>Do cardio at 4am to avoid people
>Buy weights to avoid gym crowd
>Work from home til December
>Only go out 1-2 hours for grocery/laundry/fetch lil bro from school
But every time I go out and clash with people (some retard pedestrian overtaking me on the street, some retard stranger staring at me, some retard blue-collar worker not accommodating me properly) I reserve hours and hours fantasizing how I can fucking kill them. Torture and kill them.
I literally almost kicked a stray cat and her newborn kittens while I was jogging because they were on my fucking lane. I wanted to throw a fucking brick on the windshield of a car who kept his headlights on at 4 IN THE MORNING AT THE PARK. I wanted to drag him out of his car and break his fucking face against the door window until either the glass or his skull breaks. Some bitch bumped into me earlier while I was walking briskly because it was about to rain and she laughed with her friends and I think they were laughing at me so I wanted to turn back and fucking pummel her fucking face against the ground and break her jaw with my shoe. Every time I get these fantasies, I get pumped up to lift.
Wtf Jow Forums where are all these violent thoughts coming from
Homicidal thoughts and loner mode
See a therapist please, I don’t want a shooter coming from fit instead of pol
Unironically, isolation. Trust me, I know.
This. Talk to people more and you will start feeling like a normal person again. Also stop browsing Jow Forums, Jow Forums or whatever other places you browse that are filled with constant negativity and aggression
You're just a sperg. It has nothing to do with being a loner. I've been on the edge of the woods for about 3 years now and except for visiting family and going to town to stock up on provisions i don't really have much contact with people outside of the internet. And i like it that way. I hate people, but i don't have violent power fantasies because it seems like a terrible waste of time and effort to go wild on some goober. Get out of the city and stop being a retard.
The thing is, you only think about doing this, you'd never actually go through with it. The second you get confronted, you'll panic and pussy out.
I prefer isolation nowadays because I have complete control of time and my body. Going out with friends/family irritate the fuck out of me because all they do is go to a restaurant and eat/drink shit so I silenced all my social media and limited my 'family outings' with my bro (only person I can tolerate for an hour) so I can unironically focus on gains.
All these fantasies are in my head. When I actually have to interact with people, I'm civil and straightforward and sometimes even nice when I need to, but this collecting-petty-justice mindset is tiresome
Never been to those boards. Just Jow Forums. Used to go to the porn boards but they disgust me now
Have sex
My fantasies do stretch that far and end there because it's too exhausting thinking about how to hide the body and not get caught. That's basically how I tire them out, by the fact that I'm not capable of committing the 'perfect murder' or get away with it
Try to go to a bar and get in the face of the biggest dude there. A good thrashing will cure your thought problem.
And get stds. No thanks
I've been through this phase and I have almost returned back to normie status. You need to practice being able to control your thoughts and emotions. You want to be able to clear your mind and not let the thoughts you describe take over, because they are not who you are. They are part of you much like they are part of everyone else, but how big of a part they are is up to you to decide. Use this energy for something productive, but ideally seek your energy from positive thoughts.
That’s good at least
Find people you enjoy being around. If you are isolated socially your ability to deal with slights to your ego decreases and you become more irritable, being around people helps with that
I'm a girl so it might be an unfair fight. I would love to be in a fight without drama or consequences after. There are a lot of bitches and assholes I'd love to get in a fight to. Only thing stopping me is for someone to record or bitch about it on social media, then I'd lose my job and my isolation and this 'drama' is gonna be 24/7 on my plate so not worth it
>I'm a girl
Then thrashing means something else, but it'll still help.
Sounds gay but I've been meditating. It does help. It's not that I summon these fantasies. They're sporadic so I just get surprised at myself at how violent I want to be that I can even feel it as an adrenaline rush
>When I actually have to interact with people, I'm civil and straightforward and sometimes even nice when I need to, but this collecting-petty-justice mindset is tiresome
t. every serial killer ever
>get out of the city
You might be right and I've been thinking about living in the countryside frequently and being surrounded by all that space. The city is so crowded and stifling and there is literally nothing productive or functional to do that's not technological. I've been putting some time into learning productive skills like cooking, gardening, woodcrafting, repairing stuff. What I really want to learn is building a house from scratch.
>living in the woods
I envy that
Everyone has thoughts like this, they’re called intrusive thoughts. Ever seen a baby and thought ‘what if I just kicked that cunt across the room?’ That’s an intrusive thought, and it doesn’t mean you’re fucked in the head for having them UNLESS of course you act on them
That's another thing. I'm completely enthralled by serial killers now. Just watched the ted bundy film that came out and finished reading capote's 'in cold blood'. I empathize with them but I don't see myself having the guts to actually kill. I think breaking someone's face with my fist would be enough
That's good to know. It's just weird how thoughts of beating someone until they're bloody gives an energetic thrill
Get help you rancid slut
>sex might help
Maybe but there is no respectable option to get good sex for a girl who doesn't go out and I'd rather not go out. I'm content with self-induced orgasms
>I’m a girl
>still has those violent fantasies
That’s a bit more unusual I guess, but at least you’re not actually much of a risk.
Do martial arts, maybe start with boxing and then go from there. You will have plenty of opportunity to fight people regularly, its a lot fo fun
>get help
therapy is expensive
>slut
guys like you I fantasize about in a basement with a knife and cutting out your genitals and feeding them to you. Then I'll make you suck and chew your own dick until you vomit it out
>not a risk because girl
that's a fact but don't you ever wonder that because you automatically downplay a girl's violent tendencies that they're actually more dangerous? I've done boxing classes religiously before but only for cardio
>find people you enjoy being around
I get that but I'm just beginning to realize that most of the people I used to spend a lot of time with are a bad influence and it's a pain to meet new people to get along with
To be fair if a woman is aggressive its far more likely to be a sign of a mental issue, a guy wanting to fight is pretty much built in.
>only for cardio
Did they not have full contact sparring?
It’s a pain for sure, but its worth it if you can actually find people that aren’t annoying to spend time with. Might not happen depending on your surrounding (and on you) though
Lol you dumb whore
Keep dreaming you would get wrecked in a second if you tried some shit
You're just like a little dog barking and trying to bite ankles
btfo
Sounds like you're scared. Keep squealing, little piggy
I don't think I'm directly violent. The worst I've done physically is slap someone in the face. Although I would like to know how it feels like to throw a punch and receiving one.
>full contact sparring
Never got there. Just punching mitts and doing drills.
>finding people that aren't annoying
I know I still need that but I'm starting with fixing myself first before building a new social circle. I want to understand first where all this violent thoughts are coming from
Why don’t you take up a combat sport to channel this anger?
btfo
Yeesh
>self-induced orgasm