I am a 23 year old guy who will kill himself within a few months because of antidepressants. I was a goodlooking student, very social, but had OCD. Took those stupid jew pills for it, became suicidal and empty within 2 weeks of using them. Doc told me to keep taking them since it was normal and u would see the real effects after 4 months. I became more and more empty and fucked. When i eventually quit, this never went away. I now have full blown PSSD, post SSRI sexual dysfunction, and zero pleasure response. Pleasure response got totally fucked. I cant even watch youtube anymore. Its known to be chronic, there is even price money of 61000 euros for the cure. Fuck modern psychiatry with their fucking pills. Those pills take away ur personality, humour, pleasure, fucking everything. I am now a living zombie and feel fucking autistic, dont understad human interaction anymore, and I used to be a pro. Never take these shit pills. I have decided to kill myself with fentanyl, I live in Holland. If anyone knows how to get fentanyl plasters, that would be great.
I am a 23 year old guy who will kill himself within a few months because of antidepressants...
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Admit yourself to a psych ward and youll be monitored and helped getting that garbage out of your system. I've been through shit like this. I wanted to die on some bad anti depressants years ago. It was so bad all I could do is cry hysterically and sob as soon as I woke up until I went to bed. It was hell. Luckily I was in as pyschward when it happened
I have been off of them for 2 years. I have already tried everything on earth. Its a fucking chronic condition. I will also never again admit myself to a psychward. For normal people when they stop the antidepressant, they become normal again. But for genetically predisposed unlucky fucks they get persistent shit like this, untreatable also.
but before you kill yourself take some drugs or cannabis and see if that helps. Get shitfaced drunk or something. Maybe it scrambles everything and causes you to go back to how it was. I'm almost certain you won't be able to get fentanyl legally in Holland. The farmacies know people will use them to commit suicide.
Did all that man. Really. I have spend 2 years daily on figuring this shit out. I btw dont react to drugs anymore due to this condition, pleasure response is totally shot
At least do something cool before you kill yourself OP. Show the world what these pills can do to someone.
Ok user, the classic don't kys.
I have been taking meds for depression for about 3 years now, i have felt the same as you, it's hard to find a med that works with you, i tried like three or four, but i found one and it helps me a lot, i'm actually taking the max dosis available.
Im glad i didn't killed myself, it's fucked up but the suffering becomes feasible sometime. Weed and other drugs don't work, i saw you saying that already tried, quit that shit it only makes thing worse and prejudice the function of the real med.
If you go to psychiatric be honest with him and tell that you ain't getting better, he will probaly says to stay at the least 1-3 months with the medications to see if it actually doesn't work. If you really don't feel like you can work with him you can say that, you can search another, ask for indications, just don't quit and stay without searching for another.
Doing any sport will make you feel a hole better.
Endure with this phase.
all my pills do is fuck with my appetite
Bro read my story. This isnt depression. This is chronic damage made by SSRI. It isnt treatable by SSRI, it often worsens the condition. I am not here for help on my condition, this chapter has been closed. Also i cant excersise anymore, my body has totally gone to shits due to these pills also hormonally, I get ill from excersise now.
I was thinking about this. But i am so without energy it's hard for me to bother. I am in groupschats full of people like me btw. Took these pills for a few months, got totally ruined. Pharma tries to sweep it under the rug, for obvious reasons
Are you still taking the pills? My dad got meme'd by the psych jew and went through a lot of the same stuff you're describing. After he got off the meds (which took more than a year) he recovered after about a year and he's mostly back to his normal self. There could still be hope for you, don't give up just yet. What solutions have you tried so far?
No bro. I have been off already for 2 years, only worsened really. I have become bedbound, insomniac too. They really destroyed my health, body is totally out of whack. I cold turkeyed the medication and i think that made contributed to making it permanent. Body couldnt handle the shock at all.
>living in a country in the top 10 world hdi
>whining about anything at all
Seriously fuck you OP
tl;dr
Kill yourself already.
Just kidding. Take other drugs and fix yourself you dumb fucking nignog.
