17 was the beginning of the end for me. I had two good friends in highschool that tried to get in touch with me before they went off to college.I think I more or less told them to fuck off in a polite way. I got addicted to WoW (TBC) and Halo 2/3. I went full on NEET and have been rotting away since. I don't even play video games anymore, really and yet I wasted so much time on them.

Things could of been so different, maybe.

also,

>ugly
>balding
>king of manlets
>small hands
>social retard
>father was never at home because of his work travelling so basically raised by females

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>intelligent enough to go through gymnasium because high verbal IQ (tested during autism diagnosis which I didn't get in the end)
>Stupidly low processing speed, I take a long time to process new information
>Either underestimate, or grossly overestimate myself
>Parents let me sit behind PC over 10 hours/day, they are also pretty distant and don't know how to deal with me
>poor coordination, sensory issues that cause me to misinterpret what people do and say
>extreme social anxiety
>people still saying I'm intelligent enough to get at least a master's degree, even though I have nothing to show for it, I can just speak eloquently and come up with creative answers
>Family consists of a mix of engineers/entrepreneurs and low income working class people, feel uncomfortable around them all

Overbearing controlling neurotic mother and autistic dad who wasn't there emotionally
. This is a common pattern here it seems

Never knew my dad, mother was a paranoid schizophrenic who didn't do much to raise me and my little sister. Lived on foodstamps / disability checks for the first 6-7 years of my life, got separated from my mom after she had a violent episode, spent about 4-5 years bouncing around the California foster care system before being out into custody of some relatively same family members. Also my sister may have been molested by an older gentleman when she was very young but that's based on hearsay and I don't remember anything from those times to verify the idea. I really hope it didn't happen.

>Spend entire childhood with parents fighting brutally and constantly causing trouble
>Neglected
>They start slinging drugs
>Continued neglect in favor of showering me with gifts
>Only have the internet and my dog for 5 years
>Watched my mom try to jump off a balcony infront of me
>Constantly move countries and can't keep up
>Under several high amounts of stress
>Failing school due to language issues
I'm just a big ball o' lonely and sad now.

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>moved around a lot as a child, even managed to live in a different continent
>too much porn i guess
>being white in a majority spic area makes you stand out like a sore thumb
>was a scared teen and a bit fat
>I never had a woman be interested or if she was I was a pussy
>parents were a bit overbearing
>internet
>got depressed at the first college and left
>no job since last year
>I know too much how fucked this world is
Nowadays I just don't care and I just enjoy what I enjoy

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Mom was crazy
Dad wasn't there
Bad school
Good teachers

I always wondered how us robots would have turned if internet didn't exist.
I regret spending all my teenage years behind my computer instead of socializing. I always found excuses to not hang out with people because I wanted to shitpost on internet. Now I'm a 21 years old dropout with terrible social skill and autism.

I developed aspergers somewhat early on.

to self diagnosed autists here: you can't develop asperger's syndrome. It's a developmental disorder you have since birth. A lack of social skills does not mean you are autistic

drugs, degeneracy, and generally being a massively unstable retard

i was terribly malnourished growing up. then i was totally impoverished while at university. also i am a night owl so wageslaving (which i started while a student) caused my heath to take a nosedive due to chronic sleep deprivation.

now i am NEET and i enjoy this life so much more

i don't really see a problem with it. i stopped caring about what others think, and i don't give a flying fuck if some dumb normie thinks i'm "successful" or not, given that it doesn't factor in my level of misery. i'd rather be happy and other people see me as "wasting talent" than be miserable and viewed as "successful" by other people

>Mother had bipolar, depression, anxiety, and was an alcoholic.
>Mother was 45 when I was born.
>Mother drank alcohol in the womb, which might've had a factor in my Asperger's, physical disability, and mental disorders.
>Bullied in primary school (shunned and ostracized for being a nerd, had no friends, and was physically beaten into submission by my bullies).
>My first crush in 2nd grade kissed me and pretended to be my girlfriend but started dating my best friend within a couple of weeks.
>All throughout the rest of grade-school and middle-school girls would pretend to like me as a joke because everyone thought I was autistic.
>During this time I had no friends because, once again, I was perceived as an autistic weird nerd who nobody liked.
>When I was in 6 grade an adult told me that I was going to kill myself before I turn 20, and that comment still haunts me.
>Ironically I still got laid at 16 to a fat chick. This might make me a normie in most robots eyes but I'm still struggling from debilitating mental illness at the age of 18 and am unable to maintain friendships or sexual relationships in college.

It probably has something to do with the fact that I was molested, however all of my brothers turned out some degree similar, So I have to say that there are also some issues with parenting. Mom was a narcissist and couldn't be bothered to raise her children

Fat, knew no English as a kid in an English speaking country, shy.