Mental Health

It’s not over though. We all woke up in a cabin and had these weird symbols carved behind our ears. Like satanic or pagan symbols. There was also a very attractive thin redheaded woman and two additional stoic men. When I looked at the woman I got flashes of this figure behind her that was like a giant baby but not quite human, disfigured with scars. After this one of the companions started to expand and cosmic tentacles began escaping through cracks in his body and head as he ran around the room. We beat him to death. Then the cabin turned into a classroom and I realized I was dreaming. The redhead was our teacher and began naming books for us to read. I can’t remember the names but I tried googling what’s I thought the authors name was to no avail. The entire classroom portion of the dream felt like hell. We all knew we were there against our will and the feeling of impending doom was so apparent. I played along as well as possible thinking I might gain favor with the redhead. I remember someone finally got the balls to ask if we were in danger and she said “not yet.” The weirdest part about it though was I knew I was dreaming but I was still afraid to escape or wake up. It felt like the redheaded woman knew that I knew I was dreaming and she’d try to stop me or follow me if I woke up. I asked to use the rest room and she agreed but before I could go I woke up. I immediately began googling shit but couldn’t find a thing. Went on /x/ but there’s no dream thread or anything. I don’t frequent that board so i don’t know.
Anyway, most of the time I feel rather ordinary and I don’t dream at all but sometimes it just feels like my dreams are way too real. Thoughts?

You need professional help user, but honestly is not existing better than existing with no emotions? There's no way back once you end it. You can still fix your life.

Imagine getting depressed in summer
>written by a Based SAD boi

Sounds like a case of not being in control of your own life. You are too dependent on and attached to others and therefor deadly afraid of losing them.

Do you feel you can't live your life the way you want it because of expectations from your family or others? This could explain the classroom thing where someone else are in control of what you do and you are too afraid to break out of it and do your own thing.

TL;DR: You got issues man

I was actually doing summer courses at uni, I just finished my last physics final yesterday.

I’m afraid of professional help partially because of stigma, partially because I’m afraid they’ll put “crazy” on my permanent medical records

I have a great job but I’m bogged down with student debt so I’m still living at home at 27. I definitely feel like I’m losing life compared to my friends who are all getting married, having kids, and buying houses. I have no gf, no real estate, no kids, but the same career as most of them. I just want to move out and finally be on my own again so I can start my adult life.

Bro, judo has probably stopped for the summer but that's no excuse for not training. Lift at the gym, train judo with bros every weekend or two weekends at least.
Depending on which church you go to, it's full of incoherences. Look up the orthodox church that stayed true to its roots, we can discuss it some if you want.
We're all gonna make it fren, just keep going and endure for now, eventually it'll all fall into place.

Accept a lunch with him. When it ends, you'll feel empty eventually, but you'll have a great evening. Rince and repeat
Value your friends bro, if your faith is weak, try to know why, seek the truth

Nice, enjoy Jow Forums hobbies my man. Go to the local gun range with that 9mm. God forbid you put it to your head

I had been exactly like you, even wih judo. The only rationalization I could find not to kill myself - hell, maybe I got a ticket for a movie I didnt want to watch, but I am not leaving before it ends, cause there might be a happy ending.

Kys

So you don't go to gym or do cardio? Welcome to /fit. You are now just like 99% of its userbase

>I’m afraid of professional help
I hear you bro but anons can't help you, no matter how good our intentions are. My best friend was depressed for a long time, wrote a suicide note at one point. In the end he went to a therapist, told them absolutely everything, they prescribed some anti-depressants. He took them for a little while (came off in the end) but now he is happy with a fiance, a house and two dogs.

Killing yourself won't solve the problems my dude.

Have you guys ever heard of a Ni-Fi loop?
So there's this thing called MBTI where they divide people into sixteen personality types.
Very often people that use Jow Forums will fall into the types called INTJ and INTP.
Here's a test to help work out your type:
humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/jtypes2.asp
According to them the INTJ type has pic related cognitive functions. You use introverted intuition (Ni), extroverted thinking, introverted feeling (Fi) and extroverted sensing.

