Childhood

the icing of the cake is that after i graduated they started showing more attention and affection to me and my siblings and act like nothing that they did happened or was wrong. and i feel guilty when i dont want to be near or talk to them. such is life.

I'm 29 and call my parents mommy and daddy. I'm also married.
I guess I missed the memo for when you were supposed to switch to mom/dad.

boohoooooooo its all perspective you fizzy cunt. maybe its not the worst thing imaginable but i was neglected and it fucked me up.

No you're just a whiny faggot who barely had it tough but will use any excuse/reason to act like an edgy and unique sadboi. Fake depression doesn't make you interesting, faggot.

>used to kill chickens by throwing rocks at them
>beating cats and dogs
>getting angry or crying over a voice in my head
>cutting my wrists
>discovering furry, gay, yaoi, shemale porn and masturbating to it
>almost considered to fuck my dog once
>was always asking my teachers to go to the bathroom so i could masturbate
>frequently getting into fights with female classmates
>breaking windows and glasses by punching it when i got too angry
>broke a classmate teeth by jumping on his head
and a few more that i can't recall. ALL of those things i did before i was 12 years old.
nowadays i'm 20, hs dropout, friendless, virgin and addicted to caffeine pills.

Ah yes, i too beat cats and dogs. Tried drowning a kitten in the neighbors pool once.

P A L P A B O T

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>be the tallest kid in class (by atleast 5" in comparison to 2nd tallest), get bullied physically by like 3 or 4 kids just cuz maybe they sensed weakness(Age 10).
>get spit balls thrown at my back at school, didnt react to them at all. one kid asked to stop, and the bully ask me if its ok to continue, i said yes (age 11 or 12 - still the tallest among my class)
>second tallest guy in tech class asks me if i like pussy at loud and everyone went silent and looked at me, shows me his phone with a pic a chick's puss, i look at it and dont say nothing (age 13).
>same guy as above asks out loud if id like to fuck a chick in our class, everyone went silent and looked at me, i dont respond, and the chick says "maybe hes not interested, leave him alone"(age 16)
>a very hot qt pi (im talking model tier) asks for help to fix her phone during my lunch break at school (i volunteered as a computer tech at my hs just cuz it was better than doing nothing either or lunch or shorty after going home), i helped her out and she later asks if i can help her fix for arm, she extends her arm toward me, and i autisticly did some massages toward her muscles and bone for about a minute or 2, for some reason she enjoys it, i ask if it works and she says yes, in my mind i thought she had an interest in me for a sec. Immediately afterword, some kid (maybe 10 years old) comes in and breaks the vibe by asking for help, I immediately went to "work mode" and cut off that qt pi asap. She says "I see you're busy, I'll talk to you later" and leaves.(Age 17)
>Be inside media room in hs and me and a group of other high school students finished an episode of daily news content for the school. That same qt pi mentioned above comes in and sits down next to a tyrone who co-produces with me(but not ghetto and above average iq). Both whispered to eachother something, and tyrone asks if I'd be interested in going to prom with the qt pi, I said no instinctively , and everyone in the room gasped (1/2)

At the end of 1st grade, the teacher told my parents that I had some "adjustment problems", or something like that -- and they recommended that I attend a special experimental school that might help alleviate my "problem". To this day, I'm still not quite sure exactly what problem they were talking about -- but I suspect it was probably because I was extremely bored in class, combined with my general hatred of having to suffer the close proximity of a bunch of yammering, yelling, hyperactive little kids.

The next year in 2nd grade (in the aforementioned experimental school), I started showing off to everyone how much I knew about math. I had the ability to speak very quickly and confidently about math stuff, and I could speak at great length about it -- and, looking back on it, I'm positive that I must have come off acting like a totally autistic rain man freak.

In general, my grades were always pretty high. So right there, that was a bad sign of things to come.

