Anyone /deteriorating/?

Hope things get better for you user

>fatigue, and mental fog.
check
>Failing relationships
>implying I had any

>jobs
>mcjob that I can barely keep up with
>or schooling.
>tfw hs dropout

>Poverty
My paycheck goes into alcohol and cigarettes
>addiction
Shitposting addict, porn.

>tfw every day for the last 8 years have been worse than the day before it

I hate drawing, sleep isn't regenerative, I found out philosophy and politics were a meme since we effectively have 0 influence in society, I hate thinking, I hate the idea of working and hate the idea of slacking off.

I'm at the tail end of this journey.

I can walk, but it's numb. It's like my foot has been asleep for months.

adhd, go doc

Appreciate your kindness. Best wishes to you user.

my OCD isn't getting worse but it just won't get better either. real OCD. the embarrassing OCD that nobody ever makes threads about. I'm deteriorating at least in terms of my hopes and dreams because I always planned my life around it just getting better. once I found a job or a career path my OCD would be gone and that never happened and it won't happen. like my future is deteriorating or at least what I expected from it.
it's not a significant deterioration but it hits close to home. I would really like my old hopes and dreams and delusions back but oh well.
my life is going to me the same old OCD and that's a lot to account for.

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meme, go gulag

this seems like the truth with any mental illness like that. Fucked forever. Have you tried treatment?

My entire existence is rotting rapidly. I don't have any friends anymore, family don't give a damn, probably going to fail my final year of uni. And to top it all off I'm always anxious and depressed so it really feels like the end tbqh.

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You sound normal

not him but because of your post I've read about adhd and panicked. I fucking have it, I mean I know I have to get tested to know for sure but still the symptoms hit home too much.

To add to this, it seems like I constantly need new things to keep myself fueled. I'm never happy with what I have.

Fucking cavities & knees, man!

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Really? I'm so frustrated not having the willpower to get things done.

Mental fog and fatigue for sure along with little spacial awareness. Getting into alcohol more and more, schooling is going decently but I'm beginning to have gaps in my memory even while not drinking. Also can't tell when I'm hungry until it starts to hurt.

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my eyesight has been slowly getting worse over the past 2 years. other shit

remember where you're posing. Issues with the brain redefine what is normal for you versus the majority. If two schizo people talk together everything seems pretty normal. You're saying you aren't functional. Why not try to find out why?

have tons of cavities after avoiding the dentist for years.
Joint problems in shoulder over the past year.
Pretty much just work, eat, sleep. View past activities as waste of time
Deterioration of rotator cuff and tendons
Cannot afford grad school on my own, or a second degree
Have worked the same job for years, and have slowly been making less and less money. Pay increases are less than inflation, despite the fact I should be making more due to receiving multiple merit/achievement "awards" while at the same position. Don't think I'm qualified for other jobs though
Continue to never have been in a relationship. At this age, it is an indication something is seriously wrong with me.
No friendships anymore as friends have moved on with their lives or have gotten married.

Don't know where it went wrong. I feel as if everyone else has moved on with their lives and left me in the dust. I don't have the naive hope things will get better like I did in the past.

I don't need treatment. I can do it by myself. it's just difficult.

sounds like you have issues with focus. i recommend forcing yourself to do one thing all day with no breaks. it'll be hard for the first week but then afterwards you'll be used to it and able to output massive amounts of productivity

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>forcing yourself to do one thing all day with no breaks
working a job is getting paid to do exactly that.
getting the job can be a struggle though

>Cavities, fatigue, and mental fog.

yep x3

No job, no school, no wife, no kids, no friends, no contact, just me and my cat in a room, watered like a house plant by my mom. I must shed the last remnants of humanity and I will finally be clean. Everything must be purified.

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Oh shit this was a cursed vid I haven't seen in forever nice double dubs though

My name is Debbie and I like antiques.

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thanks for reminding me I have literally no legitimate reason to be upset about my life and all of my problems are of my own making

Holy fuck thank you for reminding me. Still laugh my ass off at this shit years alter.

youtube.com/watch?v=1XALVTzMOeQ

>that god forsaken screaming of the tards

Be clean, be pure, and carry on, user. Cleanse yourself and cleanse the world. Amen.

