He enables attention whores on an anonymous imageboard

>People enable my attention seeking behavior.
>People enable
so
how

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It's normal to get burnt out user. Meditate, take some time to yourself, remind yourself that not everyone is trying to take advantage of you. The righteous path is not the easy one but it is the path worth taking.

If you want attention and it cheers you up to receive it, why would it be bad for me to give it to you? It hurts nobody and if you feel that it's unhealthy I would be willing to help you fix the behavior like any good friend would. Change comes from within friend

>So why should I get all the attention?
because you post with a cute anime pic and sound like a girl

female=cash

I only reply to your threads because I'm an attention whore myself. You enable me too by replying.

This, lots of people probably think they're talking to a girl which is why they respond

By replying to my threads and being nice to me.
But I'm insulting the spirit of this whole website. There's absolutely no good non-selfish reason why I have to avatarfag.
>if you feel that it's unhealthy I would be willing to help you fix the behavior like any good friend would
Thank you. Speaking to me is enough.
>cute anime pic
Yes.
>sound like a girl
What? Granted, it's not the first time I'm told this, but I still don't get it.
But you don't identify yourself, so you're fine.

The spirit of this website is to be anonymous if you want to be. When it was much smaller you could recognize certain posters by their typing style or their images. Even now you can use the image hash function in the archive to track peoples' history with significant accuracy. There's nothing wrong with you wanting attention and using this website as your source of social interaction. If it makes you happy I'd respond to your posts any time. Nobody loses anything from this and it cheers you up. Don't be so hard on yourself user, you're absorbing others' hate and bitterness too easily. You are deserving of love and need a good hug honestly.

>By replying to my threads and being nice to me.
heh okey we all being nice by replying

Well, but they still aren't doing it intentionally. Neither did I at first. But now, I feel like posting with these avatars is like a nature of mine. It's very much intentional. I have a specific style that I'm perfectly aware of and people recognize it. I doubt myself here, even though I have no intention to stop. I feel like continuing to argue against you would only come off as fishing for sympathy. So perhaps you're right. I should let go and enjoy myself a bit haha.

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Why, what'd you that's so bad? The standards to stand out here as an asshole are very high

Any attention you receive is good at one point. But it can also be bad is what I'm saying.
So even if you're a NPC background character, getting some attention is good, then you can tell your story. LIttle by little, a part of your life is revealed, a part of you is shown to the world. And it can be addictive or abused.
We all deserve attention, but what kind of attention is on the individual.

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Thats kind of ironic

I don't see you as fishing for sympathy. To me it feels like you've gotten a lot of hate from other anons and you're letting it get to you. Don't let others tell you how to live your life. If they really don't like your threads they can hide them. Like you said let go and enjoy yourself as long as you're not causing others pain. This world is too hung up on telling others how to live their lives instead of being accepting and warm and open.

>There's absolutely no good non-selfish reason why I have to avatarfag.
What are the reasons for you doing it, then? Is it simply because it became a habit? Do you think you won't get attention if you don't identify yourself? While it's true that you probably won't get as much attention, perhaps you should try posting anonymously again if you feel so guilty about attention whoring. Alternatively, how about moving to another platform? I don't mean Discord; rather, a blog or something else that has non-real-time interaction.

Because it's fun to witness their inevitable downfall

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>There's absolutely no good non-selfish reason why I have to avatarfag
Isn't that part of the allure?

Tell me about yourself. I've seen your threads, but never really engaged with them. What's your origin story? What sort of attention are you seeking?
>If they really don't like your threads they can hide them
I specifically refused requests to get a name or a trip so it's harder for them to filter me. Though that's not the main reason I'm not a namefag. I'll do what I do regardless, I suppose. I don't have much to lose.
>What are the reasons for you doing it, then? Is it simply because it became a habit? Do you think you won't get attention if you don't identify yourself?
All of this in addition to other things, like I think they're a big part of what makes sense of what I'm writing. I'm attached to them.
>While it's true that you probably won't get as much attention, perhaps you should try posting anonymously again if you feel so guilty about attention whoring. Alternatively, how about moving to another platform? I don't mean Discord; rather, a blog or something else that has non-real-time interaction.
While these are all good suggestions, this thread is just another self-masturbatory fest for me. I had no intention to change at all. I feel like I have nothing to lose anymore so I just do whatever brings me the most joy at the moment, without thinking about the consequences, like giving out hundreds of euros to random anons.
I've been told this personally.
Yes. It's selfish, but it's true.

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Be selfish.

