haven't seen one in a while >be 26 >finally get friends that are online that i care about >first few days go fine >something changes a little probably on my end at this point it's happened twice now >i just go through a cycle of having anxiety attacks/breaking down cause me or they aren't living up to my own expectations and apologizing and saying i'll do better >they come up with excuses why we can't do stuff together while still swearing up and down that i'm fine with them and they still like me
i don't blame em at this point but it still hurts nobody fucking told me that you have to work on making friends when you're young
i just had an idea where it's a discord server for people to talk to each other. everyone in the server gets randomly assigned a person that they can talk to for 30 min and then the other person gets 30 min to talk about their stuff. and i was thinking of rules like if you don't like the stuff the other person is discussing you can switch but you can only switch 3 times before you get kicked. but you can't get kicked if people keep switching off you. that way everyone will be able to have someone online to talk to. if i do make it i'll put it in /soc/ cause that's /soc/ as hell but do you guys think it'd be a good idea? it's a lot better than just dumping your shit in a thread and refreshing waiting for replies
Matthew Hall
>26 >finally getting my first real full-time job I'm quite unsure if I'll manage. I mean, it's not much, I just have to keep track of stock etc, but it's the social component I'm afraid about.
Only now I'm starting to realize how insanely lonely and isolated I've been for years. I'm almost legitimately broken. Who have I become? Thinking I can't stack boxes? Anxious of making phonecalls? Jesus. I can't wait to get over all those insecurities.
John Bell
>25 >still a NEET >still no diploma >still no real friends >still no gf >still fat >still depressed >still mentally ill
i'll be getting NEETbux soon though at least. im going to buy a bus and live in it
Hudson Watson
>Got first full time job with Bennies >Pretty physical so i lost 20 lbs and in pretty good shape now >Too tired when I get home to do anything >Work 5 days a week & every other week 6 with OT >Do nothing but work and come home to relax on the couch and watch T.V. I'm truly ascending to boomerhood. I want a GF but don't have any time to find one. Only chance is probably work but not many qts and I'm sure they alrdy have bfs. Better than NEET'ing again tho. That got old after a couple years. All I want is a fellow fucked up femnon qt to cuddle with after work and go on vacation with. Don't want to use my PTO just to jerk off and play games on release date alone
Nathan Gutierrez
Welcome to Hell.
I've basically retreated into my little hobbies and obsessions to cope with existence and stopped actively engaging in reality. Think this makes me a boomer.
Thomas Walker
Sounds pretty good, I'll make the logo.
Zachary Myers
28 years old here. I've just been working and that's it. I grew apart from all the friends I once had and don't have any gf possibilities. The people I work with are all old people I have nothing in common with.
I applied to a few jobs in Vegas this weekend. Pretty much across the country since I live in Florida. Need a change in my life to start over. New change of scenery. Hope one of them calls me back. There's really nothing left for me in my current city.
Ayden Wilson
>finally realize adulthood is a game of grandstanding and ego protection >boomers are literally just as retarded as zoomers >nobody knows what they're doing
get a therapist and get diagnosed with things that qualify you for NEETbux
John Rodriguez
Almost 27 here, might be about to get neetbux, and maybe tism bux for the first time. I don't care about pride any more, I just want to be able to do stuff and worry less about money, the stress is killing me.
Dominic Taylor
Seriously this We've been living in a clown world the whole time without realizing
Joseph Bailey
>'son, this is the age your father and I met each other' >be me >26 >still single >discover LSD >it's all okay
Zachary Baker
just finally got a job offer after about 11 months as NEET. not excited. it's a lot of stuff i don't know, i got it through a recruiter
i will have to move a few hours away. it may be very hard to get an apartment because i have a $7000 fraudulent debt from an old apartment complex
fuck. NEET life is just so much better
Juan Perry
27 here. Have a gf, but beginning to feel I'd rather not. She is highly emotionally demanding and needs contact essentially all day long if at all possible. I play into this a lot by agreeing to spend time with her and it could be argued I'm emotionally dependent myself to some degree, but whenever something gets in the way, shit hits the fan.