Jewpills are everywhere
Drugs don't work for this. And yes i will kill myself. I just wanna go out easy and painless. Its just hard to find something like that.
Imagine needing pills to want to kill yourself
I'm killing myself next year. Might stab myself and bleed out through the night, hang myself, drink too much, whatever. But what's this fentanyl I keep hearing about?
I never understood people who killed themselves. I had these fucking normie thoughts: ''Why don't you just go travel or do other things with ur life????'' I now know how life can be totally intolerable without hope in sight. Incels must feel the same in a way. Torture life with no hope in sight.
It's some morphine drug 50 times stronger then heroin. very easy to overdose. U can get plasters from hospitals. Stick like 20 on, and pass the fuck out and die.
>plasters
Like a band-aid? How do you get these?
Yeah like a band aid. I dont know i am trying to get them too. Even on deepweb couldnt find, but havent looked thoroughly. Stabbing urself will end up in u going to a mental ward and getting forced jew pills btw.
Im thinking about killing myself too, got HIV from a dumb drug addicted whore. Thankfully the new drug they just came out with has almost no side effects and I get it for free, and we are closer than ever before to a cure, but Im just not sure I want to live with the stigma that this fag disease brings. Plus I was already all fucked up and in a out of depression, which was pretty much why I was self destructive enough to have unprotected sex with a heroin addict, fine as she is, and my ambition of joining the army is pretty much shot now. Not sure what Im going to do next honestly.
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U can become part of the HIV spreading fetish thing
Try and find an answer. I have to sleep so I'll come back in 6 hours or something after the thread is archived, unfortunately.
Too motivationless to search it, will probably do it in the upcoming days though. It seems the best way to end ur life. Ending it with the biggest morphine high ever
Sounds amazing, but I seriously doubt I have the resources to get it. I don't live on my own, no car, and no money. Guess I'll go back to stabbing or hanging.
Only faggots are into that. I can have unprotected sex and not even have to tell the tinder whores I breed legally, Im undetectable which means I cant transmit the virus, for all intents and purposes Im almost pretty much cured unless I get off the meds.
Thats how u get failed suicide attempts. Stabbing urself is just not going to work. Also its fucking hard to stab urself, I could never do it I think. And u will probably stab urself, extreme pain, call ambulance because of survival instinct,
I might use a ice pack to numb the area, and wait until I go unconscious during the night while browsing the computer. It might not work though, it's just a possibility.
Dont do it bro. Really fucking painfulll and isnt going to work probably. And if it works ur laying there bleeding for hours
>And if it works ur laying there bleeding for hours
That's fine though. It's the last thing I do so I don't care about the pain.
I would hate to spend my last hours in misery and pain.
I've been living in misery and pain for the last two years.
Same for me. 2 years exactly too. Thats why i dont want to spend my last hours like this. I would do heaps of cocaine to at least feel a bit like myself before dieing. What is ur misery about?
I couldn't give a cunt about my last moments, I'll enjoy anything if it's the last. Long story short, I some gay shit happened when I was a young kid (didn't know at the time and the realisation only happened to me two years ago), as well as the circumcision (wasn't botched, just hate being cut), and I dropped out of high school too. And to top it all off, many social illnesses too.
You can see why I want to end it. I don't even care too much about my life being destroyed before I even knew how to count to ten (I do care but I can't change that now), I just want it to be over.
niet doen maat gewoon van de pillen af
na een jaar van niet doen zul je je weer prima voelen
of tenminste als je het wel doet neem wat morrokanen mee
Ben dr al 2 jaar vanaf, geen kanker veranderd.
I took tons of Jew pills from 21 to 33yo, sometimes in larger than the max recommended dose...it was like eating candy: they did nothing for me except give me constipation. I quit them cold turkey every time and felt nothing too.
I thought they were completely harmless. Are you sure it's not depression + anxiety = anhedonia?
Gay shit happened to me too when I was a kid, i dont give a fuck, kids do gay shit. I am also circumcised, also dont care though. What kind of social illnesses u have?