So a Ni-Fi loop is a thing that can happen to INTJ types where they kind of get mentally trapped in a loop of their introverted intuition and introverted feeling.
They're kind of stuck in this reclusive, irrational, useless state of mind.
psychologyjunkie.com/2017/06/21/intjs-loop-understanding-ni-fi-loop/

The INTJ type is kind of like you're either a supervillain or an incel and what the difference between those two might be is the latter is stuck in Ni-Fi loops. This article's prescription is to pump your extroverted thinking (Te).

>Talk over your state with someone else and ask them if your projections make logical sense. Sometimes just saying your thoughts out loud (extraverting them) can help you to see what you might be missing or what logical missteps you’ve taken. Use Te to make a difference in the outer world. Structure and organize your day. Focus on attainable, logical goals and make a roadmap for how you will reach them. Play chess or another strategy game. Do things that force you to use logical, objective thought in an externalized way. Talk to people, work out plans, write out your plans, record yourself speaking through your ideas and visions and then listen to yourself and decide if what you’ve said makes sense. Just try to activate Te and re-introduce it into your daily life. As you do this you will start to get out of the loop and enjoy a more balanced, healthy, pro-active state.

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So that's why i was loansharking?

Because you're the "supervillain type?" It's not quite like that.
For example Sherlock Holmes and Professor Moriarty are both INTJ personalities.

He sounds like a nice bloke, you could at least give him a reply even if it is a no you asshole

>now he is happy with a fiance, a house and two dogs.
Sounds like some kike scam therapist would say desu.

we're all have had bad times user, do not lose hope because eventually things will get better. Just ask yourself what makes you happy and start doing it. And also tell your family/gf about your problems, they love you and will support you.

>Pic translation: "It is almost always late when you understand that it is you who you should love. And yet whenever you do, that love comes just in time."

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My friend of eight years killed himself unexpectedly. He wrote me just a minute before he did it. Although he had shown some signs of unstability, he still was not able to make it despite getting professional help.
It left me completely devastated. I called his parents and I by myself could barely hold the tears.
I don't have any meaning to my life now.

>Very often people that use Jow Forums will fall into the types called INTJ and INTP.
I just took it and they say I'm INTP. Is it good or bad? Pic related

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I will be that friend soon I guess. I don't even want to talk to anyone at all anymore. Sorry about yours though.

>Dated girl for 2 years
>She was a solid 9/10 - great body, great personality, smart etc.
>Meet her dad early, he's divorced, successful, great guy overall
>We became gym buddies because I got him to start going back to the gym again
>Lift weights with him almost every single day
>He's got that old man boomer strength and used to be jacked when he was young, so lifting with him is sick
>Break up with gf
>We don't stop being bros, he only finds out we broke up like two weeks after we did, gave me some advice, tried to get us back together, but ultimately said it's our personal decision
>My own dad passed away like 5 years ago
>Gives me a lot of great career/money/life advice, is a chill guy in general
>We lift weights, get lunch together all the time, fun banter
>Lifting with him for like 3 years
>Has a heart attack and dies
>One of our last gym sessions he said I'm like a son to him and he wished that I would have gotten back together with his daughter
>First day back in the gym after his death
>Feel super sad, but hit PR
>He's not here to see it

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youtu.be/zMEtTIBwEko

>Value your friends bro

This is important advice for you zoomers here. If you're relatively introverted, as I think most anons are, it's easy to let your friendships wither after HS/college only to realise when you're a 30-year-old boomer that you basically don't have any friends anymore.

Hit me right in the feels

I dream of having a father figure like that

get back with his daughtr and make a baby and name it after him. Do yourseld proud user.

right in the feels
sorry user

I honestly cried when I found out. I messaged him about going to the gym, he didn't reply for the whole day, tried calling him, he didn't pick up, I got kinda worried when it happened the next day, went to a bar where one of his friends worked and asked about him, because he used to go there sometimes, told me he had a heart attack and died. Honestly went back to my car and I was so destroyed I just sat there for like 10 minutes

It's been too long. She's been with another guy(s) and I've been with other girls, I don't think it would work