>be me >beta normie sophomore in high school >family forced me to do choir rather than take german freshman year >cried like a bitch because id be called a faggot >played football too so itd be even worse >ended up loving choir regardless and was excited for sophomore year >year before got a crush on a girl 2 years older than me in the group >this was the year i went for it >start to be myself more, people start liking me for who i am >join the friend group shes in >everything going according to plan >new senior girl, same age as her joins the choir that year >was in the choir a tier below the year before but made it into the mixed group this year >is the bombshell senior all the guys crave >little brother is a year younger than me and is in the group too >i mentor him and show him the ropes so we become good friends >competition season starts in the winter, and thats when the choirs are basically always together practicing >get to know other girl better than the one i had a crush on >fuck shes actually really cool >learn she has a boyfriend she recently broke up with >tells me he was her first she had sex with > ive never even kissed a girl > am into it, i always wanted someone experienced >first competition comes around >you choose which bus you ride on >she surprisingly chose mine >keep in mind these are old as fuck yellow school buses, none of that charter bus shit >so the rides are usually uncomfortable >most couples sit and cuddle on the way home >we werent close enough yet, but got to know each other really well and were hitting off at this first competition >she asks me if i watch porn >i just smile and she laughs and gives me a playful slap >"user!" >first time a girl has actually touched me >i shrug it off >sit by myself on the way home, but am determined to have her be my bus partner next competition
>shall i continue? I just want to know why they forced you into the choir
Jayden Bailey
had been a music kid my whole life. played piano for 6 years and saxophone for 3 in middle school. both my sisters were dancers as well which you so as well in show choir.
Thomas Wilson
Yes continue. You seem socially retarded though
Zachary Jones
>next competition comes up >we leave super early in the morning >the day before i ask if she wants to sit next to me >she says yes >thisisit.jpeg >we ride to the high school the competition is at but we just talk the whole way while everyone sleeps >we get to the competition and they are doing a donation drive >you can buy a rose and they will send it to the person for a price >earlier in the day she tells me "user, i would totally date you if you were older" >notlikethis >regardless we continue hanging out the whole day at the competition >we are basically inseparable >keep in mind we are at these competitions for 16 plus hours > i get a chance to go to the rose table >forgot what i wrote but put some sweet note on a card and gave it to her myself >she loved it >even posted it on her instagram and called me her "husband" >dont know what that means but love that she did it anyways >on the way home she gets close to me and puts her head on my shoulder and says "today was great, user" >i reply "it really was" and she closes her eyes and falls asleep >earlier that winter i fucked up my hamstring during football conditioning and sitting on that bus in one place fucking killed my ass >i endured though >wasnt fucking this up >felt too nice to move >get home and from that point on we text all day at school and she even starts driving me home from school >next competition is coming up, but valentines day is a few days before > i ask her if she will be my valentin >she says yes >also started referring to me as "doll" through texts >i fucking eat that shit up >get her a card, fucking nutella, and flowers >card had some joking stuff on it about her looking beutiful in her wedding dress as she walks down the aisle and i say "thats my bride" >thought itd be a funny little joke >give it to her the next day at school >she starts crying while reading it >oh shit she really liked it >told me its the best gift shes ever gotten >is this it? am i feeling love?
continue?