Your spiritual and inner strength is not your mind which right now on those pills, its not your addiction. YOU are YOU, find the strength to ask for help immediately, and realize there is absolutely no shame in that, since almost everyone struggles the same as you with daily addictions .You will be killing yourself over the stupidest reason, you are so young and have the whole of your life ahead of you.
No bro. some people can handle them like sugar pills, where others get severly fucked. its genetics. And yes, 100 percent sure. No doubt.
Please get this gay shit out of here. I am not here for hope nor these generated reddit messages.
One is that my nerves get too 'inflamed', I guess, after social encounters even after ones I do well in. I get very anxious and it takes about 10 minutes to cool. There are a few more that are worse.
Its not reddit generated I wrote it in the hopes to prevent you from taking a completely stupid decision. Do you really think SSRI can't be cured if you stopped taking those fucking pills for one month? Why don't you admit you need help? I am not here to give you hope, but to tell you that you are making as stupid decision and ending this beautiful journey we call life over some substances that fucked up your body for some time. Its never over for anyone, you feel down and think its over but if you had the strength to just admit its not your fault you got trapped by this addiction and to ask help, you would get out of this destructive loop in one go.
Do you get erections but can't feel any pleasure? Like at all? What about hearing music ?
Idiot read. I stopped taking them 2 years ago. Its a known condition that is chronic. Dont shout hope when u have no idea what u are talking about.
Very weak erections. And no pleasure. total anorgasmia also, dont feel anything when i come. Music is now just noice to me, and I used to dj before SSRI. There is no point in living with this.
I know it doesn't compare but maybe you can try a different pleasure path? Go do some charity work in an African village or visit lonely elderly people.
I tried volunteery work. No use. U need to get pleasure out of doing it, to do it. When all pleasure is taken from life u realise how everything people do in life is related to pleasure. If u get ZERO pleasure out of anything, u don't do anything anymore. I dont care about girls anymore, money, sex, nothing
Vergeet niet om als je je zo klote voelt te bellen of chatten met 113 Zelfmoordpreventie. Praten helpt user
How do you know what you have is permanent?, I don't know you condition since I never was on anti-depressants. But don't you think if you did some therapy or took some supplements, or aphrodisiacs it would improve?
Ik ben al ver voorbij dat punt gap
No i tried both. It is known to be permanent and incureable, there is 61000 price money for the cure. Also check this out, written by a doctor: ''When first approached by people with PSSD over fifteen years ago, I assumed that this was going to be the reverse of the soldiers whose lives were saved when religious medals deflected a bullet that would have killed them - we don't get to hear from the soldiers who die when the bullet that wouldn't have killed them does because its deflected by the medal. In the same way we hear from the PSSD cases that don't recover and not from the ones who do.
Over the years however as none of those I've had contact with have recovered, I have personally changed my mind and come to the view that PSSD is more like tardive dyskinesia - a Tardive DysErotica - does anyone have a better word? Just as with TD, the norm is that people do not shake off the problem. But as with TD in a number of cases there can be improvement. In some cases when I ask those with PSSD who say they've improved where they would score themselves on a scale from 0 being as bad as it gets to 10 being normal, they have offered figures like 2 or 3.''
I did some googling and some drugs can have permanent effects. I must have swallowed 10x times more pills than OP...I'm glad I have a working dick. Not that I use it for anything
''This points to something else. Some people do recover in the sense of being able to rise above the problem and not be defined by it. In the sense of being able to get on with their lives - in this sense some people recover from cancer or tardive dyskinesia.''
Yeah i have always reacted very strongly and adverse to hard drugs, so i should have known this would have happened with SSRI too. But i was too stupid too realise these pills are just drugs taken everyday. Just thought hihi government gives them must be safe then!
no no no you have to hit yourself on the noggin with a frying pan. that'll scramble it.
scramble it up good.
but on a serious note i did a 10 day fast and it cured my lifelong depression so maybe do that. look up cole robinson snake diet
Just imagine all ur copes giving u zero pleasure anymore. but litteraly zero. Watching porn zero, watching movies zero, doing anything zero, you just won't last long, everyday becomes a day in the waiting room
Snap ik helemaal man, ik heb ook op het punt gezeten dat het allemaal niet lukte, toen heb ik gebeld met 113 en dat heeft me echt geholpen. Ik zou het igg aanraden, en als het niks is heb je het igg geprobeerd. Sws klote dat je zo voelt man, voel met je mee vanuit U
Already did both. I dedicated 2 years of my life everyday 24/7 to fixing this shit. Only got worse. I have now given up, I am done.
