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Hello, me.
It's been a long time since i've been honest with myself.

I'm a lying, manipulating scumbag who's just been an actor all his life. Making up everything as i go along, playing a role and eventually becoming it. I've become so good at making people believe this fake persona i've conjured up that everyone sees me as someone i'm not. I bribe people with friendship and end up using them for my own means, like a total asshat and i have no idea where to start with fixing this issue. I'm afraid of this, afraid that my friends and family are attracted to the mask i put on everyday and don't know what i'm really like.

But should i see this as a bad thing? If i've grown into a role that makes people accept me, like me and love me, is that really such a terrible thing? I can always have my real thoughts right? Won't the thoughts eventually spill out? I don't know. I'll be fine, i think. Life has been very interesting to say the least, but i'm young and have opportunities. I'm lucky to have myself, as the body and mind are the two things we really own in this world, and i will sharpen both as well as i can.

Please, take care, and accept the help of others in life.

-AA

Cait

Let me get this straight, Adrian, he stole an old cellphone of mine and started texting every girl i had on my contacts, he was also running around showing people at school the cringe messages i had sent you and all those other girls, effectively making me a laughing stock. I was completely unaware until he one day showed up at my place with the cellphone asking me if he could have it claiming all the things on it had been erased. Around that time i remember marissa a girl i'm sure you might've spoken to and another girl told me that adrian was going around doing this to me, i ignored them and forgot all about it like a retard. So adrian, you and all the girls i used to talk to back then, your friends, my friends and who knows whom else, all of you were on a groupchat plotting revenge on me for being a "scumbag who cheats on his girlfriend", you all then made my life impossible to bear and now you keep trying to get me to killing myself because you're afraid i'll want to take revenge and do something to you, right? you posted in a thread not to long ago saying you often wonder how much better it would be had i killed myself back then, when the wound was fresh.

It's been almost 8 years and you guys are still exclusively the instigators, i'm just trying to live my autistic miserable life, but you're all aways looking for a new way to make it even worse. I don't blame you exclusively though, you were probably lied to about me by adrian and anthony. Adrian around that time apparently had a bit of money on him, i recall him and anthony texting me and at one point they both were offering me money to tell you to kill yourself, i refused because i thought it would not only hurt your feelings but make me look like a retard since i didn't believe he had the kind of money he was offering.

L.M.

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Hello,me.

It's been a very long while since I've sat alone and thought about my life and how to fix it,I hope you aren't that mad about it,I did so recently and I've started going to the gym,doing cardio everyday and trying to be healthy,now all that's left to beat is my fapping addiction and my sleep deprivation,working out didn't really make me feel better as everyone was saying but I finally feel the blood pumping in me,I feel more alive,it's a very nice feeling,I'm going to try to sleep earlier and stop masturbating,promise :)

Now we're done with my health,let's talk about my mental state

I'm a completely isolated asshole without a tiny bit of social skills,you probably know that,I've been trying to be better to people but I guess I'm too retarded for that,I've lost everyone because of my lack of social skills,I can't talk with anyone even about the most innocent things without going into a full on rage mode for no reason,I don't think I can fix it,it's really affecting my life and I absolutely hate it,I'm depressed as hell and I regret the choices of the last 4 years of my life,I could have been a better person,I'm sorry.

Love,user.

Dear, newfags

Eat shit and die.

Sincerely, user

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Cait

This is a continuation of the previous letter for i hadn't the space.

I remember i went to jakes place and told him about adrian offering me money to tell you to kill yourself, tyler was there and they both laughed. They told me i should have taken the money and kept calling me retarded over it. Apparently adrian payed jake and tyler money to lie to people about me, don't know what he was having them say to people, but they told me no one would believe it anyways. Well people seem to have believed whatever it was that they told them since i'm in the situation i'm in now. That all brings me to a question; How much money did they offer you to lie about me trying to get you to kill yourself? I don't want to believe you did it because i was ugly, i don't want to think you're that cruel.

