>Be Me >High School gf cheats on me within 1st month of our college LDR >Try to be normal in college >Fail >Make one good friend >We often skip class >We often go for /nightwalks/ >Goodtimes.jpg >Besides that I do nothing >Basically invisible to everybody else >When people make an effort to talk to me I often don't listen >Start to read a lot in my dorm >Used to read a lot but this is crazy >Become a well read doomer >Start to write a lot >Majoring in comp sci. >Friend majoring in comp sci. too >Both of us are humanities students at heart >Enter my writing into some competitions >Win >Get enrolled into Journalism program via my college >Paid Internships follow >Hate it but do it because I have no idea what I am doing with my life >Start to make money by writing articles >Don't enjoy journalism but do it for money >Write books in my free time >Some fiction, some non-fiction >Try to publish my first book (non-fiction) >Multiple publishers deny it for being too niche >Depressed >Sell it to a niche philosophy publisher >Quit college halfway through third year >Friend angry >Move to Queens and work as a journo >Hate myself >Just bidding my time to get my real works published >Two years later finish my first novel I'm proud of >Fail again >Depressed
>Nobody wants to take good work because it won't sell in the clown world >Start churning out "candy" novels, the type of books you see at walmart or the airport book store >Get three published >Make moderate bank >Have made "friends" in Queens but hate most of them >College friend lives in Menlo Park now and hates it there >I'm angry that my good works aren't being published but my shit works aren't >We plan to move out of our cities away from the terribleness of the modern world >Write two more shit novels over the next two years plus tons of articles >Work on my real work on my own time >Bidding my time to publish it >Start talking to parents about my plan >They are apprehensive but they say I should take a break if I am suicidal >Tell them I'm a failure who can't do anything that is useful >They recommend I go stay with my uncle who lives in a backwater town in Idaho to become more handy [my father grew up in Cheyenne in Wyoming so I have lots of family who live in places like that] >Stay with him >Tell me friend he should come as well >We would learn skills we always said we should have >Friend says he wishes to but he's making such good pay > also he has a new gf >Some Chinese/Korean mix girl who's a lefty >He obviously hates her but stays with her anyway
>I Feel betrayed >He admits he does not like her >He's too afraid to leave since women suck these days and he may not find a better one >Meanwhile I start to learn a lot about construction and farming >Build a cordwood shed for power tools >Feel super proud >Start to write more >Decide if I never get published I will pass all my works down to my future children >Writing "Candy" articles about "living off grid" and "living in rural America" for money >A year goes by >Learned a ton from uncle >Had made acquaintance with a farmer from a "town" over through my uncle >Pretty old guy named Silas >Silas is doing maintenance on his house which is on his little farm >I offer to help him out >I start going there almost everyday >Silas' grandfather built his home (with help from his brother) >His father renovated it with him >Fallen into disrepair so we go about fixing it
>Silas has 2 sons and 1 daughter >Hasn't seen most of them in years >He was divorced and the wife took the kids >He's been alone for the past 25 or so years >Has kept in contact with the eldest son but has not seen him in years >Ex-wife a total bitch who tells lies about him >Says he cheated on her etc. >He's bitter about life >We bond over bitterness >I show him some of my serious work >He compares me to Hamsun >I now stay over after to talk about literature >I'm pretty socially starved so this is big for me >He's even more socially starved >We go on for hours every night >We move beyond literature and talk about politics, philosophy, religion, art, etc. >He shows me photos of his father and him working on the house >Shows me one of his grandfather standing next to the house holding his father (then a baby) >Says most of his family and friends have left for bigger towns or cities >The house let him know where he belongs >By the time the house is in good enough shape I feel I have learned a ton >Want to buy my own land and settle in with my family >One problem >Haven't had a gf since high school almost 9 years ago
>Move to Provo Utah to try and find a gf >In the meantime actually get a serious work published >Proud.jpg >Live in Provo for a year >Find a gf who goes to college in Salt Lake City >We decide we will move when she's done college >Get a call from my uncle that Silas is in critical condition after a car crash >Tell my GF I will be gone for a while and explain why >Go back to Idaho >Silias is dead by the time I get there >Hearbroken >Go to funeral >Oldest son and the daughter are there >Explain to the eldest son that Silias told me he wished the property would stay in the family >Silias gave it to the eldest son in his inheritance with the hope that any sibling could build a house on the extra land if they wanted >I make it totally clear his deepest wish was that the house would stay in the family.