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I am the Moonstar

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>Don't know where it went wrong. I feel as if everyone else has moved on with their lives and left me in the dust. I don't have the naive hope things will get better like I did in the past.
100%
A former friend of mine (my only friend) got a girlfriend and we barely talk anymore. We haven't seen each other in person in many years and there's about a 2% chance we might before I kill myself. I'm getting more depressed every single day and think about suicide constantly at work. I have zero motivation or desire to do anything anymore, which is why I've quit every educational pursuit and fluttered between a million shitty minwage jobs. I don't enjoy anything anymore. Even shrooms do virtually nothing. I just feel let down by every experience I have, and the only solace is knowing I won't have to live a full life once I commit to kill myself.

Fellow cavity user here. Haven't been to the dentist in 1.5 years since I started college, and I feel like my entire mouth is gonna be rekt when I go back.

The good news is I'm planning to call a local one tomorrow and finally set up something.

yeah my boyfriend dumped me and now my world feels empty and meaningless. considering committing as sticking out the rest of my life as I am now just doesn't appeal.

I haven't been to a dentist in 7 years

not sure if I want to go now

I know the feel -- although I'm only 1.5, I think I know what you mean. I've never been more than 6 months till now.

But remember that while the best time to start was 7 years ago, the second best time is right now.

definitely deteriorating, bad brain fog, gaining weight, receding hairline, 28 years old, working shitty grubhub job, live with parents, 300 dollars in bank.

I don't talk as much anymore, I don't value bonding with human beings, I think it's not worth it anymore, afraid of turning into a sociopath, no friends, roasties sicken me.

I pretty much gave up on everything, no hope, someone kill me already.

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>dick only works for skinny chicks now
>joints constantly in pain from work
>breath smells like ass 30min. after brushing
>arm wrestled some nigger and won but that was two months ago and my arm still hurts and my elbow pops sometimes now.
>cant lift what i used to.

My mother told me she's going to send me to a homeless shelter if I don't treat my bipolar disorder, which I don't even know that I have. So that's probably where I'm going to end up. A life with this brain of mine is worthless.

Bad knee, bad hip, eye sight is getting worse and worse, rotten teeth with upper fronth teeth missing only been once to the dentist in my life when i was kid. Can't speak well because of the missing teeth. Have a internet friend who got a gf recently and we barley talk with each other anymore no social life out of that. Some how still have my dead end job but mentally and physically i am at my limits. Realize most of my problems are self inflicted but it's too late to change anything. At least i should get a tooth infection bad enough in the near future that will kill me, so that keeps me going.

Do yoga and stop eating trash. Drink tap water

Fatigue and mental fog, decreasing academic performances. Used to be among the upper-mid in terms of GPA but I don't know if I can still maintain it. I'm just sick of everything, and I feel the pills might be a contributing factor because it is supposed to inhibit my mania, and end up also inhibiting a part of my productivity, and the result of which makes me even more depressed. I no longer care if I get laid or have a friend or whatever, I just want to get through.

Oh AND I'm addicted to chain juuling whenever I have nothing to do. I'm going through like 2 pods a day. My life is crumbling around me

Constant random weird pains through my insides, muscle aches and joint pains, worsening alcohol dependance, losing all my interests, i do nothing but look at shit on the internet, listen to music and buy shit i don't need and do nothing with. Even food doesn't taste the way it used to. I got black out drunk last night and when I woke up there's some weird afterimage like blobs in my vision that won't go away. The few social relationships I have feel like they're on the brink of collapse, my family is getting sick of my shit. I barely sleep and end up nodding off at work constantly.

>Drink tap water

u focking wot mate?

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This thread has made me pretty thankful for what I have. Thanks guys, and I hope you all get better.