Also is it true that adrian not only fucked you, but he also fucked all the other qts i used to talk to? You're telling me he destroyed my life and then fucked all of these cute girls i used to sext with, you all rewarded him with sex, is it true those webms that keep getting posted here are of him fucking random girls that i used to talk to, is that what that is? That pornhub video a few days ago, i think it was posted in a letter thread, it was posted randomly, might've just been it's own thread actually, it was some guy fucking a girl that looked like she had creamy caesar dressing oozing out of her cunt, i don't want to believe it was you, your pussy can't be that stretched out, it looked like a veteran pussy, had milage like you wouldn't believe, but the fake acting, i only know one person who acts that badly... You, you're a horrible actor, it sounded just like you "feels so good" said the girl in the video, i haven't heard your voice in quite a while so i don't know if it does sound like you, but the obvious faking, the disgustingly bad acting, i've just seen too many videos of you acting really poorly, you gotta stop, you can't act (no offense).

L.M.

T
I think about you still, religiously. I love you more than you know, & I'd do anything for you. I hope I'll see you again.
V

user idk your situation but i hope you're good :(

Dear (YOU)

NIGGER.

Love
me

i'm never good user, i never will be.

Dear pb or b
Do you still think about me?
-wp or a

If i was you just delete them out your life or just do something that could hurt them or amke them broeke or whatever.Like send 100 pizzas to their door make them pay cause they're the cunts that have ruined you

Dear D
how you doing? i hope you die a slow painful dead. fuck you.

love J

Dear j
You're an amazing freind and I think you're depressed
-a

D.S. -
this is the second poem i will have written to you in one of these threads;

his words
are
so sharp
they cut through
my chest
like
razor blades

- L.N.

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Bumble B

I thank you for helping through rough times. If only I knew some way to pay you back especially when my schizophrenia flares up.

Thank you, Z

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To A
I love you so fucking much but you clearly aren't in the right space to love or find me attractive. You seem so happy and headstrong but when ive talked to you things always seem bad at home and i wish i could help or sort my autism out to talk to you about it in a non condescending way. Today you told me to give you space and said what i norm,ally ask and said i dnont want help i dont want to talk about it. I dont think you understand how beautiful you are to me. How just seeing a message from you makes me scared and so happy at the same time. I wish i could help you but i dont think youll let me in to

The guy is so rich, he'd just throw a party, i'm pretty sure he payed my friends 10000 USD or something like that, that's what he offered me. He wanted my LDR gf to stop having feelings for me so he could fuck her since she was a qt, but she was much too young for me, i was turning 18 soon and she was 14 turning 15 and so i broke up with her. He wanted to date her and i told him to go for it since i figured she'd never date him, she was always going on about her disgust for fat cunts and ugly people, he was fat, but an alright looking lad. So he wanted me to tell her that i wanted her to kill herself so that she would lose interest in me, i couldn't do that to her though, i liked her still, but didn't want to admit it. so the guy ended up ruining my life over that, going around spreading rumors about me, showing people my cringy messages, he even hacked my computer, sees everything i post on here, him and his friends. Every time i make a thread they post in it attempting to demoralize me or make me feel bad. here's an example.
Every thread i post, he will always post something like "what are you gonna do about it"
see?
So sending pizzas wouldn't work that's just silly high school stuff. He's a man now, with more money than i could ever make with my shit job. The guy's got everything and still won't let me be at peace with my shit life, he has to constantly berate me online. Him and his friends.

dear fren,
i'm bad at writing letters sorry
we met on this board in march and i don't know if you still browse, i hope not
if you see this, i hope it doesn't come across as creepy or anything, and please don't mention it, i wouldn't know how to respond to anything you have to say lol
you're the best thing that's happened to me this year
i'm really thankful for your support and companionship, it means a lot to me and i hope we never drift apart
sharing things makes me happy and sometimes i feel like you care about things more than i do lol
i always smile when we talk
thank you for being my fren

-j

if this guy is here why tf do you wan to ruin this guys life for one thing he didnt say even though you got her anyway? tell us why?

i should add
if you see this for some reason
you also know me by v, and you go by s or g

A
I love you and think you're really cool but i cant shake the feeling that im not good enough.
-H

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im sorry that im a disappointment but i am just not a good friend.
truth be told im just a naive hopeless romantic that will always be alone. im boring. you're the only person i talked to or really careed about, and i couldnt help but falling in love, when i related so much.
i think about you every day but i don't want to be a burden to you, to have to deal with how terrible i am at socializing, and I selfishly don't want to feel that anymore, as best as i tried to hide it when you let me know that you didn't want to be with me. im never good enough.
ive just been crying in bed as i type this out, i hope you forgive me.

