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try not to drink a lot, is there any other way you can cheer yourself up? sorry, wrong person

Hello friend *hug*
>thank you for waiting Kotomi-poster, I'm sorry I haven't been feeling well
Don't mention it, actually, I'm happy to see you around. You had worried me a bit. Is there something going on that you would like to tell me about? If you don't want to, don't worry, I understand that
>do you like the month of July?
July is probably the worst time of the year. Way too hot, only August is worse probably. Also, my birthday is coming up and I hate it
Not so much to say about my day honestly, only thing I've accomplished is feeding my animals

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It hasn't been very long but I really did miss you, I'm happy I can talk to you again. *hug* honestly if I hadn't checked the archive and seen you said that I probably wouldn't have made a thread tonight
>Is there something going on that you would like to tell me about?
My family has been pushing me to do things I'm not very comfortable with and my friends (outside of Jow Forums) haven't been talking to me a lot so that kind of hurts.
>July is probably the worst time of the year. Way too hot, only August is worse probably. Also, my birthday is coming up and I hate it
I agree, July is a month id like to skip honestly. Happy almost birthday, why aren't you excited? you don't have to talk about it
>Not so much to say about my day honestly, only thing I've accomplished is feeding my animals
what kind of animals do you have? also what have you been doing since we last talked?

You'll make me blush!
>My family has been pushing me to do things I'm not very comfortable with
Why are they making you do those things? Is it for your own good or there's some other reason?
>my friends (outside of Jow Forums) haven't been talking to me a lot so that kind of hurts
Not talking with your friends for a while hurts. But you said "a lot" so I hope you're still in contact with them. Do you usually reach them out or let them reach you?
>why aren't you excited?
Because, if only a few of those "friends" I was talking about wish me a happy birthday, I would prefer if none of them bothered at all. It just makes me realize how little they care about me
>what kind of animals do you have?
Sheep, rabbits, chickens, ducks... those kind of animals. Recently, a lot of ducklings are born and they're extremely cute
>also what have you been doing since we last talked?
I accepted that barely good grade I was talking about and started studying algebra for the next exam. Algebra is probably one of the most boring things I've ever studied

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I didn't sleep yet and it's 10 am.
Can't get a job on my own, so I've got to go to a student union or whatever.
Family relations are pretty bad, actually can't wait for school to start again so I don't see either side of my family. except for my grandmother, who was a greater parent to me than both my actual parents.
I don't usually write this much.
Phew, I'm done ranting. This sucks.
Hope you people are doing better.

>You'll make me blush!
UwU blushing is nice isn't it?
>Why are they making you do those things? Is it for your own good or there's some other reason?
they think it's for my own good but really they're just hurting me a lot, I can't even say no because they'll be extremely upset with me.
>Not talking with your friends for a while hurts. But you said "a lot" so I hope you're still in contact with them.
I am in contact with them but it's usually only a few words a day and sometimes we won't talk for a few days, it's been like this for awhile now.
>Do you usually reach them out or let them reach you?
usually I message them first, I get very lonely if we don't talk.
>Because, if only a few of those "friends" I was talking about wish me a happy birthday, I would prefer if none of them bothered at all. It just makes me realize how little they care about me
I understand that, I worry that my closest friend isn't going to remember my birthday, they forget things about me sometimes.
>Sheep, rabbits, chickens, ducks... those kind of animals. Recently, a lot of ducklings are born and they're extremely cute
do you have any pictures of them? what's it like having so many animals? I had a lot before but I was very young and didn't have to do much work with them.
>I accepted that barely good grade I was talking about and started studying algebra for the next exam. Algebra is probably one of the most boring things I've ever studied
that's okay, barely good is still better than bad. is it hard or just boring? I had trouble with it too

you need to sleep, also could your grandma help you get a job? and are you going to work while at school?