That sounds horrible. I'm that way with very low affect about most things the last 10y.porn still works thank God.
However, pleasure is a complex phenomenon and not just a few receptors switched on/off. You may find some stimulation in seeking knowledge or visiting the Amazon or exploiting people or helping treat animals. It seems you still have some drive to fix it so you can try progressively more extreme measures
My drive to fix it ended today after again a failed treatment. That's why i decided it's now over. Everyday is a week when u have zero copes. Just staring at the ceiling waiting to die.
I unironically feel you, user, I got screwed as well, took me like 7+ years to even feel slightly normal again, the long-term side-effects are real
Yeah its a crime. I lost everything. They litteraly killed me. What did ur psychs told you when u confronted them with this? Mine went into full denial mode. eventually i got one who knew this happened
John 14:6 kjv
>Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.
Don't do it user, take the Christpill and it will help you. You can get saved today, right now. Don't throw your life away in vain when you don't know what's in the other end. I think I have pssd too and it's rare and it sucks big time. Your life still has more value than you know and let Jesus Christ into your heart and see what happens. The shrinks and their fonie drugs won't help you but Jesus certainly can. Pray in Jesus' name and ask God for the gift of eternal life, as it is written in Revelations 22:17
>And the Spirit and the bride say, Come. And let him that heareth say, Come. And let him that is athirst come. And whosoever will, let him take the water of life freely.
Watch the video below and don't do it, I've been there too. I know how your mind is rationalizing it. Please don't throw it away user.
Neejoh. Ik kom ook uit U. Had daar mn studentenhuis, nu bij mn ouders door deze shit
TOo bad you quit cold turkey, fella. Jewpills are very, very strong drugs, never to be underestimated.
Allow me to suggest a few psychedelics to try before you die:
N,N-DMT
5-MeO-DMT
Salvia divinorum
Those drugs are just weird enough that perhaps, if you take a huge dose of one or more of them, they may help you find something other than suicide.
That said, I can imagine what you are going through. That's not something normal, not something 98% of people are ready to relate to.
Hey, btw what exactly were the meds? I recently helped a friend w/ benefits wean herself off of Lexapril, which is one of the fucked up ones. She was kinda being a dumbass quite a bit tho, and didn't really stick to the schedule. But she's off it now for a month. Hope her brain has gotten off of it with no consequences...
I did zoloft for 5 months, ended with a 75mg dosage. Quit them in like a week, worst idea ever but psychiatrist said this was ok.
Hey man ik heb een vriend die pleisters krijgt.
Waar woon je?
haha nooit. Woon in Zuilen, althans, mn studentenhuis. Zit nu in een naburig dorp bij mn ouders.
Echt waar, hij heeft zn rug gesloopt door zwaar werk en heeft nu chronische rugpijn.
Dat word dan wel een beetje lastiger haha.
haha hij wilt vast wel wat bijverdienen via mij
Ik zal het wel even voor je vragen.
Maar ik kan niks beloven. Maar ik weet eerlijk gezegd niet of ik wel medeverantwoordelijk wil zijn voor jouw zelfmoord...
Denk er goed over na man..Het zal niet altijd donker zijn.
You must have been very receptive to their effect to be castrated with that dose for such a small timespan.
If it's any consolation, 95% of psychiatrists prescribe SSRIs without giving it a second thought, so you'd have eventually got jewed either way
Jaaa.. Maat, ik zou dit tegen vrijwel iedereen met depressie zeggen. Maar dit is een chemische lobotomie, chronisch ook. maar ik snap dat je er niet zoveel mee te maken wilt hebben haha, ik blijf een vreemde op het internet.
