It's finally Friday! How was your week sweetheart? Got any plans for the weekend?

Yes it's! But sometimes feel lonely.. Wait I didn't understand.. What's wahtcha and hun..

That's fair, you know you don't have to do that every day. No harm in going for a walk once and awhile or seeing someone. And I meant what kind of beans are you drinking honey?

Yeah I know, but I just can not find people who are okay for me so I choose to be alone. I drink classic black coffee, without milk and without sugar

Hanging out with a co-worker and play some games maybe smoke a bit.

We play a shit ton of Apex and Borderlands 2. Taking advantage of that new DLC and its pretty darn good.

That's understandable, I just want you to be okay is all. I know how much being alone can hurt.
Fun! My wife and I played borderlands 2 together, gameplay is fun but that writing is... Less than stellar

>How was your week sweetheart?
wageslaved and lifted away.
>Got any plans for the weekend?
masturbation, watch anime, play vidya, talk to my nazi friend, same shit as always

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>That's understandable, I just want you to be okay is all. I know how much being alone can hurt.
Thank you user, I hope you will be okay too!

Thank you hun~ I'm doing very well, I just wish I could tell the teen me how much better life gets.

Your phrase "Tell me more sweetheart!" is sweet and the word sweet comes short of describing its effect on you and me if we remember there are other languages that might have atleast one equivalent expression but surely has a diffrent impact and effect on the commuicator and the communicated with.
Imagine being free from this fact and be able to be free from the limitations of languages.
Our experiences are richer than what language can transmit. I took time to reply to you because I went to the toilet to take a dump. This alone gives you a limited if no information on how the experience went.
My father was searching for his tennis shoes he described as being green and asked mother about where they were with visible anger. Mother didnt know what shoe was he talking about "green shoes? what green shoes?" me neither, mom searched for them and found a pair and asked him:"did you mean these shoes? arent they grey?" He was still annoyed and didnt reply and mother tried to start an argument about the color. I got embarassed but supressed the emotion and stepped in calmly and informed mother that language doesnt have a word for this peculiar color. This woke her up and freed her from asking what color that hideous shoe was, and each went on with their lives.
The greentext form is more attractive.
When we go further beyond language like humanity accumilatevly did with every sceince and technology we would avoid more problems big or small. It is happening but slower than what I'd like.
I ll nap now, didnt sleep all night.
>I wrote all this while keeping my mouth closed.
>when will we be able to communicate with my eyes closed and arms at rest, the elite might be doing it already

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Work hard for my next exam.
Can't wait next week, i'm gonna waste myself so hard people could black out with a single breath of mine

You got this hun! Make sure you keep hydraded while getting plastered though, make that hangover at least a little easier to deal with

I drink 6L of water per day, even more during summer.
I don't remember the last time i had an hangover desu.

Smart boy~ I've only ever had one hangover and it's never gonna happen again

>Smart boy~
Mate, i cringed a bit, i'm not really some kind of lad in need of maternal affection, but thanks for the thought.
How will it never happens again?
You won't drink anymore or you shall be careful, moderate and thoughtful?

Sorry hun this place is always so sad, I try to double down on niceness. And I'm just careful about how I drink now and I never go super hard. Besides I'm Canadian so getting high is just so much easier.

I won't say it's sad, it's mostly bitter.
I can understand it though but i don't think too much niceness is good for people either.
I always had a strict and stoic education and consider discipline being far more needed in order to achieve happiness than good feelings.
I don't get often high as it's illegal in my country but i don't drink that much and mostly only homemade liquors too.

You're right, it does need to be a balance. I'm not afraid to put my foot down when a student abuses my kindness. But whenever I hop on there's always so much sadness and porn, that's why I start these threads in the first place.

I'm too used to be the stern "parental" figure to my little brothers, i can't even conceive to be emotionally kind.
I mean, i can act of kindness by rewarding a nice behavior but i'm not the one to show (or simply have) that much emotions.
Guess by trying to hard to be stoic and achieve ataraxia, i became completely apathic.

