I want to kill myself but I can't because I don't want my mother to bury her only child or make my family sad

same feeling

You won't be able to comprehend any of that when you're dead. For all intents and purposes, your family will not exist when you are dead. It doesn't matter whether they exist to this world because this world will not exist either, to you. Besides which, your family is just genetically and socially predisposed to love you anyway, there's no real meaning behind it. The suffering will be real but the reason for the suffering is just another product of human evolution. So just take it as a consequence of evolution.

trade places? I hate my mom and spiting her like that would feel great, but i don't want to die

no, you just think it's cool to think about killing yourself.
there's a difference between restlessness and being suicidal. caring about family implies you have something to live for. also learn meditation or stop being bored. "i cant ignore thoughts XD XD" is not a real problem.

Just because your world ends doesn't mean theirs does too.
You could always just suicide prank her, would be short but sweet.
Don't patronize me, I am suicidal and I have the scars to prove it. >.

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Aka I'm too pussy to actually kill myself so I'll just blame my family because they might be sad so I don't have to kill myself but still get the attention from nobodies online

>anonymous
>get attention
How does that work?

Not even giving that autistic response a (you), just kill yourself already, no one will miss you

If you were that suicidal you'd do it, so you're not suicidal. Because people who are actually suicidal kill themselves because they're in so much pain. What you're going through is teenage depression where a mild inconvienance has happened.

>Just because your world ends doesn't mean theirs does too
Yes, but what I'm saying is that it will be completely incomprehensible and therefore irrelevant when you're dead. You won't exist anymore, so any and all conceptions of your family won't be there. Even thinking about them being sad after you die; for you there won't be an "after you die", because you'll be dead. There's no time or anything. It won't matter at all. Sure, they will still exist and be sad, but to you nothing will exist at all.

I appreciate what you're trying to do but your approach is not that convincing. You just look dumb.
>teenage depression
>almost 30
I hate being a late bloomer.
I understand that however just because we're unable to perceive something doesn't mean it doesn't exist.
The reason I don't want to kill myself is not to cause them pain, not because I might feel guilty about it.

So things aren't that bad then, because other wise you would have killed yourself regardless.

>I understand that however just because we're unable to perceive something doesn't mean it doesn't exist.
The reason I don't want to kill myself is not to cause them pain, not because I might feel guilty about it.
How can you care about something if you can't perceive it? You may think, as you're about to kill yourself, that you're causing suffering for your family by doing this. But that reality isn't here yet, and it only will be once you're dead. You only say that you don't want to kill yourself because you don't want to cause them pain because of the negative emotions it causes; if you had no emotions about the subject, you wouldn't care either way. And you won't feel any emotions when it actually happens because you'll be dead. The only guilt you have to worry about is the guilt you have now, and if the guilt overpowers your desire to die then you don't want to die.

wat a fucking genius. Listen to this user, it will put you out of your misery