How are you holding up, Jow Forums?

Doing alright, have more female attention than in the last 2 decades.
>have now female friend/gf or whatever she is
>first girl I kissed a lot with
>knows how autistic I am and that I am literally unable to flirt because I miss every social cue
>apparently I am acting so autistic that she is completely uncertain how I feel about her (which is supposedly being something girls subconciously like)

This reminds me on one occasion where she called out that she was flirting
>be us, walking through some park
>she is wearing a t-shirt
>i mention that it is getting cooler
>"you can have my shirt if you want, I can walk around in underwear :)"
>"nah, it's all good. I'm just sayin, but I am not cold, thanks.
>"I was trying to flirt with you :)"
>mfw

What kind of hurts most is how short most of this is
>been "dating" around 3 or 4 girls the last few weeks
>mostly you just meet once and then never hear from them again (if you can get that far in the first place)

All I am left currently with is the girl I mentioned and some 38-year old cougar, wonder how far this will go with her. At least I don't feel entirely undesirable anymore.
The last 4 weeks I also got the mention that I even kind of look like a model and I can kind of see where that's coming from.
It's just that I feel so bloated all the time because there's so much fucking sugar and salt in everything.

The most important thing is though that all my lifts are going up currently. Looking forward to break all plateaus in the upcoming weeks.

Thanks for reading my blog.

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>Oh no, two women love me, they're both gorgeous and sexy
>My wallet's too small for my fifties, and my diamond shoes are too tight!

>walking through a park
>"i can walk in underwear if you want"
This would be 100% acceptable if you were indoors, but in a park?? Makes me wonder who's the real autist here.

she was joking, all you guys are fuckin retards holy shit

I may be socially retarded, but even I understood that it was meant jokingly after

>Makes me wonder who's the real autist here.
We found him.
It's you

>they're both gorgeous
No, I never implied that

>interview today
>forgot to shave neckbeard

A surreal feel to say the least.

Missed a whole week of gym after not missing a single session for 6 months because of all the despair caused by living in a third world country and working for a couple of fucking dumbasses who can't manage their studio (i work for tv).
But i figured I'll wait for this week to end then start again on monday instead of forcing myself to go.
So I'm good i guess, wish you all the best

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No, you're not good. You're falling into the same routine next week. I know its hard, especially in a third world country where options are limited, but try to find something else. Don't waste your life working for fucktards who don't care about you in a dead end job. Unless you have any sort of upward trajectory in this career you're in right now, you should pivot. Spend your spare time getting extra schooling and looking for new jobs. Try to keep going to the gym - it'll keep your motivation high so you can take control of your life again.

>back to hometown from uni for summer break
>have 0 friends in this shithole since I was a beta male in highschool and unfriended everyone
>bored out of mind
>installed tinder, get about 10-ish matches after a week with 7-8/10 qts
>all of them atleast 60 km away so don't even bother chatting them up and using the matches as ego boost
>having problems with family too now

I want back to uni I hate this place

Honestly doing bretty gud, spent the summer working out, going to therapy and the beach, getting attention from girls again, going back to work next week, no longer want to kill myself, want to inspire and motivate bros so they don't want to kill themselves either.

losing motivation to lift because i'm not seeing progress. my lifts are going up but im not losing weight fast enough or dont lose it all

>quit old job last thursday
>birthday following saturday
>got a new job using my university degree
>got termination payment tuesday
>tax return today
>don't fucking hate my life anymore
more importantly
>more motivated to go the gym than ever

thanks for reading my blog

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I pulled a good ol’ “toxic manipulative suicide attempt” after the same situation.

>22 year old virgin
>used to think about it a lot
>lost interest in women for the past year
>opened an incel thread today
>now I'm upset again

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you are not boring, user. this simply means you are beyond productive. everyone needs to relax every once in a while but to me that just speaks drive.

You're too young to be a bitter incel, give your head a shake

I'm in a constant cycle of wanting to go to uni in summer break and wanting to have a break when I have uni.
That's because in the breaks I'm lonely and want to go to uni and in uni I'm not able to make friends in the first few weeks so I want the break so I can wait for the next semester to try again.

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>22

You haven’t even left zoomer territory yet user.

I'm feeling better than ever. I went from feeling lonely to being alone.

I'm in love with a girl who has a boyfriend. We spent a month fooling around and building a strong connection. He told her he doesn't love her despite them dating for almost 2 years. But she still chose him over me. We kept trying to talk things out as friends, but I can't do it anymore. I told her we can't be friends because of how I feel about her, and I've walked away.