>spend all day in a call together >she suddenly says she wants to call a friend and take 30 minutes or less >I say I'll probably go clean up the apartment a little in the meantime >decide to go play a match of Dota instead, it's only about 45 minutes after all since she's busy anyway >tell her within 5 minutes of the match starting that I'll be busy for a bit >she sees my message after 15 minutes, having just returned from her call >continues to be passive aggressive and asks me to abandon the game because apparently she's on limited time from this point onward >I get defensive about it because my staying for another 16 minutes or so shouldn't be a big deal >she calls me in panic and cries her eyes out for nearly an hour >demands a written apology or we're over
I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like my mental health has been deteriorating for a while and I'm beginning to think it's related to this. Am I crazy for wanting to at least finish my match?
Hunter Rodriguez
Thinking of getting Chic Fil a after I leave the office today as food is one of the highlights of my day.
John Phillips
>>demands a written apology or we're over holy heck dude. don't ever apologize to a girl
Ian Ward
yah brah just kick her in the cvnt XD
Jeremiah Kelly
sounds like she has BPD user, are you familiar with BPD?
Dylan Rodriguez
That's psychotic behavior dude If she gives you ultimatums or cant handle you having the length of a Dota match away from her, shes fucking psycho
Gabriel Jenkins
>people in these threads are trying to find friends >all I'm trying to do is distance myself from my existing friends
I read about it and she claimed to be a high functioning BPD early into the relationship, but she later went back on that and said she had discussed the symptoms of BPD with her therapist and they didn't seem to match up with her. I believed it because the notorious BPD trait of lying is something she does not express; she is highly communicative and has not lied to me once to my knowledge. She did have anger issues early on that continued for a couple of months, but those have since gone away. What's startling is her ability to break into a panic attack and crying fit whenever things don't go her way, however, and it is for this reason that I'm starting to look into BPD again as a possible cause. This whole thing is starting to feel like emotional blackmail and I don't know how to peel myself away from her.
Daniel Wright
Why? I'd love to have a friend or two. :(
Jose Howard
U dont have friends? Why?
Liam Jackson
32 here. Working a dead-end minimum-wage job that at least is pretty enjoyable, grabbing a beer or two and some snack on my way home, playing WoW and noodling on guitar till sleep time. I mean, to some this lifestyle must be pathetic and plain sad, but I actually really like it. It's chill, comfy, I don't have any irl obligations and am perfectly fine with the state of things. Just wanted to say it. I used to hate myself for plateauing at such a low standard, but with every passing year I'm liking and appreciating it more and more. Life's good for now.
We've grown apart. Honestly I don't think we were ever that much alike in the first place.
Daniel Powell
>I'm trying to distance myself from >We've grown apart. Yeah, I think you're not telling us something here...
Samuel Carter
Hello user, I used to be in a very similar position as you with an obviously psycho bitch. I made the same mistakes of playing into her neediness and placating every demand to avoid the outbursts of anger and crying fits. it all ended in absolute calamity where she broke my heart and attached herself to another person after spending years in a relationship with me. All i am left with is emotional anguish and resentment. Please do anything you can to end that relationship before it completely ruins you.
Juan Gray
I don't thing I'm meant to be around people.
Kevin Collins
>another night drinking alone kill me pls
Henry Jenkins
Why not? What does that even mean?
Cooper Reed
I don't like being around anyone else and I don't think anyone else likes being around me. I'm not exactly a nice person so perhaps it's easier to interact through inanimate objects. At least I like my inanimate objects, since at least they have something to offer to me that I like.
Bentley Howard
>just turned 26 >no job ever >no gf ever >meds for OCD are working so I now have confidence >with this confidence I can't watch porn because it upsets me (I have a feeling I can get girls now so why bother masturbating to other people doing it, seems cucked) >this confidence also makes me, for the first time in my life, dislike being alone >got accepted to transfer to state school from community college >already did lower division courses but have capstone GED courses and upperdivison courses to take to get bachelor's >been studying Japanese for over a year and plan to take some classes to meet girls with similar interests >I think that with my new confidence, and actually taking a subject I thoroughly enjoy for once, I will come out of my shell and get my first girlfriend >I'm going to be living on campus too so that should help with confidence since my fear of driving won't get in the way of relationships (thanks to Grandma for paying for this)
Here's hoping. This is the most important time in my life.
That's some cringy Elliot Rodger shit, why not just grow up?
