I'm 21, kissless virgin. I'm not english so sorry for bad english. I'm addicted to sissy hypno and bbc and porn in general since 5 years ago, trying to do NoFap to recover for 3 years but always failed.
I'm into a particular situation, 'cause i've gained another point into my addiction: i never jerk off anymore, 'cause i'm so conditioned by sissy hypno bbc big cocks and porn in general that now (since 3 years more or less) i ALWAYS cum HANDSFREE in my own underwear without touching me, just imagining to be the girl and focusing on the cock... I literally wet myself. And i can do that also just fantasizing, without watching anything... In fact when i'm at day 5-6-7 of NoFap and i'm in a quiet place like a classroom or a library and i start fantasizing, it's always a hell... I always go veeeery close to cum handsfree there, in public...
Now i'm having a lot of urges 'cause i had an erotic dream tonight (not wet). There was me and this (black girl)... I was naked in front of her (she was not naked), she put some bbc porn and i got excited, and i felt so embarassed but also very horny, close to wet dream. Then i got up. How you would intrepret this dream? 'cause of this dream i have had a lot of urges all this day...
I wanna overcome this fucking urges, that are so unbearable and overwhelming... How can i do in your opinion? Can i still recover or it's too late for me?
Thank you if you'll answer. Bb.
P.s.: i watch sissy stuff since when i was 15 years old i think...
P.p.s: now when i watch a pic of a sexy girl i can only think "i wanna be her" and not "WITH her"... But this happens only online, in real life i fall in love ONLY with girls and NEVER with guys...
no, i can't. i literally have changed 3 different pants this weeks 'cause i cum inside them... i can't wet these pants too. i wanna fucking recover and be a normal guy again...
Aaron Fisher
This week* not weeks...
Kevin Rivera
How long before this guy becomes a part of a discord sissy harem? i give a week or 9 months at tops
Christopher Taylor
I have been to a lot of discords already, a lot of time, but when i cum i always delete my account 'cause i wanna recover...
Jordan Morgan
one of these days you're going to cum and the feeling wont go away and you'll be in for situation
Leo Williams
I dont think so, its 3 years that i cum in this way and the feeling always go away, so i think its impoasible
Jackson Myers
You're a sissy not a man. One day you are going to be dressed up and so incredibly horny that you post online somewhere like craigslist looking for a guy to fuck you. He will come over and you will be addicted for cock forever at that point and never go back. You are a sissy not a man stop fighting nature. Nature always wins.
Nathan Reyes
You need to give in and become the girl of your dreams, sissy boy.
Dylan Nelson
I think im just a porn addict... Porn has changed my sexuality.
Ryan King
Then why are you worried just crank one out every morning and be normal for the next few hours. it'll be a slow progression m8 trust i've seen it before
Oliver Howard
But i dont feel like i wanna be a girl for life...
Charles Ortiz
Oh you will, once you've tried being a girl and getting all slutty for a big dicked guy and having some fun with him you will never look back.
Mason Watson
I wanna lose my virginity with a girl first.
Henry Nelson
Why pu ish yourself go on Grindr and have sex it's that easy
Luke Nguyen
Take a cock while dressed up and see if you honestly believe what you just said.
Nolan Allen
I just wonder what kind of fucked up rat and what kind of relationship you must have had with your parents to turn out this way and fucking write about it on anonymous message boards
dillate 41% origami
Joseph Clark
Women don't want sissies they want men. Do you really want to be one of those 40 year old crossdressers that post themselves online in their wives clothing?
Nolan Murphy
I just wanna be a normal guy again. I dont wanna be a sex object for life
Jace Perez
Get off the internet, dude.
Jaxson Adams
ls that ryan gosling?
Juan Baker
Who? The guy in the image?
Grayson Wood
if you go on hrt eventually you'll produce so little cum it won't matter
Nicholas Sanchez
I dont want to go hrt...
Ethan Torres
sounds like you probably do when you're on nofap. Hell, you're probably so fucked up that you'd cum just from taking the pills, knowing you're becoming more and more feminized
Isaac White
I dont care, i just dont wanna take that
Jose Nelson
well honestly I don't see you coming back from your degeneracy if you're cumming yourself just by thinking of being a sissy you might as well just go all the way and hope you enjoy it
Elijah Campbell
I'm saying that i wanna recover, i wanna be a normal guy again...
Nicholas Campbell
Listen you know what you need to do stop watching it focus on something else and probably fap normally there isnt any secret code or phrase you'll hear here thats going to magically fix you do what you know you need to do or just give it up
Jordan Price
wow you are the best i hope you dont have a friend that is a drug addict you'll just say him something like "just stop lol"
Grayson Morris
well maybe just don't do nofap, just try to masturbate to normal porn
Nolan Stewart
for me every porn is sissy porn now... 'cause i always imagine to be the girl...
Asher Powell
I would overcome it or you're trash that'll just drag me down too my whole family is full of drug addicts it doesnt matter how hard or long you try people dont quit until they want to. my fathers wasted so much time money and stress trying to fix them it doesnt work
Matthew Turner
i'm sure you never said him something like "just stop you already know how"
Mason Carter
yeah see this is why I think you're just fucked and should go with it, you seem unable to even find or consider solutions
Alexander Gonzalez
the solution i think is no watching porn totally. but it's so difficult...