What's to know? I'm like you I suppose. I like to talk about day to day stuff. Boring is what I strive for. Its the mundane that interest me.
I was born in Japan, but recently got adopted by my Papa in America. Now I live with him and he takes care of me. We do a lot together, watch movies, sleep, eat, watch youtube and play with dank memes.
Just enjoying the simple things. I don't seek attention, but it happens. My life is my own, and how I use it to interact with people is the attention that makes me feel good.

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you are actually just letting trannies report you for avatarfagging desu

Let me fucking rape you already you mentally ill piece of garbage

do this OP

get you boipucci creampied by this man

>I just do whatever brings me the most joy at the moment
Didn't you say that it saddened you to make these threads because some Anons don't like it? In that case, I figured it would bring you more joy to do it in some other way. However, if you don't mind making threads here that much, I'm all for it.

You fucking know it aiste

Based and rapepilled poster

I think I can relate. I don't make threads with the intent to get as many (you)s as possible. I just talk about what's important to me. People don't always take it lightly and even call me names, but what do I know. I try to be honest about my beliefs and feelings.
I can't tell if you genuinely hate me or not. Is this some fetish? I know some guys are turned on by "BPD".
They do sadden me, but I often get way more nice or neutral replies. It's like slurping sweet honey with a few spoons of tar in it vs just eating nothing but saccharine. I'm bothered by mean people to the point of crying, but not enough to stop.

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True. I'm not sure why you make threads provoking mean people to respond sometimes, though. Do you enjoy crying? Do you desire negative attention? Do you like seeing other Anons pity you and stick up for you?

But all my threads provoke mean people to respond? Anyway, sometimes if I meet someone who's especially mean, I feel so bothered by it that I want to seek them out and convince them to like me.

Do you ever feel Jow Forums related shame?

Yes. That's the whole point of this thread.

Do you even get more attention? Everything everyone says here is superficial you idiot
Nobody here cares for anyone except for the few lunatics and even then you aren't special to them because they truly do care for everyone
God I wish everyone here understood that fact

>But all my threads provoke mean people to respond?
Some more than others. I forget exactly what it was, but you made one yesterday where you sought out comments from the mean people. In any case, I suppose I can understand you wanting to get on their good side. I'm a bit like that too, as I often get blindsided when I find out someone doesn't like me.

discord gg/fSTQHpZ

Come enable attention whores here instead. At least you might get a nice e-girl or trap gf out of it. Minimal rules, grab a drink and shitpost

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Stop insulting them calling them whores, they're wonderful and special women

Traps can fuck off desu.

>Do you even get more attention?
I think it's safe to assume I do.
>Nobody here cares for anyone except for the few lunatics and even then you aren't special to them because they truly do care for everyone
I've heard this before. But to me, it's the only interaction I get where I'm not constantly manipulated. It's as real and special for me as it gets.
Yes. I remember that thread. I thought they could give me some insight as to why I'm hateable. There was one user there who absolutely hated my guts and I think he responded to some of my other threads too. I ended up crying myself to sleep.

>That's the whole point of this thread
Well that's ironic

>why I'm hateable.
Everyone is. There isn't a single person in the world that doesn't have at least one hater out there (if they at all make their presence known). The more you put yourself out there, the more likely you are to garner haters, so it's no surprise you have a few. It's incredible that they are so few, especially in a place where anyone can leave hateful comments without repercussions.

>I ended up crying myself to sleep.
It'd be nice to hug you tightly while you cry into my chest.

I feel shame, but I behave like I have none since I have nothing to lose.
You're right. I don't have as many haters as people of equal attention-whoring capacity like Ritalinbot or Gunjy. Though I take it to heart more than they do.
>It'd be nice to hug you tightly while you cry into my chest
Yes. It would be.

>I feel shame, but I behave like I have none since I have nothing to lose
got it
>I thought they could give me some insight as to why I'm hateable. There was one user there who absolutely hated my guts and I think he responded to some of my other threads too. I ended up crying myself to sleep.
Btw this is the kind of behavior anons refer to when they say you seem like a female

>Though I take it to heart more than they do.
You weren't born the perfect attention whore after all, huh. Being emotionally sensitive has its benefits sometimes. It's unfortunate that it isn't generally seen as a virtue when you're male.

>whores go onto male anonymous imageboards be to enabled because they cant make it on /soc/

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>Btw this is the kind of behavior anons refer to when they say you seem like a female
Alright. Pretty embarrassing. But I can't lie. I like hearing that for some reason. Makes me feel at ease.
>It's unfortunate that it isn't generally seen as a virtue when you're male
Yes! It's so unjust!

>equal attention-whoring capacity like Ritalinbot or Gunjy
Ritalinbot isn't nearly as cancerous as you tho, and he did make good threads until the drugs got to him in a similar fashion to Eye-chan and your nightwalk threads (btw new pics when!?). But gunjy is absolute cancer compared to you, it's not about the frequency of posting but quality of it.

