>tfw no tiny modernized cabin to live in, just outside a small town, bumping thru now and then to buy snacks and soda, beer and toiletries now and again, saying hi and how-do's to pleasant, simple folk who know your face and expect you every so often, but never try to get into a long conversation
>tfw no qt over-30 cashier who's as antisocial as you are and just gives you a smile and a nod, rings you up and sends you on your way as the first tiny raindrop hits your shoulder as you reach your cozy little hut's door, step inside and unbag your week's rain-drizzled groceries just as it starts to fall in earnest
>tfw no gentle beats to put on low volume as you settle in, turn down the lights and turn on the tv and some vidya, laptop at the ready for a cozy night in with your robros on Jow Forums, cracking open the first arizona for the evening and loading up your save, bliss
Robot feels thread
its fine dw bro
feels bad man
thats really hard. big respec if you make it user
FUCK YOU I WANT THIS TOO AWWW DAMN BRO WHY MUST I LIVE LIKE THIS
I hate myself so much. Being around people makes me feel fucking awful. I went to an AA meeting and I couldn't stop thinking about how much of a disgusting piece of shit I am who doesn't belong there. I don't belong anywhere. I'm pretty sure they dislike me too, everyone always ends up disliking me anyway.
I keep thinking about my ex who I wronged badly. I keep having dreams where we speak openly about how I mistreated her, sometimes she is being angry and sometimes she is being forgiving. In other dreams I am around her but I say nothing and only talk to her friends. I had a pretty intense dream last night where she was completely forgiving of me and thanked me for having the balls to apologise and own up. I'm feeling pretty bad today because of that dream. Sometimes I can forget about my guilt and living feels okay, but that dream I had today brought up all of that shit again and I feel like ending my life. I'll probably never commit suicide though.
I just wish things were simple, I hate the way I feel all the time
them dreams sound like oneitis to me bro...oof
I DON'T WANT TO BE CIRCUMCISED
youtube.com
why are you ?
????????????plox explain
Eh not really. She will always be special to me but at the same time I have no desire to get back together with her. I like her but I know we are not compatible. I'm a fucking mess anyway, a relationship is the last thing on my mind.
In my dream, I think she just represents feelings of guilt in general
thats some silent hill shit muh nigga
its just simple dream analysis friend. its hard to do but sometimes you can learn some important things about yourself
>actually ended up lucid once after a really weird and vivid dream
>ended up shooting into the air and having a cringy anime battle with two giants who i vaporized with beams from my hands
>crash landed at this weird carnival and started beginning to fuck this latina qt
>dog woke me up as we were undressing
i really want to achieve this again, i've never been able to actually use sense of touch/feeling in a dream but it was fucking amazing. getting there almost took my life over though, i don't know if i can again.