O yes, i have always reacted extremely strong to drugs and their sides, but harddrugs i always recovered, not this shit SSRI
LOL
YOU'RE LITERALLY NOT SUPPOSED TO COLD TURKEY THAT'S LIKE THE OVER RULE
get fucked retard
>tfw pssd
>tfw self-cured by not giving a fuck
literally floating on a cloud these days desu
Just go infect child molesters etc
Yup, I know. thats what fucked me in hindsight. Psych told it was safe. when I complained after 2 weeks i felt like utter shit, she told me: ''can't be, after 2 weeks it's out of ur blood, this is psychosomatic.''
Have you considered dedicating your life to something? Like maybe stopping crime or something like that? Since you have nothing to lose in your eyes. Don't kys user...
again u need purpose feelings of YEAH I WILL DO THIS, to do something like this. All worh in everything is gone, u litteraly live the opposite of life with this. I am not going to fake it. My life was of quite high quality before this, so the difference is enormous.
I don't think you need to even feel it. It can be a logical thing. You see the need to stop a burglar, or something, and do it coldly and badass-ly.
You might also consider joining the police or military or something. It seems like they could use stone cold dudes like you
>23
>kill himself
C'mon you little faggot pussy... Man the fuck up, would you?
Cured now, thanks
You compare your life now with what you had before. You can't win this game. You need a complete shift in how you view happiness, the world etc.
I don't argue if you were fucked or not. But I think it's your depression and inability to cope with the new situation that's responsible for wanting to anhero.
There are people that get their dick chopped off in war and still consider life worth living.
Yes its not the dick not working i care about. Its the lobotomy, total personality loss and pleasureloss.
What if you started them again and taper the dose normally?
If you actually wanted to kys you would've done it you pussy.
Godspeed, dutchbro. I don't know your language but Ons vir jou
just out of curiosity, could you list the things you've tried to get yourself out of the gutter? also idk about these fentanyl plasters but i wish you good luck with the suicide, fuck these norms who don't get what's it like
Maybe you should just end it, chinese fent it kiddo. You were a mere instance of an atomic-vibrational-harmony in the universe, but may as well share your story before you go; share your "verse" in the universe, you know? Robin Williams famously asked us "What will your verse be?" in the 1980's american drama film Dead Poets Society directed by Peter Weir. So, user, what was *your* verse?
Not a bad idea honestly, OP. You could be alpha as fuck.
Best method is using the dark web marketplaces to buy something like that.
>no no no you have to hit yourself on the noggin with a frying pan. that'll scramble it.
kek
thanks for the laugh
OP, I WAS IN YOUR SITUATION
but i was on an antidepressant for 3 years. wasn't depressed. had chronic myalgia or whatever. doc put me on antidepressants.
>made me homicidal
>made me want to rape
>made me stick things up my ass
>made me lose my emotions except happiness
>made me lose my friends
one year of that was trying to get off these fucking pills. kept breaking the pills into smaller and smaller doses until i could operate without brain zaps and random depression episodes. (reminder that i WAS NOT DEPRESSED BEFORE)
the year after quitting was me trying to reconnect with my emotions, memories, and old friends. and when i was on antidepressants, i had no negative reaction to things i'd have reacted to negatively while sober. so i got FUCKED UP by new "friends" while i was on them. that shit didn't affect me until i quit because my serotonin levels wouldn't allow me to feel bad about what happened.
i ended up going to a psych ward after all this shit. my brain wasn't used to not having the pills. this shit was so traumatizing i spent a month in there.
nearly a year after that, still feel like i'm not right yet, but i have emotions again. i have my old friends back. i feel like my old self.
but i still want to die. sorry if that's not what you want to hear. i was fucked up by life before taking the pills but didn't want to kill myself. now i do.
i recovered but my life was stolen from me. plan to kill myself in a few years. try to recover if you can. maybe your life will be worth it.
wait I'm confused. isn't cold turkeying just ill advised because the withdrawal symptoms can be difficult and you might kill yourself? why would the symptoms last forever just because you tapered? i cold turkeyed my antidepressant after 4 years (took it for insomnia exclusively, then birth control ended up fixing my insomnia much more consistently) and although it was tough for 2 months the symptoms went away.
just because you didn't taper*