I cannot take the depression, suicidal thoughts...

I don't have any advice, but something about being a broken robot or toy resonated with me. I hope you're able to figure yourself out.

I had friends, girlfriends, smoked a lot, drank a lot on the weekends, played football until I finished highschool and this feeling of hopelessness and depression wasn't any different from the past 4 years I've spent in isolation.
I only regret not putting a bullet in my head at 17, at least most would've remembered me as a positive but tragic person.

Just the same here fellow robot, My mom did so much for me I would never want to hurt her, I feel like such a piece of shit for not getting any better for her, which just makes my depression even worse, I wish she would just give up on me like everyone else in my life and let me waste my life away in my room. I literally gave up on myself a long time ago, she haven't which is taking a toll on her mental health as well

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i know the feel man, i did the same, i got to college and all the shit but i dropped beause i coudnt feel shit and it was just getting worse, it still getting worse idk, i wish i could kill myself early too, my mom would be young and not fragile how she is now

Become strong enough to endure this shit life

This is a good thread. It's like a trip down memory lane of when r9k was a better place. I'm right there with you, OP. I'm in my 30s. I still suffer just as I did when I was a child. I've been held back in all facets of life and each day is a life paralysis nightmare that I can't seem to wake from. I would never put my family through the horrors of losing someone to suicide, and so I idle by watching as this young heart and mind yearns to know what I missed out on as my exterior wrinkles and withers. I wish I never saw the light, because in it shown things that were never meant for me. Cruelly in display, but forever out of reach. I just want to wake up.

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At least you have the family. It's something at least

Not being alone in this makes things a bit easier bros I won't lie.
>become strong
I am strong, but being depressed non stop for 15 years takes it's toll.
There is nothing worse than those rare days of clarity when depression lets for for a couple of hours and see how wonderful life is for normal people.
I'm getting close to my 30s as well, literally the age of no return. Fuck.

Yeah, at least I'm no an african child starving in some desert.
Well too fucking bad pain is completely subjective and that doesn't make things any less hopeless.

>and now it's clear to all why you're a lonely failure

Sometimes I wish she could just give up on me and let me hang myself in peace no strings attached, I have no interest in life anymore, I've pretty much lost all hope, I never had any friends and relationships or any human connection of any kind, Never had any success in studying and my depression in highschool made me drop out because I couldn't even get out of bed, I used to have constant anxiety attacks but at this point I just feel so numb I just don't care, I'll stick around as long as I can for my mom but I don't know how long I can hold on to life. I just want it all to end.

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Those moments of clarity only serve to cement the understanding of what our lives truly are. As if to remind us that getting used to the suffering is not okay, no respite to be had. 30 hits like a wall. I didn't believe it would when I was 29 but the moment the day came.. I apologize, user, I don't mean to frighten you.I hope you win the lottery and sail the world on a yacht or something to distract yourself from this hell.

Fuck off and die, normaIshit.

>calling the robot with no friends and NO FAMILY a normalshit
So what's it like being a special little melancholy snowflake with a hair trigger? For someone who claims to have gone through so much pain you sure are a sensitive fembot.

Not him but why do you consider this a competition for who suffers more? We are all here for a reason, no one voluntarily becomes a robot.

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I didn't turn it into a competition. Snowflake did.
I just said at least he had a family to which I was going to follow up with advice to not take that for granted and whatnot.
Whatever though. I don't give a shit how easily triggered anyone is

If you knew the horrors that you claim to know then you would not be in here belittling those who also suffer in their own right. Once you live it, you understand the implications of what it means to live with suffering and the last thing someone enduring that hell needs is some jackass coming in here saying "you're still just not quite there yet, stop whining." If anything, the fact that you are so pretentious perhaps proves Karma to be true and you've received exactly as you deserve. Though that's something someone like you would say, as I don't believe anyone deserves the hell we've faced. Learn some god damn compassion.

You make an awful lot of assumptions about me.
But you know what. Sorry I have absolute shit social and communication skills. I'll go die now

Exactly my feelings, but I don't think we should dwell to much on what might've been, we were doomed from the start.
I've already hit rock bottom a couple of times but managed to survive, if anything I just hope the 30s will give me that final push.
Depression cannot be beaten, no cope lasts forever, there is no escape from our destiny.
I used to be like him when I still had some hope left, don't worry he'll learn soon enough, he just isn't completely broken yet.

There's no need for apologies if your intentions were misconstrued in the faceless confusion that is internet text. I apologize for going off on you the way I did. This thread is the first glimmer of hope I've seen on this thought to be long dead board and to see someone supposedly taking shots at the people who rightfully belong here got under my skin.

I hit rock bottom long before I hit 30, but never did I know it to be true like the day I did.

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>people who rightfully belong here
Jow Forums changed a lot over the years, I got nostalgic a while back and realized most of our peers are long dead.
I guess all those suicide and goodbye threads on /b/ and here were real.
>never did I know it to be true like the day I did
Sounds rough, I wonder if it'll be the same for me if I manage to endure a couple more years.

Anyways I'm off to sleep now, it's already dawn here, thanks for the chat guys, letting things out took the edge off a lil' bit.

because your genes are cucked. If you were more creative/intelligent/attractive you'd be able to unfuck yourself

of course you can take, you can endure it, isnt enjoyable but you can.

I feel lost, just empty inside, I feel like I dont look like a loser, decent looks, play rugby, decent field of study, non virgin.
But I am just broken, pills dont help anymore, I dont have enough time or energy to go to the gym, frivolous shopping doesnt do it anymore, hard drugs are a waste of times and prostitutes are just kind of good.
I just wanted a simple life, a good girl, a trade, I loved working with wood as a teenager and I was pretty good at that, but I had to choose engineering because what else would you do, I didnt find a good girl, i just find one decent enough so I wouldnt be alone because everyone else would rejected me for being an autistic trainwreck.
There is no hope user, there is just an endless void and you dont look at that void because it is inside of you.

Found the incel. An incel in the wild everyone!

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>I idle by watching as this young heart and mind yearns to know what I missed out on as my exterior wrinkles and withers. I wish I never saw the light, because in it shown things that were never meant for me. Cruelly in display, but forever out of reach. I just want to wake up.

start writing poetry/song lyrics or something, you may become popular with goth chicks/boys

Shitty genes tend to travel together, depressive people have garbage genetics

could you drop it user? I will dowload discord soon

Life can be a bitch sometimes, if you don't have a goal or a purpose, you don't have a reason to live, so it's the same thing as being dead, I'm going to a similar situation. I would recommend to try new things (don't do drugs or things that can harm you please) and find a purpose, something or someone that makes you want to go and find it. I know my comment of "I hope you get better" doesn't help you feel better, but I really hope you get better. Good luck :D

I haven't found my purpose yet or anything I like at all, I think about death lost of the times and how it I don't find a solution I will just simply kill myself. Life is about being happy, but if you're not happy, why is it worth living it? I really hate to see people being happy, I get jealous and try create fake scenarios where I'm the ruler of the world and stuff like that. My life is really sad. I do t know why I'm giving life more opportunities, the day I get tired of giving life more chances lol kill myself, knowing what a waste I was

So apparently they are spamming every board with suicide threads. Is this some faggot attempt bird box us in real life?

What is this image from?

originalosico

Some korean artist on twitter, can't remember the name, Most of his stuff doesn't look like that if
I remember correctly.