I want a penpal really bad, but I don't use Jow Forums much anymore. If you want to be my penpal, [email protected]
Somebody talk to me, please.

-W
sorry for disappearing

No takers for this?

What kinds of things do you want to talk about?

I don't know. I haven't a lot of hobbies that other people like (reading, writing, studying, etc), but if you'd want to talk to me and get to know me a bit, I'd be more than happy to talk about anything you'd like!

I always thought my destiny was to be a cold, unfeeling husk, wading through life, scrounging happiness from fleeting victories and short lived, meaningless glories. You came into my life a broken, miserable, suicidal girl who didn't know her place and I fell for you. I may have been stupid and unprepared for a relationship, but I pulled you out of your self inflicted hell world, I made you happy, you called me your true love and your soulmate. That all fell apart though didn't it?

Day by day we fought over pointless shit, a game, a slip of the tongue, every time, I just wanted it to end, I wanted to be happy again. But no, there was something wrong with me for just wanting to be at peace. I can't tell if you amped this up on purpose to get me to leave first, but if not, you left me for a man you swore you'd never see as more than a friend. You betrayed me.

I know now that existence as a bitter, cold, husk is preferable to any time I'd spend with a manipulative, backstabbing liar who preaches honesty and truth. You had me thinking that you weren't the manipulator, you were that damn good. I was somehow the bad guy in every fight as I just confusedly tried to end it, to return to equilibrium, to be happy with you. It was hell to fight, but I never left your side. I stayed with you when you were sick, when you needed me, when you yelled at me over nothing, even when you admitted to flirting with other guys. You stuck with me until I was boring to you, until you siphoned whatever fun you could before moving on to the next one.

I'm not meant to be with someone like you. If I'm not meant to be with anyone, that's fine by me. I'll succeed in life. I'll do better than you ever will, and I'll do it without being a parasite. Even this letter, a half assed scream into an uncaring void is a better manifestation and expulsion of my negative feelings than you could ever have, because at least mine don't leave some poor sap destitute and depressed.

How old are you user? I'd rather not talk to a zoomer, no offense if you are one

I'm no zoomer. I'd rather not give my exact age here, but I can say that I am studying at the university level currently.

I hope that retard that got bitten by the dog or whatever dies. I hate those faggots so much. They are always outside and blasting their music. I want to look on their dead bodies and spit.

Have you considered the possibility that it's just the autism, again?

You're supposed to put a space after every comma. This was awful to read

Dear Piggy,

I thought about eating many butts today. Older female butts. Transsexual butts. There were butts at my gym and you better believe I was eating their butts. Also, I had an interview and I ate the interviewer's butt in my head while I answered a question. I messed up the question, but I enjoyed imagining eating the butt. When I came home I had a poop and it smelled bad and I felt gross for wanting to eat so many butts.

Grrrr

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I

I've learned not to guilt myself over your death. We tried to help you over the years with your addiction but it's true what people say, you can't help someone who doesn't want it. Just thought I'd be able to see that part of you that really did care for us under all that medication. It's not my fault, and I never hated you and never will. I know it was just the situation you were in that made you the way you are. Thanks for the few times the mother inside you showed up to help take care of us. We're doing well.

C

Hello Hallie,
It has been 4 years. I don't know why I ever loved you. You weren't worth it, but I loved you anyways. I wanted to believe in something better, something bigger than just us, and you gave my that hope for a while. It was just you and me alone in this awful world, but now it's just me. I became an alcoholic, and am likely not going to make it to my next birthday. I have never hated you, and meant it when I said I wanted you to be happy. I hope you found what you were looking for.
-Tyler

Hunter, we knew each other briefly a few years ago. We talked when I was in a rough spot, both of us were at the time. I think you had the name Mad on OSRS. Anyways man, I've overcome that shit and become a full fledge fucking "Brad" as some in r9k would say it. Even married at this point. I hope you're doing well, and your brother too.