And to be honest, i feel most people here whine in order to vent for a bit. For the porn, it's sheer decadency and they would deserves a few slaps for that but it isn't (unfortunately) possible.

nice miss, tried playing guitar, helped a bit but eventually it faded away, also I wont supply the jew with my money, I barely have enough to even be alive

by the jew money thing, I mean meds, I took ritalin cuz of adhd and I became a skelly manlet cuz of it, I vowed not to take any jew medicine ever again

If you're fine with that, that's absolutely okay. If you're a man of few words that's fine, just so long as you don't feel like you have to be like that all the time. It's okay to show emotion if you feel like it.
What about therapy? Medication is more of a supplemental thing, it's supposed to help not cure. How often do you go outside?

>It's okay to show emotion if you feel like it.
Well, i can't really do it. I've been educated in such a way showing emotions = showing weakness and even if i want it, i can't do it.
And it's not only sadness, even anger or joy, it has been so much i barely feel anything now.
At least, i'll never be depressed :^)

not much, im better off inside, that way I wont hurt anyone with.my social ineptitude, and I have been to 7 therapists, none could help

I'd recommend talking to a professional about it. Though only if you want to, I just want you comfortable in your own body
What's wrong with a quick walk every day? No need to talk to anyone, no need to go anywhere. Heck you could just walk around your block ten times.

>tfw no mommy gf to put me in diapers and treat me like a kid and get lots of hugs

I do walk every day, to the grocery store to pick up my daily dose of /sip/, although I cant leave without music blasting in my ears, otherwise I'd have a panic attack in the middle of the street

>I'd recommend talking to a professional about it.
Thing is, i have also others... "troubles" and i don't want to end up totally drugged in the dark corner of some asylum. But it's good, except bonding with people i don't really have many problems in my life. I'll maybe seek one if i ever get a romantic relationship and the lass doesn't handle my lack of sensitivity.
>I just want you comfortable in your own body
Same, that's why i'm working in order to become a scientist in molecular biology.
I won't feel comfortable until i'm nearly omnipotent and immortal ;D

I'm more than familiar with that feeling. Do you want to feel better? Because I've had that presence of "oh yeah I deserve to be sad, I feel comfortable like this"
I think you're overexaggerating a bit about getting thrown in an asylum. You'd only get institutionalised if you're an active danger to yourself or to someone else.
And a molecular biologist? That's fascinating! Do you have a dream tied to it? Like a thing you want to achieve?

Pretty shitty overall.
Work on a pokemon romhack, that's about it aside from packing.

>I think you're overexaggerating a bit about getting thrown in an asylum. You'd only get institutionalised if you're an active danger to yourself or to someone else.
Well, knowing i have hallucinations since i'm 4 and almost died because of them several time would be enough i think to consider putting me there. And even if they don't, i don't want to have that kind of things on my medical records, never know when someone will read it.
Almost got spotted when i did some psychological testing at the recruitment for the army back in the days.
>And a molecular biologist? That's fascinating! Do you have a dream tied to it? Like a thing you want to achieve?
That looks fascinating but it's mostly some kind of glorified cooking with a lot of writing and analysis (instead of tasting). I went there because i was always fascinated by transhumanism and how impressive some organisms are. I'm just a dreamer full of hubris, wanting to have all the best traits nature can give us, since i was 6-7 years old too.

yeah, ive definitely given up on improving my condition, I just drift along trying to not care, cuz caring about things leads to disappointment and sadness

I'm still in the camp of talking to a professional about it, yes you'd be medicated but you'd still be in control. This isn't the 1920's where you get thrown in a straight jacket for mental illness. I'd do a bit of research on it, see if there's a subreddit with similar people.
As for the MB I still think it's really cool! Even if you downplay it your ideals make me smile. Transhunanism is fascinating to me too, though I worry about how it'll end up with the social climate. Of course the horny part of my brain loves to think about what humans could look like too.
Would you like to talk about it? At least tell me about this romhack

There's honestly not much to talk about. I'm slowly slipping beyond the usual inability to interact with others to the point now that I quite literally am incapable of any interaction not taking place on an imageboard. Even other websites with anonymous one on one chats are impossible for me to handle anymore. That was my last bastion of contact with the world and now brain rot is sure to take hold.
But in the meanwhile, the romhack I'm making is just my own idealized or 'perfect' form of Ultra-Moon. Not particularly interesting but given that Sword/Shield will be lacking every pokemon in the coding, I may as well work on a perfect game with one that has all the old creatures in it.