>He says he understands >1 week later the ex-wife and daughter come out >Eldest son invites me to meet with family >Ex-wife basically scoffing when I tell the family about my friendship with him >Ex-wife clearly wants to sell the house but she doesn't own it >Son feels no real connection to it and doesn't want to displease his mom >Feels bad though >Ex-wife wants him to at least rent it out >I get angry and say Silias did not want that >She says the family's financial situation is more important >I tell her she's lucky he held onto something so priceless for his descendents >She flips the fuck out and forces me to leave >I go back to Utah after another week or so >Get text from eldest son (after tons of talking between us) saying he sold the house >I'm furious >He threw away his birthright >I'm going to write a book about it once I get stop shaking >GF doesn't fully get why I've been so angry these past few days
My work I'm proud of (and that's all I mean by "good") doesn't
Daniel Martinez
That's fair enough. Silas sounds like a cool guy, everyone with land where I live is a snobbish farmer.
Nicholas Williams
What region are you? And yes he was the last of a dying breed - everybody is moving to the cities now and culture is so homogenized thinks to the internet. I'm glad I got to know him even if only for a few years
Easton Rivera
Wales, actually. I feel that though, a lot of the life you see in old countryside photos and stories doesn't exist anymore.
Kayden Foster
You're...not a very good story teller OP. If you're working on fiction I understand why you're having so much trouble getting published. SO many details were not important to the story.
Carson Rivera
This wasn't to tell stories this was just to vent
I realize I didn't talk more about my friend after his gf part when I should have I just forgot. There was one year he visited and he came to Silias' funeral too
Grayson Ortiz
hah, alright fair enough. Didn't mean to be a jerk when you were venting. Sorry that his family is a bunch of idiots. Good luck on your next book!
Xavier Kelly
Aw man that sucks, but from what i understand from the story you shouldn't be this angry over his son selling the house, i know relationships are complex and i might not get every detail you provided but i think you should calm down. It was in his sons name after all idk.
Benjamin Cruz
Thanks user! And yes they're exactly the type you'd expect
Gavin Hall
man this sucks. I wish I'll find a friend like you in my life, stay strong you did what you could
Alexander Lee
>just bidding my time
Yup, you sure do sound like a professional writer. Nice fantasy
Nathan White
>my good works arent being published but my shit works arent
More beautifully crafted prose from our lmao
Samuel Wood
>tell me friend he should come
Lmao, so mister totally real big city , are you working on a pirate novel right now?? ARRR ME BEST FRIEND! COME ALONG!
Gabriel Gray
>Write a book about it once I get stop shaking
Lmfao Im starting to understand why you cant get published
Matthew Smith
His writings sucks dick lmao this faggot doesnt have novels published idk who the fuck he thinks he is fooling with this innawoods and evil roastie with beta husband story. Why would a son feel any need to run his decisions for his inheritance by some faggot who served as his estranged dads buttslave and field hand for a few weeks? Lmao
Oliver Flores
He is le misunderstood genius who was born in le wrong generation!
Lucas Jones
>le Trash like you should be shoved against a concrete wall and shot.
Nicholas Nelson
If you cant understand mockery you should get off this board and off this planet
Colton Watson
What can you expect, user? The world is shit, and so are the people in it. No one truly owns anything anymore due to property tax, and there's less and less wealth that's being retained between generations due to the selfishness of both male and female alike. The only thing I can reccomend is to keep this hate in your heart and to use it enforce your decisionmaking to not be like that useless woman or his children.
If you have kids, teach them to think beyond the easy returns of immediate gratification, and to learn to be able to invest in things so as to reap a greater reward.
Gavin Smith
I don't give a singular fuck what your intent was. Keep reddit-retardation where it belongs, shithead.
Gabriel Young
>WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH COME LOOK AT ME COMPLAIN ABOUT HOW MY HIGHSCHOOL GIRLFRIEND CHEATED ON ME AND HOW MUCH I DISLIKE MY WELL PAYING JOB WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH IM TOTALLY A DEPRESSED DOOMER AND NOT SOME FAILED NORMIE WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH Didnt read beyond the first half of your first post. Get the fuck out of here normalfag
That's a life well lived friend, don't be so bitter. Just think of all you've done, all you've seen. Imagine all the people who've read your "candy" works and probably really enjoyed them. You gave an old man someone to confide in and spend his last days. Don't be so bitter, though I understand it's hard. The life you've lived and the works you've created are worth appreciating.
Leo Myers
Based and rapepilled
Tryhard faggot
Lucas Phillips
if you had enough understanding that your book wouldn't sell in clown world, what makes you think this would be any different? we're in a clown world son.
Jace Murphy
Finish your comp science major and do books on the side to support yourself until your literary career can sustain you