>one of the shortest people in the class until late highschool
>skin started to look like shit from acne and chemicals I was apparently allergic to from dishwashing at my job
>told in 5th grade by the music teacher that I was a horrid singer (i am) and that I was always off key in front of the whole class
>made some autistic blatant lies (tall tales) in 5th grade
>3rd and 4th grades I was physically bullied for unknown reasons and I didn't hit back like my parents told me to (the only way it stopped was by telling the bully's moms)
>never had the confidence to dance with any gril or ask them out
>allowed people to take stupid pictures of me and use them as potential blackmail because "I didn't care"
>every friend I had in school was a kissless virgin who never went to a party

ill go
>be me
>be 5
>be waiting in line to the water fountain
>faggot kid cuts me
>i tard out and push him down
>get called to the principle's office
>asked why i did that
>just say i dont know
>mfw i pushed a kid for no reason
there where some other signs such as having trouble reading, often doing autistic things without thinking staying with a girl who was half guy, for context about that one is this girl i was dating said she was gender fluid and i just went with it

out of surprise, then tyrone offered himself to bring me to prom (forgot to mention he said i should model when I'd inadvertently posed as one a week or two ago), i looked at him in disgust and also said no.
qt pi asked for a pic with her, and i went ahead with it, and then autistically flinched away from the phone camera at the last second out of fear of that pic being a trap. She then asks why I flinched, and that the photo has already been taken. I give no response( Age 17)
>graduate from hs and enroll into college. same qt pi from hs hits me up at linkedin to connect, i accept, and she asks for advice on computer courses, i give some, i asked for advice on relationships and she responds giving some solid advice, I ask her out in a very sexual manner, she takes it initially but later on dismisses me due to how a botched the flow of the convo due to my autism (Age 19).
>Ask out a very fat chick at a program to the movies just to give myself motivation to not commit suicide. We go but she arrives late and acts wildly ghetto during the movie (i thought she had some class so i bought top tier tickets near the wealthy part of the city to make her feel comfortable and safe against other ghetto people). Debating on sending her out to a second date or demoting her to the friendzone (i checked out her ass, its pretty much flat and wide, despite having very thicc thighs - dick only got up on the thought of her weight sitting on my dick). (Age 21)
on the verge of commiting suicide since im innately a beta thanks to being a wristlet at 6.25" in circumference (meaning i can't pack on too much weight) and 5'11" - practically going to live as a skelly for my entire life and no chick wants that.
Thanks dad for passing on your wristlet genes to me, you should've stayed loyal to your wife and not spat out 2 brats with my mom.
You're lucky I dont just fucking kill myself, my sister and my mom in one swoop just to fuck up your mind for the rest of your life. (2/2)

Being a loner and the majority liked ganging up on me in order to refrain my perceptions and ideologies in order for them to manipulate and control me and "know my place" in the world which was out of pure envy and fear.

Yeah yeah beta virgin faggots hang around other beta virgin faggots, what else is new retard

My mom told me that she'd take me to the park to play with the other kids, but I'd just return and sit next to her on the bench and tell her "I don't know any of these kids, I'd rather just sit here with you"

Also I was molested.

>be me
>around 10 yrs old i dont really remember
>teacher asks me a question
>panic attack
>hyperventilating
>make retarded movements with my mouth trying to catch my breath
>whole time everyone is looking at me
>teacher mimicking and mocking me
>run out of class

yes

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My mom shamed me mercilessly when she caught me masturbating when I was 12. I'm not saying it's the reason my life sucks but it put me in a dark and awkward place for a long time.

>get bullied since kindergarden for being weirder than them
That's literally it, I have gone from an ongoing person and sociable to anxiety filled, not motivated, socially awkward emotional trainwreck who lusts for acceptance, recognition and approval. That while still trying to maintain myself as how I used to be.

around 4th grade
>gym teacher called me a fat monkey
>threatened to kill him in front of class
around 5th
>get bullied in class
>throw chairs at class
>threaten to kill everyone
There may be a pattern here anons

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I always here about teachers who literally encourage and join in on bullying and leaving out certain kids. The fucks up with that?
Alright roastie we get it you're not like the other girls