I've fooled around with a number of girls, but I've never felt this way with one. I feel like I've torn my own arm off in walking away, but it had to be done. I just wish I had access to my gym so I could at least take this out on the iron

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>Started this week at a job that pays way more.
>Hate it already, feeling regret
>Had to change whole schedule around to accommodate new job
>Lifts were going up but now are stagnating because of drastic routine/sleep/eating changes

Feels pretty bad man. Thinking about quitting even though it’s only been two weeks, but I know I’d feel like I let myself and my loved ones down.

It’ll get easier brah. Every split feels like Fresh hell until you find someone else whose even better for you.

>was 350lbs semi-neet that almost flunked out of uni
>suffered from anxiety attacks that made me feel like I was choking when chatting with other people
>people called me freak, disgusting worthless
>decided to make a stand
>lost the weight, got leaner, went from a 2/10 to a 7/10
>got my dream job as an auditor with one of the big London consulting firms

Pretty happy, particularly when I see the ones who mocked me losing hair and getting fat

>havent gone to the gym in two weeks
>decided to cut instead
>went yesterday
>still managed to bench lmao2plaet

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I don't want someone else. I'm not looking for anyone else and I wasn't looking when I found her. I want to be free of this fucking bullshit need for pairing so I can get on with what I'm convinced I need to do in life. I think what hurts the most is that she supported my dream and I supported hers.

Now that I have nothing else, I just want to get back to the grind

>lifts are increasing
>got back into swimming
>seeing a psychotherapist about my depression
>just started my one month vacation

Breddy good atm, hopefully I won't have another depressive episode for a while.

>back to uni
>lots of homework
>procrastinate cause hw is boring
>no time to work out as much as I'd like to
>binge eating sometimes, do lots of cardio to compensate, then tired as fuck when going to class
>talk to friends over whatsapp, they're all 80 miles away
>no friends over here, life is class, homework, shitposting and exercise
>good grades despite being lazy as fuck but nothing extraordinary
>no matches in tinder, spend too much in transportation and materials to bang hookers, no time/energy to hustle for cash
I'm not quite complaining. It sure is fucking boring, but I'm moving forward in life with relative ease. Maybe if I move forward enough something good will happen.

At what age does it become strange that a guy is still a virgin and still hasn't had his first gf?

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At 18 its already kind of weird but at 20 its pretty clear there's something wrong.

Shit
>army conscript cuck
>put in some vacation center for officers as a fucking bus boy
>no time or place for gym
>have basically regrown my virginity
I want to fucking bash someone in

Could you BE anymore of a zoomer?

>work as a mid level manager at a gym
>make good money but it's never enough for bills, me and my girl are shit with budgeting but we have a good life
>just moved into a 2 bedroom, 9 month old son has his own room
>I fucking love that kid, cutest baby ever and he's gonna grow up a fucking Chad
>bills are higher than ever
>just had a big fight last night with gf, she caught me fapping in bed when I thought she was asleep
>not the first time we've had this issue, come to terms with the fact that I have compulsive masturbation issues
>she threatens to leave if I don't change
>I just wanna watch my son grow up with two loving parents
>want more than anything to just do kickboxing in spare time, it's my only hobby
>don't really have extra money for a kickboxing gym or time for classes with work schedule
Life's tough sometimes, there's always enough good to make it worth it if you know where to look though

>Grandma says “user is so good looking. There must be lots of girls who like him, but we never seem to meet them.”
>Mom immediately says “user could be with ANYBODY”, implying she thinks I’m gay.
>The same overbearing mother who made me absolutely terrified of even looking at women.

It happens user, everyone goes through this experience. Quite frankly she played you, but it needed to happen so you can learn something. Just remember that unless you're a homosexual women can never be your friend like bros are.

1. Learn to save up if you make good money and can't pay your bills that's on you.
2. Is it really only about masturbation? Why would she care if you masturbate? There's gotta be more.

1. Well duh, that's on us.
2. That's an over simplification. No its more that I have compulsive sexual behaviors. We met on fetlife over 4 years ago, she's moved on from the kinky stuff since then, I still bring it up. I have complete impulse control issues. She's caught me talking/roleplaying with girls online multiple times (before the baby), porn, NSFW games on my phone, you name it. Plus I constantly pressured her for sex while she was pregnant and didn't even see it until she pointed it out to me. So it's an all encompassing issue. When I was like 12, I googled boobies and lesbians like any curious boy that age would, got caught, and instead of talking to me about it my entire family shamed me. 12 years later of basically looking at porn and/or masturbating every single day in secret

I have a friend who fell apart in a similar situation to yours. He ended up having a massive panic attack at work because of all the problems he went through. I'm not sure if you think you're through the worst user, but be aware it might hit you at hard times.

