Hey fellow oldbots. Friday made it's way again. What's on your mind today or this week?
I've been thinking about how others get to blame their drug and alcohol addictions or their disabilities for their shortcomings. I'm a loser by nature without all that.
Even my threads are failures. There was a good thread yesterday going.
Going to watch Spacex's DM-1 launch then the UFC fight tomorrow.
I have to go to the grocery store today if I want to use this coupon I have before it expires. Also I should check the air in my tires.
I've been putting it off since that'd require getting out of my chair, taking a shower, and so on.
Chill out man, having threads every day generally fucks up the vibes because eveyrone gets bored.
Anyway, went back to the gym monday did a full three sessions and although I'm pretty tired I feel proud of myself, looking forward to getting in shape again. Recovered my leg issues by going on walks (was limping for months, foot wouldn't lift properly) and still need to fix my shoulder imbalance (walking like something out of he Addams family). Either way it's progress so I'm content. Hope you're all trying to stay healthy and make the zoomers mad.
>32
>living at home
>work nights
>Dad spent most of the day hammering molding or whatever its called around the top of the cupboards
>"oh I was trying to be quiet teehee"
>there is no fucking way to quietly hammer.org
Feel #2
>starting to talk to a girl online
>she may be into me, as she says she wants to cuddle with me sometimes, says I'm a dork affectionately, etc
>somehow haven't scared her away yet
>thank god, as I like talking to her too
>it's likely not going to work out as anything more than friendship
>whatever I'll enjoy it
I am ascending past imageboard degeneracy and beyond neoliberal normiehood
i have a job interview monday
unfortunately, my NEET life will possibly end soon
i'm 25yo and only been NEET 8 months of my life
i'll only have fond memories of it as i slowly die from the misery of wageslaving
31/m
Been living in a studio the past couple years. I was depressed at the idea of turning 30 living with my parents so I got out at 29. I can afford it with a few hundred at the end of the month to spare. But they raised rent $225 over the past two years. Arguably I'm month to month and not leasing anymore.
I'm about to hand in my 60 day move out notice and move back in with my parents. $935/month is way too much to live in such a small studio apartment when I can live at home for free. I figure if I could move home for 6-8 months I could have a down payment on a condo or something saved up by then, or upgraded my beater car into something nicer.
I thought having my own place would make me less of a loser but a woman has never set foot in this apartment. The place is too small and embarrassing desu. Not enough space for a couch so I bought a recliner years ago. Not enough space for a queen size bed so I've slept on a twin xl. It's been nice being independent and having my own space to ignore the world when I'm not at work but I just think it's a waste of money at this rent. At least at 650 it wasn't that bad. If only I had paid the extra $75 and got a 1 bedroom... Likely wouldn't have changed anything. Still would have been a loser like that one picture going around that says "Guys have apartments like this and think there's nothing wrong with it" with the chair in front of a TV and that's it. Literally my place with less space.
I'm 29 and I really need to stop drinking, but I still drink every night. I've been doing so for about 10 years. I've backed off of it somewhat so I don't get withdrawals anymore, but I can never stay completely sober. Haven't been sober for more than a month straight in like 10 years either.
26 khv. I can't get a gf but a can't say I have tried. I can't. no matter how hard I psych myself up I can't talk to her. Don't know what I'm afraid of.
>Feel #2
she is showing interest in you, propose to meet up and don't spill spaghetti
>28
>close friends with a girl for 3 years now
>finally got the courage to talk to her about my feelings
>she felt the same way
>broke off a deadend relationship for me
>sat around for the past 3 days sharing the most intimate details of our lives
>we're meeting up this summer, 24h flight between us
>we sit around and try to figure out the logistics of either one of us moving in together
>I don't really care where I go as long as I get to be with my best friend, she's willing to drop everything too
uwu
It'll be hard to meet up, as I'm in eastern Canada, and she's on the west coast of America. I'll offer to talk on the phone or something soon. Hopefully no spaghetti will be spilled. Thanks man!
