Get through childhood and teenage years awkward and autistic but OK

>get through childhood and teenage years awkward and autistic but OK
>once adulthood begins and you really have a lot you need to do, numerous bodily and mental issues pop up at once and you can feel your mind unraveling and your memory go to shit
anyone else know this feel

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that mostly happens in late adulthood, but thats normal, your body is getting old and dying, if you're young tho its going to stagnate at some point and get worse later then you die

Didn't even need to reach adulthood for my brain to shit the bed and delete system 32. It started at 18.

the problems I refer to are not normal

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every one knows that getting old is miserable, maybe you're worse than everyone i dont know your situation but it wont be good in general

What happens to us? Do we really just get ignored and disappear while life goes on for everyone else? What was the point of our being here in the first place?
A solution was never guaranteed in all of this. A fundamentally unfulfilled existence is worse than total void.

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the point is to find happiness, if you're a zommer posting skyrim memes you still have plenty of time

>my entire life i was ostracized and hated
>i never spoke at all
i just now realized this is not normal

just that fact alone and that we must die, should make one doubt the sanctity of the universe.

the time runs out quick

>22 year old millenial who used to think he has a lot of time

it only gets worse user, that's why this comment wasn't original

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that game is so comfy I should prob play it again

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just imagine the bliss of your stress tapering off and the years of your anguish being heard. you will never get this.

well, there is one way originallo

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amusing pic

yep
was always told it's different when you get older but no it's the same fucking shit

It seems like the feeling will never truly go away and a place to fit will never be found, even if momentary success is achieved. Are we doomed to suicide?

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>22 yo
you mean when you where 22 you thought that you had a lot of time? if thats the case, yes you had a lot of time, its your own fault for wasting it, if you are 22 now you're just a brainlet

Tkmiz is a fun artist

It started at 17 and it just keeps getting more and more lonely and barren. I'm really split. I don't want to go through with it anymore but I don't want to hurt my grandma, aunt, and mom who all genuinely love me. Last Christmas my grandma got drunk with me and my aunt's bf and she brought up how scared she was that my uncle was going to kill himself, and how he had the date planned out and everything. The only thing that saved him was meeting a girl at a bar and eventually having a child. I really don't want to ignite that fear in her again or have my mom and aunt experience it. A girl isn't going to come save me though, and even if one tried I don't want a kid. People have kids to give their own lives purpose, and that just continues the cycle

>Are we doomed for suicide
We make fun of trannies a lot for "muh 40% suicide rate" but ironically I'm pretty sure autists also hang around the 40% line too. I'm not too sure, but it's at least 20%

lucky
my entire "family" hates me
the ones that don't aren't aware that i exist

>Its your fault blah blah blah
>brainlet

No more complex than how I view other peoples problems, but more complex than how they view it. I don't want to live a normie life and just be slaves for the people above me. I think Normies wouldn't want it either if they knew enough about themselves. I want a meaning life, not the normie instant gratification rollercoaster. But you wouldn't know how to get that.

am 35. everything hurts and the passage of time and daily events don't feel real.