Artists I like coming to city. No friends/gf to go with
Would it be weird if I go alone? I don't plan on making new friends either I just don't wanna be looked at like a creep if I'm alone. It's a small venue

26 khv here. Life is hell. %100 going to lie if I meet someone new.

Im about to fucking crack. Im stuck at my house for a week already because i got second degree burns on my feet last friday night when i went camping with some friends. Its the third week im missing my gym sessions because, the week before i was hella busy with work that piled up when i was on vacation the week before that. All i do at home is watch shows and movies i didn't get to watch when i was busy with improving my life, but now i feel like all of my gains are slipping away, and i can't even weigh myself because i cant stand up straight because of the burns.

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>lifts are up
>making money
>getting more into hobbies, listening to more hip hop, planning on getting a new tarantula
>friends, family, and housemates mire
>taking online class for social skills
>never meet girls, girls don’t seem interested despite good number of matches on dating apps
>told i get mires but i never see them
im sad

>Would it be weird if I go alone?
No, although it's more common to go in a group. But hey, who cares? As long as you're having a good time.
I went to a concert alone last December and had a great time. My little brother goes to concerts by himself several times a month.

>toxicity on fit

gay

>Girl I thought I'd marry broke up with me 8 months ago with no real reason, got angry when I asked why, trying to get some sort of closure
>Ended up finding out she was cheating on me with some coworker and left me for him because she wasn't getting what she wanted, ie she's got numerous mental health issues she won't address and was upset I couldn't possibly fit the role of 100% of her source of happiness
>Wanting to die for three months, wallowing
>Give casual sex a try for once, it's great
>Girls compliment my noob gains
>Decide to start taking lifting seriously, clean up diet completely, counting macros
>Fuck a new girl a month for about 6 months, which is stellar compared to having only two under my belt by the time I was a fresh 22 y/o
newfoundconfidence
>Talking to a girl from tinder the last few weeks whose gorgeous, loves video games, anime, same sense of humor, etc
>"Seems" really level headed and sweet
>She finds it hard to find something to talk about with me by the way she texts but she can tell when a conversation is dying and tries to keep it going
>Mentioned twice about me going to a live show 3 states away with her
>Said she'd hop on x game that she never plays to play it with me
>Mentioned I was tired one day and she playfully/autistically suggested holding me until I fell back asleep
>Sends me photos/videos on snapchat that make me feel the type of good I haven't felt since my last relationship
>We're about 200 miles away from each other but we're both meeting up in a few days. She seems really excited
Wish me luck guys. I live in a small college town so that's why I'm even considering a long distance thing.

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lmao bro just do pullups and land on your knees

wtf is smokeshow? wtf

I go alone to concerts all the time. I actually prefer it to going with others so there's nobody to distract me from the music. But then again, I'm pretty autistic when it comes to music

Doss your mommy and daddy not give you enough attention summerfag?

>managed to bench 1 pl8

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It means a hot girl

>paid off school for the year
>saving every cent I have to move out of my home town (everyone is very cliquey and “crabs in a bucket”) to a nice rural area near my work
>lifts aren’t great but getting consistently better every week, I’ve been reminding myself I’ve only been at it for less than three months
>been grappling with some long standing personal issues for a while but feel as if I’m starting to get the upper hand on them
>losing old high school friendships as I improve myself but gaining new meaningful friendships as well
It’s a somewhat tedious time but I know I’m setting myself up for success long term. As long as I remain focused on accomplishing my goals I’ll achieve them.

>went on a date
>had fun
>girl didn't want to kiss me at the end
>try to invite her to do something this weekend just to remove any doubts about being rejected from my mind
>it fails

Things wouldn't be so bad if she outright rejected me, or if I didn't know she enjoyed our talk; like at some pointe I was deemed good enough to have a chat for a few hours, but nothing beyond that. One month on dating apps and it has been one failure after the other. Have a date tomorrow with a girl that's probably a hambeast, after that guess I'm done.
Am broke, trying to find a job. Don't particularly like what I'm graduating in, but it's tolerable. Hate my country, hate most people I deal with, feel trapped since I was a teen, feel like I'll never leave the shadow of my family. Feel unloveable. Haven't been eating well, haven't been sleeping well.
Fuck.