just afraid of the unknown user
also, making some girl you've seen (but have NEVER spoken to) is a process
start small. just say 'hey what's up? or hey how are ya doing?' the next time you see her
continue engaging like this for a time; eventually she'll keep talking to you about something or other after the initial pleasantries are exchanged
if a mutual attraction is there, it will be obvious and then you can stick your cock in her
>am 25
>feel too jaded even to write in this thread
>still want to bond banter and chat with fellow oldbots
Man fuck that picture though, why do you have to spend money on bullshit decorations that you never look at, save that money or buy shit you want and fuck what people think
interesting if true
I hope she actually 'broke off the relationship'
sometimes a chick says this and they don't actually do it
hard to verify long distance too lad
good luck, hope it works out
>tfw I am anorexic male
>6'1, 113lbs
>really a pathetic and weak specimen all round
>the reason I am anorexic is that my family is very fat so therefore i want to avoid becoming like them
>mostly eat around 1000 calories a day at the moment, hoping to get to 107lbs
>107lbs is my goal weight and has been for years for the precise reason that i counted and in 2018 my family consumed 107 Large Beef Shanks (it is there favourite meal) so i want to mock them with this
>hoping i will die soon after
>family tries to make me eat
>despite the fact they are bigger than me, I am easily able to defeat their attempts by acting like a petulant child
>for example I fill my mouth with toothpaste before dinner so when they try and force feed me soup i spit minty tomato soup all over the house onto the carpet etc
for a few months I managed to convice them my favourite food was childs alphabet soup. i liked it because it was very low calorie and i could spell the word 'fatty' int he soup to encourage my diet haha.
>still want to banter
then do it faggot
what's the point of this woe is me post?
nobody is going to hold your hand through life
you sound like you have some deep-seeded psychological issues, beyond the anorexia
the toothpaste shit is like borderline retard behavior, so hopefully that's an exaggeration
your family also sounds like white trash, so I guess can't help how you turned out as a man
I hope you're actively engaged in treatment or seeking help
26, been ghosting my therapist for 2 weeks, he even added me on WhatsApp telling me it's ok and we can book a session when I want.
I'm too ashamed to contact him again.
Life is suffering. All the boards i used to browse is moving slow these days. People grew up and left me behind. I'm 25 a NEET and i'm starting Uni this year.
There wasn't even a valentines day collage on /a/ this year or last year. Where have you guys gone and why did you leave me?
I'll never leave. Happy valentines baby
Happy late valentines day user. At least we got each other.
>Went on my first date ever last week
>Went great, lots of common interests and ideas, we laughed at each others jokes
>She went in to hug/kiss me as we departed
>Messaged her and she hasn't responded
I'd understand if it was awful but it wasn't and that's why I'm quite confused.
I'm potentially having my first netflix and chill tonight with another chick which I hope to give Earth shattering orgasms to so she asks me back
You're no loser man, life is just a bitch sometimes. I've been on the job hunt, switching careers so lets see how it goes. Gonna have a few beers and troll the boards for some fun threads. Might watch a movie when I'm a little buzzed, can anyone reccommend some solid sci fi? I'm thinking about 2001 but I have seen it countless times.
Legend of the Galactic Heroes is the greatest sci-fi of all time.
>26 khv. I can't get a gf but a can't say I have tried. I can't. no matter how hard I psych myself up I can't talk to her. Don't know what I'm afraid of.
Talk to women just as people helped me a lot when I was young. Granted I've only ever slept with 1 person who wasn't an escort.
He's probably not judging you, and you probably should go back. If those feelings of shame are self-induced, and not from social group feedback, you're just being self-destructive.
t. ur therapist bb i miss u
Man why didn't you start one? Unsure of what it is exactly but take the initiative.
>I'm too ashamed to contact him again.
y tho????
Watch this if it's your first time user.
>xhamster.com
How old are you guys?
Started that, want to finish it. Where do you stream your anime? Laugh if you want, I don't get on the internet a whole lot.
26
>26
Got any education / what did you work with and what did you switch to?
I'm 29.
I've been with escorts and a whore. My finger game is perfect and I understand when to be rough/passionate etc.
About a month ago I fucked an escort for a solid 40 minutes (came twice, so I guess 20-20)
Was a lab tech with an associate's for a while, got sick of that even though the money was decent. Trying to start out in sales, just graduated with my bachelor's. The job search is a jungle but my family and friends and I are real tight so I feel confident. Been taking some meds for my anxiety too so things have been great.
