How many of you have to struggle with a porn addiction?
How many of you have to struggle with a porn addiction?
Ayden Johnson
Alexander Hughes
Well I jerk it at least once every day, so I think that is addiction
Haven't had a real friend or gf since 2015, idk if the porn plays a role in that
Colton Wood
Ditto, though I can skip days if I want to.
Fapping is just one of the only pleasures I have in life so it doesn't make sense to though
Kevin Hill
I only masturbate once a day sometimes, sometimes i go a few days without doing it, so i don't think i have a porn addiction. How often do you masturbate Kierk?
Grayson Jenkins
Lower sex drive is the only benefit of being circumcised
Ethan Davis
i do I wank 6 times a day then exercise, drive is back again
Nathan Young
When I take vyvanse, up to 2 to e times a day and I take like 2 hours to cum. I also have thought OCD which will make me remember and think about porn for literally 8 hours straight. It's really fucked up. Ever since I've been a child I've had sexual and blasphemous intrusive thoughts and fapping while on Vyvanse makes me feel literally psychotic. This is really painful. I try to get the sexual thoughts out of my head, I try and try and try, but they won't leave until the next day, so I will stay 8 hours awake fighting my own mind to get sexual images out of my head but they won't. I have then to take medicine to fall asleep because otherwise I wouldn't be able to. Pornographic images get stuck inside my head and I tell them to leave but they won't. When I was a child, the thoughts were blasphemous in nature and I had a trauma thinking I'd go to hell because I was the reincarnation of evil or soemthing, pretty strong OCD. Now as an adult it's mostly porn.
I'm on Zolpidem (15mg) and diazepam (7.5mg) so I can relax and sleep for once because otherwise I will have a psychotic attack. My intrusive thoughts are unberable.
Colton Stewart
You ever jerked off so many times in one day that you brain start pulsing with each stroke you take. When bust a nut cause dizziness and a massive lightheaded feeling instead of bliss then regret. When your dick start to burn but you keep going until your brain register it as pleasure not pain. When you have to lick your own cum up because your too tired to get up and clean it with a tissue. When you realize porn is truly a weapon. I legit felt like I was going to dead if I jerk off more that day. I stopped at 14
Bentley Mitchell
When I was a child I had intrusive thoughts every single day regarding the holy spirit (I'm actholic) I would blaspheme the holy spirit in mind because I feared that if I did, I'd be sentenced to Eternity in Hell forever. The fact that I couldn't think nor say mentally made me want to ever more and more, and there was a time not a single day passed I had a struggle against my own mind to not say or think blasphemous thoughts but they always were there. This continued up until my life turned to such shit as a teen that I turned an atheist and the blasphemous thoughts subsided, but still I have this terrible thought OCD and I thought that the aliens read my mind or others' and that they could abducted me at anytime. Now all these delusions are over for a REALLY LONG TIME, and I've never had anything even akin to psychosis (in that regard I'm very healthy in differenting reality between fantasy. I know what's real and I have a good-enough discerning mind) but the pornographic intrusive thoughts are just unberable. I think it's due to the way the internet pornsites are constructed to make them addictive and a person who has thought OCD simply cannot resist.
After watching too much porn I always feel dumb (cognitively impaired), forgetful, stressed, depressed, angsty etc. because the intrusive thoughts won't let me be for even a single moment. They will bother me day and night.
Ryder Reyes
>When you have to lick your own cum up because your too tired to get up and clean it with a tissue.
lmao be honest, were you watching CEI videos?
Andrew Edwards
>not a single day passed I hadn't a struggle*
Samuel Wilson
That's kind of fucked up. At what age did you took note of those kind of toughts?
>fapping while on Vyvanse
Stop fucking up your body, or else i am afraid you will die of a heart attack.
I am not a doctor and honestly, this is the 1st time i read something like this, so i have no idea what to tell you or what advice to give you dude. But damn, you take a lot of meds.
Levi Hernandez
>CEI videos
I didnt even know that was a thing. While fapping I used to wonder what my cum taste like and was going to taste. When I finish it gross me the fuck out, the drive is gone. I have to channel my inner slut to be able to lick it up and enjoy it. Or just really want to clean it up fast if someone might pop in my room. No locks on the door. Those CEI videos looks too vanilla for me.
Ryder Robinson
>Now all these delusions are over for a REALLY LONG TIME, and I've never had anything even akin to psychosis (in that regard I'm very healthy in differenting reality between fantasy. I know what's real and I have a good-enough discerning mind)
Yeah, i know what you mean with that.
But, were your parents very strict about religion or forced you down to something or what? Maybe you were just delusional and fucked up in a way since you were a kid, like me.
Something must have triggered those kind of thoughts towards the Holy Spirit and the like regarding religion.
Anyways, as i said, i can give you not real advice, since i have never met anyone like this.
James Cook
I take the smallest amount of Vyvanse and it really does me wonder. The only downside is that it raises my blood pressure a lot and I get this uncontrollable horniness to fap to whatever disgusting shit I can find online. Then I end up seeing all sorts of femdom with cocks on spankbang or pornhub or really fucked up shit and fap for two hours. The problem is that for the next hours, the images of what I've seen will become inprinited into my mind and I won't be able tog et them out. They will stay there and repeat themselves over and over again and infinitum, like they're in a loop or something. Now I have to take sleep meds otherwise I feel like I'll go crazy. When I take Vyvanse but don't fap to visual porn, I don't have any of these intrusive thoughts. Not a single one of them. The trouble is that I get this urge to watch porn while on Vyvanse and it's hard to control.