>blushing is nice isn't it?
I guess it is if it's caused by this kind of flattering
>I can't even say no because they'll be extremely upset with me
Hmm, tough situation. How long has this been going on? I hope they'll eventually mellow a bit. Making you do things you don't want to do could eventually hurt both the sides more then it's already doing
>I am in contact with them but it's usually only a few words a day and sometimes we won't talk for a few days
I wonder why it is going like this. You didn't have any argument with them, did you?
>I worry that my closest friend isn't going to remember my birthday, they forget things about me sometimes
At least he knows things about you. I wonder I how much my friends know about me and if they talk with me just because we were in the same class
>do you have any pictures of them?
Not right now. I'll try to take some, but the mother is really protective so the results may not be great
>what's it like having so many animals?
Depends on how much you like the countryside life. I personally don't like living in the countryside, so having to check on the animals mostly feels like a bother and stresses me out quite a lot
>I had a lot before but I was very young and didn't have to do much work with them
What kind of animals did you have?
>is it hard or just boring?
Just plain boring. I guess Boole's algebra and congruence problems are the exception, but the rest is just proofs on top of proofs

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>I guess it is if it's caused by this kind of flattering
Do you blush often?
>Hmm, tough situation. How long has this been going on?
Over a year now but it's been much worse these last few months, I hope they'll stop soon too.
>I wonder why it is going like this. You didn't have any argument with them, did you?
No, I don't know what I did wrong honestly. It seems like they're just tired of me and want a vacation.
>At least he knows things about you. I wonder I how much my friends know about me and if they talk with me just because we were in the same class
I often worry about people only talking to me because they pity me or something, I doubt it was only because you were in the same class it was probably because you're so nice.
>Not right now. I'll try to take some, but the mother is really protective so the results may not be great
That's okay! I'd really appreciate anything honestly, even if the quality isn't perfect haha
>Depends on how much you like the countryside life. I personally don't like living in the countryside, so having to check on the animals mostly feels like a bother and stresses me out quite a lot
I wish I could trade with you, is like to live somewhere far away with my animals.
>What kind of animals did you have?
Dogs, cats, rabbits, goats, fish, chameloens, birds, a few others I can't remember
>Just plain boring. I guess Boole's algebra and congruence problems are the exception, but the rest is just proofs on top of proofs
I'm orry, how much more do you need to study?

I hate July too user. My July has not been great so far, again
I'm so lonely. I want a gf more than anything but I cant get one. I dont think I can even maintain platonic relationships at this point anyways

You should work on friendships first then, after you have a close friend or two try to make some female friends and get close to them. after that it'll come naturally

Had close friends. Had close female friends. It was actually pretty fun but I still didnt gdt a gf. None of them could help me even figure out why.
I dont have friends any more, even trying to make friends on Discord feels tiring and pointless. I dont trust anybody now anyways

Don't ask about getting a girlfriend and don't ask them if they want to be your girlfriend, just talk to girls and if something clicks the n you get a f2f if not you have another friend. Discord sucks desu unless you're just talking 1on1 or in a small server for friends only. Don't give up on everyone because of a few bad experiences

>Do you blush often?
Not really, but, if I do, it's out of embarrassment over something I did or said
>Over a year now but it's been much worse these last few months
If i'm not asking for too much, could you tell me, even only vaguely, what are they doing to you? Don't answer if you don't want to
>No, I don't know what I did wrong honestly
Don't take for granted you did something wrong. Maybe they're going through tough times as well and want some time for themselves
>I doubt it was only because you were in the same class it was probably because you're so nice
See, I think that's kind of part of the problem. I was too nice. I always tried not to get into troubles with anyone, but that means that I always kept myself at a distance
>I'd really appreciate anything honestly
Managed to take a pic directly of them. The quality isn't great, but I was scared that the mother was going to "activate her defense system". These are most recently born. There are 6 more that are like a week older, and 5 more that are almost ducks at this point
>is like to live somewhere far away with my animals
How come you don't have animals anymore?
>Dogs, cats, rabbits
Ok, pretty standard
>goats
I've heard they're pretty reckless when it comes to eating from trees, is it true?
>chameloens
What? Did you really have chameleons? Sounds cool
>how much more do you need to study?
For this exam, almost all the program, as I stopped really following the lectures as I didn't like how the professor explained

