What's the deep dark thing you're scared to even bring up here? That you need to get off your chest...

Wow it really inky took a couple lines of text to spill your lifes story. What sad beings.

jesus fuck, I refuse to believe this

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are you on antidepressants? that might be your problem

Of course it did user-Kun, this is the perfect chance to spill it without being called a faggot.

It's true sadly. I still remember the day when his dad caught me sucking his cock in the living room. I didn't know what to say, and froze up. He told me "user, it's time to go home", and never let me back in that house.

One time we were in his dads room watching porn doing 69, and his dad came home, but his computer was bad because this was when computers were shit, and it wouldn't close the porn, so I went into the living to distract his dad. I was shitting bricks when he asked me where my friend was, so I told him that he was in his dads room, went in there to "get him", and held the power button to the the PC off panicking.

Another time was when my friend convinced me to fuck his ass. Again, his dad came home while we were doing it, so we had to stop really fast, and when his dad walked into the living room he said it smelled like shit in here, and then the cat came out of the litter box. It was a fucking miracle.

I have more stories if you want to know them user-Kun,

Yeah but ill still be fucking rubber. And I'll still have to deal with gross fluids, body smells, excessive sweat, the shitty, acidic taste of a woman's skin, getting bored of the same pair of tits and moans, among many other things.
Not a fag btw. Women really turn me on, visually and to the touch. I crave those first five minutes, from when she's naked in front of me for the first time ever, to while I'm still in the horny euphoric trance that sensation puts me in. But then it wears off and I just wanna wank and call it a day.

similar situation here. came to conclude I am gay. still haven't made my peace with it, always thought I'd grow up to start a family like my father did.

I have intrusive thoughts of cannibalism and mutilation.

When I'm stressed out I become fixated on the idea of biting a chunk off someone's neck or face, like biting into an apple

Never taken antidepressants. I was depressed for years and hated it. So I tried to desensitize myself to be less sad all the time. Now I have no emotions anymore. Seems like my mind just kinda did that to itself. I've also been lonely for a very long time. I'm still depressed? i guess but I still feel nothing and have no motivation to do anything. I feel very deeply and I just want that back again.

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you're just a fag dude.

Do you expect me not to realize this user-Kun? Of course the first few years I hated it and only did it because he was my only friend, but as time went on I've become a fag because of this.

that sounds rough man.

people on here like to glorify suicide. its true that its tempting to a lot of people, me included, but what people forget is that to those who care about you, its devastating. your girlfriend did this probably thinking she had noone left but the truth is that her death effected at least one person, and if not much more.

why did you break up with her then? did she tell you she was going to?

I ass fucked and got ass fucked by a dude I met through one of my friends through Xbox when I was sixteen. I had met him when I was about fourteen, and I liked hanging out with him on xbox after school. I agreed to meet him and I had to drive about an hour and a half away from home to hang out with him for a day under the guise of "I'm just having a party with some friends." I dont even look back at it with a complete sense of regret, I wish I didn't do it, but i'm not scarred or anything. The guy took a liking to me because he thought that I was a very genuine person, and I took a liking to him at the time because unlike the people I was around he made me feel like I was worth something, like there was someone out there who genuinely enjoyed my company. I enjoyed the day we spent together before it happened, hanging out around an abandoned farm house and drinking. Although I've since ghosted him and he's apologized for how things turned out. I've thought about getting back into contact with him because i'm lonely as piss but truth be told I dont want to risk that happening again, I didnt enjoy my one sexual experience I've had in life ngl.
>Neither of us came.

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Not a day goes by where I don't think about her to be honest. Kinda why I've never pursued another relationship.
>why did you break up with her then?
A couple weeks before we broke up she stabbed me with a pair of scissors over a super stupid argument and the weekend prior to us breaking up she'd held me at gunpoint. I'm not going to lie I left because I thought she was going to fucking kill me.
>did she tell you she was going to?
It was obvious enough from our conversations that the threat was there but I didn't think she would really do it. I don't know I was too much of a coward to really confront the truth. Easier to bury your head in the sand.

Post the stories holy fuck

Sorry user-Kun, I just got back from jerking off.

The weirdest story I have is when me and my friends fucked my sisters. My friend Joe often stayed the night at my house when we were around 12, and he'd usually sleep in the living room with me since we only had two bedrooms, one was my fathers where me and my brother slept, and the others my mothers where her and my sisters slept. I was in the kitchen making some food, and when I go back into the kitchen I see my blonde sister giving him head, and I end up joining too, and got head from my other sister.

We also did shit like that behind the house shed where's there's a fence on all sides, and the shed is in the back yard where no one can see it.

Me and my friend Brad also jerked each other off in the bed of my fathers truck which has a top over it while he was inside the store.

I thought I could think of more but as I try thinking they begin slowly slipping from me.

So at the time you didn't really enjoy doing sexual shit with your friends? We're they attractive though? I'm fucking jelly for missing out on that.

