My entire life is pathetic

cont.
talk about striving. I"m not striving for anything but its like I'm striving to strive. every time I come up with an idea, I come up with something to change my mind. or an actual setback will occur

What are your setbacks? Also your situation doesn't sound too bad. You don't have to make any rash decisions as of now. Maybe you just need somebody to show you to do simple things. We live in the modern age dude there are plenty of people to show you what to do ok? You said you needed a place to stay. How do you plan to do that?

>What are your setbacks?
mostly myself. but to give you an example out of my power, about 4 years ago I almost enrolled in a program for dental hygiene. super lucrative, super cool counselor guy, they were making a plan for me and everything. but they needed some tax info from my mom, I can't remember what, and it fell through. She was completely dumbfounded saying she didn't understand what they were asking for. I've missed out on a lot of opportunities because of my mom
>Maybe you just need somebody to show you to do simple things. We live in the modern age dude there are plenty of people to show you what to do ok?
yeah thats usually what I do. Its just kind of soul crushing seeing people younger than me explain what to do. also, sometimes theres a lot of conflicting info or state specific info and I just want someone to hold my hand and tell me what to do
>You said you needed a place to stay. How do you plan to do that?
move out with my mom and hope she finds a new place before we both end up kicked out. ideally I'd be able to enroll in hvac soon, but I'm expected to take care of my sick grandma because I'm the "neet thats always home" anyways. also theres some shit going on with my aforementioned POS druggie uncle and my grandma cant be left alone with him

Well there's the plan. So what about your uncle?

he used to just live here and shoot up his heroin quietly and do housework. but then he started acting differently. my family thinks hes taking something new and maybe he is, but I think his mind is just deteriorated. anyways, he accuses people of ridiculous shit, and he has loud fits of anger that feel like they can cross into violence at any moment. regardless, its bad for grandmas health so hes been kicked out. he still comes almost every other day to shower, get clothes, and (probably) shoot up, and usually hes fine but hes still prone to rage or delusion at any moment. my family is a bunch of shits that wont call the cops or report him because they dont want him to be arrested. I'm just waiting for him to have another fit of rage so I can call the cops myself. I'll pretend to be my neighbors and report a domestic situation and hope the police show up before he leaves. I would just submit an anonymous tip about him driving without a license or possibly carrying, but idk how effective it'd be

oh forgot
when my grandma dies, he will get the house because its in his deceased fathers name and they share the same name
I'll be fucking DAMNED to live under the same roof as that maniac alone, and I'm afraid that I'll have to pack up in a hurry to be with my mom if my grandma dies suddenly, and wont be able to pack everything. he'll probably end up stealing my shit.

Good call, and user don't feel about yourself. You seem like a good guy from what I can get here. And about striving? Just go out there and keep applying yourself dude. You only lose if you don't try.

okay user thank you for talking to me

Join the club. I am older than most here and not quite as pathetic in the women department (more so in others). I still hate my life. Just booked 2 months travel in Thailand and Japan. If that doesn't help then I am jumping off a bridge.

how old are you? and how'd you get the funds for that

Early 30s and I have a pension ($3150 a month tax free) from getting fucked up in Iraq. I stayed with family for a year and did nothing but save. If I enjoy Thailand I might consider staying long term because the cost of living is much easier to handle.

lucky. I'd do military if I could live all over again. what are you gonna do for a living in thailand?

I wouldn't have to do anything with that coming in monthly. My problem is I am unreal lazy now because I don't have to wage slave. I procrastinate daily.

you get that pension forever?

Every month I get a direct deposit of $3150 from the government until I croak.

i should have fuckin enlisted man

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Only caveat being that I cannot work other jobs while I get that.

They don't give it for free. I got fucked up in the head from killing brown people.

actual fucked up or "pretend I'm autistic for neetbux" fucked up
thats a pretty big caveat 2bh but not too bad if you end up living comfy in thailand.

I have some issues for sure, but yeah I might have embellished a little for the neet life.

hope you live comfy and find a nice brown asian girl to spend your life with user

Thanks, user. Hope everything works out for you too.