Hug it Out

Just recovered from a borderline ED. Will take a while to get muscles again. But I'm going on a nice little bike ride to the seaside today. Should take around 4 hours

>started lifting again after 9months
>4th day in
>98kg 186cm
>no gf
>wagie job in IT
feels pretty fucking stupid, only thing pushing me forward is that girls will like me more when i get buff.

>only thing pushing me forward is that girls will like me more when i get buff.
I sincerely thought this too, but after 4 years, unfortunately it hasn't been the case for me. I'm autistic though, hopefully it'll work for you. Good luck friend

>My running times have stayed the same for a month
How much is that? If you only run casually then there's no reason to go above 5 miles
>My pushups have only improved by 5 in the past month
>only improved
slow progression is better than no progression, check your form, diet and sleep (and mental health)

>And still no gf
Stop posting pale short haired qts, breaks my heart aswell

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>my running times stayed the same
But you went running, so that's good.
>my pushups have only improved by 5
They have improved.
>Nowhere else to go
Like all of us.
>still no gf
My gf is depressed, works a dead end job (nursing home) and generally just wants to sleep and eat. Barely fucking talks to me anymore. Haven't fucked in more than a week. It's hard, but the way I see it, this is a great way of learning to be independently happy. I'm just working away and focusing on myself, and that seems to work quite well. Though I don't know what'll happen if she stays like this.

Other than that, I'm doing remarkably well, as my life is pretty exciting right now, lots of iron in the fire and such.
Just remember that the voice in your head is not you and you're doing fine.

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Fine, finished my last exam on university, now I only need to write and defen my thesis. I will probably get a membership in Mensa, and I went from 87.5 kg's to 73 kilos in 3 months, a few more kilos and then I can start eating more and gaining muscle. I feel like an absolute beast these last 2 months

You should try cheating on her. You’ll get your needs met and not feel so trapped by her, she’ll notice a marked improvement in your mood. Either this will bolster the relationship since at least one person is being positive, or she will suspect you are cheating and then try to be a better girlfriend to you. Make she she does not know you’re cheating though. That way you won’t resent her either for being a subpar gf. Don’t think of disloyalty as “I wouldn’t do that because I love her!” Is it love resenting her? Calling her lazy and depressed? Wouldn’t you rather be in a good mood listening to her yammer on about her lousy job, than to simmer in quiet rebellion?

Terrible, bro.
>fifth day with bronchitis
>wheezing with every breath
>unexplained rattling
>unable to sleep for days, if ever
>hot and cold hot and cold and on it goes. AC has to be reset now and then because I keep changing it.
>intense back pain due to pressure from incessant coughing
Haven’t been running. I was so frustrated putting on pants because of the lower back pain I decided fuck it and threw them on the floor. Haven’t run either which is my antidepressant. Eating nonstop. Make it stop!!!

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You know, I can honestly say that I just can't be arsed. I had a fair amount of pussy and it just doesn't seem to be worth the work. I'll just use the sexual frustration as drive for new PRs and for writing more music.
Feels good to actually write it out tho.

Based little devil on the shoulder

Did you go see a doctor, my man? Taking care of yourself comes first, the gains follow.

I made the same common, tried and true mistake of messaging a girl the day I heard that she was single. :/