Be me, just woke up

It is when you're considering just yourself and yourself alone. You won't feel anything when you're dead.

it's not, people just think it is :( but suicide is like the opposite of a solution for your problems (and in general)

Some people are better off dead.

I can't wait till its my turn, I don't expect it to be that much longer. If anything, seeing that thread blow up so much made me realize how pointless it would be to die publicly.

Death is inevitable, so why rush it?

Because the longer I live the more I just bring misery to other people. I genuinely believe the world would be a better place without me around.

ngl, the world wouldn't be any different, if you look at the big picture. But even looking at the smaller picture, I doubt it would bring any benefit at all. No one's life would be better if you died user. And I get it, life is pain and all, but if you're eventually gonna die, why dont you try and enjoy the years you still have here? even if youre a depressed NEET or anything, theres always enjoyable things around you

think of all the efforts other people had to do to raise you and stuff, it would all be for nothing if you killed yourself

I really do hope that he is larping.

Because the things I want to enjoy like genuine friends, people who care about me, and a full life are just out of reach. Its too late to turn back the time I've wasted, and each day that I watch people who get to live their lives without any problems just makes it worse.
Hopefully someday there will be an opportunity for me to just fucking bite the bullet for someone and at least spare their life in my stead. Then maybe I'll be able to say that the life I lived wasn't so useless.

me too, or at least that he lost the motivation to actually do it

all of us here want genuine friends and people to care, and most of us don't have that

me personally, I have hope that I'll find what I want and reach my goals, but nothing will be served to me in a silver tray, I actually have to grow a spine and go outside and meet people and stuff, and I believe a lot of people here dont put enough effort into achieving what they really want, and end up wallowing away in depression

im in no way trying to invalidate your feelings, btw :(

Lately I've been thinking about maybe just being an organ donor. That's an easy way to give my life some higher purpose, right? I don't even need to do anything to get that. I just need to have a body and then I'll conveniently die somewhere.

OR, you could live your life for wayyy more years, not kill yourself, and when u eventually die naturally, u could donate your body for a medical school/medicine students

>donate your body for a medical school/medicine students
why would anyone want to do that

idk, but they sure do need some corpses to study

someone post caps of the thread? or link it?

>51259374

this is the thread, i think

>Because the longer I live the more I just bring misery to other people.

Doesn't really make sense. If you do decide to kill yourself the people that you leave behind will suffer a life time. Tell us user why you can't turn your situation around.

No one outside your immediate family doesnt care if you kill yourself.

I'm happy his suffering has ended

>muh family
His parents, being older than him, have shorter life expectancies, so the total amount of suffering units produced isn't necessarily more compared to if he were still alive. You also need to take into account the fact that if he had kids, there's a good chance they would be depressed autists like he was, so him killing himself and not reproducing is helping to weed depression genes out of the gene pool.

fuck, dude. i've come to realize that the only thing you can really do in suicide threads is to say goodbye before they go.

none of you will change my opinion. even if his parents are old, idfc, they're suffering more than him, and he HAD KIDS??? he ruined their lives, theres no way id ever be happy that someone killed themself

>living for other even if you're suffering
not worth it

depression isnt a terminal disease dude, did you forget that shit can literally be cured?

It cant. You only learn to cope with it.

if you're implying that you can cure depression with just meds and exercise or whatever, that's not true

no, it literally can be cured, and its not with meds or exercise, and it takes a lot of time, but you can get rid of it

but you cant help someone who doesnt want to be helped, so a lot of people just accept that they're depressed and kill themselves

I try to help myself but the irony is that im too much of a coward to kill myself.

and thats a good thing ! dont ever kill urself or i will find where u live and beat the shit out of ur dead body

Same here man, no matter what it's never bad enough to justify taking your own life.
It's just hurts because I can't help but read that thread and wonder if I'm gonna be the next robot to make a thread like that, you know?
We all need to support eachother and carry on, that's the only way any of us are going to survive In this world gone mad.