Sincerely, user.

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I didn't presume this would happen now, but I think I've reached the point at which my emotions are dulled, so much so that I don't feel acute pain or happiness anymore. There have been few reasons to feel overwhelming happiness in the last few years, so mostly this has been to my benefit, in that things which should make me feel really upset or depressed aren't anymore. As has been happening for years, I found out that my major romantic interest will inexplicably not be in my life for the foreseeable future, and I feel less pain in response than ever. I find myself vaguely frustrated, vaguely bemused and sad, but mostly I just instinctively and immediately tell myself to move on - just forget about it and move on again. It's like I've become efficient at dealing with emotional pain. This whole paragraph reads like woe-is-me garbage and I really didn't mean it to.

Is this a letter to anyone in particular?

No, just to myself. I considered replying to it to clarify that, but then figured it didn't matter. But now I essentially have.

Why won't your romantic interest be in your life?

I'm in my last year of college, and she isn't going to be here this year. I didn't realize it, she must have decided to take a year off. This has happened to me three times now - on another occasion, another girl I liked transferred to a different school over the summer, and on the most recent occasion before now, a girl I was talking to and interested in graduated a year early. Seems like this sort of thing is happening to me an inordinate number of times. But again, the emotional pain this time isn't as bad.

God, I think youre someone but yeah you aren't.

Dear Violet
Man why was I so ignorant and naive. Why was I so stupid? Now I realize that you've lied about almost everything. I can't tell if the memory of you was just a facade. But thanks for teaching me what it means to be hurt. I now know I just want to meet someone that can make me feel wholesome. Sometimes there's a feeling in my heart where it just feels like it's sinking.

VT

Fuck white people

dear S.C.
i really believed in us for a while
F.P.

I thought I forgot you, I went on, but you were the love of my life, I let you go and now it's too late

>"Communication is important", as long as I walk on eggshells and put myself aside for everything.
did you really try to communicate to this person??
You jest seem a stupid bitch that has fear of judgement or anything that seems judgy towards you.
.
Breath in, breath out and stop thinking of knowing what other people would do or would be capable of, this is so arrogant...

Have you ever heard him saying he is sorry or that he made mistakes? Is a person that admit his mistakes? If yes i think you can make another try, in the communication you can misunderstand very easily but if this person is reasonable you can try again, it wont be a waste of time or energy.
(Perhaps you could ve Made mistakes too..)

Seriously asking, what can I do to make it up to you? Do I deserve to be broke and penniless for the crime of loving someone else? Should I be homeless one day because of that? I have been angry and said mean things to you but you have done the same. Can we just put it all behind us and make up?

I have the guts to admit when I'm wrong but do you?

I've connected with you more than I've ever connected with anyone in my life. Wish you felt the same way.

Can we atleast discuss this face to face like adults? I've said it before that it does not have to be alone if you don't trust me.

A,

Sunday really hurt. I've never felt so shitty about breaking up with someone who so obviously didn't care about me. I think it's because I was expecting our relationship to last longer, and to some extent some part of me feels like you quit before we got to the best part of it. I've been looking at things very objectively over the past few days and I can say with confidence that I was a solid boyfriend, but you dropped the ball so ridiculously hard on your end and the only reason we lasted this long was because I was able to ignore red flags until you fucking hit me over the head with them on Sunday. The way you currently are mentally you haven't done anything to earn someone like me, and I don't feel nearly as insecure about finding someone better as I did during my previous breakup.

This sucks, I feel shitty and my head's not all there. But I will get over it, and within a year or two I'll find someone who isn't a complete autist about communicating and expressing affection. My day to day life will be back to normal much sooner than that, hopefully. I will say this much, I think I did get some positive experiences out of this, and I've definitely learned volumes about the kind of shit I won't accept next time around. Thank you/fuck you, and hopefully I don't see you anytime within the next two months.

-C

why can't u all just resolve your drama face to face?