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>compsci job
>work from home
>friendless, single, don't have any reason to leave the house other than food
>stopped showering
>stopped talking to old coworkers/acquaintances
>no exercise
>barely any natural sunlight
>even less after I got blackout curtains
>feel my hygiene go to literal shit with each passing day
>mental health no better
>tedious labor
>in front of computer screen multiple hours a day every day with all of its "depressing artificial light"
>bossman outsources part of the work to India
>going to absolutely lose it if I have to yell at pajeets over skype one more time for going awol and doing shit on the project that they weren't told to do which fucks everything up and forces us to backtrack (and I will, it's inevitable)
I didn't choose the NEET life, the NEET life didn't chose me either.

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you people shouldnt worry much about cavities. gengivitis eating at the root of all your teeth is the real menace.

My paranoia and anxiety has been increasing in some twisted feedback loop.

I'm 18 and about to graduate high school, so I think I still have some time left to chance my life.
I barely have a social life, like going to the cinema every 2 months or so with the few friends I have. I only leave the house to go to school on a normal day.
I'm no virgin, though. I've been in two long-term relationships since I was 13, so at least I didn't miss out on teen love.

My charisma slowly fades away the more I isolate myself from the world. I used to be a relative good speaker, but I have no clue how to socialise anymore.

I made a plan to completely change my life after graduation and to make a couple of friends in Uni, but my motivation will probably die off after a year or so.

I'm going to try this. Thanks, user

Losing the only person i had social interation, that is my mom, everyone always kept distance from me for no logical reason, but that doesn't matter anymore, anyone i know thinks im mad or strange, with no relatives nor friends and nothing to relate for, only cycling between my uni classrooms and a tv screen.

i'm addicted to heroin my breaks have been getting shorter and i didn't even last a month i'll be getting some tommorow and i'm not able to sleep at 5am i have to wait 6 hours until my first shot shit

I have alotta mental fog sometimes and I have tooth pain alot cause my teeth are fucked. Also am a depressed khv robot so ya know that's fun

i have not drank almost 2 days. i am having moments where i feel an intense dizziness like i have spun around in a merry go round. it hits me and i almost fall over. been in bed all day. I might die

It's quite possible the ear infections are related to the nausea.

The fluid in your ears also helps your body keep its sense of balance so it would make sense that chronic infections could lead to nausea. I'm not a doctor but you should probably go see one.

>addicted
>to juuling

based

>cavities
I don't think I have any but I haven't been to a dentist in 4 years.

>fatigue
Oh yeah big time

>mental fog
Yep. It's literally causing me detriment at my job. I forget things, make careless errors, and I'm finally to the point where I'm getting called out on it and being threatened with disciplinary action.

>failing relationships
Idk, I've lost contact with a lot of people but nobody I cared to keep contact with. I have some friends I want to be closer to but we just haven't done the things we've said we would do. I recently invited a friend of mine who I thought I was close to to a hockey game and he just completely ignored me about it. I both texted him and called and left a message on his phone and he never responded. That one kind of hurt because he loves hockey so I knew he just didn't want to go with me.

>job
See mental fog about my work situation. In general I don't really like the job and I'm getting so tired of having to show up every day and deal with the constant bullshit.

>schooling
Graduated college thankfully. Family wanted me to go to grad school but I didn't. Still could I guess.

>poverty/homelessness
no I make good money

>addiction
Started smoking again last year for the first time since college. Switched to vaping because I hated smelling like smoke and also it's a more discreet method of nicotine consumption. Feel dumb doing it though. Also I can't remember the last time I went a day without drinking so I might have an alcohol problem.

hardly based :/ I feel like a baby with my tasty minty adult pacifier

>vaping addiction
that's an addiction to pure nicotine and not much else. and each pod has almost 60mg.
best of luck to you if you ever plan on quitting.

can't get those sweet 5% pods in the uk.... I'm powering through those 1.7%s instead

>Tell me, in what way are you decaying?
Cavities, fatigue, and mental fog.
Failing relationships, jobs, or schooling.
Poverty, homelessness, addiction.

Of course, I stress eat, I hardly take care of my hygienic needs, 95% of my time in front of a computer, The only thing I care about is escapism, and i'm picky.
Never had a job, ged, relationship, hell even normal drugs just bore me now.
All that's keeping me from shooting myself is this panic attack I get thinking of how god has it out for me and the afterlife won't be better.
I also have never had a long term goal, and have always been sensitive and insecure.