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gotta say, i was pretty unmoved by the entire thread until i clicked the link to his last song. that was fucked, both the vocals and the video. if he wasnt larping i really question the disturbed mind that decided on something so awful as the last thing to listen to. Maybe he was trying to brace himself for the afterlife being hell? Either way, i would have forgotten that thread like all the dozens of other suicide threads you see over the years, but that video absolutely creeped me out and left an impression on me
that will probably last my entire life. thanks a lot, nick.

you know i remember someone posting that same youtube link in a thread many months or maybe a few years ago, it doesnt have that many views so i imagine it was probably him who posted it back then as well. id managed to entirely forget about it until now.

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if real he killed himself to spite an ex-gf. definition of normalfag

exactly, its never bad enough to kill yourself. i hope other robots don't do the same anytime soon, i hope they're brave enough to stay around for many more years, not for me, not for you, not for their families but for themselves. i really hope good change comes in their ways :( I wish i could support everyone here

what was the song? can you send it to me?

What video are yout talking about

youtube.com/watch?v=7zupKoFqr0A
this one

this is amazing. I'm so sad. I hope Nick is ok :(

Ah i love current 93

Didn't see it in the previous thread tho

Getting ready to head down to the basement, anons. I've got my outro song going on repeat.

youtube.com/watch?v=7zupKoFqr0A

I'll do one more message and then I'm out.

Just imagine going down the basement ready to hang yourself to that song, jesus christ

Was this you >This thread is fucking with my head. I suddenly have shivers going down my spine. I was praying for OP, saying "please God let him live if he's a good person and deserves it". Now I have so many questions. Was God unable to do anything just due to the laws of physics? Did he choose not to do anything? Was Nick possessed by demons, is that why he chose the creepiest song in the world to die to? Did I get trolled? I think I'm going to remember this thread forever.

>3/3/19
It means he's committed suicide in the alternative future. It's 3/2 so that means we can still save him.
Quick we need to doxx.

He was tormented for various reasons.
>Did I get trolled?
People believe so but i think the really kill himself.

No, I didnt post in the thread. Not sure if i believe in the supernatural and if it does exist im not sure its anything so simple as two sides in conflict with one another, good vs evil. But maybe it does exist and maybe that really is all there is to it. maybe.
>Just imagine going down the basement ready to hang yourself to that song
its true horror to try and imagine the state of mind youd have to be in. the fact that hes descending into the basement just makes it that much worse than if he just did it in a living room or something. seriously one of the darkest mental images ive ever had in my life. the reality of it makes it all the more disturbing.

ive planned out a suicide as well, in an abandoned house which i guess is kinda morbid as well, but it had a nice secluded backyard with lots of trees and plants. the room i was going to do it in has a window with a good view of the sky, and a bunch of trees. that is what i would want to be my last vision. and as for music, i think id have preferred to listen to something melancholy, but not something so jarring and disruptive. Interesting choice

I tried to talk him out of it, but I fell asleep about an hour or so before he said he'd do it. What happened?

I got 40 seconds into it and dipped.
Fuck that shit.

>What happened?
Who knows.

Edit: 2 minutes

>why do people think being unable to suffer is the answer to suffering
keep pondering, brainlet

None of your arguments are effective or even making sense. If death is inevitable, why prolong your life/put if off?

i wish i had stopped that early, i watched it way too far before i realized there is no real reason to continue. its stupid, ive always felt as if im somehow obligated to never look away from stuff like this, or torture videos or gore. i think my rationale was that if it exists, i should be forced to confront it and not shy away from it. everything that exists is in some way or another a reflection of the nature of our reality.

as i get older i gradually realized that there is no merit to witnessing every horror. sometimes its better for the psyche to just look away and forget about it. some things are better left unremembered, or better yet unseen.