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Forgot to mow the Goddamn lawn

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Man I was asking them for advice as friends do. I didnt ask the girls I was friends with out cause they werent interested and frankly I wasnt either. Judt for their advice. Just like theyd ask my advice on guys.
Also I'm only talking to one person on Discord, I don't really participate in servers

Today is the day, I'm going to be ending it now early in the morning just before my parents wake up. I haven't slept in almost 30 hours.
Goodbye everyone, and thank you for the fun times. I'll start in around 45 minutes. rXl

Livestream video link + explanation:
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Man, it's less about today and more about this month.
I finally got a date with this girl I've been talking to for a long time, and even though she was real nervous it was a pretty nice time. I tried to schedule another date, and shit just keeps coming up to prevent that from happening on her side. We finally had something mostly scheduled and she gave up on it the morning it was supposed to happen. I asked her what day she could meet up and now I'm getting ghosted.
Whenever I see this girl in person, she's constantly glancing at me, looks at me every time she laughs, makes an effort to talk to me in spite of her being exceptionally nervous around people, but when we're texting it's like I'm talking to a different person.
I don't really know what to do now. Logically, I should move on since this clearly isn't happening, but I really can't bring myself to do it. This is the first girl I ever felt this way for, and nobody else ever strikes me the way she does.
I never thought the hardest part of a relationship would be the logistics of it, but here I am fucking up the most basic shit with the one girl I genuinely enjoy being with.

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>Not really, but, if I do, it's out of embarrassment over something I did or said
I blush all the time, I laugh a lot when I'm nervous or embarrassed.
>if i'm not asking for too much, could you tell me, even only vaguely, what are they doing to you? Don't answer if you don't want to
I won't go super into the things they were making me do before because it would take a long time, recently they've been making me go out to parties and trying to get me to drink or have sex. I'm not interested in any of these things and if much rather stay at home but my parents were very popular and parties when they were young and so on expected to do the same.
>Don't take for granted you did something wrong. Maybe they're going through tough times as well and want some time for themselvesD
I wish they would just tell me that though, even if they don't want to talk a lot if I'd understand. I've asked lots of times but they say they're fine.
>See, I think that's kind of part of the problem. I was too nice. I always tried not to get into troubles with anyone, but that means that I always kept myself at a distanceWe
Have you tried telling them about what your feeling? They might be happy if you open up to them.
>Managed to take a pic directly of them. The quality isn't great, but I was scared that the mother was going to "activate her defense system".
CUTE! I wish I had a duck nowwww
>How come you don't have animals anymore?
My father doesn't like them much so once my parents broke up he just didn't want any pets.
>I've heard they're pretty reckless when it comes to eating from trees, is it true?I
We had crab apples all around our land that they would eat but we also fed them tons of fresh food so they'd usually just wait for us to bring them something
>Did you really have chameleons?
Yep yep! My mom bred them, they were kinda scary but very cool.
>almost all the program
That's okay, I'm sure you'll catch up. You haven't given up right?

Mow your lawn ya goof
Sorry, I'm not great with girls. Just giving my best advice I guess.
How will you be doing it? Are you sure you have to go?
She might just be bad at texting, I have a friend like that too, she's so sweet and wonderful in person but very cold and uninterested through phone.

>She might just be bad at texting
That's true, but it still doesn't explain the ghosting. I don't know, maybe I'm overthinking shit, but even with how difficult she finds texting I can't imagine struggling that much just to tell me what days she's available when she was capable of doing that just a few weeks ago.