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I need to do something other than sit on Jow Forums all day. With this post, I'll decide my destiny!
ODDS: I'll stop eating junk, cut the booze, start walking more, loose weight hopefully
EVENS: I'm gonna learn japanese or die trying. I've got the genki PDFs and I remember most hiragana/katakana from taking japanese in highschool so it's not going to be as bad as starting from square one
Dubs: I'm makin mac and cheese, pounding a pint of rumplemintz, and watching law and order
Trips: Livestream my suicide for your enjoyment

double doubles.. lets get this fuckin cheese
Gonna try doing both

user, that's called aging. You're getting older.

every day more and more

Gay?
Origami oregano

>haven't had a haircut in years
>scalp covered in scabs, fungus, and boils
>permanent bags under eye
>constant mucus dripping into my throat
>teeth constantly hurt
>live in a constant state of nausea
>put on 150 pounds over the last 2 years
>mental health has never been worse
>living conditions have never been worse
>work at a full serve gas station
>inhaling gas fumes and car exhaust for 3 years
>sisters and dad refuse to talk to me, it's been 1 year now

Im glad you made this thread op Ive felt this deterioration process for a while now

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Really bad cavities, and losing more hope every day that I'm alive. My pets are my only joy in life, so when they're eventually gone there will be nothing left for me here. If it weren't for them I would be dead a long time ago.

physically i have nerve damage in my right leg that hurts everyday but i've ignored it. Got a few rotting teeth, and i rot existentially too. There is nothing but horrible things ahead of me no matter what i do.

Tired constantly, memory going to shit
(Undiagnosed) scoliosis is getting worse, upper back gets sore just standing or walking for awhile
Both my feet have numb patches and I think they're having blood flow issues
Psoriasis flaring up past few months
Friendless NEET for 4 years with no hope of it changing, but parents are clearly running out of the extremely generous patience they've given me
Literally only positive change is that I'm slowly losing weight but I have a feeling it's because of poor health and not positive choices

My teeth are fine though

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I've actually cleaned myself up in all areas besides teeth. I
>do nightwalks and go to the gym
>swapped vidia for guns and woodworking
>cleaned my room, no more year old half full Pepsi bottles
>cleaned out the fridge, no more half a year moldy turkey from Thanksgiving
>only vice is sugar and I'm cutting that out slowly
I havnt brushed in probably 7-10 years and idk how to begin cleanup. I never got a cavity per say but I do have deterioration on the base of 2 teeth.
I guess I'm gonna try enamel building toothpaste and see if that works, but besides that my life is getting back on track OP.

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I've only heard mention of brain fog before, and I'm not entirely sure if this is what it is, but it's like I've been noticeably getting more forgetful. Will I forget everything one day? I have no idea..

My scalp and face is scabbed and flaky too from a fungus. It grows on my chin and under my nose, around my ears and the middle part of my head. Also
>thin wispy hair receded on top, when I was in high school people thought I was in my 40s
>the SAME mucus drop, have to constantly spit in a can, especially after waking up
>sometimes puke in the morning after spitting my gunk out
>bones and body ache, nausea too
>roughly 150 pounds overweight also (you are me)
>abscesses/boils grow all over my body and under fat folds, huge scarring all over

The only difference really is I don't work at all and my mom is really nice to me. But I understand how it feels to be a complete mess physically and mentally. I've never read about someone this similar to me, thank you user for making me feel not too alone. I definitely identify with Chris-chan more than anyone on the internet (before he was Christine though)

Half way through masters - don't have the drive I used to. Difficult to focus and grasp concepts that I know are relatively simple compared to what I've done before.

Always think about how nice it will be to be dead. In a "I'm bored now; what else is there", not a "woe is me" sort of way.

I want to play old video games I have lying around as well, but I never do and just waste time watching youtube. Someone please just fucking shoot me.

Well at least somebody likes this shit.

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Stuck in an old closet and my health is getting worse. I've been getting sick a lot more and having headaches and ear infections. Cavities too.
I don't eat that much anymore, just an unhealthy snack every once in a while.
No job or school, and I think my existence is a strain on my family.
Not homeless so at least that's good there.