Asher Miller
Nope the main people he tried to fixed died/got thrown in jail for child abuse so he's given up and focused on different things after grieving for a while
Brody Hall
okay i dont care really
Hunter Jackson
if not watching porn makes you cum your pants in the library I don't know if that's the solution
Kayden Hernandez
maybe i just have to resist... or jerking off without porn
Jeremiah Russell
I'd suggest ASMR so you're not just watching a woman get railed by a man, but you'd probably still manage to self-insert into the girl somehow. Are you absolutely sure you're not just gay, user? It's okay if you are.
Jace Perez
i'm sure 'cause i dont fall in love with men NEVER anyway also in the asmr i imagine to be her...
Tyler Sanchez
you don't fall in love with men, but you cum hands free just thinking about cock sounds kinda gay
Bentley Sanders
That's kind of impressive, user. Do you imagine fucking yourself or something? How about jerk off encouragement, then, having a girl telling you to cum for her? Otherwise, other than dropping porn and maybe doing nofap in the hopes it'll clear up in a couple months, I don't really know what to tell you, user. Maybe the only thing that'll help you recover is when you're in the bedroom with a real girl and just hope your primal instincts take over.
William Foster
I suggest listening to bambi sleep asmr, should fix you right up
Samuel Mitchell
Already heared and i dont wanna listen to it anymore
Luke Wright
I hope that too, the problem is find a girl Who wanna stay with me... P.s.: i dont wanna say what i fantasize about, sorry...
Benjamin Wright
I'm kind of in the middle of this right now. I've been edging for 2 days straight now. I've legitimately started making my own sissy captions now and I edge while making them.
I don't want to be a girl, I'm just obsessed with sissies, how sex craved they are, how their whole lives revolve around cock, which btw I fucking can't get enough of cock myself. Women bore the shit out of me. Nofap didn't work, I quit porn for months and while it got away with the sissy stuff, it made me gayer, so I don't think my sexuality is all that impacted by this. But I don't want this that's for sure, this porn addiction is bad.
Jack Ramirez
>Who? The guy in the image?
yea
Eli Powell
get a chastity cage and edge with your butt
Ryan Moore
That's fine, user. I guess there's always the escortpill if you get really desperate, but you should probably leave that as a last resort. The only thing I can think about at the moment is that, if you think the sissy hypno shit actually worked on you, then one thing you can do is to look up how to hypnotize yourself so you can try to undo it. Or, try looking at hypno shit that isn't sissy shit if you haven't tried that yet. In theory, that could slowly override it. I dunno, though.
Caleb Young
No, I'm good. I've already cum through anal, though. Kind of cheated since I wasn't in a cage and had been edging beforehand, but I was fucking myself and felt how I was approaching the edge without jerking off, so all I did was hold onto my dick while relentlessly fucking my ass until I exploded.
Now porn addiction aside, I'm definitely all for prostate-play. It's not great every time, you have to really be in the right mindset, but I've had mindblowing orgasms while having something up my butt. You think it's a meme where people moan and shit until you find yourself in that exact same situation, and you can't hold it back. It's pretty hot, man.
Jackson Price
Wtf im OP and thats not me, anyway ive said i wanna become a normal guy again so i dont wanna cage myself
Camden Butler
I tried but they are a lot less than sissy hypno, so i get annoyed very early...
Luke Robinson
I'm not even pretending to be you. Also don't get a cage. But cold turkey is probably not the answer, accept that you're bisexual and move on from there. You want a healthier sex life, you don't wanna turn a blind eye and pretend that it isn't part of you at all. I think you'll have a higher chance of success if you do that.
Zachary Clark
Oh sorry i misunderstood i thought you pretended to be me...
Luke Lopez
were you molested? a lot of people into this kind were and are now hypersexualized adults (Me). Maybe working through that could help you?
Nathaniel Ross
No never been molested
Adam Brown
Trying to rid yourself of it completely isn't healthy because you'll hate yourself every time you relapse. Allowing myself to indulge every now and then gets it out of my system and the post fap clarity reminds me I'm just chasing the pleasure dragon. The key is to compartmentalize it enough as to not get in the way of whats important, but allow yourself to have fun with it too.
Mason Rodriguez
So what i have to do if i wanna get a gf?
Liam Ross
Well it's either that or nothing, user. I know it's not as good as the sissy and bbc stuff you love, but you most likely have to give that up. Since I don't know what exactly you fantasize about, I can't really suggest an alternative, but you could try to picture yourself doing at least a tiny bit of the fucking yourself.
Camden Long
I know but its very hard to do... (For me)
Landon Young
So in conclusion... How can i do to overcome these urges?
Aiden Ward
unironically go to a psychiatrist. the bbc hypno shit literally damaged your brain through excessive overstimulation, you won't just "get normal again" if you don't get professional medical support.
