What's a good start towards completely disregarding what others think of me...

What's a good start towards completely disregarding what others think of me? I started with some small stuff like opening a coffee to drink, then taking it to the counter - and i asked a girl for her number but stopped halfway through telling her she's cute because she didn't even look me in the eyes and kept walking: i'm not fat or a mean dickhead in that i care for people i'm close to and would help a stranger with anything as long as they don't smell like crack - but other people's apparent opinions on me have started shaping my life. There are jobs i haven't applied for because the worker intimidates me. There are women I've wanted to talk to but didn't. There are times ive done things as to avoid contradiction with things i have said to others.
On my way to getting Jow Forums but i've heard there are people here who are ripped and still scared of girls or feel like the world is out to get them
That's another one. I have never stolen a thing, ever - but when i enter a store i feel like the store owner is suspicious of me, or when I'm anywhere there is a security guard, such as a nightclub, bank or government building. I think it's anxiety but i don't want to pump myself with meds + shrinks do nothing but listen. What do?

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Posted here because it relates to self improvement and there seems to be no /sig/ thread running. Also we all want chad confidence, no? What better place 2 ask.
Goddamn it i should have started one.

Lie on the floor in a crowded place for 20 minutes

completely disregarding what people think of you is not something you should ever desire. what people think of you matters a lot. things like dressing well, having good hygiene, how you present yourself, how you talk to other people, all of them are out of consideration to what other people think of you and they all dramatically change your experience in the world and what's possible for you.
the idea that disregarding what people think is even a good goal to have is just retarded, I don't understand how that meme got pushed so hard. it's like trying to make yourself autistic on purpose. navigating social structures and other peoples opinion is a huge part of being a successful individual.

I dress okay, have great hygiene, keep my hair (long) combed and always use manners. I have that kinda stuff hard baked into me. But I think my parents ruined me because I am socially like a mouse, quiet and can't even look somebody in the eyes for longer than a millisecond. I care what other people think too much.
I don't want to become an asshole or someone like Kramer from Seinfeld. I just want to be able to do what I want and believe is just/fair to do, without feeling like I need to apologize for asking for what I want or being blunt/honest to a person about how I feel, or being able to do things without that creep in of judgement from others.
Besides, we've got only one life. And to waste it for what STRANGERS want... that's a bloody waste of time.
The worlds best businessmen and bodybuilders don't give a shit what other people think, at least most of them do. They're too focused on their goals.
Not to mention, many people are attracted to those who do not care what others think. That is what a Chad is.

Benzos.

Clarifying my parents might be to blame because they were overprotective and always told me what they thought other people's opinions of me would be if I "went out dressed like that" or "spoke like that" or "did this (ballsy) thing"
Unironically intoxicated me is the me I want to be. With regards to scripty meds, I want to be able to get this power myself.

>I have never stolen a thing, ever - but when i enter a store i feel like the store owner is suspicious of me
That's exactly why. Break the law a little, then you'll realize you have nothing to be scared of. Most small crimes like stealing, vandalism or drug dealing can be get away with by just having common sense, and even when you're caught consequences are minimal.
I guess that's the way around fear. Face it. Do shit that would make you scared all the time, then normal life will seem bland in comparison.

I don't have a need to steal. If I need something I can make the money to buy it, rather quickly by selling junk on eBay or fixing some boomer's computer
Not to mention I want to keep my record clean. Might wanna enlist for the military or work for the police one day. I do get where you're coming from though. I'm not a moralfag but I do have respect for the boys in blue. Also grew up with cops for parents so maybe thats where it comes from, me being a bitch for authority.

It's probably anxiety getting the best of you with your brain constantly interpreting situations as if everyone either doesn't care or is out to get you. You might just need to take a step back and reevaluate things from a different perspective because you sound a nice and ordinary person and I don't see why so many people would be suspicious of you.
How did your parents go about raising you?