I watched it on youtube, unsure if they're still up, but they had all the episodes and the movies when I was watching. You can try watchcartoononline they usually have some anime though I can't tell you if they'll be the right subs.
Alternatively you can ask /a/ I'm not a huge anime person to be honest, I've only seen LoTGH and Ippo and I watched both on youtube.
Sounds like you're doing better than me and a lot of other user. I'm proud of you, we're all gonna make it.
Lab tech sounds pretty comfy. I'd love to be an IT guy, everyone seems to look down on them which is weird since it's probably my most romanticised job role.
>jobless for years and years and schizoid so no contacts
>ask /a/
Don't do this, requests threads belong in /wsr/. But the answer is learn to torrent and search for your animangoes on nyaa.si.
>I'd love to be an IT guy
Depending on where you're from isn't there a education that'll teach you IT-support or something?
I-I'll user, thanks
I don't know, I can't really explain that to be honest. I've been ghosting everyone and everything for 2 weeks.
I'll try it, I actually bought Bebop. Maybe I'm a square but it blew me away. Best anime ever.
I'm just blessed to have parents who pushed me. And yes, we're all gonna make it. Crossed paths with an obvious robot at an interview recently. he gave it his best and kicked ass. Life is a bitch but we can all make a decent life for ourselves.
Hospital labs are brutal, it's easy to act hard in front of the guys or on Jow Forums but when you have to see people die it hurts. I learned so much though and met some great folks
I'm not too sure to be honest, our systems are a huge hassle but I suppose I could have a look. Just imagine being the IT guy though, even the name is comfy.
He said he doesn't use the internet much, he's obviously not going to have private links and public torrents are a nightmare, besides there's no reason to download such a huge series it just wastes space, streaming would save time, internet usage and disk space.
You're probably right about requests though, but it wouldn't hurt to ask in an already existing thread, we usually help each other out over here if it's no hassle.
Akira blew me away, I though it was getting weird at the end but my eyes were glued to the screen for the final 20 minutes, like not even blinking. I couldn't get into Bebop though.
Akira was awesome, give City Hunter a shot too if you like 80s stuff.
You don't really need an education in IT to work in IT. A certification or 2 can get you over the HR hump to an interview. A compTIA A+ runs ~$450for 2 exams
That being said IT at the start(help desk, desktop support) relies more customer service skills than tech skills. While you don't need to know everything about tech you need to be the rock that the end user can depend on when shit breaks.
Customer service skills + google/knowledge base + admin credentials = help desk and desktop support
I switched over to IT 7 months ago after getting A+ certified.
>Just imagine being the IT guy though, even the name is comfy.
It's never too late, i hope. At 25, i'm just starting uni and i'm gonna be 30 once i'm done. Hopefully people will look past it being my first Job as i've been a NEET for a long time.
What did you do before and how old are you?
Being a loser isn't worst thing. Tons of people are losers and many don't even know it. At least you're way ahead of them.
That's pretty damn cool user, are you enjoying it?
Thanks man, looking it up now. I once watched M.D.Geist on recommendation from an image that was circling, pretty sure that was 80s and the anime counterpart to Predator.
Being inept is not the same thing as being inactive and unwilling. You're not better than someone who hasn't had that realization yet. You're still failing to do something about it, and you should be judging yourself for your inaction instead of putting yourself on a pedestal.
>28
>havent worked in a year
>havent left the house in that time either
I'm 26 and haven't even started college yet, I'm not too worried though, I've been concentrating on getting Jow Forumser and accepting I do things at my own pace in my own weird way, and no one actually seems to care how you do things as long as they get done. Well, plenty of people care, but it's never a huge issue beyond judgemental people making snide remarks, if you can handle that you're solid. Tbh if I'd done Uni at a younger age myself I'd have probably skipped lessons, left the work until the last minute and stressed over social aspects and anxiety, completely missing the point of it. Good luck to you user.
How can I invest 100k to get into NEEThood?
Define invest.
It's generally one of those things if you don't know how you can't.
invest: How to spend money to make money, niggah.