Joshua Reyes
Only YOU can make the difference
I don't even have the will to drink anymore
Jose Rivera
Give her a written "we're over"
David Gonzalez
i cant my mommy would cry
Austin Wright
No Elliot shit, I just don't really like being around people.
Nolan Rivera
Go to a gym, roid up a bit, and stop being ugly, and you'll magically start liking being around people.
Benjamin Cooper
Also it's probably easier to understand if you know that the people around me are pretty much all junkies. I don't want to hang around those people.
Brandon Evans
>stop being ugly, and you'll magically start liking being around people I am living proof that this is not true
Ryan Ramirez
didn't help me at all. i'm a supreme introvert. possibly even "schizoid" assuming that's real
not everyone enjoys being around people, normie
Lincoln Gray
Alright let's hear the story faggot.
Samuel Mitchell
>29 >not even a robot, just a failed normie >want to make something of my life >capable enough but mental illness/anxiety attacks keeps fucking me over >why bother
At least I have neetbux for my mental illness, but the loneliness is being more and more difficult to deal with
Anthony Brooks
You cant hide your mental retardation behind good looks. As soon as you start talking normalfags know there is something wrong with you.
Jason Nguyen
I'm 28 and just the other day my hand started going numb and think I pinched a nerve. I am now an old grandpa
Carter Allen
>27 >want to use my CS knowledge to sell apps for a living >lack the willpower to even study Japanese for one hour per day >know that in one month I will not have started making apps >am probably going to end up working at a fast food restaurant
>26 >still switching back and forth between telling people I'm gonna turn it all around and living in my own filth in complete despair I'm so lazy.
Kayden Williams
I had a similar experience with my old friends from high school, many turned into junkies and alcoholics and constantly wanted to get wasted. I just couldn't take it anymore, grew out of it, so I just kept making up random excuses for why I couldn't hang out until they stopped bothering me.
I feel like this is so true, accepting this lifestyle and finding the things that make/keep you happy will go a long way to living a long and fulfilling life regardless of what society thinks about our lifestyle choices.
>26 >NEET >Today landed my first 2 legit job interviews ever >Tell mom >Cunt decides to pick this moment to go on the longest rant she ever has about my entire life is a social, vocational, and financial fuckup.
What is the stupid bitch's thought process? I'm already nervous as fuck for these interviews and she chooses this moment out of 26 years to flip the cunt switch? I told her (kindly) that outside of my gaining employment, everything about my social and personal life is my business and she can fuck off. To be honest I'm probably going to blow off the interviews now. I was positive and enthusiastic but if my fucking retard mom is gonna go outta her way to bring me down then she can continue paying for me to leech.
It's not fun though. Even though it's probably better than not getting wasted, even if it's just weed.
Eli Scott
Thank you, anons. We're going no-contact for a week to start with, hopefully that should clear my head enough to remove her from my life.
Chase Flores
You should make sure there's no way she can fuck you over though. MAKE SURE OF THAT.
Carson Young
>it may be very hard to get an apartment because i have a $7000 fraudulent debt from an old apartment complex
If true retain FDCPA lawyer and get paid
Thomas Butler
>26 khhv >phimosis and ipersensitivity which caused a literal sexual trauma >not interacted properly with the opposite sex since highschool >chad-faced but 5'5 manlet and severe social anxiety >wear special shoes to feel more at ease with others but this fucked up my knees >kidneys sindrome since 3, I take pills every twelve hours >formerly a vanilla type but developed porn addiction since 18 as a form of escapism >very tomboysh lesbian sister once confessed to you she "feels like a trans" and you hope she will not transition in the future >she forced you and parents to live with her jobless girlfriend for 8 years to this day >music student in a country of traditionalist ignorant people >talented artist and musician but no sight of a concrete future >living in isolation and solitude in my room, never going out except for uni classes and exams lately >beautiful parents who were initially creative (both a guitarist and a painter) get depressed and don't want to do anything more >contemplating each day suicide as an obvious exit >only real thing that keeps me going on is music and art
thing is i have no money. i am totally broke. that is the whole reason why i need this job
Liam Harris
is it possible she is afraid you will leave? (not anytime soon but, i guess this is asking if she expects you to "be there to take care of her when shes old" and all.