>r9k
>a bunch of normie tier arguments against suicide

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Presumably those who stuck around know what his final messages were, and whether he was wavering or fully committed to going through with it?

his final posts were
>Getting ready to head down to the basement, anons. I've got my outro song going on repeat.

youtube.com/watch?v=7zupKoFqr0A [Open]

I'll do one more message and then I'm out.

and he also made one final post after that, replying to i think 3 more anons. one about how using drugs was just a temporary relief from suffering, i think another acknowledging that he was indeed committing suicide to spite his ex. i forget the 3rd post. but he did intend to go through with the suicide, according to his last posts. who knows whether or not he actually did it. maybe he turned back at the last moment. survival instinct is difficult to overcome without massive willpower. in my experience most suicides were actually spur of the moment impulses that were acted out on. very few suicices that i know of were premeditated to any large extent. not to say it never happens, but i think it is hard to go into a suicide in a cool rational state of mind. and he was calm enough to take time replying to posts rationally. i suspect there is a real chance he is still alive. who knows, though?

It doesn't really matter if he's alive or not, since you guys didn't even know much about him beside some basic family info and that he had a cat

Thanks for the update. I hope he didn't go through with it, but, like you said, who knows? At least he saw the dozens of comments that tried to discourage him, and knew that he wasn't entirely alone.

I have someone in my life who feels responsible for the way my life turned out. They try to talk to me, because they feel obligated to, and it makes me feel worse when I realize I can't actually do anything for them.
Its better if I just disappear, so they don't have to bother.

>burgerland
>now knowing what timezones are
tard

>there are anons ITT considering suicide that haven't done drugs
If you don't care about your life anyway, why not just have some fun before you go?

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I feel happy knowing there is one less person in this world. More air for me to breathe.

if anyone couldnt catch it: desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/51254881

You are in normieland now. Gaylord.

It won't open up for some reason

Here's a better one: why die when you can restart? Just go to another country, make a fake ID and start over.
Suicide is only the answer when the pain is physical

its all so horrible

lmao add that edgy shitty video he posted before he killed himself

can we post actual legit suicide songs?
youtube.com/watch?v=8GW6sLrK40k

make sure you can find a way to specify you want medical students to use you as a cadaver. apparently automotive companies also use cadavers to test automotive safety (which is also kind of cool but it is to make profit, not learn new shit like a medical student would with your body)

>Just go to another country, make a fake ID and start over.
yeah, it's so easy to do that.

>this
>suicide
What the fuck user, that's my snorting ketamine song.
Try this instead: youtube.com/watch?v=XaSVkb_XLt4

I missed the thread, can someone link the archive?

literally scrolled up half a second
i am fucking blind

Anyone who posts about their suicide is a piece of shit and deserves worse torture than what makes them want to die. Imagine being so selfish, that right before an incredibly selfish and cowardly act, you have to try your best to make other people sad for you. Fucking pathetic. Fucking do it or shut the fuck up. I feel literally no sympathy for this faggot or any of the other faggots who do shit like this.

Anyone who posts about their anger over suicide posts is a piece of shit and deserves worse torture than what makes them want to post. Imagine being so selfish, that right before an incredibly selfish and pointless post, you have to try your best to make other people sadder about themselves. Fucking pathetic. Fucking kill yourself or shut the fuck up. I feel literally no sympathy for this faggot or any of the other faggots who do shit like this.

He was very selfish, he wrote letters to all of his loved ones and sent them so they'd feel guilty. If it was real then he's an ass.

Honestly, if you didn't get a note when a loved one committed suicide they just didn't give a shit about you any more.

also his dad had a stroke recently, and he according to him was incredibly depressed and wanted to die. imagine how hes gonna feel now. i think someone said he was an ex cop though, so that makes sense. all cops are selfish assholes

I read the whole thread, but didn't see him say he was a cop anywhere. Where are people getting this from?

The only identifying info we have is that his dad had a stroke, he owned a company that went out of business, he got laid off, his girlfriend cheated on him after 14 years together, his dad had a stroke, he has a brother, and he is in his mid 30's.

Was there any EXIF data on the images?

Did you read the thread? He wrote an angry smug letter to his ex-gf. He wasn't doing this to be altruistic; he wanted to show his loved ones that they are failures. Pretty cruel.

He said she cheated on him after 14 years together. Fuck that roastie.

I'm not sure, but I think since a few years ago Jow Forums automatically wipes the EXIF data of any pictures you upload.

Fuck him, he's normal scum.

No way. I love that song, based Nick exposing good music to his fellow anons.

>thinking you can get away with that shit in current year
Don't be ridiculous.