I had what I thought was a great connection with a girl, it felt like a movie. I asked her out and she said yes. We texted a bit during the week and set up a date for tonight. This morning she canceled.
This felt different, it felt special. I was so excited. I should have known it was too good to be true.
You're not going to be able to invest $100k and live off it
if he has property [inherits parents' house] and there's no significant property tax, you can literally live off $100,000 dollars though
>What did you do before and how old are you?
29. I did landscaping, worked in a mill, and still work as a cook. Built my first computer at 16, and broke it 30 seconds later. I enjoy working on cars, bicycles, electronics, and houses in my free time.
I get schooled regularly by 22-25 year old kids
>That's pretty damn cool user, are you enjoying it?
I enjoy the paycheck and benefits, but the end users can be a riot to work with. I work for an outsourced(all techs are US based) helpdesk for 90,000 users. I get my ass kicked every day working on systems I know nothing about. I did do a desktop support contract before my current gig. Current plan is to get my ass handed to me for a year and look for a better direct hire gig.
Contracting sucks donkey dick. Do it for a year max to get some experience, and run to whatever offers you a full time spot no matter what. IT contractors are a lower class. We had red badges while permanent employees had green badges. We made lots of star trek jokes at my last contracting job.
>28
>no gf
>live on my own with mediocre but fairly comfy job
>Have some kind of mental problem that shuts my brain down specifically when I flirt with women
>As a result have women coming up to me literally telling me I'm hot, only for me to scare them away 2 minutes later
Shit sucks but what can you do. Going to a warhammer tournament this weekend, hoping it'll go well.
Wish me luck, oldbots.
How do your manager(s) go with you constantly getting your ass kicked?
Sitting around wondering why Im such a fucking cunt
They understand.
Our system has you hand off a call to a more experienced tech if you are totally stumped after 20 minutes. The experienced techs will help you out though. Management cares more about the customer service experience. Seriously broken things get handed off to techs who go on site.
Good luck. I'd like to get into Warhammer. I finally installed a copy of Space Marine I got for free last year. I'm going to try it soon.
>26
>broke up with gf
>now alone
>nothing but (mostly)work and games
Finding local nice girls to talk to is impossible. Online never lasts for long.
Single life sucks ass, I just want to be comfy again.
gubmint trying to take my disability again. sick of this crap every year
Just buy Chink replica from yoyhammer for 75% less
>>That being said IT at the start(help desk, desktop support) relies more customer service skills than tech skills.
when I found this out was when I gave up trying to get into IT.
>night out with friends
>realize that I will not be able to get laid, ever, until I lose weight and start exercising
Also I'm a bit short, like an inch or 2 below average. It doesn't help. I never felt bad about it, but I'm starting to feel a bit insecure about it now. But It wouldn't matter if I was 40 pounds lighter, at my ideal weight. Thinking of all the effort and exhaustion that comes with sticking to a diet makes me want to give up. I'm actually afraid of "wasting my time" trying to lose weight because I know that if I get depressed again I'll put it back on like the last time. So I have to fix my finances first, by getting a job and/or finally finishing my degree, but I also need money for this.
I quit my job two days ago and my parents haven't found out yet. I wonder how much longer I can keep the lie going.
I need to find another security job fast.
>Going to a warhammer tournament this weekend,
>Be this guy
>netflix and chill bitch says she forgot and made plans with a "friend"
damn
Eat less and move more. You can get some weights for cheap and do basic exercises in your room. There's exercises you can do with a folding chair if you're desperate and low on funds. The important thing is to stick to a schedule.
>There wasn't even a valentines day collage on /a/ this year or last year
Yeah there was faggot s2.desu-usergeneratedcontent.xyz
me too. now I work at a hotel folding laundry for $9 an hour. at least I don't have to talk to anyone there. i got a job as a farm intern this spring, so that's sort of something to look forward to. it seems chill. i've pretty much abandoned any idea of a future since i end up never following through with my plans. i'm resigned to dying in the wilderness somewhere on a long hike. that's my only goal in life.
Fuckin A. I remember seeing threads like this when I was young thinking that there's no way I would end up like this. I turn 25 next year. Anyone have regrets? I want to act on them to try and live a better life.