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>I blush all the time, I laugh a lot when I'm nervous or embarrassed
Damn, now I want to make you blush
>they've been making me go out to parties and trying to get me to drink or have sex
Classic case of parents projecting way too much their expectations over their sons. I'm sorry that you're in this sort of situation. If things keep going on like this, I think that a drastic move would be the only way to get out of this
>I wish they would just tell me that though
Yeah, you're right, they could tell you if they are. Answering with your own question
>Have you tried telling them about what your feeling?
Maybe they would glad to hear that you miss talking with them
Answering for my case, yeah, they may be happy, but we already see each other rarely and I don't want to ruin our time together by being selfish
>My father doesn't like them much so once my parents broke up he just didn't want any pets
Oh, I see. I won't get too much in the matter
>but we also fed them tons of fresh food so they'd usually just wait for us to bring them something
They were pretty spoiled! Sometimes, when there is little grass on the ground, my sheep would do the same because we give them bread slices
>they were kinda scary but very cool
Have you seen one of them changing color? I've never seen one directly. Do they make any noise or they're quiet animals?
>You haven't given up right?
No, but I have occasional mood swings where I end up thinking that I would be better off dropping out or even dead. Luckily, I care too much about what would happen to my parents so I'm not going through with the suicidal thoughts anytime soon

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I could wron g, it's up to you to decide. I don't know her or how she normally acts.

>Damn, now I want to make you blush
You already have haha
>Classic case of parents projecting way too much their expectations over their sons. I'm sorry that you're in this sort of situation. If things keep going on like this, I think that a drastic move would be the only way to get out of this
I think you're right, I'll need to.so something soon. Thank you.
>Maybe they would glad to hear that you miss talking with them
I've told them already, I always let them know I love and miss them but I also feel selfish
>I don't want to ruin our time together by being selfish
I understand that, maybe try to ask about their problems first? You could help them and they could help you
>Oh, I see. I won't get too much in the matter
Sorry, it's okay. I'm not upset.
>They were pretty spoiled! Sometimes, when there is little grass on the ground, my sheep would do the same because we give them bread slices
Yep yep!th all of our pets were spoiled hah, tell me more about the sheep pls they seem cute
>Have you seen one of them changing color? I've never seen one directly. Do they make any noise or they're quiet animals?I
I remember the large male would change colors a lot and he might be made some noise too, the others were pretty calm and didn't do much
>No
Good!!!
>but I have occasional mood swings where I end up thinking that I would be better off dropping out or even dead. Luckily, I care too much about what would happen to my parents so I'm not going through with the suicidal thoughts anytime soon
You better not, if be really sad if you ever want away or even if you just gave up. You motivate me yknow

>You already have haha
Nice, I can say that today I feel satisfied
>I think you're right, I'll need to.so something soon. Thank you
Of course, take take what I've said with a grain of salt as only you know the full picture. But i genuinely think that the only way to break this kind of situation is doing it abruptly
>I've told them already, I always let them know I love and miss them but I also feel selfish
Hmm, I feel that. Have you seen any of them personally in recent times? Or are they mostly like online friends?
>I understand that, maybe try to ask about their problems first?
That could be a way, but... I don't know, I guess I'll think about it next time I see them. It's already been three months, so they'll probably come up with something soon
>tell me more about the sheep pls they seem cute
Two of them are particularly spoiled, as I feed them since they were lambs myself, as they were both abandoned by their mothers. They still come close by themselves and really enjoy having their ears scratched. One day, me and my brother were closing a field in order to make grass grow and one of them just came there to see what we were doing and then went back to eat
>I remember the large male would change colors a lot
I wish I had one, they seem very cool. Also, they eat flies, right?
>You better not, if be really sad if you ever want away or even if you just gave up. You motivate me yknow
Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere (unless something happens to the site, but that's another matter), nor I'm giving up. Even if I did give up, I still have some things I want to do, so yeah, not going anywhere. But thanks to you, I'll have to keep going
It's almost lunchtime here, that means I'm turning off now (I don't have a place for my pc, so I usually am in the kitchen)
If the thread goes down, I hope I'll see you around again, friend

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It's lunch time for you and its 6am for me haha, I'm starting to fall asleep anyway but if the thread is up later or if I make a new thread I'll try to reply to everything you said. Thank you so much for talking to me again it means a lot, I'll miss you and hopefully we will talk very soon