Nicholas Rogers
Yes my guy we've come too far to turn back. Its a one way feels train ticket
Blake Johnson
>second to last competition of the season a few days later >its close to home so the teacher tells us to carpool >already know im riding with her >this time her little brother is with us >lie to the teacher and tell him i need to rest my ass so i cant come help bring our set to the school >only said that so i could go eat breakfast with her >another great day >at this point shes holding my hand guiding me around the high school >starts taking selfies with me >it feels real, like someone actually cares about me >we perform like shit at the competition so we leave early >go eat dinner with about 10 others at chilis >buy her dinner >word gets out that i havent had my first kiss >everyone is peer pressuring her to kiss me >we both blow them off >"noo, noooo" we say laughing nervously >my dinner sucks ass >give the waiter no tip and leave >she tells me its ok and i feel better >we get to her car >her brother is about 10 seconds behind us from getting in >she looks straight into my eyes >"user, kiss me" >i fucking spill my spaghetti everywhere >know how its supposed to be 90/10 guy to girl > she goes in fucking 150 >i fucking back away out of fear >am looking out the window at others getting in their car >she backs away >"user, you rejected my kiss." >i reply with "i know" in a sad voice >what the literal fuck is wrong with me >her brother gets in the car and it is the longest 5 minute ride home in my life >i get home and immediately start crying >we text for literally 5 hours >she tells me she loves me but i didnt know how to take it >love as a friend or love as in really cares about me? >regardless all i remember saying is that i was scared and im so sorry >go to church the next day like the normie i am >tell good friend about it >he tells me to ask her if i can get another chance >i do >she just asks if i am joking >its over >my one chance gone >from that point on things are a little awkward but she still drives me around
that fucking hurt to type,almost to the end
Jaxson James
>we get back to having fun, but things were never the same > i broke down like a bitch to my twin sister and her friends at the last competition about her, but never had the guts to tell her how i felt >she asked me what was wrong soon after but i told her nothing >after that things were never the same >we stopped talking like we used to >the summer passed and she went to college and i felt nothingness and had no interest in girls for the next year
that all happened six years ago and i still think about it to this day. im no longer a virgin and never let anything pass me by because of it, but ive never felt the way i felt about her ever since. i think thats why it still lingers with me to this day. what couldve been if i wasnt a beta retard. never let shit like that pass you by anons.
Ive had that same thing happen except we were the same age and we went to school with eachother for the next 5 years and i had to watch as she dated/ had sex with every single one of my friends" throughout highschool. Still think about her everyday but she probably forgot about me by now
Benjamin Adams
reason i even thought of it was because i saw her brother today at the gas station. both of us are out of school atm and he said she talked about me the other day. she has a boyfriend though but its funny that i ran into him and he told me that. i just laughed when he told me and said "oh boy". it fucking sucks
Noah Roberts
it wasnt over until you decided it was over. unfortunately you decided it was over as soon as you sent the last text of the five hours.
Isaac Rivera
i got tired of typing about my sadness but she asked me to hang out a few times over the summer. i was too scared and introverted at the time to ever accept the offer. i think i was just too fucked in my own head to get over myself.
Aiden Wilson
the summer meaning the summer after that school year
Ayden Jones
you could have salvaged it the next day. you could have salvaged it anytime before that. you could have salvaged it in the summer. you could even salvage it now. from what you typed she obviously couldnt gt you out of her head, even now she still thinks about you from time to time. >i wonder if he was the one if its any consideration, you stil have a chance. youre just an egotistical self pitying retard thouh, and youre a normal so its surprising you cant see he potential of you experiencing a relationship with her, even if it would fail in the end. >it is better to have inhaled the braps, than to have never been facesat at all
you know what, fuck it. tomorrow i DM her brother on twitter and get her number. will post how it goes. i fear time has passed and my dive into degeneracy will ruin any chance i had. one can only find out
Noah Miller
perhaps dont let them know about your degeneracy, just stop being a little bitch and at least try. perhaps try repeatedly if need be. i dont know who her boyfriend is or if he's better than you, but you're here and he's not so i suggest attempting to find out whether she still has feelings for you. don't make her cheat though, that's pathetic.
Wyatt Flores
obviously not. im more socially normal than i once was. ill just ask her how she has been, and maybe after talking if it seems right i can just tell straight up i still think of what couldve been. closure and never talking to her again is better than never knowing the truth imo
Angel Russell
she obviously liked you, i think she may still even if she's fucking talking about you when you're nowhere in the picture. cant believe you didn't run to her house after you got home and bang on her door to kiss her with the force of ten thousand suns. that's how life marriages are made.
>thousand suns. that's how life marriages are made. forgot to mention at one point we talked about life together. how I'd be a music teacher (which im still trying to be) and shed be right down the road at the local hospital as a nurse. shit seemed too good to be true at the time, but if shes ok with me bringing in shit money then shes a keeper.
Adrian Cook
sounds to me like stacy maybe wasnt actually a stacy. a lot of people also forget there are a lot of good hearted attractive people. chad+ is very common with chad- moreso a technical brad. perhaps your stacy was just a good person who also has the added bonus of being a good person.
don't put pussy on a pedestal but do remember that there are some women out there who are better than others, objectively.
Benjamin Watson
>tfw you never joined any clubs or activities and wasted your youth away with porn and vidya I wish I never had internet.
Levi Anderson
Will definitely look out for a new thread tomorrow.