Forget that bitch, breh - dust yourself off and keep going. Also stop using dating apps.

Dating apps are AIDS. Meet a gym girl or talk to a waitress at a restaurant or something. Met my wife at a Taco Bell.

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I posted in another thread but I just found out my grandpa has prostate cancer and I'm pretty devastated right now, and I feel guilty for not being there for him more because we live so far a way

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I’m chicken

Not too well
>First family reunion since grandma died
>Pretty excited as my uncle gave me grillmaster rights and his legendary tongs in his will
>Only people that show up is my obese sister, her kids, aunt with early onset Alzheimers is dropped off by one of my cousins, and two sibling cousins who I'm 95% sure are fucking (SWEEEEEET HOME ALABAMA)
>but that's a story for another time
>My older sister has never had an ounce of impulse control, 300 lbs, kids from at least 2 fathers (currently single), smokes, lazy to the point of not even re-heating frozen food
>honestly surprised she came out for the reunion but her group is half the party and it's not a reunion without kids in the treefort
>Everything going ok until I declare shopping trip, ask around for the menu
>Sister calls out she wants burgers, hot dogs, chips, soda, from her chair
>Eldest daughter (15) interferes to my surprise, says the kids need salmon, oysters, and grilled veggies
>Sister doubles down
>Have to watch as my sister argues for unhealthy stuff while her 15 year old daughter is the voice of reason
>She won't even get up from the chair to assert mom authority, just sits while she cusses out her 15 year old
>Confused aunt starts telling me the story of the reunion of 1994 for the 1994th time
>mfw just wanted to grill

I'm not even mad she wanted classic grill food, I'm just so sad my family is gone bros.

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Your “wife” sounds like a controlling bitch who got bored of sex once a beta like you took her bait ( let me guess she’s around 30yo?)

This exact same thing. I'm just grateful that every day I find the strength to keep going.

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The year from Aug 2017-2018 was complete bollocks. Anything that could go wrong did go wrong,
I made no progress as a person and lost all my gains, social and physical.

I was back on the rocks, but now I'm getting back to the top. Every single thing that happened in the last year was a complete inversion of what came before.
I'm at the lowest weight I've been, I'm going to the gym for myself, and loving even the weak sessions. Hell, I even managed to score a date or two recently so my social autism is fading away.

Thing is, I have no idea what really caused this. Around September-October 2018 having been at a mental rock bottom for a while, everything just clicked internally and all self pity and negative attitude just vanished. I was ready to get back on the horse completely and I've managed to maintain momentum. I'm so glad it happened Jow Forums. Really and truly.

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happy for you brother, sometimes all it takes is time

Good shit user!! You got this!

Thanks user, it means more than you'd think.
Now I just have to find a way to make stable income and convince some mates to bunk up so I can get out of my gang-riddled neighbourhood.

Based old puke

>take the subway to work every day for the past few years and use my autoloading transit pass to scan myself through every time
>watch how almost every day people evade fare by going thru emergency exit, hopping faregates, sneak through behind people, see bums and other unsavory characters on the train who clearly didnt pay while the subway staff do nothing
>always get upset about how i pay every day and these people get in for free and the system doesn't care

>today for the first time ever i see "fare insepctors" go through train to check peoples' proof of payment
>my transit pass shows up as not paid and that my card has $0 on it, sometimes these passes don't scan through if you go too quickly or don't put it in the exact right place
>i try to bring up my account and show it has money but they wont let me
>issue me a $75 citation and tell me to just appeal the fine
>check account when i get into work and the idiots scanners don't account for the autoload high value discount

now i have to do all this appeals process as a perfectly law abiding citizen

I managed 1 play last week , 5x3

This week I managed 135 8x5

Gonna bump up the weight tomorrow.

Metro workers are a bunch of mongoloid cumbrains, don't let them bring you down

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8x5 is way too much bro, just do 5x3 at most and then up the weight next time

third time ever lifting today. Failed a squat rep of only 95lbs (on my 15th rep). Want to kms. 14 year old boys can probably squat 95lbs like its cardio.