And to respond to your thought, I've struggled with addiction my whole life, but going sober for 6 months sent me down a spiral where I almost killed myself. At least the drugs keep my mind occupied in between work and sleep.
>Anyone have regrets?
I'm not sober enough to type right now, I want people to tell me what they wish they would have done at my age so that I can do that and improve my life.
Or rather, tell myself I'll do it, fail to follow through, then want to kill myself for being an eternal fuck up.
To be quite honest family, at 24 it was probably already too late for me. Early college, presuming you go, seems to be the last chance to fix things, or at least the last chance to fix them completely.
My advice is don't let fear control you. I have a lot of phobias and they hold me back from achieving goals. I'm slowly working through them, but I advise you don't form bad habits based on fear.
I've cycled through a few different trades, all of which required several months of schooling. I just feel like I still don't know myself well enough to plan a successful future.
Idk man, I don't know how to. My most significant phobias are social-based, I really try on them but I have a tendency to freeze up. How do you handle them?
Every time I read some success article about how person X had "hit rock bottom two years ago shooting heroin in a condemned house with strangers, but now he has a wife and a beautiful home" I get really frustrated.
I never did a fucking drug harder than weed and that was like twice. I buy maybe six bottles of wine a year. Where's my fucking beautiful home and wife? What the hell am I doing so wrong that strung out junkies can out-achieve me in 24 months?
I think those articles are all click-bait bullshit. At least I hope they are.
People who do heroin are quite out there and willing to take big risks.
>The important thing is to stick to a schedule.
that's the problem. I have no idea where my life will be heading at 6 months from now. My mother is crazy and I am not stable in terms of money or mental health either. Losing 30 pounds at 300 calories per day takes a whole year. I don't think I can commit to anything for this long if I can't be sure it will last. The only way I can use to lose weight is with very high deficits but it drains me of energy.
most junkies die from aids. His life with a wife and family could all end very fast if he goes back to drugs, and many do.
>What the hell am I doing so wrong that strung out junkies can out-achieve me in 24 months?
Usually these dudes are bipolar. The heroin addiction takes place during their depressive phase, but once they get out of it and get clean, they become turbochads for ~6 months when the manic phase takes over. The news interviews them and writes a bunch of inspirational pieces, but they crash once again soon after. It's a cycle that continues basically until they die.
ASS
CUUUUUUUUUUUNT
I wish our board had more oldbots on it.
27 year old boomer reporting.
I stopped at the bar on my way home today after work. I think the hostess there likes me, but I'm way too autistic to tell if it's attraction or just friendliness.
There's just something that gets me about the way she looks at me. Maybe it's just that I've been tfwnogf for 5 years.
>The heroin addiction takes place during their depressive phase, but once they get out of it and get clean, they become turbochads for ~6 months when the manic phase takes over
that's not how any of this works, cope more
Not the guy who posted and I'm sure its not typical, but I knew a guy who did exactly that.
>complete hedonistic degenerate
>taking several different drugs at constant parties
>fucking hookers and getting STDs
>switch flips
>suddenly always at the gym
>eating super healthy
>meeting nice girl, getting into stable relationship
>career advancement
>etc
And that would last like 6 months to a year until he just crashed back onto popping pills
bump to slide shit why not
About to turn 22, what advice would you give to your 22 year old self?
Personally I'd tell my 18 year old self to stop giving a shit about what my dad says and to set goals for the future and stop playing videogames so much
neither my 22 nor my 18yo self would have listened to that shit. Its not like someone will magically come up with goals for the future that they care about and will work to achieve just because someone says that they ought to have them. People don't play video games all day just because someone hasn't happened along to say "gee, you should do something with your life!". Even at 18 you've heard that lots of times, but unless and until you want to do it from intrinsic motivation, as opposed to some dick ordering you to, you never will.
at work right now begging for the night to be over. at least i can sleep on the job and nobody notices because there's no one fucking here on nightshift.
I'm a brainlet, what is it that you do?
He does Warner & Swasey, obviously.
>35 in two months
>finally have a decent job
>going for an online degree
>accepted permanent bachelorhood and will dedicate the rest of my life to being an artist and internet weirdo
Hooray for me.