There's no longer any reason to live, the last time i felt genuinely happy was many years ago.
Not vidya. Not anime. Not music. Not fapping. Nothing brings me joy anymore. It all feels exactly the same as just staring blankly at the wall.
My life is now over. My whole family thinks I'm a failure and refuses to give me a second chance at school despite it being mainly caused by depression.
My parents were in their 30s when I was born, so naturally, the world needed a reason to decide to fuck me over before I was even born. I was born with a rare genetic disorder. Of course, nobody in my family had it. I was unlucky enough to mutate it. In the most severe of cases, you have those people covered in bumps and tumors and look nonhuman. I don't have anything on my hands or face, so I just wear a jacket and long pants, even in the summer.
That wasn't enough however. My parents, being older, thought circumcision was not only still socially acceptable in the area but also normal. She acted like she did me a favor when i confronted her.
I was born in the late 90s in san francisco lite, growing up almost nobody I knew was circumcised who wasn't jewish. Me, already having been damned then, also got skin bridges and nerve damage along with it. Only a few small areas on my dick have any sensation at all. I've expressly avoided even attempting to ask any girl out as a result.
Isn't it kind of fucked up? Not only do unmutilated guys get to fapping more but they also get the added confidence from not being mutilated. Not only do I now avoid women as a result of it but I also enjoy one of the most simple things so much less.
Add in some trauma in between and its a genuine wonder I'm still alive. If anyone else had these things happen to them they would have either killed themselves long ago or gone postal.
I have nothing at all I enjoy anymore. If I said it will get better in the future I'd be lying to myself.
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