No hope general

This is a thread for people with no hope for recovery after certain events, no hope to become functional parts of society

Tell your stories, help others

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>have once chance at life
>be born in Russia
>have schizophrenia and autism
>get raped and kept as a pet by a pedo for 4 years
>now also PTSD. major depressive and gender dysphoria

When I dont feel like shit people tell me to stop acting creepy

Being Russian frees you to do completely bizarre and violent shit that is inexplicable to the Western mind, though. There is a lot of space to transform your identity. Just be as Russian as you can be.

Im a trans woman with schiz in Russia, one of the most socially conservative countries with one of the worst mental healthcares
your opinion of life in Russia too good

>drink to cope with anxiety
>withdrawals become too much
>quit drinking
>no longer have a crutch to get over my anxiety
>any social interactions beyond going to the store drive me crazy
>family is oblivious to my mental state if they're not egging me on
I've been living as a hermit for the past year, don't know where to go from here

haha !

try Gabapentin !
it has worked WONDERS for miii
.

dosent it cause mdma like effects in high dosage?

ummm i realli don't kno
:\ /:

>but it's safe to take 3 times a day with medium/sizable doses soo ..

op, please do not listen to that other user and take an addictive substance to cope with your anxiety that, in itself, is exacerbated by the withdrawals from an addictive substance. Herbal supplements are much safer of an option. Personally, my favorite herb that helps anxiety is ashwaghanda. Cahmomile is good too, but more mild in its effect. Kava is excellent, but shouldn't be taken very regularly, especially by a recovering alcoholic. Nature's Bounty makes an ashwaghanda supplement with l-theanine, which also helps with anxiety. It's sold at CVS (if you're an american). I urge you to look into herbal remedies for anxiety. Take multiple of them to help take off the edge while you recover. I've found great success in doing so.

I'll share

>be young and stupid
>put hands on girl i know while drunk and zoinked
>get called rapist
>lose all friends, respect, and gain fear of going outside and being seen
>first day of college out of town hoping to get away from it all
>shes in the same program

i dont really want to even try at this point

Thanks, I'll look into ashwaghanda. I've been drinking chamomile tea for a few months now but it only has a very brief effect.

>addictive
it's not ...

it can be taken as needed, and helps fairly quickly. it has also helped when a lack of sleep, headaches, and potentially stress.

your options are good too .

should gave gone farther . . . . . .

(for school , or what have yuu)

I moved 8 hours away, and yet madame roastie is still hot on my tail. it scares me to my core. she has so much power over me because of how much false guilt i have

>be normal girl for 11 years
>parents divorce and they each get joint custody (I switch every week)
>normal at first, but my father eventually gets more unstable
>sometimes beats me but usually apologizes and takes me out for ice cream and says that he's just angry at my mother for what she did to him
>father eventually becomes an alcoholic
>at 13 he raped me
>blamed it on the alcohol and promised it would never happen again and that he changed. He even made me take some "medicine" that I now know was birth control
>he continues raping me every few months
>one time he was so rough that he punched me in the jaw while doing it. He immediately regret it and took me into the hospital for a broken jaw
>doctors knew I was raped and I never saw my father again
>from the 2 years of getting raped, I grew very depressed and had bad gender dysphoria
>at 18, I changed my name
>at 19, I was raped again by someone in college and I immediately dropped out
>after that I decided to become a full trans

Throughout my life, I have tally marks I carved on my thighs for all my attempted suicides as well as every time I was raped. From 13 to 25, I've attempted 6 times and I was raped 5 times.

>college xj9
Didnt know what I was missing until I saw this

8 hours & not 800 or 8000 miles

G R O W
>go

31 year old khv college graduate NEET with < 3 years of work experience.

Haven't had a friend in more than 10 years.

I've also become addicted to my deceased moms left over opiates.

i'm sorri user
i lovv yuu

>:............((((((

honestly might just go hiking far up north and never come back at this point

i'll be your friend, user
do yuu have social media connects ??
or even email .

It happens. Probably through all of this, I fucked myself over the most. I still don't know why I didn't tell anyone about my father and I still didn't tell anyone about the other guy. It's too late to report him I guess. He probably already graduated and I only knew his first name.

go far far far
in the world
away
unexpected

&heal

I was molested a bunch as a kid and have schizophernia and autism.

Damn... I'm sorry
Also, not to sound insensitive, but how did the college incident happen? Was it violent?

Shit, neuropathic pain is what I've got. That's what has been ruining my life this whole time.

Well, that and the dissociations and brain fog and etc....

A lot of people who abuse substances might be experiencing neuropathic pain of some kind and not even realixe it.

My western mind cannot even conceive of all the possibilities that must come naturally to you. Just do something Russian and it will work out in some odd, barbaric way.

Im sorry those things happened to you user.

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thank golly i was born in Kansas City

It's okay. I disassociated myself with all of that.
In college I kinda got really bad with drinking and at the start of my second year, I went to a party and got way too drunk. I woke up with my shirt and binder up to my armpits and my pants and underwear off. I also had what I assume was dried cum on my stomach. When I got back to my room, someone put a note under my door saying they took advantage of me and that they were really sorry and signed it with only their first name. I didn't even know anyone with that first name so I knew I just had to leave.

It was that simple the whole time. I don't really have any issues otherwise.
NOBODY was any help whatsoever in helping me figure this out.

Please don't give up hope anons, it's not over until it's over.

give me a single reason as to why i shouldn't give up

Balance nigger equal parts despair equal parts hope

>Almost 40
>No friends
>No girlfriend
>No good job
All hope is lost

user, how did you get like this?
i'm in my early 20s, and i don't want to be like you.

>no friends
>no family
>no love
>ugly manlet
>socially retarded
>blew all my money and credit gambling on stock options
I got maybe 2 weeks left before it's finally over for me

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Can I request that screen cap about having no friends it was pretty dark and it actually came from tumblr of all places?
Her name was Athenaapothesis or something like that. Or was it paradoxicalapothesis?

I miss that image so much.

I have a fucking ugly face and I work 2 shit jobs and my felon brother makes more money then me. I have been at a loss for quite some time.

I'm relatively young 23 and going to be making a lot of money but the beautiful girl i met off here decided to cut contact with me

Feels so bad knowing everything she said was a lie and she doesn't care if i live or die

thinking of ending it I'll never meet a girl as beautiful as her and if i did they would never feel romantic attraction towards me

don't be a faggette , dear
yuu canNOT get so attached to people
the world, existence, possibility , is so much larger
.

*faguette , that is

>^_^

>3 of my closest friends killed themselves all within the span of the last 2 years

You sound a bit shallow, user. Kind of like those indians who post weird comments on porn videos.