>I'm still in the camp of talking to a professional about it, yes you'd be medicated but you'd still be in control. This isn't the 1920's where you get thrown in a straight jacket for mental illness. I'd do a bit of research on it, see if there's a subreddit with similar people.
Never went to reddit and don't think i'll go.
If i have to meet a pro, i'll wait. I have a cousin who's doing medical school, he'll be a nice psychiatrist and i could talk to him about that matter casually, i trust him.
>As for the MB I still think it's really cool! Even if you downplay it your ideals make me smile. Transhunanism is fascinating to me too, though I worry about how it'll end up with the social climate. Of course the horny part of my brain loves to think about what humans could look like too.
Well, if i ever have some critical results, i'll never publish them to the public for only the rich would enjoy it. I'll use it on myself and people i've deemed worthy before leaving in a village far away from civilization with a bunch of others people and watch my descendant grow in a pure environment.
Currently working on regeneration, the mechanisms aren't that complex to be honest.

As opposed to the sadness and disappointment you feel now? If you're going to feel awful anyway why not try to improve it slowly? Eat better, get more excerise, try walking without headphones once even just a little bit. You've still got a lot of life ahead of you, there's no harm in small improvements.
Just because you're slipping doesn't mean you have to fall entirely. I'm of the mind that it's okay to feel sorry for yourself but eventually you have to stand back up. Even small steps are good, something you can look back on and say "at least I did that". As for the romhack I'm curious! For some reason I had a lot of trouble getting through that one again. What are you doing to improve it?
People use reddit as a dog whistle but it's really not that bad, especially to just pop in and ask a question. But you do what you feel comfortable with.
The little village full of genetic freaks sounds wonderful, somewhere I might finally feel normal. What do you have in mind? What's your dream for that? Just idealized people? Or something more obscure?

Ironically, my losing the ability to communicate with others beyond imageboards was a result of me attempting to improve my functionality socially. In trying, I've done more to hinder myself than my initial laziness had produced.
As far as improving it goes, beyond just making the generic 'everything's obtainable' romhack, I intend to fully redo every trainer to make the game actually difficult, or at least attempt to. As well change up some general items, shops, learn moves where appropriate and I've debated changing types to make some mons more unique. Probably shit tier overall but for me it'll be perfection.

>But you do what you feel comfortable with.
Yeah, as long as we're having it good.
>What do you have in mind? What's your dream for that? Just idealized people? Or something more obscure?
Nothing much, i think that with how humanity is going, civilization will end one way or another.
People are knee-deep in greed, hate and others sins. I just want to make a peaceful village with people who share my mindset.
Just imagine, waking up in a pure, pollution-free environment, you go and do your job to help the community before having a nice lunch with everyone. Then we all go and help the farmer for the harvest before celebrating the end of the day.
I want 300 people, already have 7 (me and my close friends). This number is enough so we avoid long term incest and have enough genetic variability.
But it's gonna take time and a freaking lot of money, we're saving currently but we'll need a shitton of ressources (including a stock of rare metals so several centuries later, our descendants won't need to go out for some lithium).
What did you mean by something more obscure?

There's that Splatfest I really want to play but I'm too depressed to even play it.

I'm off tomorrow but working Sunday unfortunately but it means that I'll be able to see my crush, which is either good or bad depending on how you look at it. I tried to make conversation with her today and fell flat on my ass.

That doesn't mean you should stop, maybe just take smaller steps. What did you try doing that backfired?
That's really honorable of you. Normally the genetically modified villages are just one big fetish party at least in my mind, that's what I mean by more obscure. But a peaceful place sounds nice, simple without the stress of late-stage capitalism.
Oh right the splatfest! My daughter would kill me if I didn't play with her tonight. The crush part is hard, I'm a big dork when it comes to people I like too. But hey if a neurotic lesbian at the lowest point of her life can find her dream girl, so can you.

>Normally the genetically modified villages are just one big fetish party at least in my mind
Ah, i didn't even thought of that.
The genetic modifications would be in order to better our lives, we wouldn't do some kind of monster girl stuff.
Like having the ability to do denitrification by ourselves so we can live in an oxygen-free environment if needed.
The regeneration of planarians, the lifespan of Turritopsis dohrnii, etc...
I never thought of it in a lewd way even if i have this project for 10 years.
Maybe i'm too innocent for this world (another reason to move far).

No no that's something to be proud of! You have a real vision to improve humanity. I wish you nothing but luck with your peaceful society~

Thanks lad (or lass), enjoy your evening!

Thank you sweetheart! I hope you have a good night too~ and it's lass