Eye-chan threads weren't any better than what I do now. I was already being called a mentally ill schizo back then.

I liked those vaguely philosophical threads you used to make. I'd enjoy it if you brought them back when you become more clear-headed again. It's easier to make discussion when there's a concrete topic to discuss.

>I'd enjoy it if you brought them back when you become more clear-headed again
there you go, trying to control Aiste again.
"Happy" people never stop bothering others.

I stopped making them because I failed to live up to those ideals. Would be disingenuous to preach something I can't follow myself. It's not that I'm less clear-headed, I'm just concerned with other things now and I can't ignore them, even if other people can't relate with my concerns as much anymore.

Have you read this? At least some of it might be similar: drive.google.com/file/d/1k561ZKyrQDLD2-IYy3hRCMSK3PcjEvGb/view?usp=sharing

It's okay. I get where they're coming from.

Will you ever tell us the story of how it all started going downhill? Like when did you realize something was off? Do you miss the friend you ghosted a year ago?

New nightwalk pics WHEN??

Also no you're wrong, they were good threads and idgaf that stuff came from a "schizo" it was all sensible stuff.

Hmm... I guess I can't deny that it's manipulative. But I've been acting this way in every one of Aiste's threads and he didn't seem to mind. I'm pretty sure I explicitly asked him about it before.

Maybe what I said this time was too much, though. It does sound like I'm coercing him into doing something... Oh well. If he hates me for it, I'll accept it.

>Would be disingenuous to preach something I can't follow myself.
Perhaps. I still think that there might be value in having certain convictions even if you can't follow them yourself. Just by having those values you are already a different person from someone who gives no thought to them. You can recognize your own faults and try your best to fix them. At least, that's the excuse I've been feeding myself for utterly failing at living up to my own ideals. I do see why you wouldn't want to preach to other about them, however.

>Have you read this?
I've read roughly three-fourths of it. I may finish it up, or wait until you complete it.

>Hmm... I guess I can't deny that it's manipulative. But I've been acting this way in every one of Aiste's threads and he didn't seem to mind. I'm pretty sure I explicitly asked him about it before.
>Maybe what I said this time was too much, though. It does sound like I'm coercing him into doing something... Oh well. If he hates me for it, I'll accept it.
I want to bother you until you start using the correct pronouns.

Something was always off. I can't really point to a single event. It happened gradually over time. I just felt more and more paranoid and anxious. You could say it all started going downhill when my selfish mother decided it would be a good idea to have a child.

>New nightwalk pics WHEN??
I only have so many unique routes. I thought people got bored of the same pictures over and over again.

Well, even if I wanted, I don't think I could expand on those ideas anymore. My mind is filled with different concerns now. Ones that are way more intrusive. I don't think that most of the time those ideas are even mine. Like someone plants them in my mind to torture me.

Does Aiste prefer to be referred to as "she"? I don't especially mind using those pronouns.

Nobody asked females to post on here. This was always our board. You joined us.

I would, but then other people will call you out on it. So use whatever you prefer.
Sometimes I think I have some superpower that makes people assume I'm a girl. I mean, it can't be the anime avatar alone, everyone uses them.

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She will not bother you if you prefer one pronoun over another.

>I would, but then other people will call you out on it. So use whatever you prefer.
This is what I find amusing. Its forbidden to have fun, people rush to educate newcomers and control the situation.

PLEASE SIGN ME AN AUTOGRAPH AISTE, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

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How do you feel about neuroscience, Ice Tea? Regardless of what psychiatrists deem "mental illness" don't you feel curiosity for knowing how your brain works?

>Sometimes I think I have some superpower that makes people assume I'm a girl. I mean, it can't be the anime avatar alone, everyone uses them.
I don't think I've ever seen you visibly angry at any poster here, nor do you show signs of malice (I could also be wrong and you're the perfect manipulator) or extreme violence. Those are things one subconsciously links to girls, too bad I've seen your big hairy manhand but I can't judge you, there's something about anime and cutesy pics that mellows the hardest fucker.

>Well, even if I wanted, I don't think I could expand on those ideas anymore.
I see. That's fine, it was a suggestion, though I made it seem like I'm demanding it.

>My mind is filled with different concerns now. Ones that are way more intrusive.
That sucks. I think you stated before that you'd prefer to talk about things unrelated to schizophrenia and whatnot, but I guess you can't if you have intrusive thoughts about it. I wish I was better at talking so I could lead the conversation in a better direction.

>I would, but then other people will call you out on it.
I don't mind getting called out. I'll refer to you that way from now on, if I remember.