I know, but you have to start trying, at least a little bit. Again, I don't know what it is you picture in your head, so I'm only going to make assumptions here. At least put yourself into the scene, but not entirely as the girl. You can spend 99% of it as the girl, but at some point you do have to be yourself for a bit, even if it's right before you're about to climax. You can be dressed like one if you want to, though. In this short period, you may do anything that doesn't involve coming into physical contact with another man's dick or his semen. You do not have to touch her yet, but by no means must you ever touch another man if one is present, though you may look at or watch him if he's fucking the girl. Ideally, if you started from inserting into the girl and then switching to yourself watching as you finish, then that's at least 0.00001% better, because for one point you weren't a chick. Then, I want you to try to gradually work up to spending more time as yourself in your fantasies, even if you're still only on the sidelines. I don't give a shit if they're mocking you or whatever while they do it, just so long as you keep having a penis between your legs. At some point though, I do want you to touch the girl, even if it's after he's done with her. You can watch her lie there still trembling from the pleasure, but don't feel it, because you and her are different people. Again, I really want you to start getting used to touching the girl yourself with no other dude entirely, but this is at least a start. Whether you see this as cuckshit or you being invited to watch your chad bro slay pussy and possibly join in to run a train on her is up to you, but at least it's a small step away from wanting to be a chick entirely. Again, just making assumptions here, since I don't really know what you do.
Liam Price
Okay ill tell you what i fantasize about... A lot of time i have porn scenes in my head, so its like continuing watching porn and imagining to be the girl... Other times i imagine myself dressed as a whore, with mandingo that fucks me from behind against a wall... I know its pathetic and im really embarassed telling this... But here it is.
Adrian Green
if the simple solutions (stop watching sissy hypno porn, fuck an escort) don't work, then you obviously can't. get some help user
Ryan Sanders
Okay, then what I suggested definitely applies to you imagining being the girl. Again, even if you're just watching and fapping, you can't be her, okay? As for being fucked from behind, I'm still kind of wondering if you're just gay or even just bi and not comfortable with it yet. Can you at least fuck a chick while being fucked in the ass? You seem to like girls still, so why can't you picture yourself pleasuring one? Do you not think you're worthy enough or something?
Liam Barnes
cut out the porn, hit the gym
Oliver Cooper
user goes to the gym stare at chads/tyrones bulge creams his pants immediately
Robert Lopez
If you fuck a girl do you imagine yourself being the girl as well?
Brody Myers
Im virgin so i dont know
Elijah Anderson
Yes maybe... Also for girls i feel only love. I wanna caress them, laugh with them, kiss them, hug them... But not having sex with them.
Blake Scott
do it at home then, just literally anything normal to replace the dopamine hits from the porn
Carter Martinez
and if you think of it? Like if you think you had to fuck a girl right now, would you love to take her from behind deep in the ass imagining that it's your ass?
Andrew Long
No i dont think so, but im afraid that after all this conditioning i wont be able to get hard and ill have to think of bbc to have a boner.
Zachary Ward
You might really just be a sissy then
Leo Phillips
absolutely not, that's textbook AGP
Jack Davis
Its not the same love that i feel for a male friend. For example, if i see a cute girl on a bus ill think of her for a week. This never happens with a guy.
Nicholas Nelson
But why don't you? Who do you want to have sex with, then? Men? Why not hug, kiss, and caress her while you make love to her, all while you tell each other how much you love them? Then you both can feel really good, user. You can feel yourself sliding into her, and even how it feels to her at the same time if you still want to.
Benjamin White
Maybe i think that only cause im virgin so i dont know really what sex is. Also im porn addicted, so i associate sex with porn sex, so i dont like sex at all.
Nathaniel Miller
n-acetylcysteine. NAC has been known to help reduce if not completely suppress all addictive urges. From nicotine to cocaine.
Caleb Myers
>cumming hands-free to bbc I cant believe all of you faggots got baited this hard.
Michael King
Its true. It you dont believe this you are free to do it, just dont say other bullshits. Ty.
Caleb Jenkins
Can someone explain to me how all these retards fell for this bait?
Blake Wood
Again, its true. Believe me please. I swear to god im totally honest.
Jace Myers
I still have these fucking urges and i dont know what to do...
Levi Nguyen
You can either a] learn to manage your urges or b] accept them and integrate them into your sex life. It sounds like you will need a therapist for a); with time and serious discipline, your fantasies may become more subdued and under control (but the underlying desire to be dominated may always be present).
For b]: fetishes are a normal part of the spectrum of human sexuality. As long as nobody gets hurt and all involved are consenting adults, you have nothing to worry about. There are plenty of IRL communities that you can join to indulge in your submissive fantasies in a healthy and discrete manner. Just embrace it, have fun and be safe. Maybe consider finding an understanding partner.
Brody Cruz
listen OP. you need to detox from online life. I do too. You need to stop being online. No more screens for you. No more screens. Go live irl only, (besides sometimes looking at your phone for calls or txt msg ONLY if you need to) for a month. Seriously. You're caught up in a fake virtual life. go be irl only. You want to be a certain way? Well the wolf you feed is the one that wins.