I only really started enjoying it when I was around 10 - 11. I don't remember how they looked, but back then it didn't really matter. Right now Brad is a high school drop out, and is a 6/10. It sucks because he always told me about his school experiences. He wasn't really a Chad in school, but he was a Brad, hence me calling him Brad.

Joe became a father around 17 and is a 5/10. He's also a wigger and has been in jail many times now, and currently CPS is trying to take his kid away. He also robbed me and fucked my mom.

Interesting. I could definitely understand fapping to those memories though.

It's crazy how much time flies by, I remember him telling me that his girlfriend's pregnant and that I'm gonna be an uncle. We considered each other brothers at that point in time.

I wish I could just rewind time and re live my childhood.

I'm retarded. I post here kind of joking around saying I'm retarded but I don't think I'm going to make it at my job. I've worked before and I can't handle using a cash register because I count the change 4 or 5 times before I complete the transaction. people have given me weird looks.
and I'm worried about getting NEETbux too. I wish I could work like the normies but I can't

My kid sister is actually my daughter, dad doesn't know and mom had us keep it a secret.

Don't worry user-Kun, you'll get better with the cashier.

I don't think I'm going to make it at my job, once I actually get a job. like I don't even have that yet

sorry to ruin your optimism but I count the change like that because I have ocd

Can I ask how old you are? I'm 23 and 5 years ago feels like about 6 months. And I'm sorry you lost him as a friend. It may be degen but I kinda think having a really close brotherly friend you've done lots of intimate sexual things with is something that would be really nice and comfy.

We're all 18 now.

user I'm a supervisor at a store. Don't ever let people rush you when it comes to money. Take your time, you'll get better. I was NEET for a while and your brain kinda just needs to build up again in math stuff. If you need any advice I'm here

I'm an abject failure with women. I get closer to getting laid than most robots do but I always fuck it up at the last minute. I always tell myself that I'll do better with the next girl and inevitably always fuck up.

Oh damn so this was all kinda recent. But Brad is still your friend?

Yeah. He comes over to my place every now and then to hang out which surprises me because I've become boring and do nothing all day.

Do you guys still do any sexual things?

No. It wasn't until a few weeks ago until I came with terms of being a fag and enjoying what happened with me, so I'd always turned him down. He only comes around rarely so I don't see him often.

My brother and I and his friend sucked each others dicks as kids. I'm bi but a virgin now. I do think that experience made me attracted to cock tho. Nothing wrong with it

Oh shit, you just reminded me of something similar. Back when I was around 10 or younger, Brad was staying at our uncles place with us, and my grandmother and grandfather were staying there as well.

My friend Brad woke my up in the middle of the night and told me to watch out for anyone coming in, but I was tired and sleepy and it didn't really register to me what he said, so I just started going back to sleep.

Right before I was asleep I saw my grandma walking into the room just staring at me, and I asked her if there was anything she needed, then my friend jump up, and I saw my brothers cock out.

My grandma walked in on Brad sucking my brothers cock while I was asleep.

>Then she says clearly and not hushed
Why do people do this

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The way I typed or just saying weird and off putting shit outloud for others to hear

this thread is gay as fuck
now i did have an "experimental" thing myself as a kid but i disowned and stopped seeing the faggots who put me through it. i don't feel arousal or repressed urges at all when i think of it. only cold anger. faggots are worse than jews.

sorry didn't mean to quote you but here's another you

In a similar boat here but I was always angry. Not sure what caused the change though.

ive been feeling like that too user. Its turned me into a apathetic asshole. at least when i was depressed i was still somewhat likeable...

Told a depressed girl to kill herself and now half my entire fucking Town hates my guts. I also did anal with a kid in 1st grade.

My first kiss was with a relative (kinda). I was adopted and so was my brother, but we both have relatives by blood and we were still able to see them from time to time. On my adopted brothers side he had a half sister who i'm not really related to but I didn't know I was adopted at the time.

We were at this hotel and I had to share a bed with her. It annoyed me at first because she was super adhd so while everyone was asleep I was just playing pokemon on my gameboy and she asked to play so I let her. She said I was so nice for letting her play that she wanted to play "mom and dad" or some shit. I said alright and she got on top of me and started grinding on me and kissing me, just a couple of feet away from our mothers. It was honestly super fucking hot and I realized that even though I was like 12 at the time. She was dumb as bricks and almost let our secret slip the next day, I had to watch her ass 24/7 the rest of the trip to keep her from spilling the beans. Pretty sure that's part of the reason I have anxiety.

Also did a lot of gay shit with my friends, pretty sure i'm bi because of it

Fairly normal guy, got a professional job. Went to the movie theater by myself, group of girls come in start making fun of me for going by myself, then they leave and sit on the other side of the theater as far as they can from me.
The assholes on /tv/ will lie up and down telling you movie theaters haven't got a no singles policy. No singles policy my ass.