>She will not bother you if you prefer one pronoun over another.
In hindsight, this should have been obvious, but the thought didn't cross my mind. I stopped referring to her as "she" after she stopped pretending to be a female. Thanks for pointing it out to me.

NO DUDE YOU DONT UNDERTSAND
ITS A TRANNY
LMAO KILLYOURSELF YOU PATHETIC CUNT
WOMEN ARE WHORES

I suppose they feel that you're enabling a mentally ill person. It's understandable considering the whole tranny epidemic.
Stop it. My ego can only consume so much haha.
>How do you feel about neuroscience, Ice Tea? Regardless of what psychiatrists deem "mental illness" don't you feel curiosity for knowing how your brain works?
I think it will be the doom for people like us. If they can label you simply by looking at your brain, then there's no escape. Right now, I can at least pretend to be fighting back against their control. I think I wrote about this a bit in my manifesto.
>I think you stated before that you'd prefer to talk about things unrelated to schizophrenia and whatnot, but I guess you can't if you have intrusive thoughts about it
I don't consider most of them as linked to schizophrenia.

>I don't consider most of them as linked to schizophrenia.
Hmm... You are right. I think the label is having effect on me and now I'm associating your other concerns with it too. Fuck.

enabling one now by posting in your thread.
:)

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where can I get a girl to dominate me, ahh shit im sorry I shouldn't have said that but it would be really cool if a femanon did that i've never tried it before and it would be pretty cool

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Girls wanting my attention is cute asf

I didn't bother to read what the thread is about, but I saw the anime avatar creator thingy so it made me want to post my birb.

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In retrospect, I did lose more than I gained by associating with you. Perhaps you're not as transparent as I thought. Or maybe I'm just stupid.

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nice birb my dude

Can you stop replying to yourself please?

Thanks, I really like birds and cute tomboys, so it made sense to make a cute tomboy birb girl.

good luck doing whatever you want to do in life.
Everythings fucked for me but at least I am not a tranny I guess

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Redpill me on the Gunjy is Aiste theory.

>There was one user there who absolutely hated my guts and I think he responded to some of my other threads too. I ended up crying myself to sleep.
Link please, I have my own theory and want to know others.

>Redpill me on the Gunjy is Aiste theory.
why would I be Aiste?
why would I be catboy
why would I be xumi
why would I be anyone but me

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This is one of those things.
I have no future either.
desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/52113632
I've been called Ritalinbot too. I think it's just a part of being an attention whore that you have to deal with. I'm not a huge fan though as my ideas and personality don't really align with those two all that much.

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You guys don't know this, but Gunjy is also the Reading of the day poster

Birbs and tomboys both confirmed cute af

>I have no future either.
what do we do?
Just wait till we finally kill ourselves?
What keeps you going? the few good days somehow make me endure the shit "life" I have.

nice meme

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hey i member gunjy

I miss all them

>both hate incels or "thirsty betas" as the tranny called them
>both have to "fake emotions" when interacting with others
>both are massive attention whores though gunjy denies this
>both have real gender dysphoria to an extent while claiming they hate trannies
>both have dozens of alts
>both are obsessed with the idea of finding someone they can relate to
>both are very concerned with projecting an image of themselves as "nice persons"
>both have a sick, twisted sense of "justice". "i doxxed that guy because he was a predator! i did nothing wrong!" "i tried to make that guy kill himself because he was a Jow Forumsfag! i did nothing wrong!"
>both prefer crystal cafe over Jow Forums
>both are by their own admissions feminine in character
>both abhor ritalinbot probably because he's a massive misogynist
>both are self-loathing faggots
>both are completely unbothered by the idea of ghosting others and hurting them

why? so you can find your perfect "friend" of course, the alts are so you dont always have to be that guy people get warned of

Thank you for the qrd.

I believe in reincarnation, so I don't think suicide solves anything. I'll just wander the world until I lose all touch with reality. Then I'll pass out in some ditch. Hopefully my next life will be better. Not that it matters, since I won't remember this life anyway. I think I only endure because my never-ending paranoia won't let me relax.

Hmmmmmmmm. Aiste, what gives you pleasure? What used to give you pleasure? Now that you supposedly fell for the happy pills whats stopping you from going all in and trying drugs by yourself since you obviously cant live up to eye-chans standards? nothing to lose after all no?

I really wish the pass out in a ditch part would come soon for me

>being such a worthless npc that you think old balding pedophiles are women

Id say it isn't the assholes who are enabling them.

Some range of desperate guys who like the response of an attention seeker

Nah, you'll relive this life over and over and over again for all eternity, truth is this is the afterlife and you were judged by God eons ago. You must've done something truly sickening to deserve this.