>still live with parents at 27 because i'm a worthless incel mongoloid
>they are going on a trip leaving saturday morning coming back wednesday
>gonna have the house to myself for all these days
>literally doing nothing because no friends or girls to invite over

>tfw get rejected by a girl
>remember she can't even bench 1pl8
>feel better

welp its friday night in australia and i just had to break up with my girlfriend. i was feeling numb about it so i didnt wanna lose my shit so i just bit the bullet and saw a ladyboy escort.

There was angry ching chong sounds coming from the hall way I was scared the whole time someone was gonna burst into the room and beat me up or cut my dick off. She was all "baby why u no hard???"

feels confusing man.

she also kept triyng to make me tug her dick but it felt weird, it was all little and semi hard. she kept forcing me to kiss her but i didnt want it and she called me handsome and sweet multiple times and kinda semi-demanded i look at her in the mirror and kept saying "look at us", i can still smell it's perfume on me, like a stenchly reminder of my unholy act.

guys what the fuck have i done.

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i hope this works out for you user

IM SO FUCKING HORNY AND LONELY

Fucking great tonight. Finally fulfilled my MILF/mommy fetish. She was mirin my body and likes it rough. She's mainly looking for someone to talk to and fuck and I am A-OK with that. Sucks that I will need to spend money to fix a warped wheel on my car tomorrow (pushing back the payoff month until September at the latest) but having a new fuck buddy that appeals to your kinks easily makes up for that

i just wanted to be with my gf guys, i wanted to marry her. i set up a home for us to live in, got a new good job and had a spouse visa for her to leave europe and come live with me. she literally chose her mother and cats over me, i wish i was making that up. god i feel so empty

you know whats funny about all this? in the mirror i could actually see all my gains, i really looked swole and masculune as fuck going balls deep in that ladyboys. there's a silver lining fellas. she even called me handsome multiple times and kept playing with my nipples.

Jesus Christ dude why

what do you mean? you know whats fucked me up in the head about this? i broke up with my girl because she wouldnt live here, we'd been discussing this for weeks and she finally said last night to "let go" or she'd "let me go" and then no more than 2 hours after i bust in that trannies ass she tells me not to cancel everything and shes ready to consider living with me.

FUCKING WOMEN!!!!!!!!!

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The only thing you can do now is try to forget about it and focus on other things. Gradually the shame will go away

will it user? will it?

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as long as you don't fuck another tranny, yes

see SHES THINKING ABOUT DOING IT NOW. i was god damn 100% certain it was over, we both said it was and now shes been crying that she doesnt want to lose me and is willing to consider leaving her fat obese dyke mother and cats behind and live with me. WHAT THE FUCK!

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the fact that she choose to break it up at first only proves that she isn't worth your time

well i chose to break up, i gave her weeks of time to ponder over this and she just whined that it was too stressful for her and she cant leave her lazy obese dyke mother behind and her fucking cats....to come live with me in my objectively superior country for a REAL life. we're supposed to get married in a few months , enter my new home, begin my new job and start a real life. shes wanted that since we've known eachother but soon as it got real (involving her leaving her shit country and cats, mother etc) its too much for her. i told her that i cant stay with her anymore in a relationship if she refuses to live here with me. her country is shit and its very difficult for me to move there anyway, nearly impossible. where as its very easy to immigrate into my country if you are married to the immigrant. i told her i was cancelling everything and i wanted her final confirmation so i could do it with a clear conscience and she said yes and to let go...so that's exactly what i did. then literally a few hours later the reality hits her thick skull that its actually happening and now she begged me to give her 24 hours (more or less) to come to a final decision. SHE HAD TO FUCKING DO THIS AFTER I ALREADY STUCK MY DICK INTO ANOTHER PERSONS ASS HOLE.

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>SHE HAD TO FUCKING DO THIS AFTER I ALREADY STUCK MY DICK INTO ANOTHER PERSONS ASS HOLE.

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You mate an irrational decision, user. I actually did sort of the same when I broke up with my girlfriend. Only I lost her forever, you can still go back my fren. Sounds like you really love her, she's a woman she's prone to acts of stupidity. Don't be too hard on yourself about smashing that tranny it's not much different from someone else going to a bar to get drunk and smash a fatty.

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i try to rationalize it by saying to myself it was just a high form of masturbation. its not even the tranny banging thats getting to me the most, its the fact she cant make up her fucking mind. i just want to move on with my life, with or without her. its driving me insane. i mean it clearly is driving me insane if it's pushed me to the point where i insert my heterosexual penis into a transsexual's intestinal pit.

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well you did strike with a hard decision, maybe you should try coming over to her country for a weekend or smth to talk things through if you truly love her