Dear nature

I know your tricks. You try to hide yourself in our deep minds. I dont understand why do you harm others like bully bullying some kid or one that dont respect someone due to his looks. Why is eveything so superficially reflected. We try best to beat that. We try to help depresed people. Somethimes we give money to charity. But we always to fail in true good. You subconcious tool always succed to turn us in this evolution machine to be geneticly superior.
Please nature you are hurting so many of us. Dont we deserve after so many suffering to finnaly be something better.

Vule

Dear B
Everyday I regret hurting you I wish I could take back what I said and what I did. I hurt you a lot because I loved you but that's the most disgusting excuse I've ever made
I'll always try to remember those nice moments we had it felt like we were meant for each other and something clicked when we met but before I knew it I destroyed our relationship all because I didnt realise what I was doing and decided to completely obliterate anything else standing after we broke up I want to go back to when we met those few months were the happiest I felt and even though I'm not happy now I want to at least thank you for those parts.
Im sorry for everything
From N

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never 4 forget.

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More poems pls user. I'll share my poetry. It's all bitter and specific.

I don't know where the guy lives otherwise that would be the best course of action.

Get a new computer and router? Move somewhere else and start over.

I told you not to hang out with your "friends" and do meth. Now look what happened. You hurt not only me, but your entire family and friends. I pray no one recorded you running down the street naked shouting that the Chinese bombed us. Even though you fucked my best friend while high I hope you get the help you desperately need while in jail/pych ward.

To all the people I have ever met online,
I may never get another chance to talk to any of you now that the HK government is going full retard. I will admit this may be my last post from this shit-fucked cesspool I live in, so I will make this short: I miss all the times we shared, no matter how boring or bittersweet they may be. All those times we connected and all those times we fought. They remind me of what being in a society felt like. Thank you all.
That being said.
The CCP is the worst joke ever told in the history of the known universe.

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R u ok

Original

a letter

initials

Who is this addressed to? Give specifics.

Please, send me money and get me a good well paying job. WELL PAYING so none of your smart ass jabs about working with that fat lardass rose again. I want an ACTUAL job.

They'll post all my embarrassing text messages and pictures that I used to send as well as Jow Forums posts displaying contradictions and inconsistency as my opinions on particular subject change over time, but they'd make it out to seem like I'm a loon or something. They'll post screen shot of me trying to piece together all the things they did to me and they'll pretend like I'm a liar because "the story keeps changing". And I'll be too far away to at least kill one of them over it. That's at least what they told me, two guys showed up to a class I was taking and claimed If I'd up and dissappeared they'd do that, subjecting my family to harassment from strangers on the internet to get info on where I'm at.

huh dude I never fucked anyone

just empty words from a stranger, but i hope things get better for you, user.

that shit is really fucked, user. hope things get better for you.

Dear S,
You're a piece of shit and you ruined my self esteem. You only used me just for sexual stuff you absolute creep, two years wasted with you. At least I'm in a relationship with someone who cares about me and actually loves me. Hope you're life gets bad, I will never forgive you for what you did.

-M

oops made some mistakes sorry y'all

How can you spend this much time reading the posts I just shit out completely free of charge and with no benefit besides learning about ME and feel like you're less of a loser than I am.

What do you mean user? I'm the biggest failure on Jow Forums I can assure you, perhaps worse than diaperchu, not kidding.

I assure you it's not related to you, but if you're anything like A get your shit sorted out

I can't speak for the rest but I did resolve my drama face to face. Writing anonymous letters is a form of venting, it's extra therapy

L.P.

You will be mine. There is no questioning it, I will find a way to make it true or die trying.

There are a lot of technical difficulties right now, though. I have a lot of shit I need to fix in my fucking mind, and your presence makes it harder because it hurts when I think about you, it hurts that you don't see me as a man enough for you, it makes me wanna die. Every thing I do or not do, every word I say or not say, every fuck I give or not give, it all somehow turns out to be wrong. Nothing I am is good. I can't deal with that while you're around reminding me of it.

I will be back when I'm strong enough for both of us. Until then, don't miss me. Don't show me pity. Don't be angry at me. Forget I exist, so I can fill that void when the time comes.

P.Z.

>i hope we never drift apart
after writing this and thinking about it, maybe we already are a little bit
i understand you're busy with work and things but i hope you don't forget me
you asked me to play guitar for you today but never called
i hope you're doing okay fren