This intrusive thought thing is like having a porn projector running onto the screen of your brain that you want to turn off but no matter what you do, it doesn't turn off, it just stays there. The porn projector doesn't turn off and so you have to keep living being annoyed by these pictures that will appear before you without your willing to let them in. They're intrusive images.
Evan Morris
I've always been extremely worry and broodsome as a kid and had thought OCD since forever.
>Something must have triggered those kind of thoughts towards the Holy Spirit and the like regarding religion.
What triggered me this was that when I was a kid, the catechism teacher told us to particularly never make a sin or a blasphemous thought or sentence towards the Holy Spirit, as it would assure eternal damnation. After she had said these words, I've been struggling with saying (or not saying) blasphemous curses against the Holy Spirit. It lasted and absolutely tortured me everyday until I became an atheist. Now it's sexual and pornographic thoughts that haunt me, probably because of how wrong it is to have these sorts of thoughts, while at the same time, porn sites are extremely addictive which makes thinking of them very easy.
I feel really disturbed and dumb after having these thoughts 24/7. I can't focus on anything because my mind is always turning towards sexual thoughts.
John Powell
who struggles with a porn addiction? its freer than air
Ryder Jenkins
So you have a Vyvanse addiction, right?
But jesus, you should talk about this shit with your doctor or something, that shit is fucking you up.
Nathan Robinson
I don't have a Vyvanse addiction. I have a porn addiction that's worsened ten times by the Vyvanse I take up to the times a week. I'm extremely frugal with the Vyvanse mad have only once gone over the minimum 30mg dosage. I have some sort of mental illness. Always did. With thought OCD. When I was a kid I legit had feared that 2012 would be the end of humanity, that if I didn't walk through this or that aisle while going to my mom's home I'd find her dead, I would sometimes wonder whether people read my thoughts etc. and overrall strong thought OCD. Fluoxetine helped me none so I don't know what to do. The only non-meme thing that has worked has been meditation desu. Meditation actually does ho me clear up my mind off the rubbish and push the sexual and obsessive thoughts away.
Leo Morris
Yeah, well, but you're being stupid enough to take Vyvanse knowing that it will worse your condition.
So yeah, you're just another delusional user like a lot of us.
In fact, the only time i acted on these delusions of mine, were these last few months. I have been feeling something inside my throat and i could never get it out, so i tried medicine to see if it was some sort of disease, but nothing. Then i started to make myself throw up every few hours because doing that, the feeling of that thing down my throat was gone for a few hours. But it always came back. The past few weeks i have been really thinking about the idea of doing a little cut in the front of my throat, where i feel the thing attached, to reach out and pull it out, the thing is that i have been off my medication for 1.6 years now and i dont know if this shit is real or im going mental again.
>Fluoxetine
Yes, was on that, couldn't cum, and did not help. Dropped.
Never tried meditation, always seemed like a meme to me.
William Parker
I'm gonna get this checked with a doc and I hope he helps me. Ive realize this isn't normal and it's ruining my life. This is hell. I hope he can give me something that will make me better and more funcional and normal. I'm going to become a basket case if things go on like that. I'm sick in the head. My OCD is out of the charts. My OCD is terrible. It destroys me from the fucking inside Hy shit. My mind is a mess. It's filled with pornographic thoughts that won't leave. I'm obsessed with pornography. My mind is Ed with pin images to the brim that bother and haunt me. In a porn addict in and out, coupled with a terrible OCD.
Jonathan Hall
lmao are you on something right now? What did you take?
Jaxson Stewart
>the idea of doing a little cut in the front of my throat, where i feel the thing attached, to reach out and pull it
You're sure you're ok? Have you seen a doc about it? I've never heard of such a thing. I think you should get a X-ray of your throat before sticking a knife there and cutting something lmao. It's s dangerous, don't do it. See a doc.
What medication did you use to be in before? Antipsychotics?
Camden Martinez
I'm on Vyvanse from yesterday, a ton of Zolpidem and diazepam.
John Harris
Yes, anti-depressants and anti-psychotics.
But they changed them around 7 times because they never worked.
And yes, i went to the doc, he told me there was nothing, but i dont believe the fucker, i once got an x-ray on my wrist because i fell, and they said it wasnt broken, turns out, it was and i was in pain for 2 weeks before they did anything about it.
No wonder, you're typing very weird tonight lol.
Ethan Johnson
I only jerk off once a day (with rare exceptions) and about 5 times total a week. I don't think I'd consider an addiction since it doesn't have much of a negative impact on my life. I'd say my overall addiction to the internet in general is a bigger problem, but again I've been in situations where I don't have access to the internet for multiple days and I don't lose my mind over it.
Noah Taylor
I'm going to try sleeping now (I'm on Zolpidem and Diazepam but the best of luck to you and good night, fren. I can barely stand up without stumbling.