I tried to kill myself nearly two hours ago

i tried to kill myself nearly two hours ago
the plan was with a one time charcoal grill in the bathroom.
i taped up the door and ventilation, so that no air could come in or escape.
i sat in there with the grill on for over 30 minutes, but i did not pass out, in the end my eyes and throat hurt so badly it was unbearable and i ended up ripping the door open, running out and coughing on the ground for a solid minute
i thought i would pass out within 15-20 minutes, but as mentioned i was in there for over 30 minutes
im mad at myself for not being able to end my miserable life

pic related, picture of the the bathroom at about 12 minutes in, you can make out the floor tiles at the bottom

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Hey but have you played Nuclear Throne? It's pretty fun.

hi user. you dont know me, but im glad youre alive. i dont think you should try killing yourself. theres more opportunities for life to get better. please dont give up. im here if you want to talk. please take care of yourself

You should get your smoke detectors checked along with those dubs

go talk to a therapist instead of making shitty threads like this one

I wont be all pussyfooted w u, but its a stupid decision theres more to life than pussy or probably whatever you're doing this over.

Try partial suspension hanging or w/e it's called. That's what I want to do. Kudos for having the guts to actually attempt.

Are you the same dude who sold his switch? That's gotta suck bro... Hope everything works out

What made you wanna do it?

don't kys. It's not worth it. Once you're dead you can't come back

the smoke detector in the hall went off after i opened the door and all the smoke got out
nothing in my house has enough strength to hold me up, i've had a rope for over 3 years at this point and only this grill for a week, i've never gotten any use ouit of the rope
>Are you the same dude who sold his switch?
no sorry
im sick and tired of life, i've been wanting to die for the last 5 years, the feeling getting stronger and stronger each year.
i suffer from schizophrenia, which makes it nearly impossible for me to go outside in fear of people, i've ruined so many friendships because of it and so much more and i dont want to deal with it anymore
i've been a NEET for 2 years at this point and it isn't getting any better
my teeth are going to need to be replaced within the coming years, they are just terrible and hurt every now and then, i dont have the money to get them replaced and living without proper teeth doesn't seem like a life worth living, life doesn't seem worth living now
>Once you're dead you can't come back
that's what i hope for

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Maybe you shouldve done your research and found that burning coal is one of the most painful and shittiest ways to go you dork

just don't do it. Work on your life instead, things will get better

from what i read, it was supposed to make me pass out once enough carbon monoxide was in the air, hence making me believe it would be like an exit bag, but taking a longer time before you actually pass out

Do you live in michigan?

no, im european user

>he wants to die a peaceful pathetic and painless death
You have one life op make the last bit of it memorable atleast

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nothing about it was peaceful nor painless, even though that was what the internet told me it would be

What kind of European?
And how much?

why dont you brush your teeth wtf

the scandinavian kind
>And how much?
huh?
i do, it's because when i was younger i would eat a lot of sour candy and even sometimes not brush my teeth before i went to bed, as a result my teeth got really bad
and as if that wasnt enough, i have a massive underbite which grinds away at my upper teeth

and the neetbux arent enough for the dentist? cant you get a job

i don't receive NEETbux yet, only will when i start running out of money and even then it would have to be a couple of years before i would have enough money for proper treatment
>cant you get a job
as mentioned before, going outside scares me to death, i can't trust strangers in any way

you're not supposed to trust them you're supposed to work for them, cant you just blow all of your money on the dentist and start getting neetbux that way, you're scandinavian isnt it supposed to be easy comfy neet life there?

im trying to move out atm and i need the money for a deposit and so on, spending it all on a dentist right now isnt ideal
and yes it's supposed to be a easy comfy neet life here

carbon monoxide binds irreversibly to your red blood cells and you obviously hurt ur lungs pretty bad. u still might die in your sleep so there's still hope.

why are you're trying to move out? i would think you'd already gave up on things since you're trying to kys

your bathroom is way too big for it to work. also suicide is gay

i doubt it, but i can hope
i can't trust my parents either, they make me anxious all the time and i hate having them around
if i was able to move out, i'd be able to get the materials for an exit bag or just be in peace for that matter, i don't know if things would change once i moved out
sometimes i do find an apartment that fits my criteria, but i can't be bothered to take any contact
>also suicide is gay
works for me

cant your parents pay the dentist for you? you cant kys before trying to talk to the guy selling the apartment thats just dumb, you dont have to trust people to be around them, its not like you're giving them anything they can fuck you over with

my parents arent rich, in fact my mom got fired from her job 3 years ago and hasn't recovered since, my dad is at retirement age

good thing you live in scandinavia and the goverment can take care of them then, you can worry about yourself and trying to get that apartment set up, cant you get some night time job? you'll have to talk to someone to get it at least but theres no escaping that any way you go

>cant you get some night time job?
it's not just being around people that scares me, it's generally being outside of my house and that of course amplifies at night

do you take meds? how many meds have you tried before? you need to manage to get over and ignore the paranoia and the right meds might help with that, you can live alone as a neet never leaving your home too but the paranoia would still be there

You need airflow over the burning coal retard.

Fuck all the virtue signalling retards giving false hope.

You're the same pieces of shit who then whines about your taxes being spent on him because he's useless, you sick fucks

no one whines about that, i think you got the wrong board

i dont wanna take meds
this wasn't mentioned anywhere

why not? you'd rather die than take meds

>you'd rather die than take meds
yes

but why? it could get better but you dont even want to try

why u run

You shouldnt do it. It's not worth it. Cant say it will get better but suicide is pretty extreme.

Don't kill yourself user, just get off this website and seek help.

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The carbon monoxide is less dense than the rest of the smoke , you were supposed to be already lying down on the floor to breath it in.

Pics please? Itd be neat desu

i'll keep that in mind, thanks
of what, my teeth? im going to bed now, it's too late

K good night mate, also remember to plug up the bottom of door so it doesn't escape.

If you commit suicide they win. It's the dumbest thing you can do. Seek some help and recoup. Have faith and believe in Jesus. Do you want to say a prayer?

Props for actually having the balls to go through with the attempt user, godspeed.

If you really want to do it here's how:
>Go to the kitchen
>Get a Knife
>Hold it point first against your throat
>Force it in

But seriously don't do this unless you are certain you want to die.

If carbon monoxide is less dense than the rest, it would be more buoyant and would float to the top. I am not sure if this is the case, but if you are right about its density, its behaviour will be the opposite of what you stated.