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High functioning autist here. I hate how my autism ruins literally everything. Im intelligent but i feel like im fully retarded most days.

>You must post if you are diagnosed autistic.

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I'm in your same shoes, user. I'm not diagnosed autistic, but trust me, i sure do have high functioning autism.

so how are you gonna say that you're autistic when you're not diagnosed? go get evaluated and find out for sure.

this thread is for people that ARE diagnosed.

I once told a girl that was blatantly flirting with me that I think it would be funny to punch a horse.

If I think too hard about my social interactions I cringe with guilt and shame.

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dude, i get you. the shit ive said over the years just makes me feel like a spaz. i die everytime one of those moments pop into my head.

Someone said I was autistic and I feel I might have some autistic traits.
What are the sure signs of it?

eye contact bad
>abnormal body gestures
>self stimming
>social interaction deficiency

etc. google if you want to self diagnose, but the only real way to know is to see a doctor.

I have all that, I also talk over/over dominate in conversations and sometime just go quiet when not knowing how to respond in a conversation.

>be wageslave at shitty pizza restaurant
>have this one coworker
>obese, weird face, you know the type
>has autism, openly admits and jokes about it
>says shit like "REEEEE!!!" and "tendies"
>calls people cucks
>complains about being a virgin and girls not liking him
fuck you if you're reading this, Robbie

I have high functioning autism.The stuff ive said and done over the years makes me feel like a retard, like I definitely should have known better. But no matter how many mistakes I make I somehow keep making them, again and again. I find it very hard to learn or stay focused in College and am coming to terms with the fact that im probably going to be a failure

not him but i was diagnosed ADD, OCD and tourettes as a child
i have what i call "microrituals" that i've been doing since i can remember, and most of my memories are of getting "that look" from people nearly every time i said anything, so i just don't talk to people at all anymore
the reason i'm undiagnosed is because its easier to sell pills for ADD than asperger's

when you have autism bro, you DONT know better. Our brains are wired differently than normal people and the things you say and do are "normal" to you, but other people dont understand. And your actions and behaviors are out of your control, its why autists find themselves rocking back and forth or tapping themselves on their body.

we're just not normal.

there is no real treatment plan for autism man. you can only treat the mental behaviors and thinking, but the autism remains no matter how many pills you take.

I was diagnosed as autistic 2 years ago in a psychiatric evaluation following several anger outbursts at work and sensitivities to sounds.
I'm a literal fucking faggot so nothing I say thereafter fucking matters and neither the first sentence either. So why the fuck am I posting like my input matters

>tfw you ghost everyone and avoid making friends because you want to spare them the embarrassment/frustration/disappointment of dealing with your autism

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>tfw no matter what you do you end up stepping on someone's toes
>tfw you knew you would at some point be so much of a fuckup since middle school that you'd be a NEET
>tfw you're completely self aware but you still manage to fuck it up
>tfw you have the right mindset, knowledge, and skill set for both humanities and programming but fail every job application because you know you inadvertently offend everyone you meet or come off as a bumbling retard
>tfw you cannot help but mentally compare yourself to ChrisChan, ADF, and other lolcows
Neurotypicals will never know this feel
Because we love you user

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Piss off you guys hate faggots.

you're talking to aspies, not angry Jow Forumsluters, you fucking retard

Girlfriend at the time studied social work
Has to be at a case were a girl was tortured by her ex. The guy shot her pussy with an airgun.
>Autism kicks in
>"Wich kind of airgun?"
>Hell brakes loose
>Used it against me for weeks

Still don't know the kind of airgun

i can relate to this. I like to know details about everything.

I'm diagnosed with atypical autism, Idk if that's high functioning or not but I'm pretty well functioning.
I agree that is sucks being autistic, like starting with a weaker character in vidya lol.

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>If I think too hard about my social interactions I cringe with guilt and shame.
do entire years of your life haunt your evenings making you repeatedly mouth "shoot me"
god help me

Different poster here.
What's the benefit of getting diagnosed?
Having someone with medical qualifications tell me something I've already been told by someone with practical experience seems like a waste of time.

pragmatically there's a few job benefits and if you live in a place with affirmative action, they may have something for you
Emotionally, absolutely nothing

he sounds pretty based and redpilled

how many of my fellow autists are also alcoholics/drug addicts? makes life without social skills somewhat more bearable

Does anyone have any advice on how to suppress stimming?

absolutely no benefit. putting that you're socially retarded on a job description will never benefit you.

Diagnosed Asperger's as a child, really fit the stereotype until my early 20s, then I went really hardmode on rejecting "nerd hobbies" and emotions and social interactions, like, reading textbooks about communication, eavesdropping on conversations, stuff like that. That actually really worked. I thought Asperger's meant being socially inept forever but it just means being more calculating about it.

can you get neetbux if diagnosed?

you can't, however you have to learn how to do it more low key and eventually getting to down to legshaking, and keep downsizing until you have to do basically nothing other than will to get autismothinking.
t. stims without walking or any real required movement.

Diagnosed severe autism. Does therapy actually help? I tried it years ago and the only help was the diagnoses. Didn't get any actual advice from any of the guys I saw. Maybe it's just a rough streak, but.... Eeryone tells me I need a therapists, I need to get help, but I feel fine. e'ry one say I be crazy but they be crazy too.
This. FUCK. I mean it when I type this. F u c k.

I'm socially inept and I check many autism criteria like being an extremely picky eater, refusing to use anything but the same few clothes, only learned to to tie my shoes at 15 and if I have to closely follow people I'll inevitably step on the back of their feet and accidentally remove their shoes. I could go on and on about this but skipping to some experiences, I've always been told, or overheard, that I'm weird or robotic, overheard people saying I have mental problems multiple times and the first time I even heard about autism was in middle-school when a girl casually asked me if I had it (her younger brother was diagnosed).

I'm pretty sure that I'm a sperg but whenever I visit internet autism communities I see people bragging about their meltdowns, hyper-focus or whatever and it all feels too clear cut for someone not to be diagnosed. Are those people just exaggerating or do you really need to go on violent rampages and be a specialist at something to have autism? Is it possible for an autist to be 22 and not be entirely confident about it? I'm not sure how I should go about a diagnosis because most people in this country weren't even aware it existed until like 5 years ago and I feel any doctor would laugh at my face if I showed up saying I want to check for autism.